Thursday, February 04, 2010
Hello, it has been a bit since i blogged. Sorry i seem to have fallen asleep at the wheel. I read most of my friends blogs daily, so i'm here, I just run out of time for my own. Isn't that the way of life. We do for so many others and forget about us. Funny i was having this discussion with my daughter on the phone just last night. For so many years it was my children i went without for. Now here i sit with just me and my hubby for the first time in years, well all our married years as my children and i came as a package deal, and i 'm still not doing for me.
Yeah i eat right now and i exercise, but i have to tell ya, my clothes look like crap. when i head to church i look like i stepped out of the rag bag. I know i'm not being judged but i'm judging me. I know i need to get some new clothes that fit. But i'm so close to my goal and i want to wait. I do head to the goodwill on occasion but even that occasion hasn';t been in a bit. I'm working so hard on getting my husband and i out of this debt mess and back on some kinda track that clothes seem like a not needed neccessity at this time. Now mind you i'm not looking horrible, just feeling like that.
If you have ever been in a financial bind, like life, you know that somethings have to wait, for me new items right now have to wait. We are finally on a path of hope and i don't want to rock the boat so to speak. we work hard for what we have and lately that isn't much. my electric bill in these parts we have a coop, if any of you have that you know what i'm talking about. my light bill this month is 490.00. that is more important to me then say a new pair of jeans.
I do want all the know that life if just that, life. whether we work hard, slack, or motivate each other and ourselves somethings just happen. we have to move forward and not let little things get in our way. so today i'm moving forward. I'm going to be happy with myself, and the changes i have made in me. I'm going to exercise, eat right, and one of these wonder days i'm going to get a new outfit just for me. and when that day comes i'm going to smile and be thankful that i waited and didn't rush out and get just anything. afterall that is what spark is all about, being patient. good luck to all this new day. michelle.
Friday, January 29, 2010
"Great works are performed not by strength, but perseverance." -Dr. Samuel Johnson
I received this quote this morning and it spoke to me out loud. I had the moment yesterday, you know the one.....your going along normal, you've exercised, packed lunch, and a great snack and then it hits.....you want something. That something for me was chocolate. Now i don't usually do chocolate or sweets, not that i don't like them i would just rather have a cookie, cake, or pie kinda thing. anyhow, at work we all buy a bag of dove chocolates to share. I'm thinking i can have two and be done. well six or so later i'm hating myself. Ok hate is a strong word, i'm upset that i didn't stop at two. But i've been down this road before.
I go home, have my measured dinner and my popcorn snack. Guess what i'm back on track. I didn't let that moment get me. I had the dove chocolate (which i have to admitt was awesome), and i moved on. I have set a goal for myself this week of a half pound loss. I find if i set a goal and then try to reach it i do much better. I don't diet, i just live. Yes i measure, i count, and i write everything down, but i'm learning. And most of the time i master.
So the moment is passed, i'm back to sparking full time. and i'm happy with me. And the chocolate monster is gone. Sometimes it pays to give in to the cravings and just let it be. you can pick up where you left off and start again. Nothing in anyof this says to not enjoy food. It just says to do so with a bit of control.
Ok guys, lets give it heck today and everyday. after all we are in this for the long haul, not a moment, a meal or a day. we are here for our lives and this is a lifetime effort. we have to pledge to get healthy for us. Now i'm off to get a bit more sparking in before bootcamp and 30 minutes of cardio.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Winners Never Quit, and Quitters Never Win
- Vince Lombardi
Failure is success if we learn from it.
- Malcolm Forbes
Choose your goal and keep your eye on it. Never give up. Perhaps you will need to change your plan and approach you goal from a different direction, but don't quit. Keep thinking. Keep re-planning. Keep going.
Just had to post this. Speaks for us on spark and our new healthy lifestyles. god bless my friends.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Carpe Diem (Seize The Day)
Today is the first and last day of forever.
- Stephenie Meyer (Twilight Saga)
Life is now. There was never a time when your life was not now, nor will there ever be.
- Eckhart Tolle
My favorite saying is " today is the first day of the rest of my life". This is so true. we don't know what tomorrow may bring we have to grab on to this moment and live life to the fullest. I think with spark i'm finally getting that. I have learned so much through this site, from my friends, and about myself. Each day brings me one step closer to my goals and new possibilities.
I have always been the one to sit on the sidelines and wish to be somewhere else. Or worse wish to be someone else. Since i have taken this journey of renewal i have learned alot about myself. I love to get up and move, sitting still even on a none workout day isn't as option. Oh i like to think i can just sit back and watch but in the end i just have to move. I have learned i enjoy cooking new things, mixing, matching, and trying. But most of all i have enjoyed the time i spend on spark.
I have to be honest i was never a person to chat on line. Just didn't feel right to me. But now on spark i feel like i have friends i can share with and they are just a click away, i have blogs i can vent, type out loud, or just jot down a moment. I have come so far on this site both in weight and my own personal growth. I know that all the time spent here has been worth each moment.
So i'm going to seize this day and make it the best i can. I may not be blessed with tomrrows and i need to believe i have done all that i can to make this day the best it can be. god bless each of you reading this. we all need to seize the day once in a while.
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