Saturday, December 12, 2009
Here I sit ready to start my day. I have so much i want to do and probably won't get much done. I sit here thinking out my day and so far i'm still sparking. I just love this site. I enjoy earning points, get fitness points (makes you want to do it to see them add up), I enjoy the meal tracker. Sometimes I think of this as a game. But alas it is reality. When we look back at a weeks worth of meals, exercise, and such we see all that we have accomplished.
Yes i'm the worlds worst for getting down on me. But when I look back over the week i see that the day i ate a total of 1751 calories was just that one day. I have been exercising even though I should be getting outside, the cold keeps me in, i'm getting it on the stationary bike and my nordic trak. I'm looking around for a treadmill and i hope to have one soon. But with the holitdays it is not me i need to worry about just yet but my family.
when i say i'm not worrying about me that isn't what i mean. i worry about me all the time. i mean what i want is just that a want, not a need. i'm trying to be a bit better with wants and needs. you know in the bible it says "there shall be no other idol above me" and the lord meant it. so when i want, i put other "items" before him and i can't do that. if i need it it will be provided. This has been shown to me so many times. '
BUt I digress....tomorrow is weigh in day for me. i'm fairly confident and if i have a stall or a gain. oh well that is life. i will move on to the next week because i can. i have goals and with each step it brings me that much closer to them.
i want to wish all a wonderful day today. get out, get moving and just enjoy this saturday that the lord has given to us. afterall he did wake us up this morning and he didn't have to.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing--that's why we recommend it daily.
when i saw this quote from spark to spoke to me. my trouble sometimes is daily motivation. i will be on a roll with doing all i'm suppose to do for me and wham....it happens, i lose momentum and sometimes come to a skidding stop for a bit. i had a binge last night when i came home from work.
It was 9:30, i'm home from work and i need a "snack" before i head to bed so i can get up and head into work for the morning shift....the snack, healthy popcorn, isn't enough. i find i'm dreaming of some leftover boneless chicken with manicotti shells, i go and get it. I eat that. i now want something.....not sure what i really want just something. I head to the pantry...pretzels filled with pb is my snack of choice this time around. i eat a few....guess what i'm sick...sick and stuffed. then comes the why oh why do i do this to myself at least once a week.
well i'm up now, getting in some spark, getting my morning exercise, and i still am stuffed. for any of you who do this binge snacking like me you understand. it isn't that i'm really still full, but my stomach is saying yuck....and i'm thinking i won't do that again. but alas i lie to me because i know that i will.
so, now i will pick myself up off the floor, wipe off my a&& and get moving. this is not a pitty party, this is my life i'm playing with. so a kind word from myself to myself and i'm ready to begin again. and like the quote says i have to do this daily lest i forget.
thank you for letting my ramble. have a blessed and spark day.
Monday, December 07, 2009
my church challenged us to a fast till noon today. we could drink, but now eat. since i know i can't go without breakfast in order to lose weight and be healthy i made a smoothie. I actually made it. I survived till lunch at work. I know it can be done. and i felt wonderful for making it. That was a challenge i took and won. So thanks to the lord i will now move on and challenge myself on many fronts.
I got in 20 min. nordic trak and did 20 min. on my stationary bike this evening. i'm now ready to head to bed. I will survive this and my journey is plagued with pot holes but as long as i step over each one in turn I will make it to the finish line. My trophy for that is great health.
One step at a time is what is needed and one step at a time is what I will do.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
To live is to choose. But to choose well, you must know who you are and what you stand for, where you want to go and why you want to get there.
- Kofi Annan
This quote is so true to spark. We must choose our path, if we should just start out on our own we could end up anywhere. I myself choose spark. This site is awesome. I have learned so much and continue to learn daily. I have met so many wonderful people and friends.
Christine, Diane, Ramona fay, Teresa, you have been my building blocks this year. I want to thank Missy, Henry, and all my I can do all things through christ team members for always haveing a wonderful word to give. Beamish, you are awesome. You always pick me up when i'm down and lift me up with words of hope and your faith is unyielding.
I know there are many more out there that i could thank but this isn't the grammy's so i will quit. But really I look forward to each and everyone of your blogs, notes, comments. But most of all thank you for just being you.
I know what i want. I want to reach my goal weight in this next year. With my spark friends help and prayers I know we all can master some part of that. So i'm off to begin my new phase in my health. god bless you all...michelle.
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