Thursday, November 12, 2009
ok i'm back from vacation, which i may add was wonderful. i drove myself to clearwater, all alone. it was wonderful. first trip i have ever done on my own. another first for my improvements. i'm not afraid of going it alone. that statement is about my walk with health, and my walk in this world.
i have not been so good about the weight issues this past few days. in fact i feel huge. i haven't gotten on the scales yet. i'm a bit worried about that. weigh in is friday for me and i must say i'm not looking forward to it. i stayed the same last week, yet again, this week i see a gain in my future. but i'm ok with this. i'm ready, more than ready, to get back to basics and get on track. i have a goal to reach and i'm not getting there from here. i did learn while talking to my mom this last few days i'm not eating enough. i have been doing ww and i was so worried about the points that i stayed low. not good. i have been eating about five points less then i should be. that is about 250 calories in english and that is why the scales were going nowhere.
well now i'm ready. i hit the grocery store on my way home yesterday, i have fruit, veggies, and lean meats. i'm ready. so i will post as i go as that is another area i have been slacking in. i have to hold me accountable to me. and i haven't been doing that. i say i want to get there but i have to be willing to do what is needed to get there from here. so enough of this crap, i'm ready.
i did get in my exercise on my vacation. that was a plus. i needed it with all the crap i ate. i made bad choices and i will have to hold me accountable to me for that. so when i get up and get on the scales tomorrow i will just have to take a deep breath, and then step on and not cry, yell, jump up and down. i did this to me. and i have to fix me. so hopefully the next time i blog i will have good news about my journey.
till next time. keep sparking and don't give up the faith. in yourself that is, we all need to trust ourselves more.god first, us second. michelle.