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Thursday, November 12, 2009

emoticonok i'm back from vacation, which i may add was wonderful. i drove myself to clearwater, all alone. it was wonderful. first trip i have ever done on my own. another first for my improvements. i'm not afraid of going it alone. that statement is about my walk with health, and my walk in this world.

i have not been so good about the weight issues this past few days. in fact i feel huge. i haven't gotten on the scales yet. i'm a bit worried about that. weigh in is friday for me and i must say i'm not looking forward to it. i stayed the same last week, yet again, this week i see a gain in my future. but i'm ok with this. i'm ready, more than ready, to get back to basics and get on track. i have a goal to reach and i'm not getting there from here. i did learn while talking to my mom this last few days i'm not eating enough. i have been doing ww and i was so worried about the points that i stayed low. not good. i have been eating about five points less then i should be. that is about 250 calories in english and that is why the scales were going nowhere.

well now i'm ready. i hit the grocery store on my way home yesterday, i have fruit, veggies, and lean meats. i'm ready. so i will post as i go as that is another area i have been slacking in. i have to hold me accountable to me. and i haven't been doing that. i say i want to get there but i have to be willing to do what is needed to get there from here. so enough of this crap, i'm ready.

i did get in my exercise on my vacation. that was a plus. i needed it with all the crap i ate. i made bad choices and i will have to hold me accountable to me for that. so when i get up and get on the scales tomorrow i will just have to take a deep breath, and then step on and not cry, yell, jump up and down. i did this to me. and i have to fix me. so hopefully the next time i blog i will have good news about my journey.

till next time. keep sparking and don't give up the faith. in yourself that is, we all need to trust ourselves more.god first, us second. michelle. emoticon

  
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YATMAMA 11/12/2009 7:07PM

    Welcome home!! It's good to have you back home. I have missed you. It sounds like you had a good visit. I'm so proud of you for your independence and your confidence in that independence. Yay YOU! Letting your hair down to enjoy vacation isn't a bad thing. If you regained a pound or two, you'll get it back off in no time. The accountability of the trackers really holds my feet to the fire. I cannot do it without that measure of personal responsibility firmly in place. I applaud you for tackling that head on. Watch out fat! Here we come!!!

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BELTONWALKER67 11/12/2009 8:52AM

    Welcome Home! You will do fine. Sounds like you got the exercise in and on the way back to healthy eating. We all need a break now & then and you made lots of new memories with your family. Happy Sparking.

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MAXBALLARD 11/12/2009 8:14AM

    You're going to do great after this little break! I've found that weight I put on during a trip comes off super fast if I get back on track the minute I return home. So, I know you will too!
Drink lots of water today and enjoy those veggies.

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IUHRYTR 11/12/2009 7:57AM

    With your positive attitude you'll be back on track soon. Be well. -- Lou

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PVILLELADY 11/12/2009 7:20AM

    No worries... you had a GREAT time with your folks and that's what is important in the long run. Although you might not have eaten the way you planned (and it sounds like you need to eat MORE), you got in your exercise--that's the opposite of what most people do on vacation!! Now that you know you need to eat more, you might find yourself dropping the weight; remember, you have to EAT to lose weight.

I say you did a TERRIFIC job while you were gone! Don't beat yourself up over a number on the scale...

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BEAMISH7 11/12/2009 6:55AM

    Sounds to me like your head is in just the right place. Please feel no guilt for what is behind you. It is what it is. Rather, continue to look ahead. You are doing great and this was an awesome blog.

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SPECLLDY 11/12/2009 6:36AM

  Everyone needs a break from time to time. You may be pleasantly surprised when you get on the scale, and if you did gain a pound or two, you're getting back on track and it's time to move forward and recoup.


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is it worth the wait!!!!

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

well here i sit wondering is this really worth all the hoopla? i have been good, i get in my exercise minutes, i strength train and i get on those scale and either it sits still, or i lose maybe a half pound. what gives? i know the answers to these questions i will recieve....yes it is worth it, yes don't give in. i know the true outcome is determined by me. i have to give it my all and then some. i watch the biggest loser and i often wonder how they succeed. i know with help. we don't always have the help we need. i have support at home, but i get bored. no, i don't leave my exercise the same, i change up, no i don't eat the same foods, i like to try new things and i love veggies, ground turkey, and most healthy foods. snacking is really only when i'm bored and not everyday. so what gives? have i hit my plateau again....i mean darn this is a pain. i pray on it, i study, i write down my foods, i never give in or up. then i have the moment, you know the one, where your sitting there and you wonder if all this is worth the work. do i eat the donut if i want, do i have chocolate if i need it?

i plan, i shop with a list, i do all i can. i'm not ready to throw in the towel but i could use some input here. am i the only one who feels this way? i know i can't be but sometimes it feels it. i have gotten this far but sometimes i wonder will i have the stamina it takes to get to the finish line. as of right now i would have to say no, but in a minute i will change my mind.

well i will go for now. i have to finish getting ready for work. the world doesn't stop because i'm having a bad day. so to all i say good luck on your journeys whatever they may be. may we meet at the finish lines.

  
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TITUS2WMN 11/5/2009 10:39AM

    Hi Michelle,

I know exactly what you are talking about. I lose as slowly as you do. It has gotten me down more than once. Been there, gave up and ate the donut, wasn't worth it!! If I was not losing weight doing all I was doing, imagine what happened when I gave up!! UGH!! I plowed on the pounds pretty quickly.

This past spring I thought it all through and decided that I was going to do all that I do - the tracking of the food, the exercise, the water, etc., because I like how I feel when I do it and I want to be healthy. If I lost weight quickly - good. If not, oh well.

I've accepted that if I keep doing what I am doing, I'll get where I want to go eventually. My motivation behind all of my effort now is to be fit and healthy. Feeling the difference in my body when I take care of it is the payoff instead of the scale. Because of this, I don't get discouraged when I don't lose for weeks at a time anymore.

Toss out that stupid old scale!! Develop a love for what you are doing and how it makes you feel. Let that be your motivation for not picking up the evil donut!!

:o) Christine


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YATMAMA 11/4/2009 3:49PM

    I guess to answer your question, I need to know how you define worth. Is your goal to make wiser choices in life or to simply lose the pounds? For me, the second is the fruit of the first. I will eat in the healthy manner I've built into my life and move mnore for the rest of my days. The payoff, for me, is knowing I'm taking personal responsibility for my actions, and that empowers me so much,.

*huggggggggggggggggs*

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FURBALLDTH 11/4/2009 2:11PM

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We all have days like that so hang in there it will pass. Your doing everything right. Maybe you have more muscle. Muscle weighs more than fat.

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updates

Sunday, November 01, 2009

well it has been a bit since i bloged last. life has been so busy it seems. maybe busy isn't the word just full. my loss this week was a half pound. i thought it would be more but alas i was wrong again.

church is going. i went to my bible study and actually had a good time. i have to work today so i will miss church. but there is next time.

i'm leaving for vacation in a couple of days, i can't wait. going to florida to see me parents for a few days.

halloween came and went with not much damage to the waist or psyche. went to a haunted firehouse and we had a blast, screamed, got scared, you know the drill.

i guess that is it for now. have a great day. keep sparking guys.

  
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YATMAMA 11/2/2009 11:12PM

    Have a wonderful visit with your folks. Come home to us safely. I will miss you!!

*hugs*

Missy

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PVILLELADY 11/1/2009 9:28AM

    Michelle, you need to REJOICE in your half-pound loss! My friend, you lost weight, you didn't gain it!! Maybe it wasn't what you were hoping for, but it is a victory nevertheless...

I hope you have a wonderful visit with your family in Florida--wishing you a good trip and even better weather!

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BEAMISH7 11/1/2009 7:49AM

    Have a wonderful visit with your parents! Go with God.

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church question

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

emoticonsunday was a day i'm still praying on. i need some input. ok here i go.....my pastor pulled me and another lady in her office and told us (now i'm the secretary and treasurer) that we would have help counting the monies from the church service. now alone i would n't of thought nothing of this, but she then adds in that we have been talking to each other and she feels we should only come to her if we have problems. she doesn't want us to talk to anyone else, only her. so the gentlman she sent to watch over us in reality is babysitting us. i stood up and stepped down from my posts. my belief as i told her is i'm not gossiping, talking about other members or such, if someone is my friend i feel i should be able to talk with them if they would like. i didn't approach her, my friend, and we have a bit in common so i can see where she is coming from. now mind you this isn't church business. now if it was i could understand but this is personal. and when i suggested that maybe she didn't feel comfortable going to the pastor the pastor this said i wasn't submitting to the lord. now last i knew the lord gave me free will, a heart, sould and a mind. i don't feel that my pastor has a right to tell me whom i can associtate with and whom i can't. she is always saying how she is how i'm going to get to heaven, not just me but you see what i'm saying. i say i'm my way to heaven through jesus. yes she can lead in my teachings but how i get to heaven is up to me. i feel like this and i may be wrong here, but the lord knows my heart, even jesus has the apostles to help him along the way. if i can't reach out a hand to a friend then why am i here. i want to go to heaven when i leave this place but in the meantime the lord has given me a wonderful life to enjoy while i wait. i don't think he intented for us to just sit and wait on him. i was born agian in the water, washed in the blood of jesus christ. i didn't know i was heading into a communist church and i need some input. i'm i being disobediant to the lord. she is always on us about tythes also. if we don't give 10% every week, she checks and brings it up in church. is this right? i give what i can and i hope the lord is happy with that. i do give 10%, but it includes my time, my prayers, not to meantion church supplies, and donations of which we always do someting. please help me with this. my husband says he is behind me but i don't want to make a mistake and leave my chuch for the wrong reasons if i'm just being disobediant. she says if i can't submit then how can i call myself a christian. help please. mcihelle.

  
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AHEALTHIERJAN 10/27/2009 5:55PM

    Without knowing the background, I can't entirely comment. But scripture is clear that Christ is the way, the truth, and the life, not your pastor. If she thinks differently, then she is wrong. Yes, even pastors can be wrong.

There is much debate in pastoral circles over whether or not the pastor should know what folks are giving. But a pastor who says you cannot be saved because you don't tithe is focused on works righteousness and not saving grace.

While I don't know what is going on inside your pastor's heart and mind, it seems clear that you are not getting what you need at this church. If you try to work it out and find that your pastor isn't willing to listen to you, don't feel that you have failed if you find another, more accepting church.

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AHEALTHIERJAN 10/27/2009 5:55PM

    Without knowing the background, I can't entirely comment. But scripture is clear that Christ is the way, the truth, and the life, not your pastor. If she thinks differently, then she is wrong. Yes, even pastors can be wrong.

There is much debate in pastoral circles over whether or not the pastor should know what folks are giving. But a pastor who says you cannot be saved because you don't tithe is focused on works righteousness and not saving grace.

While I don't know what is going on inside your pastor's heart and mind, it seems clear that you are not getting what you need at this church. If you try to work it out and find that your pastor isn't willing to listen to you, don't feel that you have failed if you find another, more accepting church.

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AHEALTHIERJAN 10/27/2009 5:55PM

    Without knowing the background, I can't entirely comment. But scripture is clear that Christ is the way, the truth, and the life, not your pastor. If she thinks differently, then she is wrong. Yes, even pastors can be wrong.

There is much debate in pastoral circles over whether or not the pastor should know what folks are giving. But a pastor who says you cannot be saved because you don't tithe is focused on works righteousness and not saving grace.

While I don't know what is going on inside your pastor's heart and mind, it seems clear that you are not getting what you need at this church. If you try to work it out and find that your pastor isn't willing to listen to you, don't feel that you have failed if you find another, more accepting church.

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YATMAMA 10/27/2009 5:22PM

    Without knowing the background involved here, it's hard to comment, but I believe you must follow the leading of your heart. I would have red flags about any pastor who limited who the congregation spoke to, particularly if they were limiting church staff. I believe I'd be praying for the Lord to lead me to a new church home. I pray He does just that for you.

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BEAMISH7 10/27/2009 11:58AM

    It sounds to me like she is Biblical when it suits her purpose. The Bible tells us that when there is a problem that two have talked about face to face that then two people should then go talk to the person. You might want to connsider taking an elder with you to share your concerns. That said, however, churches are full of sinners - we are human after all. God puts sandpaper people (stole that from the rick warren) in our lives for a reason. Ask Him what it is He wants you to learn from this.

If this is not a true Bible believing church - where the pastor preaches and teaches scripture as the message and has small groups for both Bible study and fellowship, you might want to pray on finding one that is. It has made such a huge difference in my life. I don't want to overgeneralize, but often they are not affiliated with a mainstream denomination (my apologies to those of yours who are) and everything is Biblically supported. He is so awesome.

Pray and you will know what God wants for you and your family.

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HISGIRL5 10/27/2009 11:36AM

    Wow, I found your post very interesting to read and am praying for you to know God's path for you in this situation. My husband is a pastor and I can honestly tell you that he has NO IDEA who gives what to the church and he strongly feels that is the way it should be. This way, no one can think that he may or may not be preaching at them from the pulpit. I'm praying for you and that the Truth will help you make the right decision for you!

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GABBIE00 10/27/2009 8:42AM

    no your not wrong.you answer to god and god wants you to be there for friends.yes your suppose to give 10% but if you don't have it in money and your giving it in other ways.god isn't gonna condemn you for it.he love you for you not what the pastor says.Don't listen to the pastor,maybe she needs to listen to god and not herself.

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DEBBIELDS 10/27/2009 8:12AM

  The treasure and secretary should be counting the money and only them. It is not up to your pastor or leadership (elders, deacons) to know who gives what. Yes, you are suppose to tithe but what you give is between you and God, not you and your pastor. I assume your pastor is an elder since she is calling herself a pastor,that is what the word pastor means. If not, she shouldn't be calling herself that. I would have issues with that. Read the qualifications for an elder, and you will understand. 1 Timothy 3: 2-7. It sounds to me like you have heard the Word, believed, repented, was baptized by immersion and received the Holy Spirit; now you are living your life for God. You are God's child. That is what God has called us to do. He has called us to share the Word with others and help them to see what they must do to become a Christian. Read your Bible and let His Word speak to you. Check and see that the Word is matching to what your minister is telling you and others if not, talk to her and if things don't change then you need to find a church that does teach by the Bible and not man's creed. Hope this helps. Have a good day.

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weekly weigh in

Friday, October 23, 2009

emoticondrum roll please.......i stayed the same. sorry guys. i'm actually happy with this. this was my dreaded time of the month. i usually gain so i'll take this. it gives my a place to go down from next week. i had two good weeks of loss and i needed to have this i guess. my body knows best. i do believe it will take me longer to get where i really want to be but that is ok also. slow and steady wins the race. i want to wish all luck with thier weigh ins this week. we can do anything we put our minds to.

  
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TERESA6262 10/24/2009 9:21AM

    Funny, Michelle, the slower weight loss has been OK with me... I think it'll KEEP off. My lifestyle changge has been pretty complete... and though it's a slower pace... I believe there will longer lasting results!

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YATMAMA 10/23/2009 11:33PM

    Hallelujah for no gains!!!!

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BIGDAD1211 10/23/2009 11:22AM

    Great job! I say as long as you didn't go up, then you did good! Can't wait for the next weigh in!
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BEAMISH7 10/23/2009 11:13AM

    That IS a drum-rollable outcome. Staying the same means you didn't gain and you kept up your healthy choices. Good job.

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MISSYCRS 10/23/2009 9:39AM

    I just lost two pounds on my weigh ins

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