Tuesday, October 27, 2009
sunday was a day i'm still praying on. i need some input. ok here i go.....my pastor pulled me and another lady in her office and told us (now i'm the secretary and treasurer) that we would have help counting the monies from the church service. now alone i would n't of thought nothing of this, but she then adds in that we have been talking to each other and she feels we should only come to her if we have problems. she doesn't want us to talk to anyone else, only her. so the gentlman she sent to watch over us in reality is babysitting us. i stood up and stepped down from my posts. my belief as i told her is i'm not gossiping, talking about other members or such, if someone is my friend i feel i should be able to talk with them if they would like. i didn't approach her, my friend, and we have a bit in common so i can see where she is coming from. now mind you this isn't church business. now if it was i could understand but this is personal. and when i suggested that maybe she didn't feel comfortable going to the pastor the pastor this said i wasn't submitting to the lord. now last i knew the lord gave me free will, a heart, sould and a mind. i don't feel that my pastor has a right to tell me whom i can associtate with and whom i can't. she is always saying how she is how i'm going to get to heaven, not just me but you see what i'm saying. i say i'm my way to heaven through jesus. yes she can lead in my teachings but how i get to heaven is up to me. i feel like this and i may be wrong here, but the lord knows my heart, even jesus has the apostles to help him along the way. if i can't reach out a hand to a friend then why am i here. i want to go to heaven when i leave this place but in the meantime the lord has given me a wonderful life to enjoy while i wait. i don't think he intented for us to just sit and wait on him. i was born agian in the water, washed in the blood of jesus christ. i didn't know i was heading into a communist church and i need some input. i'm i being disobediant to the lord. she is always on us about tythes also. if we don't give 10% every week, she checks and brings it up in church. is this right? i give what i can and i hope the lord is happy with that. i do give 10%, but it includes my time, my prayers, not to meantion church supplies, and donations of which we always do someting. please help me with this. my husband says he is behind me but i don't want to make a mistake and leave my chuch for the wrong reasons if i'm just being disobediant. she says if i can't submit then how can i call myself a christian. help please. mcihelle.
Friday, October 23, 2009
drum roll please.......i stayed the same. sorry guys. i'm actually happy with this. this was my dreaded time of the month. i usually gain so i'll take this. it gives my a place to go down from next week. i had two good weeks of loss and i needed to have this i guess. my body knows best. i do believe it will take me longer to get where i really want to be but that is ok also. slow and steady wins the race. i want to wish all luck with thier weigh ins this week. we can do anything we put our minds to.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
as i was coming back from my long morning walk. (i alternate days..long one, short the next) i was looking at the beautiful scenery. one of these mornings i'm going to remember the camera so all can see what i'm talking about when i say i live in god's country. the sun was up, the trees are changing and the breeze was awesome. the fall flowers are in bloom and the colors are something to behold. but i had a moment of wonder. why would anyone doubt the lord. when you see a flower more beautiful growing on the side of the road then any in your tended bed, when the leaves turn at just the right time of year. smells, the sights. we have magnolia trees growning wild and they are a sight to behold in the spring. i have to stop and ask the age old question why is the sky blue and the grass green? we don't know, we may never know. but that is the glory of faith. i have faith. i often wonder why i don't just take the easy way out of any situration. i pray, i growl, i worry. and in the end it seems to work itself out. i have figured this out this morning while i was confercing with the lord, i walk on faith. i know that deep down all will be as it should and i have no way of changing any outcome.
i give this piece of insight because here on sp we walk on faith with ourselves daily. without it we wouldn't be where we are. we don't really know where we are going or how we are going to really get there. we have the general tools we need, but we really walk on faith. our own and the lords. i hope that i haven't offended any with my thoughts on the lord. he is my savior and my best friend. i can call on him when i'm up, down, or just somewhere in between. and may i say i do that sometimes more than i would like. i know he doesn't mind and when times are too much i ask for his help to carry me along. he is guiding my steps this day and i hope for many more. after all he saw fit to wake me up this morning.
so to all i say god bless. maybe what this world needs is a bit more prayer, faith, and love. with all that we have the recipe for a wonder life. so again i say walk on faith and you will see where it gets you in the end......i say very far. michelle.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
i reached a milestone this morning. 20000 spark points. now that is working at a goal and not giving up. i'm proud of this. i have dedicated myself to getting healthy and even though i haven't met my final goal as of yet. i'm well on my way. spark points to me are like pounds, inches, and such loss. when you gain spark points you are working towards a goal. your own health.....what could be better than that.
the next time you feel like you haven't done much, not getting anywhere, just look at your spark points. if they are adding up......your going down, in weight and unhealthy habits.
enjoy each part of this journey. there will be many, some not so grand and some just wonderful. but learn from each, move on from those that aren't right, live and learn as they say. you will find your groove and when you do.............watch out world here we come.
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