Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Here i sit, finised with dinner, feeling smug with myself. Ive been going strong now for a few days and i have not felt better about myself in a while. Man it is amazing how we can get so wrapped up in what is going on around us that we can't even take care of us.
work has been awful. I work in a pharmacy and with the flu it has been tough. Tempers are flying and not with just the patients but with the workers. People who where your friend yesterday no longer even want to say hello, let alone look at you or please help out. I went on vacation and have come home to the twilight zone. Today was much better than yesterday but still not good. For me that is added stress in my life i just don't have time or patience for. So i have prayed hard and i'm hoping tomorrow is a much better day.
My spark plan is on track. I was in this with a friend but she is slowly going by the way side and i'm left to my own devices. So far i've held my own. I'm up with my weight, just a bit but enough for me to step back, get a grip and start fresh. I really have come to far to let this slide. I have joined a challenge to lose 4 pounds a month and so far it is keeping my accountable to myself and the others on the same challenge. Thank you spark for having that available to me and all of us.
I'm going to close now as i have rambled on long enough. really i'm just tired and i'm going to read for a bit and get to sleep. trying to keep myself on a schedule for sleep and last night i couldn't stay asleep. i know it was from stress, but i have to not let that get in my way. i'm going to get there from here. I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other.