Wednesday, July 15, 2009
here it is wednesday and i just wanted to check in with all. i'm doing fine. i don't know if this is a loss or gain week yet but i have my fingers crossed for a loss. even a bit of one. i didn't do so good this weekend. not that i overdid meals, it was snacks. and i can't say they were all bad it was just that kinda day. you know the one where no matter what you eat it isn't quite enough and always tastes like more. i'm over that little hurdle now but i struggle daily when i'm off of work. boredom is my enemy. i try to keep busy but somehow that doesn't always work. sometimes i feel like my kids half way through the summer " i;m bored and don't have anything to do" even though we have lots of things to do they just don't seem so appealing alone. so till next time keep sparking guys. we are going to get there from here. michele.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
truly this was a day to rejoice. my son came to church for the first time in a very long time. many of you may know my son is a wayward child i call him. he was on the streets, drugs, drink, and jail a few times. i have prayed very hard a long for him. he has gotten a job he seems to enjoy, a new family, and today he showed up at our church. the joy that i felt in seeing him walk through the doors of our church. my heart was full. the lord was smiling down on this little family today.
now i don't hold to the notion that he is a changed man. if i did i would be blind. i'm a parent first a foremost and i have faith in the lord. i hope he is where he was meant to be today and that with daily prayer and workings he will continue to grow. i have that little devil in me thinking a bit of negativity as the last few years have taught me a great lesson on life. drug addicts are the best liars and the devil comes in many shapes and sizes. but i have hope, as a mother, that my son will return to me. he was a wonderful child, but his teen years, and friends, and choices did not do him justice.
i know this blog is for whatever ails us at the time. i'm thankful to you all for allowing me to get out my feelings as i need to. to vent, shout for joy, pray, and tell my secrets. thank you all for letting me be me. i will end this blog today with a much deserved hug for my friends, teams, and sp. any of you going through things need to remember you are not alone. we all have our trials and hurdles we have to jump over. sometimes they are small and sometimes they are very tall but one at a time we get over them. believe me some hurdles take a bit of planning and a lot of effort to get over but in the end we shall succeed in all we do. have a blessed day michelle.
Saturday, July 04, 2009
time has slipped away from me and i didn't even blog yesterday to let all know my loss....i lost .6lbs. not a whole lot in the scheme of things but enough for me this week. my week has been filled with problems and i really should of just said the heck with trying and just gave up. i didn't.
first let me tell ya about my last chance day...i took my dogs for a walk as usual and where we live they are doing some logging. a truck passes me on a dirt road daily at about the same time, me and my dogs, anyhow on this morning a truck hits my dog. not only hits her but throws her in the ditch in front of me. do you think he stops? heck no, just speeds up. the boss comes behind and he stops, but won't help me with the dog, who is bleeding , and in shock, he doesn't want to get bit and he doesn't have time for all this, i'm in tears, this is my baby. now mind you i'm pi***d off at this point. i let him know that i'm walking here every morning and they pass me every morning and so on. he gets in his truck and leaves me on the side of the road a half mile or more from home. now my dog is a hound something mix and very large. i'm 5'1" and now 138 lbs, i'm sure not going to carry her home. i'm stuck...my neighbors comes along on his four wheeler and gives me his cell phone i call my daughter and then i wait on the side of this dirt road with my bleeding dog and the others for my daughter. we get her in the car and get her to the vet. 253.00 later she is half a tail shorter(literally) and no broken bones. thank god...she is home now and not doing well. she is sore i'm sure and mopey. i'm hoping today i can get her out for a short walk to cheer her up. i prayed for these two drives that the lord would put something in their hearts. i'm still upset over this but what can i do. i have to go on as does she and them. they told me they had a job to do. well people i have a job to do for myself and my pets. it is my responsibility to keep them and me safe. i did my part. i'm walking on a quiet dirt road by my home, i shouldn't have to worry at home that i'm safe.
my church was robbed saturday, my lawn mower caught fire on wed, my dog got hit on thursday, my car battery went dead on friday. all i can say is thank god it is the weekend and i'm off. i really am ready to start this new week off right.
so sp i figure if i haven't over eaten by now, i'm not going to. lol. i have to smile or i would cry over this horrible week. but i keep putting one foot in frount of the other. that is all any of us can do. so remember this is a journey and i'm trying to take it slow and steady but sometimes i wonder if the finish line is too far away. michelle.
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