Saturday, July 04, 2009
time has slipped away from me and i didn't even blog yesterday to let all know my loss....i lost .6lbs. not a whole lot in the scheme of things but enough for me this week. my week has been filled with problems and i really should of just said the heck with trying and just gave up. i didn't.
first let me tell ya about my last chance day...i took my dogs for a walk as usual and where we live they are doing some logging. a truck passes me on a dirt road daily at about the same time, me and my dogs, anyhow on this morning a truck hits my dog. not only hits her but throws her in the ditch in front of me. do you think he stops? heck no, just speeds up. the boss comes behind and he stops, but won't help me with the dog, who is bleeding , and in shock, he doesn't want to get bit and he doesn't have time for all this, i'm in tears, this is my baby. now mind you i'm pi***d off at this point. i let him know that i'm walking here every morning and they pass me every morning and so on. he gets in his truck and leaves me on the side of the road a half mile or more from home. now my dog is a hound something mix and very large. i'm 5'1" and now 138 lbs, i'm sure not going to carry her home. i'm stuck...my neighbors comes along on his four wheeler and gives me his cell phone i call my daughter and then i wait on the side of this dirt road with my bleeding dog and the others for my daughter. we get her in the car and get her to the vet. 253.00 later she is half a tail shorter(literally) and no broken bones. thank god...she is home now and not doing well. she is sore i'm sure and mopey. i'm hoping today i can get her out for a short walk to cheer her up. i prayed for these two drives that the lord would put something in their hearts. i'm still upset over this but what can i do. i have to go on as does she and them. they told me they had a job to do. well people i have a job to do for myself and my pets. it is my responsibility to keep them and me safe. i did my part. i'm walking on a quiet dirt road by my home, i shouldn't have to worry at home that i'm safe.
my church was robbed saturday, my lawn mower caught fire on wed, my dog got hit on thursday, my car battery went dead on friday. all i can say is thank god it is the weekend and i'm off. i really am ready to start this new week off right.
so sp i figure if i haven't over eaten by now, i'm not going to. lol. i have to smile or i would cry over this horrible week. but i keep putting one foot in frount of the other. that is all any of us can do. so remember this is a journey and i'm trying to take it slow and steady but sometimes i wonder if the finish line is too far away. michelle.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
good morning all. today as i sit here ready to blog i notice how busy i've been. i haven't let anyone know how i did at weigh-in. though i know my feed did it for me. i lost 2 lbs for those who didn't or really didn't care to know. my week has been so busy i haven't had time for much. i've worked daily and haven't had a day off in 8 days. now i'm off and here i sit at 3:13 in the morning and i can't sleep.
i have so much to do today and i really need to rest. i have a eye appointment and then i'm off to the grocery store. oh what fun. but that is life. and i'm ready to embrace it for all it is worth. as i have been blessed for another day.
our church was robbed saturday morning early and they took everything. and when i say everything i mean right down to the spray scents in the restrooms. man some people have nerve. but in the end i guess the devil will do what the devil will do. we did recover the air conditioner but the amps and such are long gone. we will continue to pray for the lost souls who felt it neccasary to steal from the house of the lord. where oh where has things gone so wrong?
i have been getting my walks in early in the mornings now and i love it. it is quiet and peaceful, cool, and just gets my day off to a wonderful start. i haven't missed a day and i even find time to get my strength training in. i have come so far in this journey not only in weight but in heart that i can't wait for the next discovery. as i learn new things about myself and my world i embrace each new day with a sense i just didn't have before. i'm more sure of myself, more energetic, and just plain more happy. i'm a better person all around. if you don't think getting healthy will do anything for you, you are greatly mistaken.
as i have rambled on here i want to say thank-you for listening/reading my blog. i really had not one thing to type about but a few and i want to wish all a blessed day. michelle.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
wow i can't believe i haven't blogged since monday. i just noticed that when i sat down to do this one. well i have had a wonderful week. where last week i was being plagued with problems this week is the total opposite....all is good in my world right now. i'm so full and happy i can't almost stand myself...
i've started my walking in the mornings before i get ready for work as the weather here is horrible. it is about 99* daily with no rain. heat index is 110*. so walking during the day is out. i've come to enjoy my mornings on the road with just me and my pups and my thoughts. clears your head and gets you pumped for the day ahead.
my son finally got a job after a year, and that is no small feat for him. i love my son don't get me wrong, but he lost his way some time ago and getting back has been a long road for him. he still has a ways to go but he is much closer to the son i raised than the one from the streets. but that is a story for another time. most of it i would rather forget, but as with many things in life they are also lessons learned.
so i most say in closing that things are going well here in the alexander household. bills paid, food aplenty, gas in vehicles. things are looking up for us. now don't get me wrong, i struggle daily, we live on a very strict budget but i'm learning to see the good in all things and right now in this messed up world i'm happy to have the comforts of a home much less anything else.
so remember you will get there from here, and don't rush this journey. it is best taken one minute, day, and week at a time. learn and live. michelle.
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