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Saturday, July 04, 2009

emoticontime has slipped away from me and i didn't even blog yesterday to let all know my loss....i lost .6lbs. not a whole lot in the scheme of things but enough for me this week. my week has been filled with problems and i really should of just said the heck with trying and just gave up. i didn't.

first let me tell ya about my last chance day...i took my dogs for a walk as usual and where we live they are doing some logging. a truck passes me on a dirt road daily at about the same time, me and my dogs, anyhow on this morning a truck hits my dog. not only hits her but throws her in the ditch in front of me. do you think he stops? heck no, just speeds up. the boss comes behind and he stops, but won't help me with the dog, who is bleeding , and in shock, he doesn't want to get bit and he doesn't have time for all this, i'm in tears, this is my baby. now mind you i'm pi***d off at this point. i let him know that i'm walking here every morning and they pass me every morning and so on. he gets in his truck and leaves me on the side of the road a half mile or more from home. now my dog is a hound something mix and very large. i'm 5'1" and now 138 lbs, i'm sure not going to carry her home. i'm neighbors comes along on his four wheeler and gives me his cell phone i call my daughter and then i wait on the side of this dirt road with my bleeding dog and the others for my daughter. we get her in the car and get her to the vet. 253.00 later she is half a tail shorter(literally) and no broken bones. thank god...she is home now and not doing well. she is sore i'm sure and mopey. i'm hoping today i can get her out for a short walk to cheer her up. i prayed for these two drives that the lord would put something in their hearts. i'm still upset over this but what can i do. i have to go on as does she and them. they told me they had a job to do. well people i have a job to do for myself and my pets. it is my responsibility to keep them and me safe. i did my part. i'm walking on a quiet dirt road by my home, i shouldn't have to worry at home that i'm safe.

my church was robbed saturday, my lawn mower caught fire on wed, my dog got hit on thursday, my car battery went dead on friday. all i can say is thank god it is the weekend and i'm off. i really am ready to start this new week off right.

so sp i figure if i haven't over eaten by now, i'm not going to. lol. i have to smile or i would cry over this horrible week. but i keep putting one foot in frount of the other. that is all any of us can do. so remember this is a journey and i'm trying to take it slow and steady but sometimes i wonder if the finish line is too far away. michelle.

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AFLETCHER2010 7/4/2009 7:26PM

    WOW...what a week! I certainly understand as my babies are kitties and I would be MORTIFIED had something like that handled it like a pro and didn't turn to food for comfort...good job! I hope your weekend goes much better and brings you lots of smiles and happiness..:)

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EUROGAL 7/4/2009 9:28AM

    Your poor baby! I hope she is alright.

I can't believe how thoughtless and heartless these drivers were.

I hope you have a peaceful weekend.


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LAURAK1993 7/4/2009 9:11AM

    Sorry to hear that you had such a bad week, and hope that the rest of your weeks will be filled with joy, and excitement. Glad the dog is doing okay. I love animals.

Hope you have a great 4th.


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ALEXSGIRL1 7/4/2009 8:44AM

    michelle you had an awful awful week. i am sorry.i really hope those men come to their senses and pay you for your dogs bills and at least check up on the poor dog. i once hit a unleashed dog when i was 9 months pregnant, coming home from work in a snowstorm. the dog doubled back. the women left me in the house with her 4 children under 8 all crying that i had killed there dog. then she made me sit out in the snow with him and try to hold him down when she went to get the car and her kids ready. the dog ended up with a concussion and a broken hip.i ended up a wreck. i am glad i did the right thing though.i like how you remembered to put one foot in front of the other. now that you have gotten all the bad out of the way. there is only room for good. have a safe and happy 4th and i hope you and your dog will be allright. emoticon emoticon

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thursday-last chance day

Thursday, July 02, 2009

emoticonhi guys, here it is last chance day. the last day before my weigh in. man what a week. i've been so busy this week. to be honest i have enjoyed every minute of it. better to stay busy than to eat out of boredom. i'm a boredom eater so it works for me. but tomorrow will tell.

my walks have been wonderful. i get up a bit earlier and go in the mornings as the afternoons are just too much. the heat here is awful and it is so muggy it takes your breath away. so i stay close to home and air in the evenings now.

as some of you may remember me blogging that our church was robbed last week. well they caught the guy and it was a member of our church. go figure. some come for help and healing, others for profit. who knew. in reality it makes me sad to think this is what our world has come to. it is up to us to make it a better place for our children. where have we as a society gone wrong? that is the big question. anyhow i will continue to pray for this young man as he is in a bad place with himself right now and needs all the help we as christians can give. who are we to judge.

my son starts his job tonight. i'm saying prayers daily for him and hoping this is what he needs. my hope is for him to get his self together also. though he has been clean now for some time he is still working on himself and i stand behind him. i also worry for him as any mother would. i will be honest with all that listening and believing are two different things though. i listen to him sometimes and take it all with a grain of salt. addicts become wonderful liars and can pull the wool over anyones eyes. i love my son and underneath is a heart of gold and a wonderful young man. he is coming back to us one day at a time and it is like a rebirth for him and us. but trust is something that will take a bit of time for all involved.

sorry i strayed off the point of this blog. but i had to vent a few things and let myself know when i should read this later how great my days are going for now. and to not let anything or anyone stand in my way of happiness. my health is great. i had a eye appointment tuesday and she said the nicest and most wonderful thing to doctor said you are very healthy and you take great care of yourself i can tell by your eyes...i have to say thank you sp for showing me the way and thank you to me for doing all i can for myself on a daily basis.

now i have to end this blog. my walk is calling and my dogs just love this part of the day. so to all my spark friends. thank you for listening and letting my have a moment. sometimes clearing my head on here makes for a much less cluttered day, if you know what i mean. have a bless day all and remember to take this journey one minute, day, and week at a time. michelle.


tuesday-playing catchup

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

good morning all. today as i sit here ready to blog i notice how busy i've been. i haven't let anyone know how i did at weigh-in. though i know my feed did it for me. i lost 2 lbs for those who didn't or really didn't care to know. my week has been so busy i haven't had time for much. i've worked daily and haven't had a day off in 8 days. now i'm off and here i sit at 3:13 in the morning and i can't sleep.

i have so much to do today and i really need to rest. i have a eye appointment and then i'm off to the grocery store. oh what fun. but that is life. and i'm ready to embrace it for all it is worth. as i have been blessed for another day.

our church was robbed saturday morning early and they took everything. and when i say everything i mean right down to the spray scents in the restrooms. man some people have nerve. but in the end i guess the devil will do what the devil will do. we did recover the air conditioner but the amps and such are long gone. we will continue to pray for the lost souls who felt it neccasary to steal from the house of the lord. where oh where has things gone so wrong?

i have been getting my walks in early in the mornings now and i love it. it is quiet and peaceful, cool, and just gets my day off to a wonderful start. i haven't missed a day and i even find time to get my strength training in. i have come so far in this journey not only in weight but in heart that i can't wait for the next discovery. as i learn new things about myself and my world i embrace each new day with a sense i just didn't have before. i'm more sure of myself, more energetic, and just plain more happy. i'm a better person all around. if you don't think getting healthy will do anything for you, you are greatly mistaken.

as i have rambled on here i want to say thank-you for listening/reading my blog. i really had not one thing to type about but a few and i want to wish all a blessed day. michelle.


last chance day upon me...

Thursday, June 25, 2009

wow i can't believe i haven't blogged since monday. i just noticed that when i sat down to do this one. well i have had a wonderful week. where last week i was being plagued with problems this week is the total opposite....all is good in my world right now. i'm so full and happy i can't almost stand myself...

i've started my walking in the mornings before i get ready for work as the weather here is horrible. it is about 99* daily with no rain. heat index is 110*. so walking during the day is out. i've come to enjoy my mornings on the road with just me and my pups and my thoughts. clears your head and gets you pumped for the day ahead.

my son finally got a job after a year, and that is no small feat for him. i love my son don't get me wrong, but he lost his way some time ago and getting back has been a long road for him. he still has a ways to go but he is much closer to the son i raised than the one from the streets. but that is a story for another time. most of it i would rather forget, but as with many things in life they are also lessons learned.

so i most say in closing that things are going well here in the alexander household. bills paid, food aplenty, gas in vehicles. things are looking up for us. now don't get me wrong, i struggle daily, we live on a very strict budget but i'm learning to see the good in all things and right now in this messed up world i'm happy to have the comforts of a home much less anything else.

so remember you will get there from here, and don't rush this journey. it is best taken one minute, day, and week at a time. learn and live. michelle.

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EUROGAL 6/29/2009 10:51AM

    I am so glad to hear things are going well.

Great news about your son. Hope things continue on a nice even keel for you.


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TERESA6262 6/25/2009 9:19AM

    The son gone astray theme seems familiar with more than you Michelle! I'm glad things are good. Your perpective reminds of what Paul said, "In whatever state I'm in, I'll be content" I guess he knew that REAL happiness doesn't depend on your circumstances, but on bigger truths. I hope your weigh is a "good-un!"

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LAURAK1993 6/25/2009 9:09AM

    Glad to hear that everything is going well, especially with your son. I'm waiting for the day mine turns his life around for the better.

Hope you have a great weekend!


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PVILLELADY 6/25/2009 7:42AM

    Thanks for reminding me to count my blessings!


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monday....i survived the weekend...

Monday, June 22, 2009

i think i have got it now....i survived the weekend. stayed at points both days. now that doesn't happen often on weekends. i stuck with my plan and had a very nice time at a cookout yesterday. i guess it is just all in moderation.

i was baptized saturday evening and also my daughter. it was wonderful. for the first time in my life i feel a part of something bigger than even i could have imagined. thanks sp for giving me the courage to strive for more in my life. not only in weight loss but in all aspects. i just tell myself if i can do this i can do anything.

so on to monday. i have a long week ahead. i have to work this next weekend and that means no rest for me till next tuesday. oh well i can and will succeed. we do what must be done to survive in this world gone crazy.

so remember one minute, day, or week take it slow and steady. have a wonderful day all. michelle. emoticon

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BIZEEMOMTO3 6/22/2009 10:02AM

    Congratulations on your baptism!

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NAHNITA 6/22/2009 9:55AM

  Weekends are my challlenge too! I have 3 days weekends and they are always full of temptation.. During the week i do pretty well because I have scheduled breaks and we are not allowed to have food on the warehouse house floor... and the breaks are only 2 twenty minute ones... but nights and weekends... those are definitley my weak times!! emoticon

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