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Saturday, June 13, 2009

here i sit at 4:35 my time and play on this computer. can't sleep. i have so much weighing on my mind. i gained two pounds this week, money is very tight, and i'm wondering how am i going to just get the groceries i need for the week. i know in these times of troubles i'm not alone. sometimes the struggle seems so great that i want to just curl up. i don't. there isn't time for pitty, sadness, or just plain laziness. i will make it through this phase in my life as i have most everything. in the end i hope to be wiser and more in control of my situation but only time will tell.

as for the weight i can't begin to know what went wrong. i followed my plan, stuck with the water and foods. exercised, even above my norm. oh well i lost way too much last week i know for me so i'm going to get past this. this is a new week and i'm ready for a new challenge.

i will say a prayer to myself about the money situation. shoot not much we can do for that but pray. my husband and i have jobs, we just can't seem to make ends meet a lot of the time. my hubby has even taken to working on his days off with a friend for extra money to see us through. so for any outthere struggling as we do, your not alone. i feel like if i say anything about my situation i'm whining. and sometimes i think i don't have kids at home anymore and we can eat noodles with butter and cheese if need be, so why am i here? who can tell. maybe i've helped my kids more than i should, maybe i've spent a dollar more than i could have, it is hard to tell. life is like this from time to time and it will move on. i just have to be ready to move with it.

so i guess now that i have vented, i feel a bit better. life is a journey and i'm traveling on it's rocky roads right now. so soon i pray i hit smooth pavement. i will just take this journey one minute, and day at a time. afterall this is the first day of the rest of my life.

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EUROGAL 6/13/2009 7:24AM

    Your weight gain could be water weight (TOM?) Or muscles holding on to water. Don't fret you are doing great.

As for the financial woes...I have been there...big time. I just believed that we would be fine. I became more diligent about our spending. As for maybe being to generous with your children...well that's a loving investment and I believe whole heartily that when you give, you get back. Not always from the same source but the Angels are watching and they will be there when you need them the most.

I will send you lots of positive vibes and let me extend to you the kindness you extended to me...I am always an email away and if I am on line would love to chat.

Have a good weekend. emoticon

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thursday - last chance day!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

here i am at the day before weigh in again. i guess i don't feel so bad about it. i have had moments this past week. nothing to write about, just daily occurances that most of us have. since they weren't that bad i have to say this week i've done pretty good. what will be will be. shoot i spent about six weeks at the same weight range and now that i'm down i may spend another few weeks at this one. i'm working on toning at this point. yeah i want to lose some more, about 13 more. but i feel like i'm at at good place right now. i'm feeling better than i have in a long time, i walk alot. and i have started with the fast walk or power walk. now that can get your heart rate going. i just felt like i had bypassed the normal walking routine. so now at work i walk, but when i get home and take out the pups i powerwalk. man it feels great. i do this before dinner and i have found it actually does lower your hunger level. (i know that has been tried and tested i just didn't really believe it myself). this coming from someone who loves to eat. anyhow i have to be getting a move on. life is waiting for me to enjoy. till next time remember this is one minute, day, and week at a time.

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EUROGAL 6/11/2009 1:23PM

    You are so right. One minute, one day at a time.

I didn't know that walking before dinner time could help curb the appetite. I will try this since I have started a new goal to not eat anything after dinner.

Good luck with your weigh in tomorrow.


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monday- survived the weekend

Monday, June 08, 2009

what a wonderful weekend i had. i followed my plan for the most part, got in my exercise, and sunday was busy, had church then we went four wheeler riding down by the creek. man that sounds like a country and western song. but really it was a blast and so refreshing and just plain freeing. the wind in your hair. i needed to relax and what better way then by getting dirty.

i actually got two comments from some friends we rode with. what a wonderful feeling that was. i have to tell ya i was beginning to wonder if anyone was going to notice. but you know what i see everyone else daily and they don't see the weight loss. so it was really nice to have someone say hey you look great have you been losing weight. and yes guys i gave ww and sp the credit. because after all with out both of them i would ;n't be this far.

so now it is monday and i have to be getting back into the grind. work, work, work, till saturday. so till me meet again. take this journey one minute, day, and week at a time. afterall life is meant to be enjoyed not rushed. emoticon

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VMARQUIS08 6/8/2009 9:21AM

    Congrats on the weekend! Better than me lol...!Have a great week!

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friday june 5----weigh in day, plateau over!!!!

Friday, June 05, 2009

i finally did it. i got out of the 140's. i also finally hit my 15lbs mark...i'm so thrilled. i reallly can't say how it happened. i cheated, ok not cheated but enjoyed much ice cream one day, but i got back on the horse and i guess not doing that daily helped me stay on track. so i know i can have a treat, just not a box of treats. gotta remember that. not only did i lose 2.8lbs this week, i hit my 15 lb goal. so two things to celebrate. i can now worry about the next five pounds on my journey. i try to go five pounds at a time so as not to get to far ahead of myself. kinda makes it a bit easier to handle this way. though i stayed at this last five pound segment much much much longer than i wanted to. but now i'm off to the next race. i feel so good today i feel like i could fly. maybe i just wasn't eating enough. truth be told i upped my points this week, weight watchers, and maybe that helped to jump start my metabolism. i had to do something different because what i was doing just wasn't working for me. and a friend (cat) also told me her secret is to change her strength trained routine on a monthly basis. i was doing to same ole same ole. so with that said. i 'm off to start this new week with enough energy and enthusiasim for all of us. i just have to remember to take this one minute, day, and week at a time and the rest will fall into place. emoticon

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TERESA6262 6/8/2009 5:55AM

    WTG, Michelle! I know how GOOD it feels! You've worked hard! REVEL in it, baby!!!

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MRS.POOLE1 6/5/2009 9:45PM

    I'm so glad for you. I didn't get the chance to weigh in today because I have been on a cleaning spree. I will let you know in the morning. emoticon emoticon

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JENNTINYSAM 6/5/2009 9:33AM

  Congrats on getting out of the 140s I will be over the moon when I finally hit that weight again.


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thursday, june 4...last chance day.

Thursday, June 04, 2009

well here i am at the last chance day once again. as i look back on this week i wonder why i seem to not be able to get it right. i've done fine all week till yesterday. i could of maybe worked off the ice cream attack if it was say on saturday, but no i have to have it on wednesday and now i know what is going to happen. when i say attack i mean attack. i had three, count them three ice cream bars. one just wasn't enough, it tasted like more. i don't get myself. i say i want to lose this weight, but then i have moments like these and i have to wonder do i really want to do better or is that just hype?

i have lost almost 14 pounds and yet i sabbatage myself weekly to get the remainder off. i have to wonder if i really want it bad enough to fight for it or am i just telling myself that. i say i want it, i get upset when i don't get it, but then i go and do what is needed to wreck a great week in progress. i had finally gotten in my exercise, i have been staying under points for days, i'm on weight watchers, then i go and do this. ok i've beat myself up about it. i've told the sp community all about it. and there is no where to go but up from here. shoot i'm already down. so i'm picking myself up, dusting off my a** and getting a move on. so what this week may be dud i have next week, the next, and many more after that to get this right.

i vow this week to use my food scales for something more than a dust collector, i vow to use my nordic trak and that great exercise room i have, and i vow to stick to plan. i can and will do this. one minute, day, and week at a time. enough is enough. i'm the only one standing in my way and i need to push past my weakness and get to my strengths. have a blessed day all. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TERESA6262 6/4/2009 12:22PM

    You're not weak EVERYDAY, Michelle. You're eating less than you would have if you were not doing WW or SP. Quit beating yourself up! Three ice cream bars are not going to make you gain a whole lot of weight unless you're doing it night after night after night. Have you perused some of the stage three strategies on SP? there are a lot of tips/articles that can help. It's funny, for me, sometimes a cheat keep me sane because I "scratch the itch" and then I am fine... and other times a single cheat gets me bingeing like crazy! Track your binges and see if they're related to your TOM. Hang tough, Sis!


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