Monday, May 04, 2009
well i survived the weekend. did better actually than i had anticipated. weekends are hard for me for some reason. i think it has to do with my schedule being off. i stuck to my meal plan and got in some exercise. today i will continue this and see where it takes me this week. maybe this is the week to end the stalemate i'm on. if i give up now i will never know. i'm staying away from the scales this week and doing my darndest to weigh in on friday only. i just get upset when i do it in the middle of my week. oh well it is rainy here this morning but i'm determined if it isn't too bad at lunch to get in my walk. we shall see. i'm off to get in some strength training and a little bike. have a blessed day all.
Friday, May 01, 2009
man what a bummer. not only am i still on this plateau i've been on but now i'm up 2.4lbs. i just can't seem to beat this crap. oh well i'm angry, but i'm not out of the race just yet. i will just take stock and move on. today is the first day of the rest of my life. i've tried upping my exercise, eating less, more and inbetween. it just isn't working. so this week i go back to basics. try spark streaks for a while, water, fruit, veggies, and just go from there. i'm healthier, stronger, and my depression in check, so what i'm doing is working for myself, just not the scales. i'm bound and determined not to let this get me. i've come so far and i still have a ways to go. so one minute, day, and week at a time is still my motto. i'm going to get there from here. where as of yet i'm not sure, but i'm on my way.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
well here i am back to another thursday. weigh in day use to be so exciting but with this plateau it is like, oh yeah oh yeah another weigh in day. maybe this is the week. naw, i don't see it. ihave upped my exercise this week, of course i did last week also. and i haven't been that great with my diet. after my heart to heart with myself i was, but we all know the damage was done at that point. oh well such is life. i'm ready to move on, lets just hope my body is also. till the next time i blog, good luck to all.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
today was a wonderful day. i was off of work and i went and purchased a much needed new pair of tennis shoes. i'm so proud. this evening i walked with my walking buddies(my dogs) and we did one hour. man they were beat. ok maybe i was a bit tired. the most i usually do is half hour but today i felt like i could conqer the world. i had a moment today when i had a chat with myself. you see i've been on this plateau for a while now and i was honestly thinking what the heck i'm not going to loose this anyways and i hit the chips. lets just say they are no more. but after that moment i felt really bad. bad for myself and all that i had accomplished. i've come so far. yeah maybe i haven't lost all that i had wanted to at this point, and maybe i have a bit farther to go, but heck i'm down almost 14 pounds, i have lost many inches, i'm in a size 6. i know guys i should be ecstatic. but i guess i'm just at a point in this journey where i had to do some major soul searching and ask myself what i wanted from all this. did i want to go back? heck no!. so i picked myself up, dusted off my arse, and i'm back in the game. who knows maybe i'll be here at this weight for a bit, it really isn't so bad and when i do drop a few more pounds and get to my goal, i will have earned every muscle, and lost inch along the way. i mean really, i'm in a size six. it has been years since i've been there. and i look pretty good for a forty something woman and grandma. people are starting to notice a change in me and they have commented on my leg muscles a lot lately. it is good old fashioned walking and strength training. so i'm back and ready for what the next few months will bring. tomorrow is a new day. so i plan on getting there from here somehow.
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