Wednesday, April 29, 2009
today was a wonderful day. i was off of work and i went and purchased a much needed new pair of tennis shoes. i'm so proud. this evening i walked with my walking buddies(my dogs) and we did one hour. man they were beat. ok maybe i was a bit tired. the most i usually do is half hour but today i felt like i could conqer the world. i had a moment today when i had a chat with myself. you see i've been on this plateau for a while now and i was honestly thinking what the heck i'm not going to loose this anyways and i hit the chips. lets just say they are no more. but after that moment i felt really bad. bad for myself and all that i had accomplished. i've come so far. yeah maybe i haven't lost all that i had wanted to at this point, and maybe i have a bit farther to go, but heck i'm down almost 14 pounds, i have lost many inches, i'm in a size 6. i know guys i should be ecstatic. but i guess i'm just at a point in this journey where i had to do some major soul searching and ask myself what i wanted from all this. did i want to go back? heck no!. so i picked myself up, dusted off my arse, and i'm back in the game. who knows maybe i'll be here at this weight for a bit, it really isn't so bad and when i do drop a few more pounds and get to my goal, i will have earned every muscle, and lost inch along the way. i mean really, i'm in a size six. it has been years since i've been there. and i look pretty good for a forty something woman and grandma. people are starting to notice a change in me and they have commented on my leg muscles a lot lately. it is good old fashioned walking and strength training. so i'm back and ready for what the next few months will bring. tomorrow is a new day. so i plan on getting there from here somehow.