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The universe is telling me something

Monday, October 28, 2013

Take perfection and throw it out the window. There's always something you can make better or do differently — strive to IMPROVE, not attain the impossible.


Remember you will not always win.
Some days, the most resourceful individual will taste defeat.
But there is, in this case, always tomorrow -
after you have done your best to achieve success today.
- Maxwell Maltz

Funny yesterday I was so upset with myself and my journey. This morning as i'm checking my email's all this comes at me. It was like someone upstairs was saying "don't give up on you" So i'm not going to. I will find my happy place in this journey. It may not be today or this week but I will succeed at this one day. I only can take this one step, meal, day at a time. It is up to me whether I succeed or fail.

I think i'm going to do just that.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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DARLENEK04 10/28/2013 7:42PM

  Good for you Michelle, you are a winner for sure...

DarleneK

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KENDRACARROLL 10/28/2013 6:55PM

    Nice change in attitude!
If you eat right and you exercise right, and you know you do, then the scale will budge eventually. Keep going, girl, and keep the faith.

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NELLJONES 10/28/2013 8:21AM

    Progress not Perfection. One Day At A Time. All those little sayings sound so trite, but they are true.

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FEMISLIM 10/28/2013 8:20AM

    Great, keep going strong!!!

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SLIMPAM23 10/28/2013 8:08AM

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Keep the attitude positive. It may not help you lose weight - but it'll make you feel better!!

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VKKESU 10/28/2013 7:52AM

    And that is what it takes to get where you want to be !! The people who win are the ones who were able to pick themselves up time and time again.

As long as we all take those steps to improve we can not be disappointed. Keep going with this attitude and you'll be surprised how much better the world is !


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HAPPYMENOW58 10/28/2013 7:21AM

    Very well said! I was feeling the same way today...So reading your blog really helped..Thank you.....Perfection is just an illusion.......I need to keep chanting this! Hope you have a super day today.....Stay strong. Happy Sparking. emoticon emoticon

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 10/28/2013 7:21AM

    How many times have we heard, ''Persistence's not Perfection." We both know everyday is not going to be a great one. As my friend Sally would say, ''those dust bunnies get in the way." Celebrate the good days and just work on those that are not so good. We are so worth it.
Big Hugs,
Joan

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The scales are not my FRIEND

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Instead of thinking of your body as the enemy, think of it as your best friend.

— Denise

Easier said most days than others. Today I feel like it is the enemy. Though I know I did great this week and moved more, I don't want to hear it is muscle. I have so far to go and as of yet i'm not getting anywhere with this weight loss thing. Call it what you will healthy lifestyle, diet, stress....it all adds up to the same thing in my world right now. Work and work and see no loss just gains and more gains. I try, lord knows I do, I eat right and I've bought the Spark activity counter. I even have walked two days at lunch this week along with the normal routine. Did it help??? Can't prove it by me by the scales. I know I'm not suppose to only use the scales so I measure each month also. The numbers changed here and there but ultimately the total stayed the same. So what does that mean? Means the fat just shifted. Nothing exciting about that. So hum what will I do about this? Work harder, eat less, scream? Mostly cry because hell I already can't fit into my clothes, so what is one more downer.

emoticon I'm sorry I don't want to bring any of you down. I'm just feeling at a loss right now and don't really know what to do about it. I could keep going, or I could quit. Really those are the options. So now I need to take time and decide what it is I want out of this journey. Because to be honest i'm not finding it and i'm just getting more and more upset with my body. I already don't like myself much and here it is just fighting me every step of the way.



I guess this is my answer. I have to not give up on myself.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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DONNELDA22 10/31/2013 8:34AM

    The Scale is not my friend also so I sympathize with you. Better days ahead. emoticon

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TUPPERWARE1 10/28/2013 8:40AM

    Keep at it.I have been at it a long time and ready to scream myself.I live with two full time pizza eaters.lol.Keeping the food diary/tracker is the key for me.Look at salt intake.
Have a goal write it down. emoticon

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CAKAROO 10/28/2013 6:19AM

    don't give up!! You can succeed!

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ARW715 10/27/2013 10:33PM

    One day on the scales does not weigh all the benefits you are getting for leading a healthier life. You can do this. The only option is to ignore the setback and go on.

(((HUGS))) Hope you have a better tomorrow.

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Day 4: moving forward

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Aim to do three things that you're proud of each day, and congratulate yourself on each small victory. You can do it!

— Denise

With the new spark start page I can do just this and keep track. But this morning as I was getting to do my blog I couldn't find the spot to get to the blogs. Took me a moment but after much searching it was right there in my face. Kinda like reaching your goals. The answer to all that you seek is right there in front of your eyes.

I've had three great days. I've stayed in my calorie range and that is awesome. I've eaten my freggies and got in my waters. Wow what changes. But you know what? I just plain feel better even after just three days. I guess the old saying "you are what you eat" is true. If you eat junk you feel like junk. If you eat wonderful and clean you feel wonderful and clean. Hum must remember this for the long haul. Why so excited about three days you may wonder? Because for me just getting over the first day was a tough. I couldn't seem to get my mind and my body on the same page. I was craving everything in sight and my sugar was bottoming out all the time. So I ate. But you know what? While eating better my sugar has stayed calm, my cravings are almost over with, (they just whisper now instead of scream at me) and i'm sleeping better also. Hey maybe there is something to healthy living after all. lol.



I for one am not giving up. I've even been getting in my walks again during my lunch. 15 minutes may not seem like a lot but when you take that time out of sitting and doing nothing it amounts to AWESOME.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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CAKAROO 10/25/2013 6:18AM

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KOFFEENUT 10/23/2013 12:57PM

    I think it is AWESOME that you're celebrating 3 days! It's all of our choices that add up to attaining our goal of a healthy lifestyle. Too many people only celebrate actual weight loss. I figure any day I make good choices is a day to celebrate!
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KENDRACARROLL 10/23/2013 12:54PM

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My lunch walks are only 10 minutes long, but as you say, every little bit helps.
Keep up the good work!!

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Day one= Success

Monday, October 21, 2013



I have been riding this roller coaster now for some time. I have started and stopped more times than I can count. But as of Saturday night with tears in my eyes as I tried on yet another pair of jeans that didn't fit to go out with friends, I decided that I was tired of being tired and overweight. I have allowed myself to keep gaining, wear stretch pants, and just be uncomfortable within myself, long enough. If there is to be change it much come from me. I can't keep hiding behind the sweats and big t-shirts. It is time to take back my life.

Yesterday I got up and from that moment on I was working on change. I had a good breakfast, all accounted for on Spark, even paid 3.99 to have it on my phone so I can keep up with my foods and such. Headed into town for a few healthy things, stuck to my list and came home and prepped my veggies for salads and such this week. Even cooked cabbage in advance so I can have that. Something new and different. Then I had a healthy lunch, no snacks....it was wonderful. I did have some popcorn later and then dinner, cabbage....I was full and that was that. No snacking at night. I finished the day under my range.

Nope no exercise yesterday, I have worked out so much this past week and burned over 2000 calories that I took a day off. But my activity tracker is ready and waiting for today. I plan on a walk at lunch.

Ok, time to go. I have to get ready for work. My first day back after a week off. Ready? Actually I am. I don't do well just sitting around.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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CAKAROO 10/22/2013 6:00AM

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 10/21/2013 11:49PM

    Awesome Michelle!! So very proud of you!!!
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KENDRACARROLL 10/21/2013 1:13PM

    My first day back at work today after a 2 week vacation. It's tough... :)
Wishing you a great start to your week.

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ARW715 10/21/2013 8:43AM

    Yes!

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GRACIEGOES 10/21/2013 7:30AM

    So glad you had an awesome Day One. Hang in there!

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JAROL7 10/21/2013 7:12AM

    You can do it this time. Deciding is 90% of the battle. Measure, calculate the calories and write EVERYTHING down on your log. When you skip, you slip. I'm on day #74.

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JULIA_211 10/21/2013 7:09AM

    Good for you for planning ahead! emoticon emoticon

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IGIVEALL2YAH 10/21/2013 7:05AM

    You go girl!! Im here to support you!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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It's past time

Sunday, October 20, 2013

SparkPeople's Coach Nicole says:
You are more than a number. Don't let the scale decide how you feel about yourself.

Life is a challenge. Realize that and work, every day, to rise up and meet it.

— Denise

Today was emoticon day. Yup I was emoticon a bit. But not a lot. So i'm happy about that. I was home this week on a vacation and I have to be honest I ate. I walked and walked...thank goodness or it would of been worse.....but I eat when i'm bored. So I ate my weight in food this week. But what did I take away from this week besides a few extra ounces?

I don't like being overweight, I don't like being lazy, I don't like being uncomfortable. So what am I going to do to change that???? well i'm going to begin with a plan for the week. I have a list going for meals this week, I will also do my best to give up mindless munching and start eating my three meals daily. I will continue with my exercise and using my Spark activity tracker. That does push me to move more and right now I need all the pushing I can get.

I have a plan, I have the motivation, I just need to put it all into action. Because we all know actions speak louder than words.

Truth: Last night we went to the Haunted Fire house, we do this each year and it has become tradition, although I hate to get dressed up to head out because nothing fits right, looks right, feels right, I do it because....well....it is tradition, this year I had to go through three pairs of pants before I found a pair of jeans that still fit....they were the stretchy kind so they hardly count as jeans.....three pairs. Well you know the tears were right there behind my eyes.....but truth: I did this to me. Nobody forced me to stop exercising and nobody held food to my face. So after that I knew it was time for a change.......a real change.

So here's to my "moment" in the closet...it opened my eyes to the real ME hiding behind sweats.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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KENDRACARROLL 10/20/2013 7:54PM

    3 meals a day works for me.
You can do it!

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SHERYLDS 10/20/2013 5:54PM

    “It’s in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.” ~Anthony Robbins

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NELLJONES 10/20/2013 8:02AM

    I, too, am a three meals a day, no snacking, person. When the boredom hits (and it's always out of the blue) I pull out my planner and see what my next meal will be and start anticipating it. By the time I can start cooking I am so ready! Both the preparation and eating are complete joy! Anticipation is part of gratification.

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SUZIPAM1 10/20/2013 7:14AM

    you going to be so good

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TRYINGHARD54 10/20/2013 7:02AM

    yes you can do it...... :-)

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