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Day one= Success

Monday, October 21, 2013



I have been riding this roller coaster now for some time. I have started and stopped more times than I can count. But as of Saturday night with tears in my eyes as I tried on yet another pair of jeans that didn't fit to go out with friends, I decided that I was tired of being tired and overweight. I have allowed myself to keep gaining, wear stretch pants, and just be uncomfortable within myself, long enough. If there is to be change it much come from me. I can't keep hiding behind the sweats and big t-shirts. It is time to take back my life.

Yesterday I got up and from that moment on I was working on change. I had a good breakfast, all accounted for on Spark, even paid 3.99 to have it on my phone so I can keep up with my foods and such. Headed into town for a few healthy things, stuck to my list and came home and prepped my veggies for salads and such this week. Even cooked cabbage in advance so I can have that. Something new and different. Then I had a healthy lunch, no snacks....it was wonderful. I did have some popcorn later and then dinner, cabbage....I was full and that was that. No snacking at night. I finished the day under my range.

Nope no exercise yesterday, I have worked out so much this past week and burned over 2000 calories that I took a day off. But my activity tracker is ready and waiting for today. I plan on a walk at lunch.

Ok, time to go. I have to get ready for work. My first day back after a week off. Ready? Actually I am. I don't do well just sitting around.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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CAKAROO 10/22/2013 6:00AM

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 10/21/2013 11:49PM

    Awesome Michelle!! So very proud of you!!!
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KRICKET4 10/21/2013 1:13PM

    My first day back at work today after a 2 week vacation. It's tough... :)
Wishing you a great start to your week.

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ARW715 10/21/2013 8:43AM

    Yes!

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GRACIEGOES 10/21/2013 7:30AM

    So glad you had an awesome Day One. Hang in there!

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JAROL7 10/21/2013 7:12AM

    You can do it this time. Deciding is 90% of the battle. Measure, calculate the calories and write EVERYTHING down on your log. When you skip, you slip. I'm on day #74.

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JULIA_211 10/21/2013 7:09AM

    Good for you for planning ahead! emoticon emoticon

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IGIVEALL2YAH 10/21/2013 7:05AM

    You go girl!! Im here to support you!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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It's past time

Sunday, October 20, 2013

SparkPeople's Coach Nicole says:
You are more than a number. Don't let the scale decide how you feel about yourself.

Life is a challenge. Realize that and work, every day, to rise up and meet it.

— Denise

Today was emoticon day. Yup I was emoticon a bit. But not a lot. So i'm happy about that. I was home this week on a vacation and I have to be honest I ate. I walked and walked...thank goodness or it would of been worse.....but I eat when i'm bored. So I ate my weight in food this week. But what did I take away from this week besides a few extra ounces?

I don't like being overweight, I don't like being lazy, I don't like being uncomfortable. So what am I going to do to change that???? well i'm going to begin with a plan for the week. I have a list going for meals this week, I will also do my best to give up mindless munching and start eating my three meals daily. I will continue with my exercise and using my Spark activity tracker. That does push me to move more and right now I need all the pushing I can get.

I have a plan, I have the motivation, I just need to put it all into action. Because we all know actions speak louder than words.

Truth: Last night we went to the Haunted Fire house, we do this each year and it has become tradition, although I hate to get dressed up to head out because nothing fits right, looks right, feels right, I do it because....well....it is tradition, this year I had to go through three pairs of pants before I found a pair of jeans that still fit....they were the stretchy kind so they hardly count as jeans.....three pairs. Well you know the tears were right there behind my eyes.....but truth: I did this to me. Nobody forced me to stop exercising and nobody held food to my face. So after that I knew it was time for a change.......a real change.

So here's to my "moment" in the closet...it opened my eyes to the real ME hiding behind sweats.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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KRICKET4 10/20/2013 7:54PM

    3 meals a day works for me.
You can do it!

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SHERYLDS 10/20/2013 5:54PM

    “It’s in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.” ~Anthony Robbins

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CAKAROO 10/20/2013 4:40PM

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NELLJONES 10/20/2013 8:02AM

    I, too, am a three meals a day, no snacking, person. When the boredom hits (and it's always out of the blue) I pull out my planner and see what my next meal will be and start anticipating it. By the time I can start cooking I am so ready! Both the preparation and eating are complete joy! Anticipation is part of gratification.

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SUZIPAM1 10/20/2013 7:14AM

    you going to be so good

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GHOSTFLAMES 10/20/2013 7:13AM

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TRYINGHARD54 10/20/2013 7:02AM

    yes you can do it...... :-)

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I think I got this.

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Because I know I have to get up and move I have done just that this week. This report is just one day....I got in 16 miles so far and I still have today.

Sport: Walking
Distance: 4.53 mi
Duration: 01 hours 22 minutes 19 seconds
At: 18.10.13 07:22

Am I tooting my own horn? Yes and no. I did get up each morning and head out for a 4+ mile walk but I also was home from work and had all the time in the world to eat what I shouldn't of. But to that end I've also had a good couple of days with that part also. I'm taking this journey one small step at a time. I did the almost close to goal and gain it all back thing now I want to make it to goal and stay there. So i'm off this morning to get in another walk. Hey what the heck this is my "last chance day" so to speak before weigh in so I have to be ready to step on those scales.



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KRICKET4 10/19/2013 6:12PM

    I always do much better when I'm off work :)
Stress at work makes me want to eat...
Good job, Michelle. Keep it up!!!
I know you've got this.

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SHERYLDS 10/19/2013 12:07PM

    “Decide what you want,
decide what you are willing to exchange for it.
Establish your priorities and go to work.” ~H. L. Hunt

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CAKAROO 10/19/2013 9:28AM

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DARJR50 10/19/2013 7:52AM

  good job!!!

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SQUIRRELMOMMA1 10/19/2013 7:50AM

    Walking is a great way to start getting in shape. I've been doing it for months now and I still love it. You can listen to tunes or an audiobook or just look around at the scenery. Each time you go out it will be different. Have a great day!
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On track

Friday, October 18, 2013

Well good morning. As I've been wrestling with the snack demon in my head this week...PMS, Staycation, boredom.....I have also been getting in those activity minutes....

Sport: Walking
Distance: 4.76 mi
Duration: 01 hours 26 minutes 56 seconds
At: 17.10.13 07:16

Thank goodness for the activity. It will be what saves me from myself this week on the scales. A loss? Probably not but with the help of my exercise miles this week I may not have blew this week totally. I've gotten up each day and walked just like yesterday. So far four days in a row. I even managed 14000 steps on my spark tracker yesterday. Now that is movement. Two days now of having my eating undercontrol. Or should I say my snacking. Because meal wise i'm good. I have found that I have a tendency to snack mindlessly when bored. So working on that situation also.

I have become my own worst obstacle. So taking steps to fix that. I deserve to be healthy and happy. Not one or the other. So today begins another happy healthy day on Spark.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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NELLJONES 10/18/2013 8:17AM

    This is why I don't snack. Believe it or not, for me it's easier to eliminate snacking altogether than to try to control it. Boredom does me in, too. Best to plan and look forward to the next meal. If I spend 3 hours making a dinner, even though it only takes 10 minutes to consume, it feels like I have been eating it for 3 hours and 10 minutes.

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WEARINGTHIN 10/18/2013 7:41AM

    Congratulations for the exercise minutes. I find myself being in ever increasing awe at people who can follow their own program. WAY TO GO!! Glenn

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Addiction

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

This morning I was thinking about a blog to write. I mean it has mostly all been covered here. But alas I came upon a emoticon quote:

Success depends more on how much you eat than what you eat. Moderation is the key to success.

There it was my blog/confession so to speak. I have been on vacation this week. Not a away vacation but a staycation. Oh I've gotten much done so far in two days, the house is spic and span, I've purged areas that needed it, I washed my car, mowed the yard. But in between all of that I found time to binge. I say binge because really there was no rhyme or reason for any of it. I mean if it was there I ate some of it. Oh nope it wasn't really what I wanted so I ate more and more. I have gone to bed sick at my stomach and heart two nights now. Why? At what point does getting myself back on track in my mind make my body want and crave crap? That is what it is....an addiction to crap. Yes i'm an addict. I can tell ya I know just how an addict feels when the drug is what the body craves and a little is too much and a whole lot is never enough. It seems like my mind is always thinking of the next bit of junk I can eat. What can I have now?

Let me be honest I went to the store and I bought healthy foods. So what i'm eating isn't all that bad but the fact is i'm eating it till i'm sick. I'm searching for something and I can honestly say i'm not finding it. Now as I sit here this morning over my coffee i'm ready to begin again. I mean I've got some spark in my system, I've read a blog or two, I've read a couple of articles, I've spun the wheel, i'm ready to try again today. But.....and there is always a but.....can I be stronger than the addiction?

I so want to overcome this one little obstacle. Little who am I kidding this thing is huge. I've never thought of myself as having a food addiction, I was a thin teen, and didn't get big till my pregnancy for my daughter some 27 years ago. Since then I've kept the weight, lost the weight, put the weight back on. I've thought about food, eaten food, cooked, fixed, thrown out, and eaten more food. It is time to take this one step at a time. Time to get my mind back to health. Oh i'm aware the detox is not going to be pretty. I may not go through the shakes, and such as an addict....or I might. Who knows. But I can tell ya this..... emoticon One day at a time.

Today I take on my fears. I mean I must be afraid of something to keep heading for the stuff that could take me down in the end right?



Michelle. emoticon

  
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ACROFIT 10/16/2013 4:14PM

  Yep, right there with ya girl! I sooo get it. hang in there!

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ARW715 10/16/2013 9:15AM

    Right there with you.

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BUSYGRANNY5 10/16/2013 8:14AM

    So appreciate your honesty! Great quotes, too! Keep on keeping on... you CAN do this!!!

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ANASONIC 10/16/2013 7:43AM

    emoticon and so can I! I do think we always give our best to others and fall so short when it comes to giving our best to ourselves. Hope your day is productive and a healthy one for you.

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