Monday, September 09, 2013
Successful people always keep moving. They may make mistakes, but they never quit!
I will be the first one to tell you that I've failed. I'm not happy with my progress, or maybe I kick the scales, and swear this is it. But in reality I never quit trying. I may have bad days (like a string of them) but I always pick me up and put one foot in front of the other and try and try again. Why have I not met my goal weight then? Maybe i'm trying too hard. Can you? try too hard at something. Get your mind so wrapped up in what your doing, not doing, how your doing it, that you are just failing on principle? I think that is me. I'm wanting this, i'm doing this, but i'm not perfect, i'm a mess right now, I can't seem to get a hold or a grip on what it is I really am searching for. But I keep moving and hope what ever it is will find me.
Does this make sense? Sometimes I don't know if i'm making any sense at all. Sometimes I so want to see the end that I forget about the journey itself. The little happenings that at one time made me smile just a bit....like the clothes being a little lose, or eating exactly what I brought for lunch and not adding anything else, or going to bed with a smile for a day well done, or that walk in the morning. Now I see it all like work. At some point the joy went out of me and the work began. I know I know this is suppose to be work, but at some point shouldn't we enjoy the journey just a bit?
I don't mean to say I don't enjoy the workouts or the healthy foods at all. I love it. I truly enjoy the feeling I get after a good workout. But in all the planning, the weighing, the measuring and the eating, some of the joy is gone. There is always the thought in the back of my mind....should I have this, could I have something else? I want to stop the madness and just live. I don't mean to live the old life I mean to stop and enjoy the life I have now. Just have days where it all falls into place and I feel good about myself. Where I see the me looking back at me in the mirror and I say "hey beautiful" Instead of "oh my".
Well no time like the present....So "hey beautiful Michelle, lets get this party started"