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I got this (ok today)

Monday, September 23, 2013

SparkPeople's Coach Tanya says:
Start right where you are. Move forward at your own pace.

I'm doing just that. I have three great days under my belt. Wow planning and cooking seems to be my key. I will be honest I was getting lazy. I was eating whatever and not cooking. Three days since my "one shot" and im taking it day by day. I'm not looking ahead just doing what is needed for today.

Got in a walk yesterday:

Sport: Walking
Distance: 3.13 mi
Duration: 01 hours 04 minutes 27 seconds

Ate on plan and even had dinner.....soft taco...on wheat soft shell and only had one. Yup I did it. I ate my one and cleaned up and that was that. No mindless munching after or anything. I guess when you really want something bad enough You do what is needed to see it through. Wow a week ago I would of just dreamed this could be me. But today and a light bulb moment later it is me. Who'd a thunk it.

Oh well. I'm off to begin my day four....plans? Naw just to follow the steps to success.


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KENDRACARROLL 9/23/2013 6:10PM

    Awesome, Michelle!!

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NELLJONES 9/23/2013 7:51AM

    Starting every day with Today is a great way to think. After all, what other day do you have to live today?

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 9/23/2013 7:33AM

    emoticon emoticon AND you can make today another GREAT day.

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Taking my "one shot"

Saturday, September 21, 2013

SparkGuy says:
You get one shot at life. Grab it and take control of your destiny starting today!

Funny I was just going through the motions and not very good I might add. Weight loss is not for wimps that is for sure. I mean it is tough to change your way of life. It is tough to get in that exercise time, weigh, measure, count, and track. Heck it is a challenge it itself to just get that done let alone shop better, cook better, make better choices. But that is what I've done. I choose to do this for me and ME is the only one that can take me where I so want to be. So I have this one life to get it done. You don't get do overs if you don't succeed. So yesterday I had the emoticon moment. I don't know how it happened or why but as I sat here with my spark friends it happened. I just grabbed my journal and decided that today was the day.

This just so happens to be what I was doing all along. I was eating the same foods and expecting different results.

Well yesterday I had my emoticon and it was awesome. I had a few moments when I had to reason with myself but in the end I did it. I concurred my habits of long ago. Now does this mean I've made it? NOPE but it means i'm a bit stronger today than I was yesterday morning when I began. It also means i'm stronger than what I once believed. So with this say I must get on with my "one shot" at health.

Today is a new fresh day filled with lots of hope and many promises to me. So I need to get a jump on.


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KENDRACARROLL 9/22/2013 11:52AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 9/22/2013 3:18AM

    I am so very proud of you.

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DARLENEK04 9/21/2013 10:55AM

  Wow....what a change in thinking can do for us....I have been in rebellion
this last few days, down in the dumps and just feeling like what the heck,
I am tired of eating "right" and wanted to be "bad", so last night we went
and had Dairy Queen, yes, I had a Banana Split, enjoyed every bite, and
today, I am back on the track to health.

I used to laugh because if I had ice cream Junior would turn up his nose,
and give me one of those "don't expect me to eat any of that" looks...a cat
that doesn't like ice cream? well, he was all about comfort, and cold was

Lets git'er'done Michelle.....great blog and I am glad your lightbulb moment
hit when it did..I know you can do this, and now MORE importantly, YOU
know it......

Hugs girl,

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TIMOTHYNOHE 9/21/2013 10:42AM

    Somewhere along the line for me it became less of a challenge and more of a game. I was competing against my earlier self. I almost said older self, but that would imply that I am younger now than I was earlier. And in a way I am. Anyway, the competition became a game for me. It was fun. And along with playing a game, I had to practice and train so that I could become better.

It became actually fun.

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Losing steam

Sunday, September 15, 2013

The road to success has many tempting parking places and rest stops. Just keep going!

When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."
- Anonymous

As some of you know I've been on a roller coaster ride with this journey. I have had thoughts of just throwing up my hands and yelling "UNCLE" just because some weeks I can't take anymore. My weight is the same, has been the same, and I really don't know what else to do. Now I know that some say maybe your where you are meant to be....The point is weight is the same it has been for over a year now....154.4. I go down one up one, i'm riding a see saw and don't want to anymore.

Now before you ask yes I exercise....yesterday I walked 3.2 miles mile holding a small dog with a limp because she couldn't walk the whole way, while another dog is on a leash pulling us to and yes i'm moving. I work out every morning before work either on the bike, the elliptical, or the treadmill, and I walk on my off and late days.

Food? I stay within my calorie range daily...I even finished this week 400 calories under my budget for the week. So the question is menopause? I'm in it and I guess it is holding me back. Or I guess I need to revamp it all. I just don't know anymore what to do. I do know that I just want to give up and say the hell with this because it doesn't seem to be working anyways. But in the back of my mind I can't. I won't give up on myself. So I will proceed from here and see what can be tweaked and what is ok.

I just don't know anymore. I do know this....i'm losing the energy to continue on.


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KENDRACARROLL 9/16/2013 3:56PM

    Michelle, I'm sorry you're so discouraged.
Do consider the suggestion about going gluten free.
I did a month long experiment a little while ago, which involved not eating bread/wheat/gluten.
My findings: I lost all cravings (big plus!!!) and also dropped some pounds.
It's definitely time to change it up.
Give it some thought.
Don't give up!! (Your SparkFriends will haunt you!! :))

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DARLENEK04 9/15/2013 3:44PM

  Oh my goodness are on a plateau....

Have you thought about trying one week on my gluten free plan????
Might shock your system into a losing spin.....

You never know....I would never have thought I had a gluten sensitivity
but I have lost 80 pounds on this......

Hugs and don't give it up,

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 9/15/2013 11:19AM

    Hang in there....your stronger than the menopause emoticon

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NELLJONES 9/15/2013 8:54AM

    Menopause is a bear, but it does pass. Tick tock tick tock.

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SHERYLDS 9/15/2013 8:50AM

    even with menopause you can lose
try severely cutting back on your starches and sugar
and do more strength training.
eat more veggies instead,
try it for 2 weeks and see if the scale responds

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CAKAROO 9/15/2013 8:36AM

    don't give up!! you can succeed!!

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MOTTAMAMALOU 9/15/2013 7:48AM

    I wish I could help but I don't have any answers except emoticon

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Birthday goals

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Begin with good intentions and action and you'll end with satisfaction!

Today is my 47th Birthday. emoticon Yup I had really set my goal to reach my weightloss goal by today. well that didn't happen. Nope not even close. Why? Because I allowed my inner voice to by overruled by my head. So what is in store for next year? this time success.

Spark sent me this beautiful card this morning:

what a awesome way to begin the day.


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NELLJONES 9/10/2013 7:42AM

    Happy Birthday you young'un!!!

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At what point?

Monday, September 09, 2013

Successful people always keep moving. They may make mistakes, but they never quit!

I will be the first one to tell you that I've failed. I'm not happy with my progress, or maybe I kick the scales, and swear this is it. But in reality I never quit trying. I may have bad days (like a string of them) but I always pick me up and put one foot in front of the other and try and try again. Why have I not met my goal weight then? Maybe i'm trying too hard. Can you? try too hard at something. Get your mind so wrapped up in what your doing, not doing, how your doing it, that you are just failing on principle? I think that is me. I'm wanting this, i'm doing this, but i'm not perfect, i'm a mess right now, I can't seem to get a hold or a grip on what it is I really am searching for. But I keep moving and hope what ever it is will find me.

Does this make sense? Sometimes I don't know if i'm making any sense at all. Sometimes I so want to see the end that I forget about the journey itself. The little happenings that at one time made me smile just a the clothes being a little lose, or eating exactly what I brought for lunch and not adding anything else, or going to bed with a smile for a day well done, or that walk in the morning. Now I see it all like work. At some point the joy went out of me and the work began. I know I know this is suppose to be work, but at some point shouldn't we enjoy the journey just a bit?

I don't mean to say I don't enjoy the workouts or the healthy foods at all. I love it. I truly enjoy the feeling I get after a good workout. But in all the planning, the weighing, the measuring and the eating, some of the joy is gone. There is always the thought in the back of my mind....should I have this, could I have something else? I want to stop the madness and just live. I don't mean to live the old life I mean to stop and enjoy the life I have now. Just have days where it all falls into place and I feel good about myself. Where I see the me looking back at me in the mirror and I say "hey beautiful" Instead of "oh my".

Well no time like the present....So "hey beautiful Michelle, lets get this party started"


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FISHINGLADY66 9/9/2013 8:29PM

    "You are so beautiful". That's a song from way back when. Your doing great, your concerned, your dedicated, your determined, you will win the journey. emoticon

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Hmmm...what is the saying, can't see the forest for the trees?. Sometimes I think that is us. We get so wrapped up in what we are doing right, or worried about what to do, what not to do, that we make ourselves miserable in the process. At this point, we very well know what we are supposed to do and how to do it. I'm not saying we should be lax about follow through, but sometimes I do think we need to get our head out of the details and just BE. Just DO. Not worry so much. I get to the point where I worry so much about how I got here, and worry so much over how much work it's going to take to get OUT of here, that I never even start. I just talk it to death.
My dear, you ARE doing this. Each and every day you are successful. Okay, you might not be successful in ALL aspects every single day, but perfectionism is a myth. It cannot be achieved because there will always be some little detail that we think we can do "better" there is always something to improve. Don't worry about the numbers, find your JOY. That is what makes it all worthwhile anyway. Breathe deeply of the beauty that surrounds you on those morning walks, experience the feeling of energy you have when you exercise, or when you eat healthy foods, and live in that joy. Make the joy your priority and I believe the rest will follow.
Each night I will concentrate on what went right during the day. I'll make a list of the little victories. Something I can look at in black and white to show myself that the work is not in vain. Sure, some things might not have gone as I planned, but what went right? I have to switch my focus from what I didn't do, to what I did. I'm looking for the joy, and the rest, I just don't have room for.
Have a great day, Michelle, I'm rooting for you!

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