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What?????

Saturday, September 07, 2013

I'm sitting here this morning feeling a bit overwhelmed. I have been doing my best, ok maybe not great but good, to lose this twenty pounds. Now truth be told it could be more but I feel like if I can just get this off i'll be on my way and I can decide at that point what to do. Ok so anyways, I haven't moved. The scales have been stuck for like forever. I have been doing what I thought was right for me. So maybe it isn't. I don't know what to do at this point. Do I take a spark break and relax about it? Do I keep up the spark even though each week is just a crying fest over the damn scales? I mean it isn't like i'm not doing anything to reach my goals. I walk each weekend about seven or eight miles, I hop on my bike and elliptical during my work days. What gives? I drink the darn water, I eat right ( for the most part), again I ask what gives? I'm beginning to not like me much and that is never a good thing. Because the truth is I don't like me much on a good week. So what is a girl to do?

I am asking these questions not because I want help, but I need to ask myself what gives? !! Maybe i'm not really putting my all into this but each time I restart really isn't a restart. I've been doing this for so long now that habit is what it is now. Five years and what I still can't get to goal. I see people doing it here all the time. So what is wrong with me? Why can't I. Yeah i'm going through menopause but hell so are a lot of people. I just don't know anymore and the hating myself is just getting to be too much to bare some days.

Paul the SparkPeople programmer says:
Don't tell yourself that it's OK to do something wrong and make up for it later. Doing it right now will put you in the lead instead of catching up.

This was this mornings quote of the day. Omen? Sign from above? Who knows.

I wish I really felt this way today.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/8/2013 1:30PM

    Michelle, all I can say is to remember that what you are, WHO you are, has nothing to do with the scale. It has nothing to do with twenty pounds and weight loss goals. Michelle is not someone to be hated. Michelle is kind, giving, hard working, and loves her family. Michelle, is strong, able and does her best to take care of herself and those she loves. Michelle should be celebrated for the wonderful woman she is. So, start celebrating her!! :)
I know the going is rough. Oh, some days it feels like the storm is just that perpetual dark cloud that won't go away, following you around, but that storm is only part of the story. That storm is NOT going to last no matter what it feels like.
This isn't something you are GOING to do,this is something you are ALREADY doing. Hold your head up, girl, you are doing great!

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FISHINGLADY66 9/7/2013 2:55PM

    WW says to change things up. Change your exercise program. Change WHAT you eat. Eat entirely different foods than what you always eat. Sometimes we just get in a rut. Turn your life around. Go the other way. Take a new route. emoticon Michelle. Our bodies get into set points and no matter what we do, our bodies don't respond. I know you can do it. Have faith in yourself. Walk around the block backwards, so to speak. NEVER GIVE UP. PLEASE. You are so worth it. ((Hugs)) Big bear hugs to you.

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CAKAROO 9/7/2013 8:32AM

    Dont give up! You can do it!

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CBLENS 9/7/2013 6:43AM

    SO you are having a down day today, you need to respark! read some inspirational stories to help motivate you. I'm have been sitting at the same weight for months, I have told myself, well at least I know how to maintain. I know I have to really be honest about tracking my food. my exercise is great. You can do it, just think about how excited you were when you first started this journey & how it felt each time you lost. Best to you!

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111BUTTERFLY111 9/7/2013 6:39AM

    You wrote, "I am asking these questions not because I want help, but I need to ask myself what gives?" so I won't say the thoughts going through my head but wish you the wisdom you need.
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Believe you can

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

If you believe in yourself, you can reach your dreams. The sky's the limit!



Funny sometimes the only thing standing in our way is ourselves. Sometimes I feel like i'm just riding a Merry-Go-Round and I can't get off. You know what i'm talking about....the weeks when you work so hard and step on the scales and yup they haven't moved. You just knew this was going to be the week that turned it all around. So you put your foot down, not literally, and you give it another week, yup you lose almost nothing. So what are you to do?

Believe you can and don't give up. I personally know it is hard to believe when you have tried and failed so many times but at some point the carousel will have to stop, the music will end and you will be left with just YOU. So be proud of each step you take and never look back over what could of been. You can't change the past but you sure can put a whole new look on the future.

  
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FISHINGLADY66 9/3/2013 8:16PM

    You are so right Michelle. And you inspire me with your blogs. Thanks.

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BERTAS_JOURNEY 9/3/2013 11:25AM

    Love this!! Thanks for posting, it totally made my day. emoticon

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111BUTTERFLY111 9/3/2013 11:04AM

    I believe I can!! And, I am!! emoticon

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RIDLEYRIDER 9/3/2013 8:03AM

  Well said, thank you!

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Progress?

Monday, September 02, 2013

You don't make progress by standing on the sidelines,
whimpering and complaining.
You make progress by implementing ideas.
- Shirley Chisholm

Progress? Sometimes I wonder if i'm making any at all. But when you get up and walk three miles first thing on a Sunday morning that is progress. Or eating a healthy breakfast before work, that is progress.....going out to eat with friends to Firehouse subs and getting the ham and turkey, no chips, and a diet drink....Progress!!!

Each day that you do something for yourself is progress on this journey. Nope the dang scales may not move a bit but you have to know that the progress your making on your body is there. Sometimes we can't see the changes but we know they are happening. You just have to believe in yourself and what your doing. I can say this because for so long I've been down on myself for the changes that haven't come. I do what is expected but the changes don't happen. Well the truth is the progress is happening i'm just overlooking the little things for wanting the huge impacts. So as of this moment i'm smiling through the tears because i'm doing it. I'm eating better, i'm exercising and i'm taking care of me. So that in itself is a bit change for the better. The scales will come over to my way of thinking in good time.



Michelle.

  
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WRITINGRUNNER 9/2/2013 8:35AM

    A great blog, thank you


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EVIE4NOW 9/2/2013 8:22AM

  Perfection is like the word "normal". What is perfect or normal to one is far off for another.

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111BUTTERFLY111 9/2/2013 8:05AM

    When the scale isn't moving for me, I bump it up in one area or another and then she cooperates. Wishing you a GREAT week ahead!

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DARJR50 9/2/2013 7:51AM

  Like the quote

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NELLJONES 9/2/2013 7:44AM

    I'm not sure I know what "Perfection" is. Whatever works is Good Enough.

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September: Time to change with the seasons

Sunday, September 01, 2013

Ok, new month, time to shed some old and bring in some new. Lifestyle that is. Ready to continue with my "restart" and ready to see some changes.

I've been walking this road with two wonderful ladies. Litterally we get together and walk, share our success and our failures, push each other along. They can walk beside me but I have to either do what is needed or I don't succeed. Truth is they have each done wonderful, I have slacked on my efforts and it shows. But I've been given a new day to get this right. New month, new goals, new plans.



Michelle.

  
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CAKAROO 9/1/2013 4:03PM

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FISHINGLADY66 9/1/2013 8:56AM

    So true Michelle. I'm looking forward to the new month too. emoticon

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111BUTTERFLY111 9/1/2013 8:13AM

    Wishing you a wonderful new month of taking great care of yourself!

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SFREY217 9/1/2013 8:07AM

    Sounds like you've got a plan. Good luck I your journey. Having friends to help makes it so much easier.

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Destiny vs scales

Saturday, August 31, 2013

The best way to predict your future is to create it. Make it happen!

Today's affirmation:
Standing in the inspiring vision of my future,
I boldly take every step - large and small -
with courage and intent.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

Don't allow those pesky scales to control your DESTINY. There are so many other areas involved in this journey. I for one have allowed the scales to become such an important part of my journey that I have cried, kicked, yelled, and about given up over those darn plastic things. But not this time. I will not allow what could be water destroy my week or my goals.


Nope it won't. So just keep going and know that the changes your making in your day to day will at one point come to light. Patience in all things. Yeah the waiting can be tough but the rewards?



The rewards are awesome.

Michelle.

  
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FISHINGLADY66 8/31/2013 8:53PM

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111BUTTERFLY111 8/31/2013 11:45AM

    My scale has been cooperating ... but, I've been cooperating too ... it's a two way street emoticon

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CAKAROO 8/31/2013 10:00AM

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ELRIDDICK 8/31/2013 5:45AM

  Thanks for sharing

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