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At what point?

Monday, September 09, 2013

Successful people always keep moving. They may make mistakes, but they never quit!


I will be the first one to tell you that I've failed. I'm not happy with my progress, or maybe I kick the scales, and swear this is it. But in reality I never quit trying. I may have bad days (like a string of them) but I always pick me up and put one foot in front of the other and try and try again. Why have I not met my goal weight then? Maybe i'm trying too hard. Can you? try too hard at something. Get your mind so wrapped up in what your doing, not doing, how your doing it, that you are just failing on principle? I think that is me. I'm wanting this, i'm doing this, but i'm not perfect, i'm a mess right now, I can't seem to get a hold or a grip on what it is I really am searching for. But I keep moving and hope what ever it is will find me.

Does this make sense? Sometimes I don't know if i'm making any sense at all. Sometimes I so want to see the end that I forget about the journey itself. The little happenings that at one time made me smile just a bit....like the clothes being a little lose, or eating exactly what I brought for lunch and not adding anything else, or going to bed with a smile for a day well done, or that walk in the morning. Now I see it all like work. At some point the joy went out of me and the work began. I know I know this is suppose to be work, but at some point shouldn't we enjoy the journey just a bit?

I don't mean to say I don't enjoy the workouts or the healthy foods at all. I love it. I truly enjoy the feeling I get after a good workout. But in all the planning, the weighing, the measuring and the eating, some of the joy is gone. There is always the thought in the back of my mind....should I have this, could I have something else? I want to stop the madness and just live. I don't mean to live the old life I mean to stop and enjoy the life I have now. Just have days where it all falls into place and I feel good about myself. Where I see the me looking back at me in the mirror and I say "hey beautiful" Instead of "oh my".

Well no time like the present....So "hey beautiful Michelle, lets get this party started"

Michelle.

  
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FISHINGLADY66 9/9/2013 8:29PM

    "You are so beautiful". That's a song from way back when. Your doing great, your concerned, your dedicated, your determined, you will win the journey. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/9/2013 9:08AM

    GOOD MORNING BEAUTIFUL!!!
Hmmm...what is the saying, can't see the forest for the trees?. Sometimes I think that is us. We get so wrapped up in what we are doing right, or wrong...so worried about what to do, what not to do, that we make ourselves miserable in the process. At this point, we very well know what we are supposed to do and how to do it. I'm not saying we should be lax about follow through, but sometimes I do think we need to get our head out of the details and just BE. Just DO. Not worry so much. I get to the point where I worry so much about how I got here, and worry so much over how much work it's going to take to get OUT of here, that I never even start. I just talk it to death.
My dear, you ARE doing this. Each and every day you are successful. Okay, you might not be successful in ALL aspects every single day, but perfectionism is a myth. It cannot be achieved because there will always be some little detail that we think we can do "better" there is always something to improve. Don't worry about the numbers, find your JOY. That is what makes it all worthwhile anyway. Breathe deeply of the beauty that surrounds you on those morning walks, experience the feeling of energy you have when you exercise, or when you eat healthy foods, and live in that joy. Make the joy your priority and I believe the rest will follow.
Each night I will concentrate on what went right during the day. I'll make a list of the little victories. Something I can look at in black and white to show myself that the work is not in vain. Sure, some things might not have gone as I planned, but what went right? I have to switch my focus from what I didn't do, to what I did. I'm looking for the joy, and the rest, I just don't have room for.
Have a great day, Michelle, I'm rooting for you!


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Ok, i'm over it!!

Sunday, September 08, 2013

Be honest with yourself about what you can expect to achieve — you'll be much happier in the end. '

Yesterday I had a vent fest. I woke up and thought I had had enough. Enough with the eating right, enough with the exercise, enough just enough of everything. I mean the changes weren't happening so why bother? Well it is like this. "If I do what I've always done, I will get what I always got" and for me that is no losses and lots of gains, unhappy days, no movement, and a tired feeling all the time. Is that what I really want out of this? Nope.

So I finished my crying fest, dried my eyes, and got to work. Literally, I ate right all day, I got water+, I got a bit of exercise in, and I got to bed early after having ended my day 6 calories under my goal. Yup six calories. That means I kept it inside the lines. I have to be honest I haven't done that in some time. I just was going through the so called motions but not really doing what needed to be done. Change.

so the next time the scales don't work in your favor, try stepping back, maybe shed a tear, but then get back to it and see what you have really been doing to yourself.

Michelle.

  
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BAMAROSE 9/9/2013 1:11PM

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KENDRACARROLL 9/8/2013 2:17PM

    Venting is necessary sometimes. Glad you got that out of your system :)
Sounds like you know that you're not doing everything you know you should and that's why you're so frustrated. I think tracking your food honestly is the single best tool to get things back on track. Exercise is helpful, mostly to keep the mind in the right place, and it seems to stave off cravings, but food is where it's at!!
Drop fast and processed foods, curb the snacking and you're on your way!
You can do this, SparkFriend!!!

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DARLENEK04 9/8/2013 1:57PM

  Michelle,

Great blog.....every day is a new beginning, sometimes it is every
hour....depends on what we are dealing with at the time.

Regardless of what goes on around us, we have to realize that we
need to be healthy, which in the long and short of it, will make us
much happier people...

Lotsa hugs,
Darlene

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DARLENEK04 9/8/2013 1:56PM

  Michelle,

Great blog.....every day is a new beginning, sometimes it is every
hour....depends on what we are dealing with at the time.

Regardless of what goes on around us, we have to realize that we
need to be healthy, which in the long and short of it, will make us
much happier people...

Lotsa hugs,
DarleneK

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/8/2013 1:32PM

    Way to go, Michelle!!

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FISHINGLADY66 9/8/2013 11:45AM

    emoticon Michelle emoticon

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CAKAROO 9/8/2013 8:09AM

    Way to go!

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LEXONE 9/8/2013 6:55AM

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I try to live by the motto....every day is a chance to make better choices and to exercise...not every day will be the same...just stay focused and you will get there...I'm sure it's the same as it is for me...I didn't get to this place over night...so I know I won't get back to my happy place over night...prayers for strength and courage to continue on your journey!

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CANADIANFROG09 9/8/2013 6:43AM

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“The struggle you’re in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow. Don’t give up.”

~Robert Tew~

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LIVELYLULU37 9/8/2013 5:56AM

    Wow, Congrats.

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What?????

Saturday, September 07, 2013

I'm sitting here this morning feeling a bit overwhelmed. I have been doing my best, ok maybe not great but good, to lose this twenty pounds. Now truth be told it could be more but I feel like if I can just get this off i'll be on my way and I can decide at that point what to do. Ok so anyways, I haven't moved. The scales have been stuck for like forever. I have been doing what I thought was right for me. So maybe it isn't. I don't know what to do at this point. Do I take a spark break and relax about it? Do I keep up the spark even though each week is just a crying fest over the damn scales? I mean it isn't like i'm not doing anything to reach my goals. I walk each weekend about seven or eight miles, I hop on my bike and elliptical during my work days. What gives? I drink the darn water, I eat right ( for the most part), again I ask what gives? I'm beginning to not like me much and that is never a good thing. Because the truth is I don't like me much on a good week. So what is a girl to do?

I am asking these questions not because I want help, but I need to ask myself what gives? !! Maybe i'm not really putting my all into this but each time I restart really isn't a restart. I've been doing this for so long now that habit is what it is now. Five years and what I still can't get to goal. I see people doing it here all the time. So what is wrong with me? Why can't I. Yeah i'm going through menopause but hell so are a lot of people. I just don't know anymore and the hating myself is just getting to be too much to bare some days.

Paul the SparkPeople programmer says:
Don't tell yourself that it's OK to do something wrong and make up for it later. Doing it right now will put you in the lead instead of catching up.

This was this mornings quote of the day. Omen? Sign from above? Who knows.

I wish I really felt this way today.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/8/2013 1:30PM

    Michelle, all I can say is to remember that what you are, WHO you are, has nothing to do with the scale. It has nothing to do with twenty pounds and weight loss goals. Michelle is not someone to be hated. Michelle is kind, giving, hard working, and loves her family. Michelle, is strong, able and does her best to take care of herself and those she loves. Michelle should be celebrated for the wonderful woman she is. So, start celebrating her!! :)
I know the going is rough. Oh, some days it feels like the storm is just that perpetual dark cloud that won't go away, following you around, but that storm is only part of the story. That storm is NOT going to last no matter what it feels like.
This isn't something you are GOING to do,this is something you are ALREADY doing. Hold your head up, girl, you are doing great!

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FISHINGLADY66 9/7/2013 2:55PM

    WW says to change things up. Change your exercise program. Change WHAT you eat. Eat entirely different foods than what you always eat. Sometimes we just get in a rut. Turn your life around. Go the other way. Take a new route. emoticon Michelle. Our bodies get into set points and no matter what we do, our bodies don't respond. I know you can do it. Have faith in yourself. Walk around the block backwards, so to speak. NEVER GIVE UP. PLEASE. You are so worth it. ((Hugs)) Big bear hugs to you.

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CAKAROO 9/7/2013 8:32AM

    Dont give up! You can do it!

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CBLENS 9/7/2013 6:43AM

    SO you are having a down day today, you need to respark! read some inspirational stories to help motivate you. I'm have been sitting at the same weight for months, I have told myself, well at least I know how to maintain. I know I have to really be honest about tracking my food. my exercise is great. You can do it, just think about how excited you were when you first started this journey & how it felt each time you lost. Best to you!

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111BUTTERFLY111 9/7/2013 6:39AM

    You wrote, "I am asking these questions not because I want help, but I need to ask myself what gives?" so I won't say the thoughts going through my head but wish you the wisdom you need.
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Believe you can

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

If you believe in yourself, you can reach your dreams. The sky's the limit!



Funny sometimes the only thing standing in our way is ourselves. Sometimes I feel like i'm just riding a Merry-Go-Round and I can't get off. You know what i'm talking about....the weeks when you work so hard and step on the scales and yup they haven't moved. You just knew this was going to be the week that turned it all around. So you put your foot down, not literally, and you give it another week, yup you lose almost nothing. So what are you to do?

Believe you can and don't give up. I personally know it is hard to believe when you have tried and failed so many times but at some point the carousel will have to stop, the music will end and you will be left with just YOU. So be proud of each step you take and never look back over what could of been. You can't change the past but you sure can put a whole new look on the future.

  
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FISHINGLADY66 9/3/2013 8:16PM

    You are so right Michelle. And you inspire me with your blogs. Thanks.

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BERTAS_JOURNEY 9/3/2013 11:25AM

    Love this!! Thanks for posting, it totally made my day. emoticon

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111BUTTERFLY111 9/3/2013 11:04AM

    I believe I can!! And, I am!! emoticon

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RIDLEYRIDER 9/3/2013 8:03AM

  Well said, thank you!

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Progress?

Monday, September 02, 2013

You don't make progress by standing on the sidelines,
whimpering and complaining.
You make progress by implementing ideas.
- Shirley Chisholm

Progress? Sometimes I wonder if i'm making any at all. But when you get up and walk three miles first thing on a Sunday morning that is progress. Or eating a healthy breakfast before work, that is progress.....going out to eat with friends to Firehouse subs and getting the ham and turkey, no chips, and a diet drink....Progress!!!

Each day that you do something for yourself is progress on this journey. Nope the dang scales may not move a bit but you have to know that the progress your making on your body is there. Sometimes we can't see the changes but we know they are happening. You just have to believe in yourself and what your doing. I can say this because for so long I've been down on myself for the changes that haven't come. I do what is expected but the changes don't happen. Well the truth is the progress is happening i'm just overlooking the little things for wanting the huge impacts. So as of this moment i'm smiling through the tears because i'm doing it. I'm eating better, i'm exercising and i'm taking care of me. So that in itself is a bit change for the better. The scales will come over to my way of thinking in good time.



Michelle.

  
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WRITINGRUNNER 9/2/2013 8:35AM

    A great blog, thank you


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EVIE4NOW 9/2/2013 8:22AM

  Perfection is like the word "normal". What is perfect or normal to one is far off for another.

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111BUTTERFLY111 9/2/2013 8:05AM

    When the scale isn't moving for me, I bump it up in one area or another and then she cooperates. Wishing you a GREAT week ahead!

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DARJR50 9/2/2013 7:51AM

  Like the quote

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NELLJONES 9/2/2013 7:44AM

    I'm not sure I know what "Perfection" is. Whatever works is Good Enough.

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