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Take your time and it will happen

Monday, July 01, 2013

"The first step to getting anywhere is deciding you're no longer willing to stay where you are." óż



For two whole days now I've taken my time on this journey. I have stopped and thought through what I was doing. What I was eating, how I was eating it. I've gotten out of the bed and headed out emoticon with my buddies and we have walked six and a half miles total this weekend. No small feat. I did it. Am I a bit smug? You bet your sweet bottom I am. For someone who couldn't do one day I've done two and today i'm a bit stronger than I was when I began. Will I make a mistake or two? Sure but I'm also making great changes that will lead me to success. It just takes time. I was so wanting it yesterday I was forgetting about today and the journey in itself. I'm not healed by no means but i'm closer today than I was yesterday to my goals.

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IUHRYTR 7/2/2013 6:50PM

    Doesn't it feel satisfying when we reach a milestone, even two days in a row? Keep up the good effort. emoticon -- Lou

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ELSCO55 7/1/2013 11:13PM

    great

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ELSCO55 7/1/2013 11:07PM

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FISHINGLADY66 7/1/2013 10:25PM

    One step and one day at a time. We will win this journey to a healthier us. Stay focused. I'm proud of you.

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WALLAHALLA 7/1/2013 6:00PM

    emoticon Keep heading in the right direction!

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TAMWIL2 7/1/2013 1:37PM

    emoticon emoticon I've had to employ the "just do it" attitude to getting up and moving and it has made a world of difference. You begin to notice that it's easier to do every day and you'll feel even closer to your goal as you go. You have a great attitude emoticon

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BUTTERFIYEMERGE 7/1/2013 7:02AM

    emoticon I'm soooooo happy for you!! Keep up the effort you've started!! emoticon

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ELRIDDICK 7/1/2013 7:01AM

  Thanks for sharing

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JERZRN 7/1/2013 6:59AM

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Good for you!

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KARENKANDO 7/1/2013 6:58AM

    You ARE an inspiration! SMUG AWAY my SP friend! You have earned it!!! emoticon

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DMEYER4 7/1/2013 6:53AM

  great blog thanks for sharing

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We have One can I have two?

Sunday, June 30, 2013

emoticon emoticon I actually stayed on track for the whole day. YES. Now let me tell ya that was no easy feat. Our air went out in the morning and my hubby was working and I had to wait for him to return to get it fixed. So here in lies the problem....I live in southern Alabama. It is hot. So I had every ceiling fan going, a couple of windows up just for some air, blinds closed. It really wasn't all that bad. I'm always cold so I was ok. When hubby got home we headed to town for a part and when we got back he put it in and it still wouldn't work. So it was back to square one. He found the problem....our dogs some time back had dug in that area, we had filled it in and stopped them but seems they had chewed the wire. Yup it could of been worse much worse. But it is now fixed, and all is good in my home at this time.

Why am I telling you all this? Because it could of led me off on a binge of great proportions but it didn't. I had my lunch, popcorn later, a sandwich with my grandson in the evening as I watched him for a bit and then I had my drink before bed and that was it. Finished the day right on the button. Plus I got in a one hour walk in the morning with my daughter. So all in all a wonderful day.
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Now my weight stayed the same this week. Yup no movement in either direction. But I'm good with that. With the kind of last year I've had staying the same is a step in the right direction. I stepped on those scales, took a deep breath and looked down. I was ready for whatever they said this week. When I looked I kinda smiled. Good no gain. Now i'm getting somewhere.



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WALLAHALLA 7/1/2013 12:21AM

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 6/30/2013 9:58AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon you can add day 2 to the count. I am so proud of you.

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BUTTERFIYEMERGE 6/30/2013 8:56AM

    emoticon emoticon I know yesterday was a GREAT accomplishment!! We're stress eaters. LOL!!! YOU did a superb job, dear one!!!

Hope today is not nearly as stressful and that you do just as stellar a job!! I know you can!!! I believe in you!!

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MEEMOM33 6/30/2013 8:22AM

    I'm glad you didn't get discouraged. I think once we make up our mind that nothing is going to get in our way, it doesn't matter what life throws at us, we will overcome!! Good job!!!

Have a great day!!!

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CAKAROO 6/30/2013 8:06AM

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NELLJONES 6/30/2013 7:56AM

    Staying On Plan is the victory! The scale will follow, it always does.

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GLUECIPHER 6/30/2013 7:45AM

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Change is in the air

Saturday, June 29, 2013

"You get fitter by DOING things to change your life, not by just thinking about it or just reading about it."

Each morning I get up with my first up of coffee and head to spark. Why? because I have made so many "friends" here that something is missing from my day if I can't say hello to each and everyone. I spark, blog, track certain things, collect points, but in the end really i'm creating a new me. Yeah I know for a while now I've not been happy with my progress but in truth is that sparks fault, my friends fault? No just mine and mine alone. Because this journey is mine and mine alone. I can walk it with so many but in the end it comes down to what I do when they aren't around that counts.

I know this because each time I step on the dreaded scales it tells the story of my week. Mostly it is saying " you messed up once again girl" but in reality it really is saying to me " now you see what you did now lets see what you can do" So far I really can't do much except move. I seem to have no trouble getting in my exercise. Really I love to walk, I love the sounds, the smells of the country, the breeze in my hair, the flowers that grow wild and just seem to pop up everywhere with no set pattern. So for me it isn't work so much as just plain enjoyment. So that part is covered. It is the food I seem to not have a grasp on.

There is nothing more upsetting then to get up and begin your journal for the day, it is clean, you have water, exercise, and the food either goes on for miles, or it isn't even written in. because you know if you don't account for it it doesn't count right? Well maybe not that moment but step on those scales and see what counted and what didn't. I bet you get upset, cry, yell at those scales for the number flashing back at you. You step off with tears in your eyes saying that is it i'm giving up. But really hasn't that already happened? I mean that happened before weigh in day right? You meaning me gave up the first day I didn't track, or I ate the junk instead of the meal because the junk was quick and I was tired, maybe the lunch I brought to work just doesn't seem to do it for me since I've seen the deli selection so you grab that instead of the great healthy meal you have in the bag.

Yeah ok the truths are here. I have to tell ya that blogging these last few days has gotten me to thinking more about my journey and less about poor me. I mean poor me would be at goal if I would just follow through. Stop taking the easy road. I need to fight for me. So what is my plan? Omg at this point I really don't know. I have given up on me for so long that I just now seem to be seeing the me I am and really i'm kinda scared about where and how to begin. I know I should just start from here. Here isn't in a good place though and I have to wonder will here just lead me to nowhere? Oh my i'm making excuses and not coming up with any solutions.



Ok no more excuses. This is my life and if I want to be happy I need to begin it now. Only I can make the changes.


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WALLAHALLA 6/29/2013 10:30PM

    I'm terrible for spending tons of time making plans that I don't carry out. You are way ahead of me.

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IUHRYTR 6/29/2013 8:23PM

    Remembering that new beginnings are unlimited and may start at any time is a useful thought. emoticon -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 6/29/2013 1:49PM

    Often writing things down brings a new level of clarity. I think blogging about your journey is a great way to organize yout thoughts.
Keep pushing. Today you are one step closer.

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CAKAROO 6/29/2013 8:16AM

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 6/29/2013 7:35AM

    Sweet Michele,
You should blog every day. I love reading what your thinking and feeling. You know I am right there with you, so maybe we just need to ''relearn the words to that song."
Hugs,
Joan

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BUTTERFIYEMERGE 6/29/2013 7:29AM

    You can make changes, dear Michelle. Think about it ...
* What's worked for you in the past?
* What can you work into your schedule now?
* What can you commit to do?
Whatever you do needs to fit your lifestyle. YOU can figure this out. You're sooooo worth the effort! I believe you can do it. I've seen you do it before. I know you can do it again!

Hey ... I really struggled after I came back from my sister's. We ate sooooo differently there. I came home and REALLY wanted the simple carbs that I don't get here. I had them. Before I knew it, my hypothyroid was roaring out of control. The pounds were packing back on. Packing on, I'm telling you. That's the way hypothyroid is. I know it. I know I cannot eat simple carbs. WHAT WAS I THINKING? So, in the last few days, I've gotten my act back together. I have my eating back in line. I'm filling my freezer and fridge with foods that are good for me. I'm making it work for me. It took a head adjustment first. LOL! But, I'm back on track.

And, Michelle, if I can do it, you can too!!! I know you can! I believe in YOU!!!!

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ELRIDDICK 6/29/2013 7:27AM

  Thanks for sharing

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JOHNMARTINMILES 6/29/2013 7:21AM

    Love the posters!

Make Today the Best Day of Your Life!

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Wishing doesn't do the work.....

Friday, June 28, 2013

"Don't wish for it...work for it" I just saw this quote on a message that was sent to my email. It had me stopping to think for a bit. I do that. I sit here wishing for something that just isn't happening and I have to wonder am I really working for it?

I get up each morning, I turn the page in my weight loss journal and I know that today is going to be the day. You know the one that I seize the moment and finally find my way. I get up and I have my coffee, I change my clothes and I head out for a long one hour or more walk most days of the week, work permitting, and I come back and have more water, take my shower, have a great breakfast, and then it goes downhill from there. I can't put my finger on it. What is causing me to do this to myself. I get up each morning know this is going to be the day, and I go to bed each night hating myself because I couldn't stay on track for one lousy day. I have this emoticon on my shoulder and he whispers in my ear from lunch to bed to eat what I have no business eating. Why is it that I allow something so small as my inner voice to dictate my journey?

You know the saying "I want to stop the madness" well that is how i'm feeling lately. I'm on this roller coaster called my weight loss journey and i'm ashamed to say that it is stalled up on the top. Yup i'm sitting up there on the tippy top and I can't go down, and I can't go back. So what to do?????

I see motivational pages with people who have lost 50, 60, 100 pounds or more. I can't seem to lose a loosy five. That is all I'm looking for a this point. So what to do....
I guess I just have to learn to....

Time to learn to love the me I am today and the rest will take care of itself.

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IUHRYTR 6/29/2013 8:20PM

    "Don't do anything permanently stupid." Good advice I need to follow. Keep battling the demon. -- Lou

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WALLAHALLA 6/28/2013 2:08PM

    emoticon emoticon but it aint gonna be easy! Nothing worthwhile ever is.

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KENDRACARROLL 6/28/2013 12:53PM

    WHAT you are having for breakfast? Maybe your breakfast is what sets you up for later cravings.

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DARLENEK04 6/28/2013 11:34AM

  Michelle,

I have to fight my demons on a daily basis...it is not easy...I just decided I
wanted to live, rather than have the junk that was killing me faster than I
wanted to go.

Don't think you are alone in the war....you are not.

Hugs,
DarleneK

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NELLJONES 6/28/2013 8:24AM

    We all wake up full of resolve every day. First thing in the morning we want our goal more than anything. Then a few hours later we want the donut more than we want our goal for those few seconds it takes to eat the donut. And resolve dissolves with donuts. That's why I have my rules. I plan my day and eat according to that plan. When my resolve wavers I look at my daily food plan and lift my eyes to my next meal and keep walking. It's easier now than it was when I first started out, but it's never as easy as I wish it were.

"If wishes were horses, beggars would ride." It's an old nursery rhyme that sounds cute, but is oh so true.

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SLIMPAM23 6/28/2013 8:19AM

    You'll get through!! I like your posters - I may have to "steal" them!!! And trust me - those who have lost 50-60 pounds are probably struggling like you too - at least at time!!
I have faith in you....we need to find out what's stopping you from having the same!!
Hugs,
Pam

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EVIE4NOW 6/28/2013 7:20AM

  Pre-plan your meals right down to portions and eat only that. Might help, couldn't hurt.

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DMEYER4 6/28/2013 7:13AM

  it is true you have to love you. good luck on your journey. maybe if you change your routine a little it will click. have a great day

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New Day

Thursday, June 27, 2013

emoticon Yesterday I put out here my journey failures. Everyone had some wonderful words to share and I found out that i'm not alone in my feelings. One friend asked if it had anything to do with boredom, frustration, loneliness, depression. Well the answer is some or most of that is correct. I get bored I eat, I don't think i'm lonely but in todays world I could be. To me there is a difference between being alone and being lonely. Depression? I have that in droves. I am on meds and they let me live but lately I've wondered if they are really working. But the exercise helps to keep that in moderation also. Then there is the change. Yup I've hit it. At least the peri part of menopause. So add that to the already feelings of guilt over the weight gain, the frustrations at not being able to shed this weight, and gaining back all that I lost and yup you have a emotional mess.

Yesterday I did just that. I know what I want and I know how to get it. Now to put in the work. I had a good day yesterday and that gives me the push I need to have a good day today. I can only take this one day at a time.

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IUHRYTR 6/29/2013 8:17PM

    So true -- one positive day, one healthy meal, one exercise at a time. Hang in there and emoticon. -- Lou

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FISHINGLADY66 6/28/2013 2:05AM

    Yes you can! emoticon

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WALLAHALLA 6/27/2013 4:24PM

    I have faith in you.

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GR8ERJOY 6/27/2013 7:43AM

    That is all any of us can do. Keep putting on foot in front of the other. emoticon

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