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Reaching

Tuesday, May 07, 2013

I"m only at the step of I can do it, but I'm getting up those steps one by one. We all begin this journey with a destination, at some point the view gets a bit foggy, but for the most part we continue forward. Yes we may take a detour on the road less traveled, we may stop and rest, or we may just make a new path. But we never quit. We are not quitters. At least so far I'm not.

Now I won't lie, I've thought about it a time or two. Oh how I've wanted to just say the heck with this and do what I wanted. I mean what is the use right, the numbers aren't changing and I'm not liking myself at this stage. Well where would I be if I quit? Nowhere. Surely not here with you all and surely not proud of each step I do take in the right direction. So I continue on.




Only when life is difficult, are we challenged to become our greatest selves.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

So where are you in this journey? Just beginning, in the middle, maybe on a plateau, or at the end. Wherever you may be is where you are because you worked hard and now you will work harder still to get to the next level....we all want to reach the top step and "I did it" phase.

Michelle.

  
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SHERYLDS 5/7/2013 9:57PM

    emoticon she's back emoticon

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WALLAHALLA 5/7/2013 2:12PM

    I keep tripping and falling down the staircase, picking myself up, and starting up again. Currently, I am in a downward roll.

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KENDRACARROLL 5/7/2013 1:33PM

    I keep thinking that this journey never really ends... we reach one goal and then there will be another, and another. As long as we keep moving forward...
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FISHINGLADY66 5/7/2013 12:16PM

    emoticon One Day at a Time.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/7/2013 9:32AM

    And we are going to get there and do a happy dance and maybe even shout a few times when we get to the top!!


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DARJR50 5/7/2013 7:52AM

  thanks

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Weekly weigh-in

Sunday, May 05, 2013

Yup that is what my goals are. Pretty simple really. But with that comes the real journey. Getting into those super clothes takes hard work and much dedication to YOU. This week I rocked the scales. I lost 2.6 pounds and I'm more than ready to take on this coming week. Why? Because I've stayed the same for so long now that to finally have those scales move and change is making it easier for me to get back on the "calorie bus" and move somemore. I'm ready for the next stop on the ride.

A friend made a suggestion on a team post...work at it ten pounds at a time. Well since I have twenty-five total to lose i'm going to work at this five pounds at a time. So i'm ready to take off the next half of that and then head for new territory.

So in closing I'm taking the long way home. Because I want to arrive in a great outfit and toned body and that is going to take a bit of work. lol.

Michelle.

  
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SWEETROSIE2 5/9/2013 12:00AM

    What a great weight loss you are doing so well good on you. Love your blog.

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KENDRACARROLL 5/5/2013 10:00PM

    Great job! Congratulations!

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WALLAHALLA 5/5/2013 5:52PM

    emoticon because you are an emoticon lady!

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FISHINGLADY66 5/5/2013 10:37AM

    Your motivation is rising. emoticon Congratulations. Don't you feel better now. emoticon Never give up or give in. Keep riding that bus.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/5/2013 10:16AM

    Awesome!! Sounds like a fantastic plan Michelle!
And congratulations on the love from the scale today! :)

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ARW715 5/5/2013 7:41AM

    Congratulations! Way to go! I want to be on the calorie bus!

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RIDLEYRIDER 5/5/2013 7:23AM

  5 at a time is wonderful goal! Congrats, and keep up the great work! emoticon

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Sometimes we share our space

Thursday, May 02, 2013

Yesterday I wrote a blog about a moment in my day that was let's just say...not my best. Little Debbies came into play and then the comments were what where they doing in my house? and I have control over my shopping cart. Well guys life is like this in this house....there are two of us. My hubby loves little Debbies and he isn't overweight...so do I make him give up his snack because I "sneak" into the pantry on occasion? NO loud and clear NO. this is a journey about me, not him. I have to learn to do what is right for me and so far that is following a plan. Sometimes that plan includes roadblocks in the form of Little Debbies snack cakes.

Now I'm not saying my eating it was the right thing to do. but truth is I sneak....I won't eat like that in front of my hubby because I'm trying to lose the weight and I don't want him to see me as not strong. because I have a illness called addiction. So like most addicts I do it in the secret of the night. Sometimes when i'm alone during the day. If the monster rears his head i'm going to have whatever it is that doesn't work. or should I say whatever it is that works at the moment.

So to end this blog here is the thing......Don't judge by what is or isn't in somebodies shopping cart because we share our spaces and sometimes we need to pull up our big girl panties and just say "No thank you I don't eat that anymore". But the reality is that isn't going to happen when i'm in the midst of a PMS power struggle so I ate it and i'm moving forward.

Michelle.

  
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CAKAROO 5/4/2013 4:08PM

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WALLAHALLA 5/3/2013 7:05PM

    Due to stress at work this week I have been cleaning the goodies off the work table like a vulture on road kill. Unbelievable how much garbage I have consumed. Next week is a new beginning, hopefully a better one. I know better, but, it is what it is.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/2/2013 9:13PM

    Good for you, Michelle. You wrote honestly about your relationship with food and yes, for some of us, we can't always keep a perfectly "clean" pantry! I don't buy junk food often because I know I will eat it, but I can't deny my daughter an occasional treat either. So if I buy something for her and then I sneak in and eat in when she isn't home -- that's MY fault. That's MY lack of self control and that is something I need to work on for myself.
One day at a time, hon, you are doing great!!!
Hugs,
Kristi

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GWTRIKER 5/2/2013 9:10PM

    Very nice blog. Unfortunately a lot of judgmental people like to voice their opinions. Everyone slips from time to time. Try to keep looking forward to your goals and you will achieve them.

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FISHINGLADY66 5/2/2013 3:01PM

    And that's the way it should be Michelle. No one should criticize someone until they walk a mile in their shoes. We are not all perfect like some people. ha ha . Fall down... get back up.... and keep going. You are on a journey for you and you alone. You go girl. emoticon emoticon emoticon Cheers to you dear friend. ((Hugs)) I believe in you.

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KENDRACARROLL 5/2/2013 10:35AM

    Good for you, Michelle! Oh, and one Little Debbie won't make you fat, btw :)
I eat junk often (too often actually). Just depends on what you balance it with.
Sounds like it would be great step forward if you could work towards owning what you're eating and towards getting out of the cupboard/pantry. Who are you fooling anyway? I know that's a big step, but ultimately it will set you free.
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Ok so i'm not perfect

Wednesday, May 01, 2013

emoticon I have a confession. I'm not perfect. I would love to think I am but i'm not. Ok, so yesterday i'm all gung ho for day three of being right on plan. I got up and I rode my bike about 15 minutes...I had to work and I knew I was going out for a walk after work with a friend. I had a good breakfast. I headed to work, I brought a light snack with me because I was not getting lunch at the normal time. We did our control Inventory last night and i'm always a part of that great moment of the year.
So I worked till two, then I got a subway sub, headed to meet my friend. We walked:

Sport: Walking
Distance: 2.38 mi
Duration: 50 minutes 3 seconds
At: 30.04.13 14:29

I headed home and had a light dinner and tried to nap. But that didn't work out. So I headed back to work for nine, got done inventory at 11:30. Now i'm home and i'm wanting something....So popcorn. That is ok to have...well then it turned into two little debbies cakes. What??? why??? well I was tired. So if your tired you munch....well ok I do.

If I had just turned out the light and went to bed all would of been fine. But nope I self-sabotaged myself yet again. Well two out of three days ain't bad. So today I restart: but you know what. I came away from April the same weight. I mean I didn't lose, reach any goals, or set records, but I stayed the same. When you are coming from two years of steady gains up to the number you began staying the same is ok.

So for May I have a goal to lose at least three pounds. Not hefty but enough to set me in motion. So i'll keep you posted on my struggles, my triumphs, and my days. I need to hold me accountable. Thanks for allowing me to do that here.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/1/2013 10:20PM

    Alright my dear friend, no you are not perfect, but "perfect" doesn't exist in real life.
Maybe you didn't lose in April but you know what? There is something to be said about not going up and up and up. There are times when I just sit down and remind myself that although I might not be losing, and heck, I might be gaining and losing the same five pounds the last several months, but at some point my weight stopped going UP. It would be easy to eat myself into oblivion and just get bigger and bigger, but I don't. And you didn't either. You aren't where you want to be -- YET. But you are going to get there, because you have what is vital to success. Determination, Desire and the Ability to follow through. You can do this. I believe in you.

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FISHINGLADY66 5/1/2013 10:10PM

    emoticon I love snacking on popcorn. It does have fiber.

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WALLAHALLA 5/1/2013 3:35PM

    If I control what goes in my shopping cart, I have better control over what goes into my mouth. If it isn't in the house, I won't eat it, cause is takes too much effort to go get it. Sometimes lazy works in my benefit. emoticon

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EVIE4NOW 5/1/2013 9:51AM

  Staying stable after gaining and gaining is an accomplishment in itself. So you blew it one night, pick yourself up and dust yourself off and start again. By the way, what are little debs doing in your house? lol
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SHERYLDS 5/1/2013 7:33AM

    You can do this,,,I believe in you...You need to believe in You.
and hot air popcorn is becoming my life saver when I need a snack
but I need to drink in with unsweetened ice tea...the combo fills me.

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 5/1/2013 7:32AM

    I am not sure if ''just going to bed" would have worked. It wouldn't for me. I feel sure the reason you sabotaged yourself is due to being overly tired. That happens to me a lot, especially if Bob has kept me up all night.
So today is a new day, you have a new May goal, three pounds is attainable. Hang in there my friend.
Hugs,
Joan

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Weigh-In???? Huh

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Ok so maybe this is a bit off from what the scales said this week but it shows about how I felt. Now i'm not one to just count on the scale alone, but dang after four weeks and I end the month at the same weight I began.....wait a minute here. What gives? Obviously not the fat portion of this journey. Now I won't tell ya what I did with those dang scales. I mean it wasn't very nice but it sure felt good at the moment.

You see the thing is i've been working really hard on this lifestyle change...ok maybe in public....in private i've been grabbing a bite here, a handful of nuts there, a bag of chips over here. You get the picture.

So what did I do after my little fit on the scales? I set myself up with a new plan. I got back to work, took a long hard look at myself...now that was tough....and I just got started fresh. You see what the scales show may not always be the work you've done but I have to be honest here most of the time they don't lie a lot. So if your grabbing a taste, lick, or bite and not recording it...I can almost guarantee it will show up on the scales. So for me this was a eye opening moment. Because you may get away from it once or even twice but it will catch up with you when you least expect it.

So im now day three of clean eating and being on track. I've written it down, planned it out, and yup it hasn't been easy. I've had moments where i've had to drink down a water or eat up something I didn't need. BUt i'm finding if I plan for a meal and keep to the schedule i'm ok. So for now maybe it won't be smart to veer off the written path. We all have an addiction or two in our closets mine is food. Not a shameful thing if I let it out in the open. but very harmful when I hide it even from myself by not writing it down.

So emoticon to a much better day on the scales this coming Sunday. and If not I know i've certainly given it all I could.

Michelle.

  
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GWTRIKER 4/30/2013 9:18PM

    I agree. That was a very good blog. What I tell myself to stay on track, if it goes in the mouth, it goes in the tracker.
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FISHINGLADY66 4/30/2013 8:53PM

    Great blog. You opened up you heart and set things straight. Good for you. One Day at a Time. You can do it. ((Hugs))

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JUNEBUG1944 4/30/2013 5:38PM

    Good for you, Michelle! Great blog!

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KENDRACARROLL 4/30/2013 10:54AM

    Get rid of the scale for a month, but track your food honestly. Don't forget to exercise. You'll see progress!
You can do this, my friend!!

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GAILRUU 4/30/2013 8:27AM

    It really is easy for me to delude myself about what I am eating. The portions tend to get a little bigger, a few bites and tastes don't get tracked. I do better when I track everything.

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SLIMPAM23 4/30/2013 8:14AM

    Great Blog Michelle!!
And great attitude. I hope to get my act together in May - since April was yet another epic fail. But only because of MY choices!!
Anyway -- Stay strong and keep moving forward!
Pam

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MILLEDGE2 4/30/2013 7:37AM

    Good for you, Michelle! I noticed you had posted "I'm making progress" on the Alabama team huddle, so I decided to check by, because I know you've been struggling and a bit frustrated.

One of the motivational posters I have on my phone jerks a knot in me, every time I start "forgetting" to notice those little things which are actually adding calories. It says:

The thing about reaching your goal weight is that it's 100% possible. It's completely in your control. the only thing stopping you from getting there is you. So get out of the way.

Then I remind myself of how many friends I have who would give ANYTHING if the solutions to their own health challenges were completely in their own hands, not those of doctors or pharmacists or the fates.

As I say, those things "sober" me up. No, it's not shameful. It's human, but you are fighting the battle every day and not giving up and that WILL pay off.

Hope this day goes well for you!
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