Sunday, March 24, 2013
We are all here for the same thing CHANGE. I personally have overcome a lot in my life and i'm stronger for it. But while I would love to think that overcoming weight issues would be again easy i'm so very off the mark. All the turmoil in my life was nothing compared to ;this.
I put a few of my much hidden secrets out there on a message board and guess what? Nobody disowned me. Yup i'm a statistic. I've been molested as a child, abused by way of "punishment", married a alcoholic, had a child at the tender age of 19 and yup divorced by the time my second child was a little over two, single mom, remarriage, you get the pic. I'm a statistic from way back. Now i'm here trying to lose this baggage I call a sheild. Because lets be honest that is what it is. If you dig deep enough in your own background you will find what is troubling you.
I reached my goal and then I gained it all back. Why you may wonder, because I think the answer lies in people started to notice me and I was standing out. I had tried for so long to be in the background that when I was finally in the forefront OMG. Not a good feeling because they would notice that I wasn't perfect. I was a statistic. But guess what? So what. I am who I am because of being that statistic. So now I want to be the me I have always wanted to be. The outgoing me, the me that doesn't have to be ashamed anymore. I am who I am and for whatever reasons my path was already set. So now it is time to finish this. No more sitting on the side lines wanting and wishing for what I fear I will never have. I have me and that is all I need at this time. MYSElF and with the help of a few wonderful FRIENDS i'm going to be a success not only in my weightloss but also in my future.
So Im not done with my journey by a long shot. I may come and blog about the sorrow, the anger, the troubles along the way but I will do it for me. To clear my head and know that this is a new day full of such promise. I will try to learn to go to bed happy that I made the choises I did and there is no sense in getting upset with the ones I chose wrong. I had choices and they were my choices. Not someone elses.