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Do it for your HEALTH

Saturday, March 16, 2013



There comes a point at which you ask yourself is this really worth all the effort I have to put into getting healthy???? The answer is always a resounding YES!!! If you don't take care of your body it won't take care of you. That may seem like a cliche or quote you've heard a million times before but it is very true. Diabetes, high blood pressure, obesity, all can be controled with a bit of effort. These three diseases alone are the cause of many deaths in the U.S. and can be prevented with just a bit of work.

So now that i've given my health speech the reason isn't for you. It is for me. I have to remind myself quite a bit that this is for me. I'm doing this for my health and the other part, the vain part isn't even in the running. So when I get up and get my morning exercise no matter if it is ten minutes or thirty minutes before work i'm doing this because A. it is a habit, and B. it is for my health. So when I step on the scales and they may not always say what I want them to it isn't that I didn't give it a lot of thought, it is that on that day, at that moment, my body for whatever reason has decided that it needs to hold on to that last little bit for some reason. So I have to shake my head and hold it high as I step away and begin anew yet again. This isn't a one week thing, this is forever. So getting upset today isn't going to fix the problem in the long run.

This week has been awesome. I've met my exercise minutes, i've eaten on plan, i've enjoyed a walk at lunch to the shoe store by work and gotten a new pair of cool shoes, i've gotten new makeup and thrown out the old, i'm moving more and worrying less. So tomorrow when I see those scales, no matter what they say I know in my heart I did fine. Could I have done better??? No doubt about it but you know what i'm not here to win a race or lose this weight and be done with it....I know this isn't going to happen so why lie to myself....i'm here to get healthy. It is the demons of my family history i'm trying to change.

So I smile through the tears and I begin each day anew. How it ends is all up to ME.

Michelle.

  
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IUHRYTR 3/20/2013 9:41PM

    Good, positive attitude! emoticon -- Lou

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WALLAHALLA 3/17/2013 1:11AM

    You are entirely emoticon Yet another emoticon blog!

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FISHINGLADY66 3/16/2013 7:36PM

    You are so right Michelle. emoticon for your emoticon

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TERESA6262 3/16/2013 5:34PM

    As usual, you are SPOT ON! I just said to my niece this morning.... it's about health as well as looks. I'm not denying i want to look better... but one's heart must be strong, and one must have toned muscles, strong lungs and endurance TOO! Those are benefits for RIGHT now, not just for later "when you're old." Thanks for posting this. I'm probably 75% motivated by "looking good" (just being honest) and 25% motivated by health benefits. I'm heading out for my evening bike ride and am hoping to get some weight off, improve my plantar faciitis and get back to walking, too!
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KRICKET4 3/16/2013 4:13PM

    Glad you had a good week of building good habits. These good days are never lost as they build on each other. Keep up the good work my friend.

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MIDROAD 3/16/2013 10:55AM

    With your attitude and your effort you WILL succeed ! Congratulations on such a good week!

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CAKAROO 3/16/2013 10:09AM

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SHERYLDS 3/16/2013 9:53AM

    AMEN....

Great Blog Michelle. and so true

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Back to work...Vacation is over.

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Well my vacation is over today. I was up on the scales a bit but not too much. Because I will be honest it wasn't all vacation. You have to put in something to get something out. So on that note I have to tell ya my time away was emoticon . I haven't laughed that much in a long time. I really enjoy time spent with my parents and my daughter. A laugh a minute they are. My mothers friend was also there from Vermont and she was wonderful. She fixed all the meals. I mean she didn't want us in the kitchen and who are we to say no....so I ate what she made and it was wonderful. I learned a few new things, gained some knowledge along with the weight....and now i'm home and ready to clean up my act. Yup today was wonderful all my emoticon and I even got some time on the emoticon . So as I get ready to settle down for the night I have to say i'm blessed today and everyday just for having a wonderful family and for time I was able to spend with them.

Never give up on your dreams, for that is the time and place that things will change.

Michelle.

  
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IUHRYTR 3/13/2013 7:20PM

    Being in the midst of happy people sounds like a delightful way to spend time and not having to cook had to be an added bonus. emoticon -- Lou

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SWIMLOVER 3/12/2013 11:31PM

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FISHINGLADY66 3/11/2013 10:25PM

    I'm so glad you enjoyed your vacation with your family.

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MIDROAD 3/11/2013 10:07AM

    There's nothing like a great vacation! So glad it included great food and lots of laughte!

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KRICKET4 3/11/2013 12:45AM

    I'm glad you had a wonderful time with family :)

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WALLAHALLA 3/10/2013 11:23PM

    happy you had such a lovely time

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TERESA6262 3/10/2013 10:22PM

    Vacations are never long enough! Good luck getting back in the groove.

I have two weeks of work before spring break......then I get a Friday plus all of the following week before Easter off. 6 work days/ 10 calendar days off in a row! YAY!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/10/2013 9:11PM

    I'm so glad you had a great time on vacation. Now for moving onwards!!
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STUDLEEJOE 3/10/2013 8:57PM

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LYNMEINDERS 3/10/2013 8:46PM

    Awesome...so glad you enjoyed your vacation....it great when we can say that

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How????

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

I borrowed this from a friend on her blog. I just spoke to me today. She also had written this :

"It's natural to look around and see how other people are doing.
Sometimes it makes you feel inadequate,
Sometimes it makes you feel more successful, "

The reason this spoke to me is because i've been struggling yet again. I know I jsut can't wrap my mind around this lately. But it has gotten to where i'm not eating the garbage so much as just eating wayyyyy too much of the good stuff. Can that be possible you may ask??? YES. I saw a motitivation on spark: I hear this all the time, from friends, emplyees where I work, family, myself even because i've heard it so much. But in reality I have got a bit to go and NO i'm not there yet. I've been so very close and then ended back up here. So my blot is entitled HOW??? because how and when did getting so out of shape become ok. At what point did I wake up and decide I liked hating myself, not fitting into my clothes, not being comfortable in my own skin. Because that is what happened. I became the same person I was some five years ago when I began spark. Yup, I lost it and I thought I had it made. Oh I was cute in my workout gear....now I wear those darn big t-shirts and sweats again...I was cute in my new clothes for work....not I can't even button those cute clothes and they are in the goodwill bin....I knew what was ok, how much to have, I could eye a 3 oz piece of meat in a second. Now....yup you guessed it I eat the whole thing and then I have more. Now i'm not saying i'm by any means a little piggy but I have seen days I can out eat my hubby. What happened to the woman who was finally coming into her own? Where is she now, I need to speak to her, I need to become her friend again. I miss her so.

I know where she went....people started noticing me again, I wasn't in the corner any longer I was out in the open, the more people noticed my loss or how "good" I looked the more I ate, the less I moved. It was fine when it was just me. Yeah i'm the kid of childhood abuse, the father that left the family to raise another one that wasn't his, the mom that had to struggle to make ends meet because I had married a dead beat, alcoholic husband. Yeah I was a statistic. Hell i'm still the statistic....I have a wonderful hubby of 17 years but he sees not problem in me so I should just be happy with that...right??? wrong. Anyhow people who have lived and grown up with insecurities, know just where i'm coming from here. I think this menopause thing is bringing it all back to the forfront once again. Oh not the troubles, i'm over that part, or so I thought, I just want to have the confidence some women have in themselves no matter their size. I don't. It is like if i'm not perfect then I'm failing in some way. So why bother with the work, i'm going to fail anyhow because hell that is what always happens. Right???

Wrong again.

This is my time to become the new me. The sky is the limit. Will it be easy? nope, but I have spark and I have this darn blog and I can put it outthere and work my way through whatever is not working for me. So I'm not going to end this with a nice little word of it's fine, i'm fine, I got this. because right now I don't have anything but a lot of guilt over why i'm back at the beginning. So I have to deal with that first and move forward. So You can follow me on my journey and see what is what or I can do this alone, but you know what???? HOW???? One step at a time, one pound at a time that is how.

MIchelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/10/2013 1:03AM

    My dear, sweet friend, you have not failed! Failure is a dirty word. You've survived the hard times, you've raised children, you've lost the past and gained a wonderful husband and have grandchildren to enjoy. Failure?? You?? No way!! There is no such thing as perfection, and if there was, it would bore us to pieces. Each day you get up and work on being the best you can be is a day that you succeed.
I know what you are talking about when you start to get noticed. That's what happend to me a year ago and I got right back where I was. I felt so vulnerable, so open to scrutiny. Even though people were complimenting me, I wanted them to STOP -- I didn't want to be looked at so closely. That is just something we need to work on. Why do we not feel worthy of the compliments of others? Why do we feel uncomfortable in our own skin? Why can't we be the confident women we want to be? We can. It is just going to take some work and some believing in ourselves. We've got this.
I'm still cheering for you just as loudly as I can.

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KRICKET4 3/6/2013 11:43AM

    You can do this, my SparkFriend :)
My life seemed to fall into place after I discovered my passion for hiking. (Well, my SparkLife anyway :)). Still struggling with real life quite a bit at times.
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FISHINGLADY66 3/6/2013 10:32AM

    Wishing you the emoticon of courage to stay motivated. You can do it, by taking it One Day at a Time, and One step at a time. When you get discouraged, come back here and re-read your blog. ((Hugs)) Irene

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WALLAHALLA 3/5/2013 11:05PM

    great blog

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TERESA6262 3/5/2013 8:05PM

    Michelle, your openness and honesty, and willingness to be vulnerable has always been one of the reasons I like you. Thanks so much for sharing. I'm starting over, too. I gained back 45 of the 46 lbs I lost 3 years ago. You have a lot of truth ringing in your blogs. I guess we each have to find our own way (with the help pf SPARK and friends). I having been reflecting on whether I feed and calm my hurts and emotions with food, instead "dealing" at the foot of the cross. I don't drink, don't smoke, don't cuss, don't do drugs but I SURE CAN EAT! :D Food is my diversion of choice! Thanks again for posting. Enjoy your vacation in Florida! Wave hello if you pass through Chiefland!
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Let your change begin today

Sunday, March 03, 2013


One who gains strength by overcoming obstacles
possesses the only strength which can overcome adversity.
- Albert Schweitzer



I'm sharing these with you not because i've overcome some great obstacle and I know you can also. Nope, i'm just little ole me working hard at this. I have come to learn that there is many hurdles that I personally have to overcome. One of course is just getting up off my butt and getting moving. The other is the way I feel about the me I am right this moment. That is the tough one. Because I will never move forward until I learn to love me. Not the me in the mirror so much as the me inside. The mind is a funny thing. It can make you see things that arent' real, it can talk you into or out of lots of situations. But it can be your worst enemy or your best friend the choice is up to you.

Well the last week i've chosen to make it my best friend. I"ve chosen to plan better, eat better, move more. Now was there a big huge change on the scales this week? Well a bit 0.4 which in my book is still a half pound in the right direction. Am I upset that I moved more, ate less, measured, weighed, planned, had small conferences with myself, and only lost a half pound? Let me let you in on my little secret.....if I did that what kind of person would I be? I would be here only for the scales. I'm here for so much more than that. At first that was my plan some four years ago, many ups, downs, almosts, not quites, and so on. But as I sit here today, i'm learning to get off my depression pills with the help of diet and exercise (no easy task I tell ya), i'm learning that I am beautiful, i'm healthy, I have new wants and needs, and some of them actually include being nice to me. So what has my journey taught me so far? I"M BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER MY SIZE!!!! I just need to learn to love the me I am right now and the rest will fall into place.

There is no magic pill, there is no drink, no sweat suit, no spa, nothing that is going to get me there any quicker than if I get up and get moving. So today let your journey to the YOU you've always wanted begin. It is only one small step at a time and it will happen if you allow the changes to come from inside first.

Like the emoticon let the change begin today.

Michelle.

  
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WALLAHALLA 3/4/2013 11:52AM

    Logic tries to tell us if we don't see a movement we are full of poop. Reality is, sometimes movement is slow. Glaciers are giant structures of beauty. So much more below the surface than what is visible to the eye. The move very slowly, yet have been credited with creating lovely rivers and lakes that millions benefit from, not to mention grand canyons. I prefer to think of journey as that of a glacier. Every small change I make will create an impact that lasts for years to come.

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DEBRITA01 3/4/2013 6:27AM

    Loving ourselves just as we are...a good message for today. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/3/2013 11:15PM

    Yes! You ARE a beautiful woman!! Treat yourself the way you treat those around you -- you deserve as much (or more!) consideration as they do!
It's easier said than done, I know that. You know that we've both struggled with some issues that while they SEEM unrelated to weight loss, they sure have a lot to do with the self image issues that hold us back from achieving our goals so it's time we let them go. Time we concentrated on how wonderful we are and how much we deserve to be healthy! You, my friend, are on the right track!!!

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IUHRYTR 3/3/2013 11:14PM

    A weekly loss of .4 pounds is nearly 21 pounds a year. Many of us would take that, wouldn't we? Keep up the good effort and stay focused and positive. -- Lou

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MIDROAD 3/3/2013 8:57AM

    Your blogs always inspire me! And you are so right, we start this journey thinking its all about changing the "outside", when in fact it's all about changing that small space between the ears. Success is ours for the taking.
Have a wonderful week!

Jeannie

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SORTIZA99 3/3/2013 8:26AM

    Keep up your positive attitude.
Good day.

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GLUECIPHER 3/3/2013 8:24AM

    You sound very positive. Keep it up!

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Trust in yourself

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Ever do this? Just stand with the door open waiting for something to jump out at ya but it never does. Yup your just bored not hungry. If you stand there long enough you will be tempted to grab and go but what you get won't fix what is wrong.

Self-trust is the first secret of success. - Ralph Waldo Emerson

This quote was on one of my team threads. Is this not what a lot of us don't have? I myself don't trust myself so I tell all who will listen about my goals. I have informed those I work with that if they see me with something I shouldn't have they are to take it from me. I need to be accountable to me but I sometimes need a little help from friends.

The weekend was nice. the weather here in the south was awesome today so my hubby and I headed out early got our groceries and got back home by eleven so to enjoy the sunshine. I got a new bird feeder (you know your getting old when you enjoy watching the birds) and I got outside and got it set up and the old one filled. Now my spring friends have a bit to keep them coming back.

So as I head off to finish my evening I want to let my fellow team mates on WW that i'm still holding strong. Day three and i'm planning better, eating better, and still getting the exercise in. Never think it can't be done because YOU can do it. Remember: "Self-trust is the first secret of success. - Ralph Waldo Emerson"Trust in yourself and in the process.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 3/2/2013 1:54AM

    Woo hoo Michelle!!!

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WALLAHALLA 2/25/2013 2:16PM

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my pitfall is not so much one of trust, but falling for the idea that I need instant gratification

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SHERYLDS 2/25/2013 9:58AM

    I was once tempted to put up a small sign on my cubicle that read
BEWARE OF DIETER...

someone in the office always had snacks available and people hate to binge alone
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KENTUCKYWOMAN 2/25/2013 4:02AM

    I am so very proud of you.
Hugs,
Joan

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