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My first walk without my buddy

Saturday, January 12, 2013

This pic is of the walk I took this morning with my little walking pal. This was our first walk in quite some time. We lost our other walking buddy a few weeks before Christmas and it was just too hard to walk and not think of Mr. Peebles. I miss my little buddy. If you have never had a pet that just steals your heart and it is like losing a child when they go then you just can't imagine how my heart hurt this morning going off with just the one. But I shed a few tears and I walked three miles because that is what he enjoyed doing. I won't say it was easy...the walk that is. I haven't noticed how out of shape I had gotten until I headed out. The hills got higher, the miles got longer. Ok maybe not for real but my legs...as they are sore now...can attest it was tough.

So today I not only concured my workout but I also allowed a part of me to heal. Sometimes that is what is needed....a bit of healing time.

As I put today to rest i'm feeling pretty good about it all. I had a wonderful walk, I got so much done in this house today. I live in the south so the weather was awesome, I had the windows open, I shampooed rugs, mopped, and just got things organized. When I finished it was time to have a good shower and lunch. So i'm on track, tired, and ready to take on my Sunday.

Sometimes you have to jump in with both feet. I feel like I did that today.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 1/14/2013 6:22PM

    I'm so proud of yor for heading out on that walk and knowing it is what you needed to do to heal!
Sounds like you got a lot accomplished! Yay you!!

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FITANDFIFTY2 1/13/2013 1:01AM

    I am so sorry for your loss!! They truly are a member of your family and it hurts so very bad when you lose them!! Hugs to you! emoticon

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WALLAHALLA 1/13/2013 12:57AM

    It is important to allow ourselves to grieve for our pets, after all, they are our loved ones too.
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KEEPITSIMPLE_ 1/12/2013 10:39PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss, you did a great job to keep on moving. I can't imagine the pain, and I wonder myself, when I walk outdoors with my 2 fur-buds, about the time we have left together. They are about 12-13, and I know our time together is precious. They are the sweetest ever! Time will heal all wounds! Keep on walking for them!

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SHERYLDS 1/12/2013 9:43PM

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IUHRYTR 1/12/2013 9:05PM

    Our pets often become closer to us than our family and it is heartrending when we must say goodbye to one of them. Hoping your memories of the happy times you two had together will help you through the sad times. emoticon -- Lou

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ARW715 1/12/2013 8:32PM

    We lost our walking dog, Meadow, two years ago and I still miss her. We have a new pup, but she isn't as interested in long walks.

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TERESA6262 1/12/2013 8:03PM

    :) Sorry about your loss!

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LINWINAGAIN 1/12/2013 7:10PM

    emoticon great job Michelle! I know how heart breaking it is to lose your 4 legged buddy. And I love it when I can open the windows and really clean the house!
It takes time to heal, but you are heading in the right direction, and I bet your other buddy is thankful he has part of you back! God Bless! emoticon

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Plan B: Sometimes you have to have one.

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

This time in joining Weight Watchers I have actually taken the time to read the books. I mean before I just kinda jumped in with both feet and well we all know what happens next....we sink or swim. I sank. This time i'm even working the "Success Handbook" and it is very eye opening to put down on paper your goals, how your going to get there, things that you feel, how you handle the feelings. Sometimes it is easier to just turn a blind eye and pretend that nothing is happening or nothing is wrong. But something is very wrong when you eat the emotions instead of fixing the problems. So i'm trying Plan B....doing it the way it should be done not the way I want it done.

I mean after all isn't that what we are here for? To succeed and be healthy.

Michelle.

  
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TERESA6262 1/10/2013 7:56PM

    I've always thought I just happen to like food a lot. I need to figure out if I am an emotional eater, or simply overindulging. Is there a difference? Thanks for sharing! let us know how weight watchers goes!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 1/10/2013 7:08PM

    Michell, I'm so very proud of you!! You are making yourself a priority and tackling this head on. You are going to succeed -- you already ARE succeeding!
Great job!!

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KITKAT717 1/10/2013 7:47AM

    Sounds good! Good job for trying again!!! emoticon

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IUHRYTR 1/9/2013 11:11PM

    Not only are we blessed with unlimited new beginnings but with unlimited plans, too... If A doesn't work we still have backup plans to try until we find one that works for us. So, stay strong, never give up and always believe in yourself you can and will do this. emoticon -- Lou

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WALLAHALLA 1/9/2013 10:52PM

    I remember a teacher asking us, "Why is it you never have enough time to do it right the first time, but you always have the time to do it over?"

My Dad always said, "Do it right, or don't do it at all."

Those to phrases always stuck in my head, and make me kind of a stickler for following directions.

Good luck with it!

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KENDRACARROLL 1/9/2013 9:33PM

    Good for you! Might as well do it right :)

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MIDROAD 1/9/2013 8:42PM

    But something is very wrong when you eat the emotions instead of fixing the problems. So i'm trying Plan B....doing it the way it should be done not the way I want it done.

Never heard it put better!



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Getting an early start

Monday, January 07, 2013



When I first began this "new" journey I was a bit worried about how it was going to play out. I mean I had started and stopped so many times along the way. But this tie feels different, 2013 feels different. I can't say why I just feel like this is going to be my year. So i'm getting an early start on the day today and on 2013 and taking control of myself and my lifestyle NOW. Really there is no sense in waiting for the right moment because if this journey has taught me anything it is that there is no right moment. We just have to begin ;and let the journey unfold.

I watched the Biggest Loser last night and one girl left. She wasn't ready to begin or to "cleanse" herself of the old habits. So she wasted a spot that could of helped one person that was ready. I was a bit upset with that myself. Not that she wasn't ready because we have all been there, but that she wasted that spot. You have to know going in that this journey is so much more than just getting "skinny". It is about your mental state. I mean there is a reason why you grab for the chips instead of going to a walk. And with the childhood obesity being what it is....yup too much indoor video and not enough outdoor bikes. I'm not judging because I have a grandson that is overweight. He is 5 and in the 95 percentile for his weight. Not good. Now mind you both his parents are overweight. So he comes by it naturally and it isn't that he doesn't go outside because he does....but more often then not he is in front of the tv with spongebob.

So it is up to us to take out little part of the world and make it better for us and our families. So why not today? There really is no better time to begin than now.

Michelle. emoticon

  
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KENDRACARROLL 1/7/2013 8:57PM

    I'm with you! 2013 will be fabulous!
Hope your daughter will educate herself a bit better about nutrition. This little guy deserves a chance growing up at a normal weight.

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WALLAHALLA 1/7/2013 1:26PM

    Couldn't agree more. Now is the time to seize the brass ring!

I watched BL last night, and was not only disgusted that she quit, and robbed someone else of the opportunity to be there, but also that they went ahead and sent someone home who was doing the work and DID want to be there. Seriously, they need to do a better job of screening their contestants. I was glad to see that the kids would not be eliminated. Personally, I would rather see the adults suffer penalties rather than be eliminated, at least for the 1st half.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 1/7/2013 11:20AM

    Michelle, thanks for this this morning. Your insights have helped firm my resolve for the day. You are right is is up to us to make our little part of the world a better place. We can do this.
Congratulations on making such a great start to 2013 -- I KNOW it's going to be your year because you CHOOSE it to be!!
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KENDRAB9 1/7/2013 10:52AM

    Absolutely, 2013 is our year! Go after your goal! emoticon

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 1/7/2013 8:22AM

    Great post Michelle. I also see an opportunity for you to guide your Grandson. I am so very proud of you.
Hugs,
Joan

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This time is about ME

Sunday, January 06, 2013

For the past two years i've allowed myself to regain the weight that I had worked so hard to lose. Why? I know some will ask because they haven't reached that point and they think heck if I make it I won't go back. Well sometimes we lose the weight but we don't lose the old thinking. Well this time is a bit different. I have come to realize that I have to change my thinking, as well as my body. Yup you can lose the weight but it takes work to keep it off. I always found it funny that people at goal and in maintenance always said the real work begins when you reach goal. It really does.

So as I work on losing this weight I am also taking the time to learn a few things about myself that I didn't realize before...or maybe I did know but just put to the side. It is ok to have a cheat day but when that day continues and then becomes a part of your routine it isn't ok. And when they say it didn't happen overnight and it won't come off overnight it is the truth. You don't just wake up one day overweight. It happens gradually and you just brush it aside and ignore the changes until that "oh oh" moment. Not the "ah ha" moment when the journey clicks, this is moment when you head to the store for pants that fit, or you realize you've lived in sweats for months and now it occurs to you that that just isn't right.

Everyone struggles with some portion of this journey. Whether it is the food portions, the exercise, the mental challenges of getting slim, the journaling. We all have out crosses to bear. So this time lets take the time to find what it is we are searching for and for the last time lets get this weight off and then we can learn to live in another world. A world of control over our emotions.

Michelle.
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ARW715 1/6/2013 8:57PM

    Amen sister!

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RFJSJ50 1/6/2013 5:27PM

    Your words have so much meaning for me. I'm on a similar journey in that I'm finally committed to losing the weight I gained after a 100 pound loss. I need to change not only my eating and exercise habits, but also my "mindset" and acceptance of myself.
Stay strong.
Sheila

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WALLAHALLA 1/6/2013 4:53PM

    Maintenance is a battle I look forward to fighting. emoticon It was my goal for the holidays, to enjoy myself, but maintain my loss. Now I am ready to start losing again, so that maintenance can become my lifetime battlefield.

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KENDRACARROLL 1/6/2013 4:47PM

    Ultimately it's all in your head.
You're so right - it's the thinking that needs to change.

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TERESA6262 1/6/2013 2:15PM

    Hi Michelle,
Your blog may me feel better, or at feel least that I am not the only one who has slipped. However, I feel guilty for ME feeling better that YOU slipped too! It's not right! There's something twisted about misery loving company. I too, have gained my weight back. I thought I had made life changes. I didn't think I'd end up here again. I actually considered changing my SP identity and not returning to look for my old SP friends because of the shame and guilt of my failure. Way back when, there there were days and weeks I talked big, and meant it, because my actions really lived up to what I knew was good and right for my health and weight. I DID mean it! But alas, me slipping in small things and then gradually, ever so slowly, reverting back to my old habits and until I just didn't care anymore got me right back to the beginning. However, this time, my plight is worse than before because I KNOW there IS a better way, a more healthy way to live.... and knowing THAT makes my plight and shame worse than it was a few years ago when I started this healthy trek for the first time. Anyway, thanks for sharing, Thanks for making yourself vulnerable by sharing honestly. Know that whatever the case, this particular blog helped me. You helped me. Your blog gave me some hope that at least I am not the only one who's messed up and that I need to quit whining and get on with it! I am grudgingly, entering this health "race" again, even though I don't "feel" like it. I have learned from the past, that actions and success bring on the good feelings and motivation needed for success. So that's where I am at. I am starting with sheer objectivity that I need to do this, but am not "feeling" it yet. Tomorrow is day one! I did start logging some of my food these past few days, to at least begin getting back into the swing of things. Tomorrow is my first day back to work after the holidays and the routine of work days seems to help me stick to a health routine as well. Again, thank you, Michelle. We'll get there... one step at a time.
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IUHRYTR 1/6/2013 11:47AM

    Good points. Good message. -- Lou

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SULTANA2013 1/6/2013 9:17AM

    Great blog and well said emoticon

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New Year/ new ME!!!

Tuesday, January 01, 2013

Don't Wait!
Start on your dreams, your impulses,
your longings, your special occasions today.
Because this is your moment.
- Mary Anne Radmacher

Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.
- Oprah Winfrey



I wanted to get this blog done before I head to work today. I have to work till six and then it will be home eat and bed so I can head back in for the busiest day of the year. So goes the life of working in a fast paced pharmacy.

I want to just say thank you. Today is also my emoticon and with that comes many thoughts and pondering. Like why I haven't taken this journey to heart and reached my goals? Well life sometimes gets in the way and when you don't plan for those times you will end up each January saying this is going to be the year of change. Well I won't start this year off saying that but I will begin it by saying this is a new year, filled with new challenges, new ideas, new goals, and the sky is the limit.

So as the coach says after each prayer before a game "lets go out there and kick some butt"

Michelle. emoticon

  
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IUHRYTR 1/2/2013 10:13PM

    Here's to kicking those unwanted pounds to the waste bin never to be seen again emoticon. -- Lou

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WALLAHALLA 1/1/2013 11:43PM

    Happy Sparkversary! Here's to many happy healthy more!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 1/1/2013 3:33PM

    Happy Sparkiversary!!! You might not be at you ultimate goal, but just think of all you've accomplished in that time and all you learned! So -- a new year brings us the perfect time to begin again, to start fresh and to strive to be our best in the coming year. I know you can do it!


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SHERYLDS 1/1/2013 11:38AM

    A drug pusher eh....
Sometimes I think people would need a lot less drugs if they took better care of their mental health.

Happy New Year Michelle

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MIDROAD 1/1/2013 11:01AM

    This is going to be your year!

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CAKAROO 1/1/2013 8:42AM

    Happy Sparkaversary!! emoticon

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WELLNESSME09 1/1/2013 7:24AM

    Happy 4th year anniversary! emoticon

Much luck to you in 2013! emoticon

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