This time in joining Weight Watchers I have actually taken the time to read the books. I mean before I just kinda jumped in with both feet and well we all know what happens next....we sink or swim. I sank. This time i'm even working the "Success Handbook" and it is very eye opening to put down on paper your goals, how your going to get there, things that you feel, how you handle the feelings. Sometimes it is easier to just turn a blind eye and pretend that nothing is happening or nothing is wrong. But something is very wrong when you eat the emotions instead of fixing the problems. So i'm trying Plan B....doing it the way it should be done not the way I want it done.
I mean after all isn't that what we are here for? To succeed and be healthy.
When I first began this "new" journey I was a bit worried about how it was going to play out. I mean I had started and stopped so many times along the way. But this tie feels different, 2013 feels different. I can't say why I just feel like this is going to be my year. So i'm getting an early start on the day today and on 2013 and taking control of myself and my lifestyle NOW. Really there is no sense in waiting for the right moment because if this journey has taught me anything it is that there is no right moment. We just have to begin ;and let the journey unfold.
I watched the Biggest Loser last night and one girl left. She wasn't ready to begin or to "cleanse" herself of the old habits. So she wasted a spot that could of helped one person that was ready. I was a bit upset with that myself. Not that she wasn't ready because we have all been there, but that she wasted that spot. You have to know going in that this journey is so much more than just getting "skinny". It is about your mental state. I mean there is a reason why you grab for the chips instead of going to a walk. And with the childhood obesity being what it is....yup too much indoor video and not enough outdoor bikes. I'm not judging because I have a grandson that is overweight. He is 5 and in the 95 percentile for his weight. Not good. Now mind you both his parents are overweight. So he comes by it naturally and it isn't that he doesn't go outside because he does....but more often then not he is in front of the tv with spongebob.
So it is up to us to take out little part of the world and make it better for us and our families. So why not today? There really is no better time to begin than now.
For the past two years i've allowed myself to regain the weight that I had worked so hard to lose. Why? I know some will ask because they haven't reached that point and they think heck if I make it I won't go back. Well sometimes we lose the weight but we don't lose the old thinking. Well this time is a bit different. I have come to realize that I have to change my thinking, as well as my body. Yup you can lose the weight but it takes work to keep it off. I always found it funny that people at goal and in maintenance always said the real work begins when you reach goal. It really does.
So as I work on losing this weight I am also taking the time to learn a few things about myself that I didn't realize before...or maybe I did know but just put to the side. It is ok to have a cheat day but when that day continues and then becomes a part of your routine it isn't ok. And when they say it didn't happen overnight and it won't come off overnight it is the truth. You don't just wake up one day overweight. It happens gradually and you just brush it aside and ignore the changes until that "oh oh" moment. Not the "ah ha" moment when the journey clicks, this is moment when you head to the store for pants that fit, or you realize you've lived in sweats for months and now it occurs to you that that just isn't right.
Everyone struggles with some portion of this journey. Whether it is the food portions, the exercise, the mental challenges of getting slim, the journaling. We all have out crosses to bear. So this time lets take the time to find what it is we are searching for and for the last time lets get this weight off and then we can learn to live in another world. A world of control over our emotions.
Start on your dreams, your impulses,
your longings, your special occasions today.
Because this is your moment.
- Mary Anne Radmacher
Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.
- Oprah Winfrey
I wanted to get this blog done before I head to work today. I have to work till six and then it will be home eat and bed so I can head back in for the busiest day of the year. So goes the life of working in a fast paced pharmacy.
I want to just say thank you. Today is also my and with that comes many thoughts and pondering. Like why I haven't taken this journey to heart and reached my goals? Well life sometimes gets in the way and when you don't plan for those times you will end up each January saying this is going to be the year of change. Well I won't start this year off saying that but I will begin it by saying this is a new year, filled with new challenges, new ideas, new goals, and the sky is the limit.
So as the coach says after each prayer before a game "lets go out there and kick some butt"