This is what I did today. You see I headed to the grocery store after my morning workout and I had a list and a plan. I did it. So when I got home and put it all away, ate my weighed and planned lunch, relaxed for a bit, took a nap, then I got up and had a planned snack, then yup dinner. YES. A day for the books. I don't know I just awoke this morning with a new purpose and just ready to see this through. I had a good talk with myself and I just explained to self that we really wanted this...health that is. That it was up to us because.....
As a good friend is fond of telling me and I say it myself alot now....Choices it's all about choices.
Wow today has been so quiet. Hubby had to work and I was left to my own devices all day. Well we all know what that means in my little world.... Yup I pretty much ate my weigh through the day. Now I wrote it all down. I have to tell ya it was pretty scary. But I accounted for each bite, lick, and taste. Progress? You bet. There was a time I would of just pretended that I hadn't eaten all that. but now this time. It was time to face the and I did. Now how will I fix this? Welllll...... I intend to give it all I got move forward.
So when bored may I suggest finding something to do with yourself besides eating.
On the plus side...I got the tree taken care of, the spare room cleaned, the living room back in order and vaccumed. So yeah I didn't sit around all day long and really looking back over my day I didn't eat that much over the norm....it was my choices. Where I should of had fruit I had a pumpkin bread, and then a cheese muffin. So nope it wasn't that I ate so much it was that my choices where strictly out of bordom. So now time to pull up my big girl panties and get back to it.
Although the year began as any other I am not at all sorry to see a new one arrive. We lost my mother in law this year, two of our precious pups within three weeks of each other, and I hit my high on the scale. So how is 2013 going to be any better? Well I can't say there will be no loss of loved ones as I have no control over that, I just have to pray and know that what will be will be. As for my scale shocks throughout the year....well that I can control and i'm taking steps to work on me now. So far i'm three days in and holding my own. Cooking again and that is new. I was so slacking in that area. But so far three nights of meals. Getting my fruits and veggies, and water. Again I had slacked so bad on that.
But as of this moment i'm not slacking on ME and that is my New Years gift to me. If I begin the new year on a high note maybe I can continue with the flow. So Heres to ME.
Ok so it happened on a sunny day in December. Yup I had to head out to the goodwill and get two pairs of jeans in a size that I could wear now. I'm tired of wearing stretch pants, sweats, and such around the house. Oh I have work clothes, but when I'm home I have nothing to wear that fits comfortable. So what does this say to me? It says that the holidays are over, the fun is done, and I have some work to do if I want to be the best I can be. It is official i'm back at my beginning weight that I started Spark with four years ago. I know I came, I saw, I ran away screaming. Really though what this tells me is it is time to be serious and decide what it is I really want out of this journey. Because to be honest I have just been kinda hanging on by a thread and I have to tell ya that thread broke long ago I just kept thinking I was still hanging on. Nope I was on my butt. So time to get back up and be the person I know I can be. Truer words never spoken. I have felt that way for a while now. So today I took the plunge and rejoined Weight Watchers because I know it works if I work the plan. So as of today i'm working the plan one little step at a time. Did I succeed so far today? YUP!! Accountablity something I need and something i've ignored for a long while now.
So as I head off to spark for a bit I want to say THANK YOU for never giving up on me.