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#4: Bordom oh my!!!

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Wow today has been so quiet. Hubby had to work and I was left to my own devices all day. Well we all know what that means in my little world.... Yup I pretty much ate my weigh through the day. Now I wrote it all down. I have to tell ya it was pretty scary. But I accounted for each bite, lick, and taste. Progress? You bet. There was a time I would of just pretended that I hadn't eaten all that. but now this time. It was time to face the emoticon and I did. emoticon Now how will I fix this? Welllll...... I intend to give it all I got move forward.

So when bored may I suggest finding something to do with yourself besides eating.

On the plus side...I got the tree taken care of, the spare room cleaned, the living room back in order and vaccumed. So yeah I didn't sit around all day long and really looking back over my day I didn't eat that much over the norm....it was my choices. Where I should of had fruit I had a pumpkin bread, and then a cheese muffin. So nope it wasn't that I ate so much it was that my choices where strictly out of bordom. So now time to pull up my big girl panties and get back to it.

2013 is when I reach my goals.

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IUHRYTR 1/2/2013 10:18PM

    Now that you have faced the music, it's time to find a new song, one of success and happiness. The title may be: I Can Do It (Yes I Can!). -- Lou

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SWEETROSIE2 12/30/2012 6:54AM

    I think you are doing great, writing everything down and getting straight back on track, good on you.
I love that photo of the little dog how cute is that.

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 12/30/2012 4:47AM

    You wrote it down and you admitted it to not only yourself, but to everyone that reads your blog. YOU GO GIRL!!!!!!!!

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WALLAHALLA 12/29/2012 8:00PM

    Being honest with oneself is the 1st huge step in the direction of success! That goal is waitin' for ya. Go get it! emoticon

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ANEWME42012 12/29/2012 7:14PM

    Good job for being accountable. Acknowledging what is happening is the first step to changing it. Keep up the good work.

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Bye bye 2012: Day 3

Friday, December 28, 2012



Although the year began as any other I am not at all sorry to see a new one arrive. We lost my mother in law this year, two of our precious pups within three weeks of each other, and I hit my high on the scale. So how is 2013 going to be any better? Well I can't say there will be no loss of loved ones as I have no control over that, I just have to pray and know that what will be will be. As for my scale shocks throughout the year....well that I can control and i'm taking steps to work on me now. So far i'm three days in and holding my own. Cooking again and that is new. I was so slacking in that area. But so far three nights of meals. Getting my fruits and veggies, and water. Again I had slacked so bad on that.

But as of this moment i'm not slacking on ME and that is my New Years gift to me. If I begin the new year on a high note maybe I can continue with the flow. So emoticon Heres to ME.

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IUHRYTR 1/2/2013 10:15PM

    Indeed you can do it. New year, new focus and new determination. emoticon -- Lou

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SHERYLDS 12/29/2012 11:19AM

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 12/29/2012 10:08AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon to you my friend!
Thanks for stopping by! I was MIA for a minute but I am getting it back together. Awesome blog!

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ARW715 12/29/2012 8:08AM

    I am glad I found your blog in 2012. :)

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SWEETROSIE2 12/29/2012 7:28AM

    You can do this Michelle I also believe in you. Like we said take one day at a time.

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WALLAHALLA 12/28/2012 9:36PM

    Cheers! emoticon I believe in you!

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Clothes that fit...really!

Thursday, December 27, 2012



Ok so it happened on a sunny day in December. Yup I had to head out to the goodwill and get two pairs of jeans in a size that I could wear now. I'm tired of wearing stretch pants, sweats, and such around the house. Oh I have work clothes, but when I'm home I have nothing to wear that fits comfortable. So what does this say to me? It says that the holidays are over, the fun is done, and I have some work to do if I want to be the best I can be. It is official i'm back at my beginning weight that I started Spark with four years ago. I know I came, I saw, I ran away screaming. Really though what this tells me is it is time to be serious and decide what it is I really want out of this journey. Because to be honest I have just been kinda hanging on by a thread and I have to tell ya that thread broke long ago I just kept thinking I was still hanging on. Nope I was on my butt. So time to get back up and be the person I know I can be. Truer words never spoken. I have felt that way for a while now. So today I took the plunge and rejoined Weight Watchers because I know it works if I work the plan. So as of today i'm working the plan one little step at a time. Did I succeed so far today? YUP!! Accountablity something I need and something i've ignored for a long while now.

So as I head off to spark for a bit I want to say THANK YOU for never giving up on me. emoticon

  
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ARW715 12/29/2012 8:11AM

    Like Tayler Swift says "We will never, ever, ever giving up on you!' Or something like that. :)

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MIDROAD 12/28/2012 12:16PM

    You can so do this!
Remember to be loving and gentle with yourself, ok?

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CAKAROO 12/28/2012 6:23AM

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 12/28/2012 4:47AM

    Only you can make the change. Hang in there, we will get there.
Love ya,
Joan

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 12/28/2012 12:16AM

    Hang in there, Michelle! We're right here with you, so keep plugging along!!
OMG -- I LOVE the sign about eating/feeling like crap. Why is that so hard for me to remember??
You can do this!!!

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KRICKET4 12/27/2012 10:50PM

    I lost all but the last few pounds with WW.
You go!

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TRYINGTOLOSE64 12/27/2012 8:34PM

    You can do this but remember it has to be a lifestyle change.

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WALLAHALLA 12/27/2012 7:56PM

    emoticon emoticon WW is a good plan.

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Goals met

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Well here it is day one and I did it. Yup me the one who never thinks I can do a day one and start the ball rolling. Well this ball is beginning to move the earth a bit.

I got in my exercise, water oh yeah lots of water, only had two diet drinks, and i'm not to my minimum on the food tracker. Now that wasn't intentional and I will have a "snack" to reach at least the minimum or not. Oh wait I have hot cocoa. That should put me at the line. YES now to move forward and see what tomorrow holds for me. I can see it is all in the planning. Oh and don't eat and run. Today I sat and had my meals and didn't just graze. I fixed my plate and when I was done I was done.

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MIDROAD 12/27/2012 10:08AM

    You go girl!

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ARW715 12/27/2012 9:39AM

    Love Day 1. :)

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 12/26/2012 11:39PM

    Well done Michelle!! Congratulations on a successful day!

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WALLAHALLA 12/26/2012 11:11PM

    Good for you! emoticon

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KRICKET4 12/26/2012 10:04PM

    Well done!

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DIET_FRIEND 12/26/2012 7:00PM

    Well done! we all have to start somewhere.

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GARDEMON 12/26/2012 6:59PM

  Let that ball roll.

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Holiday ramblings

Tuesday, December 25, 2012



As I sit here ready to blog i'm really not sure what I want to say. I mean the holiday is upon us and over with here. I've really not done what I should of but a very lot of what I wanted....that is in the food department. I did get in the exercise and I know in my heart that isn't going to fix anything that i've done. I don't know could we......

Ok maybe not. I will not lie to you or myself. I ate my weight in junk these last couple of days. Now I never set out to do anything special but staying in countrol of myself would of been a start. But that didn't happen. Really what happened was I pretty much just gave up on my goals. I even went through the blogs of others looking to see if anyone was feeling as guilty as me over what I had and have done to myself this past year. Nope....not a one. All I found was "I reached my goal, or I lost 50 pounds, or 360 days on track" really???? What is wrong with me that I can't even get the one day. I mean it is just one little day. Day one is the day when the momentum is picked up and the ball starts rolling. When you see yourself thin and you are willing to do all that you can to see your goals reached. I had a great couple of weeks and then I allowed this holiday and all the things I know darn well I can't have with any kind of control control me and my stomach. I say my stomach because right now i'm feeling a bit emoticon And not in a very good way. YUCK is a word that comes to mind.

So what do I plan to do about this? What steps do I plan to take to make it happen. You know the IT i'm talking about...yup the IT that happened to all those sparkers that blogged on here. The goals reached, the days in a row of success, the happy warm feeling you get when you step on the scales and see that magic number reached. Yup I'm talking about IT....the dream. Well I won't sit here and tell you that I have a plan, because right now I don't. Oh I have the food plan, it is the other plan i'm' refering to....what happens when that food is in my reach, what happens when I want it but I know that one bite is going to undo all my hard work. Nope I have not one plan for that yet. I just have to begin and get this ball rolling. Once it is rolling i know each new day will bring me a bit of strength that one day will see me say "No thank-you I don't eat that anymore". Hey a girl can dream. But for now I just want to..... Just wake me when the new year is upon us....

I can't do that either....I need to be awake to see this through. I need to sit and decide what it is i'm searching for and wanting from all this. because right now I just want to beat me up and I know that isn't the thing to do. So this holiday i'm really looking forward to the one gift I can give myself. The gift of health. So heres to good health and wiser choices....
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 12/25/2012 9:47PM

    Alright my dear friend, you are being too hard on yourself. Okay, I know you aren't where you want to be right now, but take a good look at what you DO accomplish. You are still here, you are still trying and you ARE going to win this war. I know you read a lot of blogs about the great success others have had, and while I know you are happy for them, I know you wonder, "why not me? why can't I do that?" For some reason we continue to sabotage our own efforts and stand in our own way. We don't have to. You are most definitely not alone in finding that this journey to health is a struggle. I need to learn that I too cannot exercise self control over the junk food so I don't need to put it in my mouth in the first place. We can do this. there are always going to be setbacks, but the reasons to keep trying are going to far outweigh the reasons to give in.
I have faith in you.

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WALLAHALLA 12/25/2012 7:20PM

    nothing wrong with enjoying ourselves every now and again...not daily, but once in a while.

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KRICKET4 12/25/2012 7:17PM

    Cheers.
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I'm wishing you can find a way to not be so hard on yourself.
My best strategy is to distract myself and get away from the kitchen as far as I possibly can. Get busy, my friend.

You can do this!!!

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