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Time for change

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

As I am writing this blog i'm wondering what I can say to inspire someone else. I sit here back almost to my starting weight four years ago. How could that possible inspire anyone to take that first step?

I have to tell ya it isn't easy to come here and say "i've failed". But really have I? I mean i'm coming here each and everyday. I log exercise minutes, though they really could be more, I begin the day off on track, it is the afternoons and evenings that hit me hard. So what do I intend to tell anyone who is struggling also at this moment?

Change is scary but nothing is scarier than looking in the mirror, buying clothes the old size, changing belts four times before you find one that fits (did that one yesterday), getting on the treadmill and not lasting twenty minutes. Sit ups? Oh yeah I remember those, vaguely. How about the tingling you get from standing on your feet all day and heaven forbid you sit down when you get hurts worse to get back up and try to make your way to the kitchen to get dinner.

So all of this has led me back to spark and to fully embrace all that it has to offer. I know the holidays are coming but what better way to enjoy them then to celebrate success if even for one day. Because that one day will give you strength to reach for two.

Michelle. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 12/6/2012 9:24AM

    Michelle, your dedication to change and your determination to succeed as well as your willingness to share your struggles as well as your victories will always be inspirational.
Right now, today I want you to do something. I want you to stop focusing on where you WERE. I want you to stop reminding yourself that you were ALMOST at that magic number. Yeah, I are rolling your eyes at me right now. I'm okay with that. I want you to hold your head high, look in the mirror and see how much you have changed. This journey isn't always about our weight..sometimes it's about finding out what makes us happy, what makes us strong, and what is important to us. It makes us realize who we are and what we want or don't want out of this life we are leading.
Today, CHOOSE. Choose to stop looking at the past, stop dwelling on where you HAVE BEEN on this journey and don't try to go back. Right now, take a new fork in this road and start a NEW journey. Take the lessons you need from the past and leave the rest behind. From today, don't try to regain lost ground....celebrate the beginning of a new road laid out before you.
I know you have the power and determination to do this. Welcome to TODAY. A day that you have before you to shape any what you choose. Yes, I said it again -- CHOICES. Know that you are loved and appreciated.

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GOPINTOS 12/5/2012 1:03PM

    I know you can do it. This isnt my first rodeo either. I lost some weight about 2 decades ago, and here I am... again. But the difference is, I was "here again" for the majority of these last two decades, so you are so much farther ahead of the game by getting back to what you know you need to do.

I was an exercise fool before, and knew almost nothing about nutrition. Now that I know what I know about nutrition, and how it is 80% of the game, there is no reason to not reach my goal. And I know you will reach your goals as well!!


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IUHRYTR 12/5/2012 12:39PM

    It can be depressing to focus on a perceived failure but if we look at this as another opportunity for a new beginning, our setback can be put in perspective. Think of how much you have learned from being active on this site and how all of that will help you succeed this time. emoticon -- Lou

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WALLAHALLA 12/4/2012 3:49PM

    You inspire others by being honest and real. There is nothing more discouraging than to read blog after blog where everyone is doing everything perfectly and it is all so easy for them to be successful. I come here for real people with real struggles who really have to work for it. That is what inspires me to keep going.

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KENDRACARROLL 12/4/2012 11:33AM

    “Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall.”


“Fall seven times, stand up eight.”
~Japanese Proverb~


“Genius is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration.”
~Thomas Edison~


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ARW715 12/4/2012 10:04AM

    Michelle, you inspire me every time i read your posts. I always take something away from them that helps me. I wish I could say something to help you, but I am not as good at it as you are. I will just say that we have all been there. I went from 265 to 170 about 8 years ago and in August I found myself back at 250, buying my old sizes, shopping in the stores I hoped I would have to visit again. I believe you, we can do it. You can do it.

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Happy Thanksgiving Sparkers

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Today is a day of giving thanks for all that we are blessed for.

If you had a meal that looked something like this...then you might have went over your daily calories a bit. Ok a lot.

So don't worry about over doing it today. There is always tomorrow.

So as I close on this blog and put this Thanksgiving to rest I want to say thank you to all my friends and spark family for having my back and picking me up when I fall.

Michelle. emoticon emoticon

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ARW715 11/23/2012 7:09AM

    Thank you for posting this, the last one really meant a lot to me.

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 11/23/2012 4:34AM

    I love this Michelle. Thanks for my Sparks Goodie.

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KENDRACARROLL 11/22/2012 10:17PM

    Man, that meal would last me for a week :)
Hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving.

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/22/2012 9:11PM

    Michelle, I hope you and your family had a wonderful Thanksgiving.
We truly do have much to be thankful for. I thank YOU for being a great friend.

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Article to share: focus on feeling good

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

Losing Weight Vs Healthy and Fit

By Daniel Chidiac

“An active mind cannot exist in an inactive body.” ~General George S. Patton

“Losing weight,” has a negative notion around it. It builds a constant
fear. As long as you think of wanting to lose weight, that’s all you will
ever want to keep doing. We are inundated with marketing campaigns that
shove such an ideal right in our face. We all know that fear is the
number-one seller, and what better way to instill it than on appearance.

In the instance of having a “losing weight” mindset, we surround ourselves
with the words “lose, lose, and lose.” We get into the belief of losing
and never seem to be winning, hence why most are never satisfied. The
obsession with losing weight becomes a never-ending story.

Many of the “desirable” people shown in magazines are malnourished,
airbrushed, or take extreme health risks in the hope of getting work.
Having been in the clothing industry, personal training, and now in
coaching, has given me a fair insight into models and other media-related
personnel. I have met extraordinarily good-looking people and high-profile
models throughout my life, yet some of them have the biggest insecurities
with the way they look. Believe it or not, some are also the unhappiest
and most unfulfilled individuals I have ever met. Don’t get me
wrong—looking good is great—however you will never think you look good
unless you feel great about your choice of lifestyle. You go from being
happy one day to being upset the next because you want to lose a little
more weight off your right butt cheek, or your left arm is smaller than
the other, and this craziness continues on forever. In so many cases, it
consumes someone’s whole life to the point where they forget how to live!

Full Focus on Feeling (FFF) is the key to success in any aspect. We have
to shift our mindset to being healthy and fit. It’s about the feeling, not
the visual appearance to others. Everyone has different opinions, so you
are going to be pretty unsatisfied if you are just doing it for that
reason. When you start getting a little wrinkly, or your body doesn’t seem
to keep in shape as well as when you were younger, are you going to hate
yourself? That’s why this world is filled with appearance challenges,
because we believe that feeling great starts with outward appearance. Your
body should be loved for the highly technical machine it is. It deserves
respect for housing the only thing that is ever permanent: your soul.

Feeling great is the secret to everlasting happiness. When we exercise, we
must amplify the importance of how it’s making us feel, because that’s
what keeps us motivated. Reverse “looking good, then feeling good” to
“feeling good, then looking good” because that’s the truth in remaining

Bathroom scales should be smashed with a baseball bat—not the basis of
your success. If you are training, you will be building muscle, which
weighs more than fat. The scales can definitely mess with your mind, so I
advise to just get rid of them. You are not going to see results overnight
if you go for looks, but you will immediately notice results when going
for the feeling.

A body builder I knew had an amazing physique, but all I would hear him do
was complain about his body. To him, there was always something wrong with
it, and his appearance soon became an obsession. It took control over
every area of his life. He saw his relationship diminish, finances go
down, and his emotional state hit its lowest point ever.

We are all imperfect if you wish to look at it that way, but I like to see
it as we are all perfect. Our imperfections make us perfect. If we were
all the same, this world would be pretty boring. We all have different
perceptions of what we find appealing, but the point of feeling great
makes you appealing to everyone. Your glow is contagious, and you will
notice that when you go for the feeling, the physical shape comes rapidly
along with it. I have personally trained hundreds of clients, and the ones
who go for the looks to make them happy never last, or are constantly
unfulfilled. Those who go for the feeling acknowledge that being healthy
and fit is a lifestyle to drive them to their peak, and help them attain
that balance for a great life.

Losing weight is an activity that drives us mad; thriving to be healthy
and fit is a lifestyle that lasts forever.




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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/16/2012 11:39PM

    Thanks for sharing!

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WALLAHALLA 11/7/2012 6:46PM

    good stuff

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MIDROAD 11/7/2012 1:14PM

    Wonderful article, thanks so much for sharing

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KENDRACARROLL 11/7/2012 9:24AM

    I few points I could argue with, but basically true.
Had to laugh - my left thigh is 1/4 inch thinner than my right one...

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Believing in ME?

Friday, November 02, 2012

Kelly, the SparkPeople office manager says:
If YOU don't make time for your health, who will?


You have to believe you can do it. It is the core of any decision to loose weight and get in shape. Believe in yourself.

I guess most of my problem is I don't believe in me. I mean yeah I get up each morning and I start my new page in my food journal and I hold out hope that today is going to be the day to turn it all around. Then I eat a good planned breakfast, pack my lunch for the day, and hey according to the journal i'm still doing great. Ok that should take me till dinner when I get home and have that planned meal. But wait.....

I work at WALMART. So it is break time and I just have to have those crackers with peanut butter because well I should be eating an apple but those look like they would hold me better. And it is lunch time and I know i have a good healthy sandwich with carrots and a fruit but I really would like those chips I saw on my way in this morning so i'm going to just get those and only eat one serving....ok so the bag is empty....that couldn't of been me eating all that. Then I get home and my hubby says he is tired and he has eaten a late lunch (he works strange hours) so no dinner for him. Well now i'm not going to cook all that food for just me. So I decide well I'll save that for another day. So I fix me something quick....quick means one thing to the next because now i'm grazing. I mean i'm tired myself and "cooking" just sounds so exausting.

Do you see a pattern here? I start off with good intentions and by the end of the day it is out of whack. So what to do about it? Well first off I need to eat that breakfast and pack a snack for break. No eating on the run. what I have packed. I planned it and I know it is going to hold me till dinner so why add the stuff I don't need...dinner...have a plan B just in case. Could be soup, or a frozen dinner just for that occasion when Todd isn't hungry. Snack at night? Nothing after dinner. Water and lights out.

So will I do this? who know for sure. I want to but do I want to badly enough to stop the madness and just BELIEVE I can make the changes needed and work the program? there in lies the question of a lifetime. I say I want this but the numbers on the scales at the doctors yesterday say otherwise. She says I need more water, I say I need a lot less food.

Michelle. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 11/3/2012 12:08AM

    Girl, you could have written that one for me! All my best intentions are somehow gone by 2 pm.
But, I'm here to tell you taht I for one believe in you -- I know you can. I know WE can.
Hang in there and just keep moving!!

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IUHRYTR 11/2/2012 10:33PM

    I'm in the same boat emoticon as far as eating what I don't want, especially when I know it will put over the day's calorie range. I guess we can only start again by taking things one one healthy meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time always believing in ourselves we can do this, one pound at a time. emoticon! -- Lou

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WALLAHALLA 11/2/2012 6:12PM

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KENDRACARROLL 11/2/2012 11:35AM

    More water might lead to less food.
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MIDROAD 11/2/2012 11:26AM

    Great blog Michelle! Thanks for sharing! I know when I worked it was so hard not to eat junk, for me stress=mindless eating! You'll work it out! Be kind and gentle with yourself and have a great successful weekend!



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NANAW12001 11/2/2012 7:28AM

  Thanks for sharing,

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RIDLEYRIDER 11/2/2012 6:36AM

  Keep believing, and you will succeed! emoticon

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Journal Entry

Sunday, October 28, 2012

emoticon I use the planner as a personal journal to say what I want when I want. Somethings can't be shared with the rest of the world. But today I would like to share this with you all. I think a lot of us could use this to gather our skirts and start running for our goals.....

When the newness wears off

When I first began this journy four years ago I was so excited. I did everything like I should from weighing and measuring to exercise just like spark suggested. Well here I am almost back at the same weight I was when I began. Now I have come close to goal and I could reach out and touch it at one point. But alas....I let it get farther and farther away from me. So I begin and begin again. I just never quite seem to find that happy place I was when I was losing then. I guess maybe it has to do with knowing how thin feels and being like I am right now isn't what I want to feel for the remainder of my life. Nor do I wan to take the time to focus and struggle. So where does that leave me? Nowhere.

You see you have to be willing to work for what you want in life. Whether that is losing weight, saving for that dream home, working for that promotion...nothing comes without a bit of work. So what do I plan to do about this situation i'm finding myself in right now? Well that is the question of a lifetime right now. I guess the biggest thing for me is to focus. Not just for the moment for really focus on my goals. I seem to have allowed them to fade into to back ground and it is time to bring them back into focus. No matter where we are at this moment in time we can fix what is wrong. We just have to gather all our strength and work at little pound at a time. Just like saving is all about that one dollar at a time so is losing this weight. Reaching goals isn't about just jumping to them it is about working away at what is holding you back and then the rest will come.

So once more I'm beginning this journey one pound at a time. I have come to the conclusion that I don't like me much right now. I don't the uncomfortable me, the lazy me, the me that only half worksout and follows the plan half of the day. I want to be the me that plans, follows, thinks it through, second guesses, and works out with a sweat soaked vengence. that is the me I want to be. Time to step it up...the end of this year is coming and I don't want to be heading into year five with no change at all.

So what will you do to reach your goals these next few weeks of 2012?


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 10/29/2012 11:44PM

    Oh, how many times have we been down this road?? We do have the power to change ourselves, we do have the strength and the courage to go after our dreams, and to feel like we deserve them. I know you have it in you to see this through. I know you have the perseverance and the determination to succeed. I know that you are strong and capeable and that you deserve to see what you dream about become reality.
We can do this, Michelle. We will keep hanging in here, starting over as many times as is necessary and we will reach the goals that we have set for ourselves. It's a journey and it has taken some time -- that is okay. It's a learning experience and every day we learn something new about ourselves and about what we want out of this life -- so keep reaching, keep pushing and keep dreaming -- you can do it!!!

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KENDRACARROLL 10/29/2012 1:55PM

    Only you can make it happen.
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IUHRYTR 10/28/2012 6:31PM

    I need to also refocus and commit once again to be determined to again lose weight. I've maintained a nearly 40 pound loss but I, too, do not like where I'm at. Thanks for the kick in the pants to get serious, one pound at a time. emoticon! -- Lou

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WALLAHALLA 10/28/2012 6:27PM

    Kick it in gear...that's what I plan to do.

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MIDROAD 10/28/2012 2:51PM

    This really resonates with me. My experience being close to goal, is that I never get all the way there. I get complacent, think I look pretty good, then lapse into my old habits.

For me, it's almost anti- climatic when I get close to goal I think I miss the drama of the weight coming off.

What I'm doing this time around is looking towards maintenance. Joined a at goal team. Looking at statistics and behaviors of successful maintainers. Just really working on my mindset.

Besides my tendency towards complacency I really need to start cooking healthy meals.


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