Saturday, September 15, 2012
Whatever you can do, or dream you can, Begin it.
Boldness has genius, power and magic in it, Begin it now.
- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams.
Live the life you have imagined.
- Henry David Thoreau
Two people count them two whole days OP (on point) and on plan with me and Weight watchers. Why is the first week always the hardest? But so far I have planned, and talked myself away from messing up. For me this is a large success. I know your thinking wow two whole days, well la ti da. but people i've been struggling for over two years now. Ok maybe not struggleing because really I haven't given it much thought. I have just somehow put back almost 15 pounds I had already lost. So i'm doing the backwards shuffle and retracing my steps over old ground right now. So not where I expected to be at this point. But then again who ever said this was going to be easy.
So as I should be in bed, but sleep seems to be eluding me tonight, i'm so thrilled to be starting day 3 in a 21 days to a new habit self challenge.
Sunday, September 09, 2012
I'm not down and out yet. I got up and got more cleaning done. I have ate according to plan all day and went for a hour long walk with my daughter. Now i'm enjoying a cup of joe and relaxing with my spark friends for a bit.
I have decided that tomorrow i'm going to be 46 so it is time to get me together. I don't want 47 to come around and me not have accomplished any of my goals. So i'm here, i'm healthy, i'm strong and I can do this.
My mantra is "I"M WORTH THE WORK".
Saturday, September 08, 2012
When you think about quitting, remember why you started. - Chris Powell
As this was posted on my Weight Watchers team today it just shouted out to me. This is what i'm talking about. I began this journey for my health. I was over weight, unhappy, I had just found out I had cervical cancer and it was like a wake up moment. I wasn't ready to give in so I had better do what was needed doing. So I took on the task of recreating the new me. I lost 20 pounds, I started running, I was a new me. I was up on all the latest health ideas, foods, vitamins, exercises.
This is exactly what happened. I headed to my happy place and it seems that I never climbed back out. Oh I was so sure I was going to. Each week I ended and then began yet again. Always holding out hope that this time would get me back on the road to health that just weeks ago I was embracing. But two years slid by. 15 pounds gained back and guess what? I'm still in the happy place in my fridge.
I"m embarrassed to say this. I mean come on so many come here and share such great joys, losses, events, 5k's, and celebrations. Here I am just pledging each week to do a better job than the week before.
Yup, then weigh in comes. I step on those dreaded scales, fingers crossed, and yup im up again. Each week it begins and ends the same. With me getting upset about the week and how weak I was where food was concerned. But you know what?????
So as I end this blog, I have to tell ya. I want change but it has to come from within.....So i'm not perfect I mean really who is? I can only take this journey one day at a time and each day work just a little bit harder on reaching my goals. who knows I may just reach my goal yet.
Friday, September 07, 2012
If you aren't in the moment,
you are either looking forward to uncertainty,
or back to pain and regret.
- Jim Carrey
Ok, so i've allowed myself to fall off the wagon...I don't mean fall I mean tumble, bump my head, hit the wheel on the way down, and then get rolled over by the wheels. Yeah it is pretty sad. But shed no tears for me as I have choosen to do this to myself. It is kinda like I threw myself off the wagon and was willing to take my bumps on the way down. Until of course weigh is looming up ahead and i'm thinking "uh oh now what will I do?" Of course the truth will be out of the bag then. So whose fault will that be? The chips and donuts of course.
Now i'm hanging my head this morning because last night I was having a feast of Hostess mini donuts. When I say feast let my just say i'm by no means exagerating this. One serving has three mini donuts....lets just say I left three mini donuts in the bag......yup sugar overload and not only that I was sick at my stomach. So now comes the question of the century...If it made me so sick why would I do it? Because it was there and I could. No excuses, no lies. They where there. I think my trouble is not eating like I want or rather what I want then eating all at onc sitting. Moderation? what is that? I don't know the meaning of the word. For me it is all or nothing.
Well I guess it is time to go through the detox. I mean by not having any carbs for a bit....not the other kind thank you. Some things are meant to be where they are. Just sayin.
So today I once again start fresh. I mean clean and fresh. It is time to put this behind me and try to move forward....I can lose this last ten pounds, I have been here before and I did it why is it so dang hard now? Maybe because in my mind I know that I did this once and here I am....back almost to the beginning of my last journey. What was I thinking? I wasn't. Plain and simple. So if your in the same boat as me....come along and lets show our minds and bodies we can and we will SUCCEED.
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