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Much Better day

Sunday, September 09, 2012

I'm not down and out yet. I got up and got more cleaning done. I have ate according to plan all day and went for a hour long walk with my daughter. Now i'm enjoying a cup of joe and relaxing with my spark friends for a bit.

I have decided that tomorrow i'm going to be 46 so it is time to get me together. I don't want 47 to come around and me not have accomplished any of my goals. So i'm here, i'm healthy, i'm strong and I can do this.

My mantra is "I"M WORTH THE WORK".

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IUHRYTR 9/12/2012 12:41AM

    Yes! You are worth the effort. Don't give up, ever. -- Lou

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SHERYLDS 9/10/2012 8:25AM

    FANTASTIC.....Love the attitude.....Go For It !!!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/9/2012 11:34PM

    You are soooo worth the work!!!!
I fell behind this past week too, but tomorrow is a new day and we can do it!!

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Week Ending or Weak Ending?

Saturday, September 08, 2012

When you think about quitting, remember why you started. - Chris Powell

As this was posted on my Weight Watchers team today it just shouted out to me. This is what i'm talking about. I began this journey for my health. I was over weight, unhappy, I had just found out I had cervical cancer and it was like a wake up moment. I wasn't ready to give in so I had better do what was needed doing. So I took on the task of recreating the new me. I lost 20 pounds, I started running, I was a new me. I was up on all the latest health ideas, foods, vitamins, exercises.

This is exactly what happened. I headed to my happy place and it seems that I never climbed back out. Oh I was so sure I was going to. Each week I ended and then began yet again. Always holding out hope that this time would get me back on the road to health that just weeks ago I was embracing. But two years slid by. 15 pounds gained back and guess what? I'm still in the happy place in my fridge.

emoticon I"m embarrassed to say this. I mean come on so many come here and share such great joys, losses, events, 5k's, and celebrations. Here I am just pledging each week to do a better job than the week before.

emoticon Yup, then weigh in comes. I step on those dreaded scales, fingers crossed, and yup im up again. Each week it begins and ends the same. With me getting upset about the week and how weak I was where food was concerned. But you know what?????

So as I end this blog, I have to tell ya. I want change but it has to come from within.....So i'm not perfect I mean really who is? I can only take this journey one day at a time and each day work just a little bit harder on reaching my goals. who knows I may just reach my goal yet.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/9/2012 11:33PM

    One day at a time, my friend. It is a journey and there is no such thing as "perfect". You will reach your goals, I know you can!!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/9/2012 3:51PM

    emoticon emoticon To my friend YES WE WILL!

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SHERYLDS 9/9/2012 7:37AM

    you will definitely reach your goal....believe can do it. emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 9/8/2012 11:18PM

    Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment.
—Barry LePatner


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IUHRYTR 9/8/2012 10:06PM

    emoticon emoticon -- Lou

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Fessing up

Friday, September 07, 2012

If you aren't in the moment,
you are either looking forward to uncertainty,
or back to pain and regret.
- Jim Carrey

Ok, so i've allowed myself to fall off the wagon...I don't mean fall I mean tumble, bump my head, hit the wheel on the way down, and then get rolled over by the wheels. Yeah it is pretty sad. But shed no tears for me as I have choosen to do this to myself. It is kinda like I threw myself off the wagon and was willing to take my bumps on the way down. Until of course weigh is looming up ahead and i'm thinking "uh oh now what will I do?" Of course the truth will be out of the bag then. So whose fault will that be? The chips and donuts of course.

Now i'm hanging my head this morning because last night I was having a feast of Hostess mini donuts. When I say feast let my just say i'm by no means exagerating this. One serving has three mini donuts....lets just say I left three mini donuts in the bag......yup sugar overload and not only that I was sick at my stomach. So now comes the question of the century...If it made me so sick why would I do it? Because it was there and I could. No excuses, no lies. They where there. I think my trouble is not eating like I want or rather what I want then eating all at onc sitting. Moderation? what is that? I don't know the meaning of the word. For me it is all or nothing.

Well I guess it is time to go through the detox. I mean by not having any carbs for a bit....not the other kind thank you. Some things are meant to be where they are. Just sayin.

So today I once again start fresh. I mean clean and fresh. It is time to put this behind me and try to move forward....I can lose this last ten pounds, I have been here before and I did it why is it so dang hard now? Maybe because in my mind I know that I did this once and here I am....back almost to the beginning of my last journey. What was I thinking? I wasn't. Plain and simple. So if your in the same boat as me....come along and lets show our minds and bodies we can and we will SUCCEED.


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CKAYTHOMAS 9/11/2012 3:52PM

Fall down seven times, get back up eight!
You know the right thing to do; Do it and make one healthy decision at a time.

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KENDRACARROLL 9/7/2012 11:03AM

    Ha! Jack in the Box with curly fries and soda last night. Not the end of the world. Let's both get back on today.

There are many fall challenges starting in various SP teams right about now. Why not join one? Might be helpful for your motivation.

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SHERYLDS 9/7/2012 7:58AM

    Oh Boy ... Can I Relate!!!
But ...Today is a new day...and moving can do this...You WILL do it.
Because you're smart and strong and you deserve success.

I'm learning that when I have those melt downs.... I'm better buying a single serving of something decadent than bringing a box/bag of stuff into the house.
If I bring the big box into the house...It's like inviting JABBA THE HUT into my living room and we morph. NO MORE. emoticon

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CMKARLS 9/7/2012 7:22AM

  today is a new day and you can do it

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Never give up on YOU

Monday, September 03, 2012

If you have a bad day.....just begin again and again. You have all the time in world to see your goals reached. this isn't a marathon after all. This is your life.

Yup sometimes I feel like im not moving on this journey....but in reality i'm moving very nicely. I'm so much stronger in some areas than I once was. Yeah i'm still weak in some but hey this is the real world and nothing worth having is ever easy.

So i'm not giving up on me and I don't want you to give up on you. Lets get this done.

Michelle. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/3/2012 10:21PM

    I used to think that each day we had another chance to get it right, but the truth is, we have that chance every minute. Just because we fall doesn't mean we can't get right back up and begin again, right there, right then.
you can do this, I'm rooting for you!!!

p.s. I love your new background!!

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    Yup, never give up on you. Do the best you can every day and move on.
Let the journey continue.

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MILLEDGE2 9/3/2012 8:43PM

    Keep on keeping on! And, in sharing these reflections, you've reminded another Spark person (me!) of an important thing I need to be keeping in mind right now. emoticon

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IUHRYTR 9/3/2012 8:32PM

    When I feel stagnated with my weight loss, I look back at how far I have come, not at how much more there is to go. That makes me feel better. -- Lou

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ASHLYNMOM 9/3/2012 8:21PM

    Thanks for this!!! So nice to know I'm not the only one struggling and that every baby step is still a step forward.

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JUDYHELP 9/3/2012 8:13PM

  emoticon those were nice sayings, especially the one about run when you can. I've never heard that. Each time we start over we learn a lot about ourselves. We improve in some areas and need to improve in others. But together we can get to the "goal" of getting healthy and fit. Your right it isn't a race. emoticonHere's to all of us not giving up and working together to achieve our goal. Good luck on your journey and continued success. emoticon emoticon Judy

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It's all worth it!!

Sunday, September 02, 2012

Find activities that you love doing and you'll enjoy exercising. Eventually you'll feel sorry for people who view exercise as something they "should" do but dread.

We all have moments when we just wonder if all this is worth it. Well it is. You may lose a pound this week, but that is a pound towards your goal gone. You may lose nothing, but you did all you could and your body is well aware of the changes. Time for the mind to be aware of them also.

Still on track and even one pound down this week. So yup i'm ready for week two.


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MILLEDGE2 9/3/2012 9:33AM

    Great news that your efforts made a pound go away last week! Consistency really pays off and I wish you great success this week! emoticon

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IUHRYTR 9/2/2012 7:31PM

    Even when the weight is not going down, looser clothes are a big ego booster. So, yes, keep on keeping on and positive changes will follow. -- Lou

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    Way to go Michelle!! I looove your enthusiasm! You got this!

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