Saturday, September 08, 2012
When you think about quitting, remember why you started. - Chris Powell
As this was posted on my Weight Watchers team today it just shouted out to me. This is what i'm talking about. I began this journey for my health. I was over weight, unhappy, I had just found out I had cervical cancer and it was like a wake up moment. I wasn't ready to give in so I had better do what was needed doing. So I took on the task of recreating the new me. I lost 20 pounds, I started running, I was a new me. I was up on all the latest health ideas, foods, vitamins, exercises.
This is exactly what happened. I headed to my happy place and it seems that I never climbed back out. Oh I was so sure I was going to. Each week I ended and then began yet again. Always holding out hope that this time would get me back on the road to health that just weeks ago I was embracing. But two years slid by. 15 pounds gained back and guess what? I'm still in the happy place in my fridge.
I"m embarrassed to say this. I mean come on so many come here and share such great joys, losses, events, 5k's, and celebrations. Here I am just pledging each week to do a better job than the week before.
Yup, then weigh in comes. I step on those dreaded scales, fingers crossed, and yup im up again. Each week it begins and ends the same. With me getting upset about the week and how weak I was where food was concerned. But you know what?????
So as I end this blog, I have to tell ya. I want change but it has to come from within.....So i'm not perfect I mean really who is? I can only take this journey one day at a time and each day work just a little bit harder on reaching my goals. who knows I may just reach my goal yet.