Friday, September 07, 2012
If you aren't in the moment,
you are either looking forward to uncertainty,
or back to pain and regret.
- Jim Carrey
Ok, so i've allowed myself to fall off the wagon...I don't mean fall I mean tumble, bump my head, hit the wheel on the way down, and then get rolled over by the wheels. Yeah it is pretty sad. But shed no tears for me as I have choosen to do this to myself. It is kinda like I threw myself off the wagon and was willing to take my bumps on the way down. Until of course weigh is looming up ahead and i'm thinking "uh oh now what will I do?" Of course the truth will be out of the bag then. So whose fault will that be? The chips and donuts of course.
Now i'm hanging my head this morning because last night I was having a feast of Hostess mini donuts. When I say feast let my just say i'm by no means exagerating this. One serving has three mini donuts....lets just say I left three mini donuts in the bag......yup sugar overload and not only that I was sick at my stomach. So now comes the question of the century...If it made me so sick why would I do it? Because it was there and I could. No excuses, no lies. They where there. I think my trouble is not eating like I want or rather what I want then eating all at onc sitting. Moderation? what is that? I don't know the meaning of the word. For me it is all or nothing.
Well I guess it is time to go through the detox. I mean by not having any carbs for a bit....not the other kind thank you. Some things are meant to be where they are. Just sayin.
So today I once again start fresh. I mean clean and fresh. It is time to put this behind me and try to move forward....I can lose this last ten pounds, I have been here before and I did it why is it so dang hard now? Maybe because in my mind I know that I did this once and here I am....back almost to the beginning of my last journey. What was I thinking? I wasn't. Plain and simple. So if your in the same boat as me....come along and lets show our minds and bodies we can and we will SUCCEED.