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Sunday, May 13, 2012

This morning i'm sitting here beating myself up for foods I ate yesterday. Why? I know this isn't the way to succeed. I know i'm allowed to eat what I want when I want just in moderation. Which I did. But is there a set menu we are suppose to follow? I mean which foods are off limits which foods are the right ones? I mean if I can have anything I want the what seems to be the problem? It could be in the moderation that i'm having problems. I thought I was having a great week. I was doing what I thought I should be doing. Yup I ate out once this past week....taco bell...I counted it and I moved on. So it was one meal, one day. no damage right? Wrong.....I get on the scales i'm up. Back to my starting number since "restarting" my plan. Why?

This morning i'm wondering did I exercise enough....the spark activity says I did but obviously something went wrong. I mean come on now. I don't want to hear your at your intended weight because i'm not. I'm up ten pounds and it sucks. My word and i'm not changing it. Each time I think i'm mentally ready to start again I'm not. I fall back to the old me. The me that munches to munch. I quit weighing and I begin eating the french fries, chips, and such that I know I don't need. And if i'm honest most times I don't want they are just there. Addict? Yup.

So this morning I must of sent a message on my appointmet reminder....I do that alot...but this is what comes: Tim SparkPeople's Marketing guru says:
There are no quick fixes, but there's magic in moderation.

Do you think someone somewhere is trying to tell me the why? I do. So i'm again going to fight for what I want. I say fight because after three years enough is enough. I want I want it bad enough to cha;nge my behavier? I do believe I do because right now I don't like this old behavier much. So i'm off to begin again. How many times can you begin many times as it takes.

Because I have to for my own health.


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CKAYTHOMAS 5/21/2012 11:17AM

    I could have written 80% of that blog. I have a son who is graduating an we've been in graduation party I overate yesterday also. Plus, I haven't been feeling super great and that must affect my "can do" attitude.
We can do this together!

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KANOE10 5/14/2012 7:14AM

    Never give up trying. You can beat your addiction. Staying low carb helps!


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KNITTABLES 5/14/2012 1:15AM

    You are so with the fight. Fight for what you want. I am up five pounds and I hate it. I can relate to starting all over again. Done that far too many times but you know what you pick yourself up and do it again. You will succeed and Spark's is right there are no quick fixes. I believe in you and I know you will do this and you can. Hugs and don't worry about this anymore. emoticon

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SHERYLDS 5/13/2012 9:47AM

    The more I read...the more I am convinced that the food industry has gotten us hooked on foods that spike our insulin levels and keep us on the addiction roller coaster. It is a spiral that can only be broken by getting off that ride.
Cut out starches and sugar, suffer the temporary withdrawal, and get into eating veggies and fruits...and you will feel better, lose the weight, and get your body back to working the way it should. Need some sound info... read WHY WE GET FAT AND WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT by Gary Taubes. Interesting stuff.

It's all up to you.

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RUNMELLY 5/13/2012 8:05AM

    Good attitude! One thing to think about is the amount of sodium that might have been in that taco bell. That has prevented a weight loss for me before. Keep drinking water and add lots of veggies...your body needs to find a good balance and the weight will come off :) Good luck!!

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5/9 Time.....

Wednesday, May 09, 2012

Every day is another chance to turn things around. comes so fast and goes so fast. I have all the time in the world or none of the time in the world depending on how I grab it and go. It is time to grab for what I want and leave the extra behind.

Time to plan
Time to exercise
Time to be me
Time to get it right
Time to set a goal and follow through

Time it always comes back to time. So today I take the time to be healthy for just this one day. After all isn't that all we have....TODAY.

Michelle. emoticon

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SHERYLDS 5/9/2012 4:27PM

    I always forget....I just have to get thru 1 day at a time

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Continuing~~ 5/6

Sunday, May 06, 2012

Life is as easy or as hard as you think it is.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

Life is 10 percent what happens to me
and 90 percent how I react to it.
- Charles Swindoll

I didn't realize it has been a month since i've bloged. Wow time sure flys when your working hard. I do journal daily for myself. That way I can go back and see where i've been and how far i've gone. Always a good idea to know how far you have traveled on this journey. that way you don't get wrapped up in how far you have yet to, that is all we have.

I have been slowly working on me this past month. Some days better than others but that is how it goes. I start off with good ideas and much ado and then I slack again at the end. But i have a vacation coming in june and i would love to be close to my goal by then. Spark says to set a date and a number. I don't have the number but I have the date. I guess my number if asked would be ten pounds. but at this point in my journey I would love five. This is the first week and i'm down 0.4 so that means I have 9.6 left to go. But that is still down. i forget the positives sometimes and now is the time to focus on those.

So to all out there reading this blog....we have today and that is all we can do at one time. One day at a time and it will get done. So if your like me and on this roller coaster just relax and breath.....just for today do it.


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KNITTABLES 5/6/2012 8:32PM

    Hugs, yes that is all we can do.

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KRICKET4 5/6/2012 4:08PM

    Your ears must have been ringing - I was just checking your page yesterday to make sure I did not lose my subscription to your blogs. :)

Keep focusing on the positives - 9.6 to go!
You can do this!!!!

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SHERYLDS 5/6/2012 11:51AM

    I've missed you......glad you're back.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 5/6/2012 10:16AM

    emoticon Clapping in advance for all of your future achievements! I am with you till the end! AND THEN SOME

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CAKAROO 5/6/2012 8:38AM


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Tomorrow starts today: 4/8 Easter sunday

Sunday, April 08, 2012

SparkPeople community moderator Denise says:
"Tomorrow" starts today!

I've been telling ;myself I want to get back on track but then something derails me...ME. So as I was going through my spark mail here is this quote. you know what tomorrow does begin today. Today is the day. My sugar has been off its kilter and falling way too easily lately. why? Because i'm not eating like I should and it is beginning to show. My body is more tired of late and that is due to lack of exercise. So all the great things I noticed as I was getting healthy i'm seeing in reverse as I get unhealthy. Coincidence? I think not. I need to get myself back on track for ME and my health. It isn't about what we can't eat or do it is about what I can eat and be. So today I pledge to myself to begin taking better care of myself. Will I lose weight? Well that is to be seen but right now it is more about my health then about the number on the scale. After all isn't that why we are here? For our health.

Is Easter sunday not about rebirth. Well today is my rebirth to health. I need this for me....not to look good but to feel good. The looking good is a wonderful side feature you get.


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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/15/2012 8:55AM

    emoticon emoticon

OK now don't make me get in the car! Take care of yourself. That aint nothing to play with. XOXO! Dimi

Remember I do not want to celebrate ALONE! I need you to be celebrating with me!

Comment edited on: 4/15/2012 8:56:25 AM

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CAKAROO 4/9/2012 6:27AM

Hope you had a great Easter

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 4/9/2012 12:10AM

    You can do it, Michelle. You are right...we start focusing on those numbers and how we wish you looked and forget that our health is what is really important here! You know how living a healthier lifestyle makes you feel, and you know how you feel when you don't exercise or eat right. Today is all about choices!!! (yes, back to that word!)
Hang in there, girl, you can do this!!

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KNITTABLES 4/8/2012 8:37PM

    Great Blog, emoticonHappy Easter.

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SHERYLDS 4/8/2012 11:39AM

    HAPPY EASTER Michelle

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Changing my thinking

Saturday, March 31, 2012

I got some feedback on a blog I wrote the other day. About my journey and how far I had come and to not laugh at a mere 4 pound loss in a ten week period. You know what your all right. I should be seeing me that is here and the me I once was is way far away. Yup i've not reached my goal and yup i'm still a work in progress but i'm in a smaller size, I can out walk my friends, I take the time to plan my grocery list (though I sometimes stray), but all in all I keep a journal of what I eat daily, get my waters without fail, and I exercise religously, all of this would of resulted in regaining all that I have worked for if I had given up. So I want to thank you all and some of my friends for giving me the credit I sometimes fail to give to myself. It is tough when you see others reaching goal and seeing the magic number on the scale. But you know what? I'm here for the long haul and this has been a much better year than last. I guess i'm looking for perfection and in this journey that just isn't going to happen. WHY???? Because this journey is called LIFE!

So my friends on spark and beyond....i'm in this to win it for my health. I will not become just a number on the scale. I will be honest though when the magic number comes up I will be shouting loud and long.....then the real work will begin......


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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 4/15/2012 8:57AM


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    MIndset, mindset,'ve come so far, and I'm glad you can recognize the successes you have had! So keep looking forward, not back and be proud of all you've done!!

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SHERYLDS 3/31/2012 11:02AM

    the scale is just ONE source of feedback.
there are so many other things that show your progress on this quest.
Keep going forward and getting closer to where you want to be.

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CAKAROO 3/31/2012 9:40AM

    emoticon Don't give up!!

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RDGISME 3/31/2012 9:34AM

    Michelle-your real work has begun already! You should be proud of "out walking your friends" and tracking your foods! Many people try to lose without either of those. Having had your mind change about where you are, and how you'll get to the big "number" that you'd like will indeed make your journey easier. Looking forward to watching your journey as it gets and stays strong!


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LRK4CHRIST 3/31/2012 7:53AM

    Yes! If we all can change our thinking, we'll win more battles. I pray u have good success!

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