Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Paul the SparkPeople programmer says:
The power to reach your goals is within you right now.
Oh how this message this morning spoke to me. I have been riding the roller coaster of a lifetime it seems for so very long. Spark calls it the journey, lifestyle, or plan. I call it my roller coaster because oh yes I go up, down, sideways, and sometimes i'm just on my head. But as each day, month, year passes I'm still here. Why? Because somewhere inside of me is the power to succeed. I just have to dig deep, put the other things out of my mind, work on ME, and forget the rest. Ok so maybe that all sounds great but it for sure is hard work.
I began my "journey" in Dec. of 2008, well I have to tell ya guys it is 2012 and I have yet to see that magic number pop up just once on the scale. Why you may ask, I mean I've had plenty of time to reach my goals, plenty of time to learn, study, workout, and find a buddy to proceed with. Well the ugly truth is i'm lazy most of the time. I workout when I want, I workout for as long as I see fit, I eat on plan only about 50 percent of the time, my sleep is interupted more often than not, and I binge on occasion. Mostly the weekends but it messes up my whole day. Ok, I joined "Scale Back Alabama" with three friends. I have lost 4 pounds in ten weeks. Why? Because I say i'm going to do good today and then I ruin that by afternoon. Again because it is easier to eat the junk, quick foods, than to cook and plan.
Am I here looking for sympathy? Nope i'm putting this out here because it is something i've been working on through out my whole journey. Finding the person inside of me that I say I want to become. So really this journey is so much more than losing a few pounds. It is a way of discovering who we really are. Who we can become. I mean really don't we hide behind the weight because people are less apt to notice us. Do we really want to be noticed? I'm beginning to wonder about that myself. I mean i've gotten close to goal and then fled back the way i've come. Maybe a part of me doesn't believe I can live the heathy lifestyle. Ask me a question about nutrition, exercise, or most anything and i've studied it and i've got an answer, but do I apply it to me? Nope.
So as I've been thinking about this blog todays message came in my email. WOW maybe I can do this. Maybe I just need to take it one step at a time and not try to just lose the weight but try to learn new things about myself also. I mean this journey isn't about just getting thin.....right?