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The Holiday is upon us

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Im so wide awake at 1:30 am this morning. Why? So much to to and so little time left. It always seems that the Christmas Season is upon me before I even realize it has happened. But my motto the last few years has been "if it isn't done by now it didn't need doing" So I think I will stick with that and just proceed with caution. I still have gifts to wrap, a party to attend on sunday, festivites at work on Wednesday, and then the Christmas eve with my family. So much and so little time to just relax and enjoy the season. I haven't even really had time to enjoy the tree. My grandson is spending the night tonight and that will take away from my time to get much done. So cross this evening off my list and just let tomorrow come. He is going golfing with his poppy on Sunday....he is four. He loves to do anything with his poppy and this is his surprise. He will probably like the golf cart more than the game. lol.

Well even though I have so much to do and so little time I hope to make the most of it this week. Come next weekend it will all be over and the let down will begin. We get so worked up over the holidays and then Wham, it is over and what is left? The clean-up. Yeah I know that is the bah humbug way of seeing it. I just can't seem to get in the spirit. I think it is because this holiday is not about the Reason any longer and more about what you can get for me this season. If we do something small we feel like we have failed, do something big and pay all year long. I guess i'm looking for the happy medium. A little something under the tree, a nice dinner, church on Christmas eve, and a big thank you for all that is and was done. I don't feel that is too much to ask this holiday season.

So to all my Spark friends out there......MERRY CHRISTMAS.......and lets give the NEW YEAR heck guys.

Michelle.

  
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CAKAROO 12/19/2011 6:23AM

    Merry Christmas to you!

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IUHRYTR 12/17/2011 6:33PM

    All we can do is what we can do, right. If it's important, it will get done. If not, there's always next year. emoticon emoticon -- Lou

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"So this is Christmas"

Sunday, December 11, 2011

emoticonToday the plan is to get the tree up and the house cleaned. I have a few gifts to wrap but that will be a wait and see kinda thing. Funny I just can't get into the spirt. I've tried I watch the Christmas shows, we had our holiday dinner at work, i'm buying a few gifts, but still no Umph this year. Not really sure why. I mean my grandson is four and very much into this. I have my family here and my hubby, i'm truely blessed all year long. I guess i'm wondering why I need to celebrate one day. Jesus is the reason for the season. But I work in a Walmart and even though i'm in the pharmacy I see and hear the holidays starting in October. I mean Halloween isn't even over and the decorations start to show up. The holiday music begins playing and we hear it over and over again. I guess it kinda takes the fun out of it. then there is the "black friday" thing where human beings act like animals for that one gift that they will return very soon after the holiday. I guess when you work in retail the Jolly is just not there.


But i'm going to put on a happy face for my grandson and put up my tree for our holiday get together. who knows I might just catch the feeling here soon.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 12/15/2011 12:32AM

    Maybe we will both catch a little Christmas spirit! I used to love this time of year..just not feeling it now though!!

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IUHRYTR 12/12/2011 7:33PM

    We lost Mom four days before Christmas a few years ago and others during the last three months of the year and beginning of January. That and a tight budget always leaves me feeling down during what should be a glorious holiday. Hoping things get better for you. -- Lou

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DELRIO1 12/11/2011 9:32AM

    I agree. Starting the Christmas stuff that early really takes the specialness out of it.

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BROOKLYNROSE 12/11/2011 9:21AM

    I worked in retail as well and I know what you mean. Starting Christmas before halloween does tend to damper your spirits somewhat. I wish you the best! emoticon

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Purely a vent for myself:

Tuesday, December 06, 2011

As I sit here with this blog i'm not so sure what I want to say. I mean I have already told you how hard this has been for me and i've already come up with a new plan and i'm still here sparking along, mostly, and heck i'm even still exercising like i'm suppose to. But im not moving in the direction that I so want to be in.....FORWARD. I feel like i'm allowing myself to fall backwards daily. Enough is enough. Actually i've had three great days on track. Three is the start but sometimes to be honest it is also my end. I find i'm rather good with the grab and go foods but not so hot on the cooking. I read where others have so enjoyed learning to cook healthy meals for their families. Do the work? Because i've got to tell ya it isn't easy when some nights you get home and it is seven and your so tired you can't think straight. That is when I find the quicker the better. I'm great in the mornings. I'm on track with the exercise, I weigh or measure my foods out for lunch and breakfast. Then the evning hits and it is gone like hte wind. So what is a working girl to do?????

PLAN BETTER MICHELLE!!! Take the time on the weekends and plan my meals. Put in a few easy frozen dinners that are healthy. Buy bagged salad that all I have to do is cut and eat. It sounds so simple right? But it isn't. Not for me. I find i'm realivly lazy. I didn't used to think that but i'm learning new things about myself daily. Oh I want to see the loss on the scales but I don't want to do what i have to to see that happen. So I get upset with myself and i'm so sure the next week it will be different......and it is for a couple of days....then close to weigh in it gets back to the same ole same ole.

I put this all out here for myself. I didn't put it out here for anyone but me. I need to vent on occasion, tell the truth so to speak. even when that truth is so hard to hear. And please don't tell me how close to goal I am. My struggles are no different that yours with more to lose. In fact being this close just makes it harder for someone like me who isn't there yet. I see my friends reach goals and i'm still riding the rail. Will this new year bring about change? I can't say what will happen. I just know that for me my spark time is down, punishment to me? Maybe. Or just plain shame. But whatever it is i'm still owrking on me. It is just taking a very long time to get to the new me I know I can be.

Michelle.

  
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IUHRYTR 12/12/2011 7:31PM

    Hoping you get back on track. Frozen TV dinners today are healthier than in the past and quick to prepare. Maybe keeping some of those on hand will help as might focusing on losing just one pound, no matter how long it takes, then one more, then just one more. Helps keep me focused. -- Lou

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CKAYTHOMAS 12/8/2011 10:23PM

    The past few weeks I've made a big pot of soup or chili on Saturday. That way when I get home and I'm really tired, I can just microwave it and have a hot delish meal that is healthy. I don't mind leftovers and most times soups and chili taste better after the first day anyhow.

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KENDRACARROLL 12/6/2011 10:40AM

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A whole new way to spark

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

emoticonI finally got a new phone and it has the web. I of course first downloaded the spark app, then the Weight Watchers app, and then I found a new weight loss app. It gives you a graph and you put in your weight and goal and just put in your weigh ins. But like spark it is just a visual for me. I have come to spark a lot more at this time to check messages and such. I love this new "toy" and it has given me a new want. I want to spark like I used to. My sparkaversary is coming this next month. Four years with spark. I have yet to reach my goal. Why you may wonder? Well many reasons I could list but they would all be just lies. The real truth is I guess I just gave up on myself at some point. Now i'm not upset with this. It happened and I am the one that can fix it or continue to stay where i'm at. I ended the month on a loss. For someone that has steadily gained in the last six months that is a new wonderful feeling.

I haven't sat down and set my new goals yet but today seems like the day to do it. I mean it is the eve of a new month. and soon the year will be over. What do I wish for the year to come? Success in myself. To reach my goal weight. See my magic number. Do I think I can? You can bet on it. I'm ready and stronger than i've been.

So bring on the new month.
Michelle.

  
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 12/3/2011 12:24AM

    I love gadgets and I hope you enjoy your new toy!!!! You will rock this thing in 2012!

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FLGIRL1234 12/2/2011 9:08PM

    Great mindset! Get that goal girl...you can do it!

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IUHRYTR 12/2/2011 7:15PM

    It is never a bad time to reset goals. Wishing you new-found success. -- Lou

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CKAYTHOMAS 11/30/2011 10:58PM

    Michelle,
You can do this. I believe you can. Don't get discouraged. the weight doesn't go on overnight and it takes time to get it back off. I hit my goal weight, let up on the discipline and gained 10 lb. back. I'm getting back to healthy living and exercising. We can do this together.
Cindy
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SLIMPAM23 11/30/2011 9:40PM

    Hey Michelle---
A couple months ago I also got a new phone and I also have a couple apps!!! I think they are helpful too!! If nothing else I like KNOWING that I can track anywhere....anytime!!!
And we both know that I have been on SP a shorter time than you AND I did reach my final goal......and then I let my guard down and made poor choices and now I am further away from my goal than you are from yours!!!!
SO - I think there is alot to be said about the fact that it's not about the destination.....but the journey instead!!!
If you are not at the finish line yet.....maybe there is a good reason. The BEST news is that you are still here and still trying and maybe my friend - that's all that matters!!
BIG HUGS!
Pam

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COOKINGSTARS 11/30/2011 4:54PM

    That is awesome

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Take a moment to enjoy the climb

Tuesday, November 15, 2011


It is good to have an end to journey towards;
but it is the journey that matters in the end.
- Ursula K. Le Guin


I came across this quote this morning and it just screamed for me to use it. I mean is this not what it is all about. Sometimes I myself get so wrapped up in the end result I forget to enjoy the journey along the way. You know what i'm talking about....the euphoria when you see a loss no matter how small, the feeling of triumph when you say no to your favorit food, or better yet finding a new way to fix it that doesn't leave a bad taste in your mouth. Or better yet those skinny jeans that have been in the closet for a whille now and they finally fit. All of this is just part of the journey. It all adds up to SUCCESS!!

Like my favorite song to work out to says " it isn't whats waiting on the other side it's the climb"

Michelle.

  
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IUHRYTR 11/24/2011 1:07PM

    Enjoying present moment successes does make the trip more pleasant. How boring would it be if we took a car trip but never noticed the forests or mountains or deserts or stopped at a diner in a small town and talked with the people there? Wishing you continued success, and enjoyment. -- Lou

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CRAZYWOMAN10 11/17/2011 4:45AM

    Well put! It is all those small steps in the journey that make it! Love it!

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MYINNERSTRENGTH 11/15/2011 9:56AM

    Love the quote you found as well!

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Kammy

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