Monday, September 19, 2011
As some of you may know i've been struggling on a off for months now. Well I rejoined Weight Watchers online, i've cut back on some of my teams here at spark, am giving more time to a couple of the ones dear to my heart. I have recommited to me. I know this could be temporary as have so much of this journey been as of late, but today at this moment i'm ready for change. I have to be honest it is a struggle to go this alone. When I first began this journey I had a few friends on the ride. They got off and haven't been back since. They are back to prediet weight. I'm not. But I don't want to be either. My daughter and her hubby walk each evening now, my mother has rejoined Weight Watchers and now I have a few supporters to got this journey with again. Now don't get me wrong....spark is wonderful. But I need people here to push me as much as you all do.
You see I can say what I want on paper, or computer as the case may be, but they know me, see me, see what i'm going through. Now it is nice to have someone to walk the walk with, to make us hold ourselves accountable to. I know I should only be accountable to me but that is tough. You see I don't like me much. I'm weak in some areas and strong in others. I need someone to push the weak parts me and reenergize the strong. So today I begin a new day, filled with new hope. Oh i'm not looking for miracles, i'm not looking for large numbers to fall off my body, i'm just looking to myself to gain a bit of strength on this journey. I thought I had before when I was so close to goal, but that went by the wayside and now i'm struggling to regain lost ground.
Pam, Kristi, Joan, without you three I would never have gotten this far. You have kept me on spark and I thank you for that. Now guys lets give this journey all we have. I want to succeed and I know I can't get there from where i've been. So the new road starts now. A different path is filled with new challenges, new stepping blocks, new dangers. but it is also filled with new promise, new joys, and new goals to attain.
As my favorite song says: Its not whats waiting on the otherside...it's the climb.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
"Learn from the past, set vivid, detailed goals for the future, and live in the only moment of time over which you have any control: now."
OMG I didn't realize I haven't blogged in so long. Just nothing new to report. Let's see my weight is down a bit. Im back on track for the time being and trying to treat this as a journey and not a diet but that seems to be the hard part. I was and will beat myself up when I don't eat what is considered "healthy". Well that isn't how it is. We should be able to enjoy all foods. Good and bad, it is in the moderation department I was having trouble. So i'm back to the food scales, cups, and spoons. So far three weeks in a row a loss. Now mind you it is a total of one pound gone but that is more than i've had in the previous months. So as my friend Lou states we should be taking this one pound at a time. So one at a time is good for me right now. Gives me time to catch up on me.
My home is in caos right now and that isn't good for my OCD. My kitchen is getting a revamp on the island....which is the center of my world and right now a mess to work around. My living room is getting painted and that is everything in the center for right now till that is done.....and then we have the breakfast room chairs my hubby decided we needed to paint and one is missing and half done. Oh he will get these all done but in the meantime i'm in turmoil. But unlike past projects I seem to be working around these. I have just relaxed and decided not to see what is missing, or what is in the middle of my home. lol. I just grab my cup of international coffee after work and head out to the porch. Quiet and clean....the way I like things. lol.
So that is it here. Not much new just a lot of upheaval and i'm just learning as I go one step, day, and pound at a time. Which is how I used to make this work before I got it in my head that I could slack up. Funny this is a journey and I need to remember that.....nothing can change. I don't have to give up anything I just have to learn a new way......i'm doing that. Are you?
Saturday, August 27, 2011
This morning was my weigh in morning. Now I have been kinda moving through my journey just taking it one day at a time, not really giving my all and today was no differnt scale wise than usual. I can't expect to see the results if I don't give it my all through out the week. Today I had gained a pound. Now i'm ok with that because in reality it means that my month ended on the same note that it began. You see the last oh say six months or so my treks to the scales have been anything but wonderful. Why you may wonder? Well lets see....eating your way through sunday, then having those evening moments that last way into the night. Counting some but not all of what goes in your mouth. Saying no to chips then sneaking them from hubbies stash, all of this adds up to letting yourself down. If you don't think it does just look back over my tracker. I've changed it so many times and that is to accomidate where i'm at now. I was so close to goal and then IT happened. IT being the dreaded plateau. Did I do anything to make it work for me? Nope I added to it week upon week. I just knew I was doing everything right (right according to Michelle isn't always right), so the time has come to wake up and smell the coffee so to speak. I can't just keep going like this because i'm going nowhere and getting there fast. So today begins a new week for me. I've had my weigh in I know where I need to go from here. What I need to do is be true to myself.
I won't give a promise I may not keep to myself. But I will let me know that today is a new day, new week, and i'm strong. I reached these goals before and I will reach them again. I just have to have faith that my life will continue whether I eat that bag of chips or not. The craving, though intense, will fade. Now it is time to put it to the test.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
The price of success is hard work,
dedication to the job at hand,
and the determination that whether we win or lose,
we have applied the best of ourselves to the task at hand.
- Vince Lombardi
The chains of habit are too weak to be felt
until they are too strong to be broken.
- Samuel Johnson
An overfull calendar, like an overfull stomach,
is a consequence of taking on too much.
Commit, and eat, in moderation.
This morning as I read my emails these quotes just spoke of my journey. Our journey really. I have not given up on my sparking just haven't really had much to blog about lately. Oh i'm still continuing and taking care of me, for the most part. Just came off of vacation and it was a nice quiet time for me to reflect on me and my journey and to decide what it was I really want. I got to walk each day and that is really my thinking time. I headed back to work and had a great day. I was way more relaxed, and in control of myself. I very much needed that break. As for a break from my journey. Nope. I have my "moments" and i have to begin fresh somedays over and over but I do. Maybe now I can actually see some change again and get some of my confidence back. I think i've found a bit of it during reflection but I need so much more in myself.
So i'm off to begin another great day. I will continue the journey towards ME.
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