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Learning as I go

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

"Learn from the past, set vivid, detailed goals for the future, and live in the only moment of time over which you have any control: now."


OMG I didn't realize I haven't blogged in so long. Just nothing new to report. Let's see my weight is down a bit. Im back on track for the time being and trying to treat this as a journey and not a diet but that seems to be the hard part. I was and will beat myself up when I don't eat what is considered "healthy". Well that isn't how it is. We should be able to enjoy all foods. Good and bad, it is in the moderation department I was having trouble. So i'm back to the food scales, cups, and spoons. So far three weeks in a row a loss. Now mind you it is a total of one pound gone but that is more than i've had in the previous months. So as my friend Lou states we should be taking this one pound at a time. So one at a time is good for me right now. Gives me time to catch up on me.

My home is in caos right now and that isn't good for my OCD. My kitchen is getting a revamp on the island....which is the center of my world and right now a mess to work around. My living room is getting painted and that is everything in the center for right now till that is done.....and then we have the breakfast room chairs my hubby decided we needed to paint and one is missing and half done. Oh he will get these all done but in the meantime i'm in turmoil. But unlike past projects I seem to be working around these. I have just relaxed and decided not to see what is missing, or what is in the middle of my home. lol. I just grab my cup of international coffee after work and head out to the porch. Quiet and clean....the way I like things. lol.

So that is it here. Not much new just a lot of upheaval and i'm just learning as I go one step, day, and pound at a time. Which is how I used to make this work before I got it in my head that I could slack up. Funny this is a journey and I need to remember that.....nothing can change. I don't have to give up anything I just have to learn a new way......i'm doing that. Are you?

Michelle.

  
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/18/2011 9:27AM

    Keep up the good work. One pound "CLOSER" to the goal! YOU ROCK!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/15/2011 11:31PM

    At least you have the porch to escape to! :) you're doing great - just relax and know the chaos is temporary!
I'm still cheering for you...
Kristi

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IUHRYTR 9/15/2011 4:17PM

    Isn't it easier to picture losing one pound than it is trying to envision losing 10, 30 or 100 pounds? Keep up the good effort. Every loss is a positive step toward your goal. emoticon -- Lou

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CRAZYWOMAN10 9/13/2011 5:29PM

    Learning to keep this a journey is difficult...Kudos to you for remembering it when you need to. Being healthy is what its about...September is crazy for me...I literally have the worst anxiety attacks in this month..so I know where you are with things being out of place...I got the OCD as well!
One pound at a time..and one step at a time...You can do it!

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NEWNAC304 9/13/2011 4:46PM

    I'm working on that myself. I really need to learn that this is a lifestyle change and not a diet that I can go off and on again. I've slacked off a bit and gained 5 pounds. I'm now working on refocusing and getting back on track.

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KENDRACARROLL 9/13/2011 9:35AM

    I was wondering what was happening with you. It really has been a while.
Aside from the messy house, I'm glad things are again going in the direction you want them to go. One pound at a time is an awesome goal. And once that pound is gone, who cares how long it took to get it off? It is now gone and you can work on the next pound.

Oh, love the idea of a nice hot cup of international coffee on the porch :)
Be well, my friend.

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It is time to move forward

Saturday, August 27, 2011

This morning was my weigh in morning. Now I have been kinda moving through my journey just taking it one day at a time, not really giving my all and today was no differnt scale wise than usual. I can't expect to see the results if I don't give it my all through out the week. Today I had gained a pound. Now i'm ok with that because in reality it means that my month ended on the same note that it began. You see the last oh say six months or so my treks to the scales have been anything but wonderful. Why you may wonder? Well lets see....eating your way through sunday, then having those evening moments that last way into the night. Counting some but not all of what goes in your mouth. Saying no to chips then sneaking them from hubbies stash, all of this adds up to letting yourself down. If you don't think it does just look back over my tracker. I've changed it so many times and that is to accomidate where i'm at now. I was so close to goal and then IT happened. IT being the dreaded plateau. Did I do anything to make it work for me? Nope I added to it week upon week. I just knew I was doing everything right (right according to Michelle isn't always right), so the time has come to wake up and smell the coffee so to speak. I can't just keep going like this because i'm going nowhere and getting there fast. So today begins a new week for me. I've had my weigh in I know where I need to go from here. What I need to do is be true to myself.

I won't give a promise I may not keep to myself. But I will let me know that today is a new day, new week, and i'm strong. I reached these goals before and I will reach them again. I just have to have faith that my life will continue whether I eat that bag of chips or not. The craving, though intense, will fade. Now it is time to put it to the test.

Michelle.

  
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MINANCY 9/7/2011 8:11AM

    It is not always easy to take a cold hard look at our actions and how they impact our weight loss progress. Unpleasant as it may be, it is the first step to change. I've recently done the same thing.
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SLIMPAM23 8/31/2011 3:42PM

    I don't know about you - but the past SEVERAL months have been one big stumble!! The good news is that I refuse to give up and so do you!!! We will just keep plugging along until such a time that everything "clicks" again. It will be OK and we will reach or in my case re-reach our goals!!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 8/29/2011 9:05AM

    Keep your chin up Michelle. You can do this. Yes, it's work and sometimes it's not fun, and sometimes we have to admit that we are slacking. who knows why we do it!! Today is a new day, so put a smile on your face and tell yourself that TODAY you are going to succeed. For that is how we will get where we want to be..one day at a time, one small victory at a time. Forget about the prize at the end of the rainbow and focus on how strong and good you will feel as you get into bed at night knowing you gave the day all you had. You can do it!!!

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IUHRYTR 8/28/2011 7:53PM

    Maintaining is good. Better than gaining, right? I know you will hang in there and keep giving it your best. -- Lou

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/27/2011 6:45PM

    I cannot add to what has been said! Keep pushing! emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 8/27/2011 11:46AM

    Well if every time there was a down in life the scale would go down too, I'd be falling out of my pants.
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We keep on doing, we keep on fighting, we keep on getting up after we fall down, and even after we're pushed down. As long as we don't give up we'll be okay.

Keep fighting with me my friend.
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KENTUCKYWOMAN 8/27/2011 11:22AM

    Michelle, in your post on August 16, one quote you have is ''The price of success is hard work." Bet you didn't think those words would come back to haunt you. lol lol.
You are on the right track and like me you will begin as many times as we need to.
I like what John had to say, ''life has its ups and downs just like the scale."

Hugs,
Joan

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JUSTCHELLE75 8/27/2011 9:54AM

    You can do it. It is all within you. Being honest with us and yourself is a definite step in the process where you have already made giant leaps. Keep it up

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DEBTEVELDAHL 8/27/2011 9:04AM

    It sounds as if you have a plan and that is emoticon emoticon emoticon Debi T.

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JOHNMARTINMILES 8/27/2011 9:02AM

    Life has ups and life has downs, so does the scale. The important thing is the long term trend. Sometimes we will trip, sometimes we will stumble. Sometimes we will fall. This matters not if each time we get up, dust ourselves off and continue.

Enjoy the journey and make it a great weekend.

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Continuing the Journey

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

The price of success is hard work,
dedication to the job at hand,
and the determination that whether we win or lose,
we have applied the best of ourselves to the task at hand.
- Vince Lombardi

The chains of habit are too weak to be felt
until they are too strong to be broken.
- Samuel Johnson

An overfull calendar, like an overfull stomach,
is a consequence of taking on too much.
Commit, and eat, in moderation.
- jlh

This morning as I read my emails these quotes just spoke of my journey. Our journey really. I have not given up on my sparking just haven't really had much to blog about lately. Oh i'm still continuing and taking care of me, for the most part. Just came off of vacation and it was a nice quiet time for me to reflect on me and my journey and to decide what it was I really want. I got to walk each day and that is really my thinking time. I headed back to work and had a great day. I was way more relaxed, and in control of myself. I very much needed that break. As for a break from my journey. Nope. I have my "moments" and i have to begin fresh somedays over and over but I do. Maybe now I can actually see some change again and get some of my confidence back. I think i've found a bit of it during reflection but I need so much more in myself.

So i'm off to begin another great day. I will continue the journey towards ME.
Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 8/18/2011 12:00AM

    As always, I love your quotes. Michelle, living a healthy lifestyle is about so much more than losing weight. It's about breaking free of unhealthy mindsets, learning to love ourselves and forgiving ourselves for past mistakes. We start with wanting to lose the weight, and then we find we have so much more to gain by taking care of ourselves and living a life that we love. You are on your way. You are learning to love the "you" that you have kept bottled up for so long, and finding out just what you want out of this life and this journey. You are making this journey work for you with every step you take. Keep on walking, for maybe it isn't about finding the end of the road, but simply in the action of walking that we find out who we are and who we want to be.
I'm right here walking beside you, my friend and together we are going to enjoy this lifestyle and all the things we've been missing out on!!

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KENDRACARROLL 8/16/2011 10:59AM

    I love this one:
The chains of habit are too weak to be felt
until they are too strong to be broken.
- Samuel Johnson

Here's to our continuing journey.
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KENTUCKYWOMAN 8/16/2011 6:51AM

    I'm with you Michelle. Here's to the ''First Day of the Rest of Our lives."
Hugs,
Joan

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SEAGLASSQUEEN 8/16/2011 6:25AM

    Thanks for sharing!

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Solving my own problems

Monday, August 08, 2011


Problems cannot be solved at the same level
of awareness that created them.
- Albert Einstein


Today is my first day of vacation officially. Not that I haven't enjoyed the last couple of days but you know how it is. I have plans for today, mostly to stay on track, but again it is vacation and that may me tough. I really need to become more aware of myself and what i'm doing. I noticed this weekend I ate when bored whether hungry, most of the time not, or not. So today is more about awareness for me. I need to jump over this hurdle, which really isn't much of a hurdle, I find im doing a lot of my eating out of habit rather than hunger. So time for new habits. I feel like the lttle train that could....I think I can I think I can, I know I can I know I can.

I won't beat myself up over my eating habits this weekend. I ate and I enjoyed most of it. I won't say all because at one point I stopped myself and wondered what in the heck I was thinking. so i'm aware there is a problem it is in the working it i'm having a bit of trouble. So today I begin fresh. I have been watching hungry girl on sundays and have gotten a few tips I intend to follow today. soup for a snack, is an example.

So let my new path in life begin now. I know I can succeed.

Michele.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 8/13/2011 5:43PM

    I hope you have enjoyed vacation. Awareness is definitely something I can work on myself. Things have been really crazy here lately, and I've not been on Spark a lot, and it is showing in the poor choices I've been making. Good job on picking up new tricks to try, and in your dedication to your health. You CAN do this.
BTW, I love your background pic!
Take care of yourself, girl!

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IUHRYTR 8/8/2011 4:22PM

    We can and should enjoy ourselves as we lose weight but probably shouldn't let ourselves go too often in case we find that more attractive and regain what we have lost. New beginnings are available at all times. We just have to take advantage of them. -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 8/8/2011 9:27AM

    Enjoy your vacation!
Keep busy doing fun things! This way you'll have less time to think about eating :)

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Enjoy the ride

Sunday, August 07, 2011

I've spent this sunday morning reading a few blogs from "friends" and others and I have to tell ya a lot of us are in the same boat this morning. We have gains, we aren't sleeping, and we often wonder if this is for us. Well I have to say it is well worth all this to me. I have been journeying now for almost three years. Reaching my goal is something I strive for but to be honest don't always commit to. On a day to day basis I do ok but not great. I have good days and bad and I wake up each morning and spark just like the day before. Why bother you may ask? because I have taken this on with the knowledge that I will succeed. Oh it may take me forever, it may take a longgggggggg time to reach that "magic number" but i've set my goals and I strive for them each day. The exercise is so ingrained after all this time that I have to tell ya that is probably why i'm not back where I began. My family knows that if I have a bad day today I will be back at it tomorrow. My son in law is onto this and last night we went out together. We had a blast. We went to applebees at nine to eat dinner. Oh I ate just what I wanted...a big juicy burger. I choose this because at home we choose to eat turkey burgers. Oh I love a real hamburger but only on occasion. Then we hit a Krispee Kreme and the light was flashing. I had my first hot out of the vat glazed donut. Was this on my plan? Nope. But it was delicious and I enjoyed every bite of it.

My son in law said that today I would be running extra to beat the calories I had consumed. He knows I won't be able to just indulge and move on. I will have to work to keep myself on track now for the rest of the week. So is this to say I gave up on me? NO WAY. I just enjoyed the moment. Isn't that what making this a lifestyle all about? enjoying life when it is thrown our way and moving forward. I guess it is. Now I can't say I would eat like that everyday. I went to bed feeling miserable, i'm still tasting that donut...I know TMI...but really i'm not used to eating like that. Doesn't mean i'm going to give up on that stuff every now and again.

Anyhow I guess in all this rambling what i'm trying to say is this.....we need to learn to live life. It isn't going to wait for us it will speed by so fast and be over in the blink of an eye. Find out what works for you and work it.

Michelle.

  
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IUHRYTR 8/7/2011 11:14PM

    We will be miserable people if we continually deprive ourselves of some of life's pleasures then feel guilty for having done so. We need to balance our lives and grab some gusto now and then. You have shared a good message that indulging is okay once in a while. -- Lou

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FISHINGLADY66 8/7/2011 12:14PM

    Great Blog. emoticon

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CRAZYWOMAN10 8/7/2011 9:27AM

    You couldnt have said that better...as I am beating myself up. Need to hear this...now, it needs to sink in!
Have a great day

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TAMMYZ7 8/7/2011 9:11AM

    Great post. I am working on getting to the point that you are at. Its not a diet so you have to realize this is what you are going to do forever and you will occasionally get something "unhealthy". And the world will continue on after you eat a donut.

Its great to know that there are other people out there who are doing this that are human and so occasionally eat something just because

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