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Weigh in and forget it

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Life is too short, time is too precious,
and the stakes are too high
to dwell on what might have been.
- Hilary Clinton

Today was my first weigh in with Weight Watchers. I'm down 0.4 lb. Would I have been happy to have lost more? Well of course but wouldn't all of us. But like the quote says "life is too short to dwell on what might of been" so i'm happy it was a loss, and i'm taking that one with a smile and moving forward to a new week.

I have a cold that hasn't made me very active, I got it in but not like I really wanted. The energy for it just isn't there. Today I head to the grocery store and my plan is in place. But there is room to tweak as I go. I mean afterall this is my journey right? I can make it anything I want.

So i'm ready, i'm willing, and i'm more than able to see this through...I know from the las three years that sometimes a little rain must fall and I just have to smile and keep moving forward. I will not quit till i've seen the goal weight pop up on the scales. Sorry I know that is prideful but isn't that what we all secretly want? You know i'm right.

Michelle.

  
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SLIMPAM23 9/24/2011 9:08PM

    You go girl!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!

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JUSTCHELLE75 9/24/2011 11:40AM

    .4 is so much more than we ever give it credit for being. You have under 10 to go, right? .4 is a big part of that number

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KENDRACARROLL 9/24/2011 11:12AM

    It's going the right way! Just keep chipping away, one day at a time.
If you work your program, do the food, do your workouts, you won't have to worry about the scale.
Wishing you a successful week.
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CAKAROO 9/24/2011 9:55AM

    congrats on the weight loss! Hope your cold goes away soon!

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CHINAGAL 9/24/2011 8:18AM

    sooooo right!
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Recommited

Monday, September 19, 2011

As some of you may know i've been struggling on a off for months now. Well I rejoined Weight Watchers online, i've cut back on some of my teams here at spark, am giving more time to a couple of the ones dear to my heart. I have recommited to me. I know this could be temporary as have so much of this journey been as of late, but today at this moment i'm ready for change. I have to be honest it is a struggle to go this alone. When I first began this journey I had a few friends on the ride. They got off and haven't been back since. They are back to prediet weight. I'm not. But I don't want to be either. My daughter and her hubby walk each evening now, my mother has rejoined Weight Watchers and now I have a few supporters to got this journey with again. Now don't get me wrong....spark is wonderful. But I need people here to push me as much as you all do.

You see I can say what I want on paper, or computer as the case may be, but they know me, see me, see what i'm going through. Now it is nice to have someone to walk the walk with, to make us hold ourselves accountable to. I know I should only be accountable to me but that is tough. You see I don't like me much. I'm weak in some areas and strong in others. I need someone to push the weak parts me and reenergize the strong. So today I begin a new day, filled with new hope. Oh i'm not looking for miracles, i'm not looking for large numbers to fall off my body, i'm just looking to myself to gain a bit of strength on this journey. I thought I had before when I was so close to goal, but that went by the wayside and now i'm struggling to regain lost ground.

Pam, Kristi, Joan, without you three I would never have gotten this far. You have kept me on spark and I thank you for that. Now guys lets give this journey all we have. I want to succeed and I know I can't get there from where i've been. So the new road starts now. A different path is filled with new challenges, new stepping blocks, new dangers. but it is also filled with new promise, new joys, and new goals to attain.

As my favorite song says: Its not whats waiting on the otherside...it's the climb.

Michelle.

  
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IUHRYTR 10/1/2011 8:33PM

    It is always inspiring to read of other's success and their difficulties because while it is easy to relate to seeing their pounds lost it is often encouraging to know how other people deal with problems we, too, face. Wishing you continued success. -- Lou

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KENDRACARROLL 9/20/2011 12:17PM

    Nothing better than exercise buddies. Taking a class at the gym gives me the same motivation. Just having real life like-minded people around is a great help. I could never do this on my own.

SP friends are nice for inspiration. It definitely would be harder without my SP friends.

Life friends and virtual friends, they each serve a different purpose and together they help us stay in the game.

Enjoy your walks with your family.

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 9/20/2011 7:05AM

    It's tougher doing this without a support network. I'm glad you've got family right there with you to help you.
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SLIMPAM23 9/19/2011 5:39PM

    You help all of us too my dear!!! But it's time now to start heading in the direction that we want to go!! FORWARD works for me!!! We can do this - and I'm glad that you have family on the journey too - My family has always helped me too - and I couldn't do it without them!!
WE ROCK!!
Pam

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JUSTCHELLE75 9/19/2011 3:01PM

    Michelle.. I am glad you are getting the support now at home that you need. I love spark and am committed to it but I know without going live and in person to meetings I would fall off the wagon. I need in life support as much as online supprot.

I am jealous of those who can do it on there own but smart enough to admit I need help

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/19/2011 11:52AM

    Michelle, reading your blog this morning has really got me thinking. This month has been so disappointing to me. I am doing (mostly) what I need to be doing, and the scale is at a stand still. It is so frustrating I've felt like just throwing in the towel. "Oh, one little break from it all won't hurt me" but I know what would happen..that "break" would turn into forever. I don't want that. I understand how it is when you have no one physically around you to share the journey with, because that is where I am. I depend on you guys to help me through this, and sometimes you do need someone physically there to walk with you, to encourage you...someone who shares some of your goals. I'm glad you are finding that support within your family. Michelle, you are stronger than you know, more beautiful that you will ever imagine. Your friendship has seen me through many rough spots here, and I'll continue to be here, cheering for you. I wish you the best - I think we can both recommit and make this work. We will see us reach our goals, I know we will!!!
Hugs to you!
Kristi

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 9/19/2011 10:54AM

    It is the climb. I think Patty has the right idea....hitting the RESTART button. We can do this and Michelle, I am so glad you now have a network that can help you on this journey.

Hugs,
Joan

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PATTYCAKE17 9/19/2011 10:32AM

    I'm pushing the Restart button myself, so I feel for you. I had a good thing going for a couple of weeks and then, crash.I even blogged about it when I was on a roll. I'm trying to exercise a little more in spite of my wheelchair, and change my eating habits which suddenly got sloppy again. Funny about these slippery slopes we get on! Hope your new motivations work for you. Real live people are the best motivation there is!

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DAWNSYOGAFLOW 9/19/2011 9:13AM

    You're right! It's all about the climb and being present in the moment. We aren't guaranteed time to enjoy 'the thin' time should it ever come to pass. Nothing wrong with us just the way we are!!


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Learning as I go

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

"Learn from the past, set vivid, detailed goals for the future, and live in the only moment of time over which you have any control: now."


OMG I didn't realize I haven't blogged in so long. Just nothing new to report. Let's see my weight is down a bit. Im back on track for the time being and trying to treat this as a journey and not a diet but that seems to be the hard part. I was and will beat myself up when I don't eat what is considered "healthy". Well that isn't how it is. We should be able to enjoy all foods. Good and bad, it is in the moderation department I was having trouble. So i'm back to the food scales, cups, and spoons. So far three weeks in a row a loss. Now mind you it is a total of one pound gone but that is more than i've had in the previous months. So as my friend Lou states we should be taking this one pound at a time. So one at a time is good for me right now. Gives me time to catch up on me.

My home is in caos right now and that isn't good for my OCD. My kitchen is getting a revamp on the island....which is the center of my world and right now a mess to work around. My living room is getting painted and that is everything in the center for right now till that is done.....and then we have the breakfast room chairs my hubby decided we needed to paint and one is missing and half done. Oh he will get these all done but in the meantime i'm in turmoil. But unlike past projects I seem to be working around these. I have just relaxed and decided not to see what is missing, or what is in the middle of my home. lol. I just grab my cup of international coffee after work and head out to the porch. Quiet and clean....the way I like things. lol.

So that is it here. Not much new just a lot of upheaval and i'm just learning as I go one step, day, and pound at a time. Which is how I used to make this work before I got it in my head that I could slack up. Funny this is a journey and I need to remember that.....nothing can change. I don't have to give up anything I just have to learn a new way......i'm doing that. Are you?

Michelle.

  
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 9/18/2011 9:27AM

    Keep up the good work. One pound "CLOSER" to the goal! YOU ROCK!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 9/15/2011 11:31PM

    At least you have the porch to escape to! :) you're doing great - just relax and know the chaos is temporary!
I'm still cheering for you...
Kristi

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IUHRYTR 9/15/2011 4:17PM

    Isn't it easier to picture losing one pound than it is trying to envision losing 10, 30 or 100 pounds? Keep up the good effort. Every loss is a positive step toward your goal. emoticon -- Lou

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CRAZYWOMAN10 9/13/2011 5:29PM

    Learning to keep this a journey is difficult...Kudos to you for remembering it when you need to. Being healthy is what its about...September is crazy for me...I literally have the worst anxiety attacks in this month..so I know where you are with things being out of place...I got the OCD as well!
One pound at a time..and one step at a time...You can do it!

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NEWNAC304 9/13/2011 4:46PM

    I'm working on that myself. I really need to learn that this is a lifestyle change and not a diet that I can go off and on again. I've slacked off a bit and gained 5 pounds. I'm now working on refocusing and getting back on track.

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KENDRACARROLL 9/13/2011 9:35AM

    I was wondering what was happening with you. It really has been a while.
Aside from the messy house, I'm glad things are again going in the direction you want them to go. One pound at a time is an awesome goal. And once that pound is gone, who cares how long it took to get it off? It is now gone and you can work on the next pound.

Oh, love the idea of a nice hot cup of international coffee on the porch :)
Be well, my friend.

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It is time to move forward

Saturday, August 27, 2011

This morning was my weigh in morning. Now I have been kinda moving through my journey just taking it one day at a time, not really giving my all and today was no differnt scale wise than usual. I can't expect to see the results if I don't give it my all through out the week. Today I had gained a pound. Now i'm ok with that because in reality it means that my month ended on the same note that it began. You see the last oh say six months or so my treks to the scales have been anything but wonderful. Why you may wonder? Well lets see....eating your way through sunday, then having those evening moments that last way into the night. Counting some but not all of what goes in your mouth. Saying no to chips then sneaking them from hubbies stash, all of this adds up to letting yourself down. If you don't think it does just look back over my tracker. I've changed it so many times and that is to accomidate where i'm at now. I was so close to goal and then IT happened. IT being the dreaded plateau. Did I do anything to make it work for me? Nope I added to it week upon week. I just knew I was doing everything right (right according to Michelle isn't always right), so the time has come to wake up and smell the coffee so to speak. I can't just keep going like this because i'm going nowhere and getting there fast. So today begins a new week for me. I've had my weigh in I know where I need to go from here. What I need to do is be true to myself.

I won't give a promise I may not keep to myself. But I will let me know that today is a new day, new week, and i'm strong. I reached these goals before and I will reach them again. I just have to have faith that my life will continue whether I eat that bag of chips or not. The craving, though intense, will fade. Now it is time to put it to the test.

Michelle.

  
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MINANCY 9/7/2011 8:11AM

    It is not always easy to take a cold hard look at our actions and how they impact our weight loss progress. Unpleasant as it may be, it is the first step to change. I've recently done the same thing.
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SLIMPAM23 8/31/2011 3:42PM

    I don't know about you - but the past SEVERAL months have been one big stumble!! The good news is that I refuse to give up and so do you!!! We will just keep plugging along until such a time that everything "clicks" again. It will be OK and we will reach or in my case re-reach our goals!!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 8/29/2011 9:05AM

    Keep your chin up Michelle. You can do this. Yes, it's work and sometimes it's not fun, and sometimes we have to admit that we are slacking. who knows why we do it!! Today is a new day, so put a smile on your face and tell yourself that TODAY you are going to succeed. For that is how we will get where we want to be..one day at a time, one small victory at a time. Forget about the prize at the end of the rainbow and focus on how strong and good you will feel as you get into bed at night knowing you gave the day all you had. You can do it!!!

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IUHRYTR 8/28/2011 7:53PM

    Maintaining is good. Better than gaining, right? I know you will hang in there and keep giving it your best. -- Lou

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/27/2011 6:45PM

    I cannot add to what has been said! Keep pushing! emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 8/27/2011 11:46AM

    Well if every time there was a down in life the scale would go down too, I'd be falling out of my pants.
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We keep on doing, we keep on fighting, we keep on getting up after we fall down, and even after we're pushed down. As long as we don't give up we'll be okay.

Keep fighting with me my friend.
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KENTUCKYWOMAN 8/27/2011 11:22AM

    Michelle, in your post on August 16, one quote you have is ''The price of success is hard work." Bet you didn't think those words would come back to haunt you. lol lol.
You are on the right track and like me you will begin as many times as we need to.
I like what John had to say, ''life has its ups and downs just like the scale."

Hugs,
Joan

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JUSTCHELLE75 8/27/2011 9:54AM

    You can do it. It is all within you. Being honest with us and yourself is a definite step in the process where you have already made giant leaps. Keep it up

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DEBTEVELDAHL 8/27/2011 9:04AM

    It sounds as if you have a plan and that is emoticon emoticon emoticon Debi T.

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JOHNMARTINMILES 8/27/2011 9:02AM

    Life has ups and life has downs, so does the scale. The important thing is the long term trend. Sometimes we will trip, sometimes we will stumble. Sometimes we will fall. This matters not if each time we get up, dust ourselves off and continue.

Enjoy the journey and make it a great weekend.

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Continuing the Journey

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

The price of success is hard work,
dedication to the job at hand,
and the determination that whether we win or lose,
we have applied the best of ourselves to the task at hand.
- Vince Lombardi

The chains of habit are too weak to be felt
until they are too strong to be broken.
- Samuel Johnson

An overfull calendar, like an overfull stomach,
is a consequence of taking on too much.
Commit, and eat, in moderation.
- jlh

This morning as I read my emails these quotes just spoke of my journey. Our journey really. I have not given up on my sparking just haven't really had much to blog about lately. Oh i'm still continuing and taking care of me, for the most part. Just came off of vacation and it was a nice quiet time for me to reflect on me and my journey and to decide what it was I really want. I got to walk each day and that is really my thinking time. I headed back to work and had a great day. I was way more relaxed, and in control of myself. I very much needed that break. As for a break from my journey. Nope. I have my "moments" and i have to begin fresh somedays over and over but I do. Maybe now I can actually see some change again and get some of my confidence back. I think i've found a bit of it during reflection but I need so much more in myself.

So i'm off to begin another great day. I will continue the journey towards ME.
Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 8/18/2011 12:00AM

    As always, I love your quotes. Michelle, living a healthy lifestyle is about so much more than losing weight. It's about breaking free of unhealthy mindsets, learning to love ourselves and forgiving ourselves for past mistakes. We start with wanting to lose the weight, and then we find we have so much more to gain by taking care of ourselves and living a life that we love. You are on your way. You are learning to love the "you" that you have kept bottled up for so long, and finding out just what you want out of this life and this journey. You are making this journey work for you with every step you take. Keep on walking, for maybe it isn't about finding the end of the road, but simply in the action of walking that we find out who we are and who we want to be.
I'm right here walking beside you, my friend and together we are going to enjoy this lifestyle and all the things we've been missing out on!!

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KENDRACARROLL 8/16/2011 10:59AM

    I love this one:
The chains of habit are too weak to be felt
until they are too strong to be broken.
- Samuel Johnson

Here's to our continuing journey.
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KENTUCKYWOMAN 8/16/2011 6:51AM

    I'm with you Michelle. Here's to the ''First Day of the Rest of Our lives."
Hugs,
Joan

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SEAGLASSQUEEN 8/16/2011 6:25AM

    Thanks for sharing!

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