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New month and so ready for new changes

Monday, August 01, 2011

Our greatest weakness lies in giving up.
The most certain way to succeed
is always to try just one more time.
- Thomas A. Edison

Simply do your best, and you will avoid
self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.
- don Miguel Angel Ruiz

These last months have been so upsetting for me. Not that anyone or anything did it but me. I start off with such great intentions and then just fizzle out. I mean this past month I lost great and then I gained and finished the month higher then I began. Now that is just not right. I need to step up my game and get back to it. So for a few days I have been so on track that i'm scaring myself. But it was time to take on myself and not give in.

Food has become my constant companion and it is time to change that. I'm down to eating my three meals and at work i'm trying to cut my "break" out. I mean to have water is one thing but to eat like it is a small meal is something else. So for a few days this past week I just grabbed my water and headed out of the break room. That way no time for the vending machine to stop me in my tracks. Funny when I look over my past I see the me I was and the me i'm becoming and the two are so different. When I began this journey I weighed and measured, counted, checked, planned. I lost most weeks, oh I had plateaus but after a few down weeks I began moving again. Now it has been months of ups and not many downs to the point i've gained at the end. So it was time to sit back down, plan my stratagy, see my trouble areas and just begin fresh.

Nothing wrong with starting over the wrong is quitting. I'm not a quitter and I won't give up on me. I just need to step up my game.


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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 8/2/2011 6:44AM

    I like your honesty with yourself. My only suggestion is to relax! You have come a long way and if I remember you are not far from goal. I know you want it and YOU will attain it! do what you know you need to do and breath. It will come!
XOXOXO emoticon to your august goals

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    Here is to a successful August.
Are you currently using the food tracker? Just asking because you said "in the beginning" you "weighed and measured, counted, checked, planned."

Good job dodging the vending machine. They are evil!

You can do this!!!
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I've been cheating myself

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Understand the difference between "failing,"
which each of us does often,
and "being a failure,"
which is a state of mind no one should
ever allow themself to fall into.

Sometimes you get the results you wanted,
sometimes you don't.
What matters is that you did your best.

Its funny in a way I come here and I set goals for myself. I drink water like i'm a heading into the desert and need extra, I get up each day and plan at least to get 30 minutes of exercise before I head off to work, I get all my fruits and veggies even if it is the minimum of five a day. But am I really doing all I can to succeed? The answer is no. I'm cheating myself each day. In little ways mostly but the scales tell the tale and it isn't a pretty story. Oh I have great days and I have not so great days. Lately by the look of my calendar of stickers more not so great days are happening than great days. So what gives? Why am I short changing myself? why am I cheating myself out of if for nothing else healthy living?

The answer is a resounding LAZINESS, pure and simple. Oh I put up the good fight but I don't dig in my feet and really give it my all. Weighing and measuring takes too much time I'll just have this looks about right. I can have that pack of crackers, I mean I ate good for breakfast so what they are loaded with not so good stuff....I want them. Chips? Oh I can measure out and eat a serving....wait i'll just take the bag and I know how much one or was that four servings is.

So yesterday I paid attention to me. I stopped myself. I planned and I followed. Oh I had to talk me through a few things like the vending machine that calls my name....but I did it. Now mind you it was one day. But I did it. So today i'm just a tad bit stronger than yesterday and I will keep up the fight. I"m in this to win it and i'm not going to cheat me anylonger. For me it is mind over matter. I need to mind myself or I won't matter. Been there done that have a t-shirt don't want to go back and revisit.

No more cheating ourselves. today our day to succeed.

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CRAZYWOMAN10 7/30/2011 8:20AM

    I feel your pain...Right there with you. I think what we have to do is learn how to BALANCE it. Somehow we have to train our brain to allow things but to know when enough is enough. Hope that makes sense...

Keep pushing..we can do this! Have a great day!

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IUHRYTR 7/29/2011 12:51AM

    We will find that losing weight is not only a one day at a time challenge but is often a minute by minute challenge as you experienced with the vending machine. As long as we make more positive decisions than negative ones, we will eventually be successful. -- Lou

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FISHINGLADY66 7/28/2011 9:12PM

    I agree, Great Blog. You are so right.

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JUSTCHELLE75 7/28/2011 10:42AM

    This is one of the harder lessons that we seem to have to learn daily

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MADAMES 7/28/2011 10:01AM

    Great blog! You are right...when we think we are treating oursleves, we are really cheating ourselves!! I love the way you put it!


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MDBUTTERFLY 7/28/2011 8:01AM

    I am right there with ya! Totally relate...
Way to go for yesterday and YOU CAN DO IT today!! =)

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MATHISC4464 7/28/2011 8:00AM

    Way to go!! Just the other day I was thinking the same thing no more cheating!! It's awesome that you realized what was wrong and great job committing to not cheating yourself! You are worth it! Keep up the great work and good luck on your journey!

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We always have today

Monday, July 25, 2011

Today is the first day of the rest of your life.
- Anonymous

Don't Wait!
Start on your dreams, your impulses,
your longings, your special occasions today.
Because this is your moment.
- Mary Anne Radmacher

Yesterday is history,
tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift.
That is why it is called Present.
- Anonymous

Every day is a Perfect Day when I say it is;
and I say that Today is a Perfect Day.
- jlh

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FISHINGLADY66 7/25/2011 10:44PM

    Thanks for these great words of Wisdom. I love Jonathan Lockwood Huie.

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JFREDERICK11 7/25/2011 7:29AM

    How refreshing to remember today is wonderful and a precious gift.

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A new dawning: mine

Saturday, July 23, 2011

emoticonThis morning as I was taking my dogs and me for a nice longggg walk I had my mind clear, the birds singing, the walk was just going along nicely. This is the time I think, plan, clear my mind and relax. Well this morning it dawned on me that I wasn't on this journey as a diet anylonger but it had become a lifestyle for me. I had a gain this week which yet again brought me up a pound. Now I must be honest here I did it all by the book this week. So I was a bit upset. Of course it is my PMS week and that usually means two pounds gain but heck one is ok, so anyhow, I was so upset over this yet again setback that I thought about just quitting. I mean giving up the teams, the leaderships, all of it. I mean this has been going on for a long time and to be honest i'm about sick of counting, watching, weighing, saying no when what I want to say is " yeah I would love to have that cake". Well what I did was none of those things. What I did was come in sit down put the numbers in spark, set a new goal, get my notebook ready for another day of inputting, and then I headed off for a hour walk with the guys. Do you know why I did this? Because I could no more quit then and give up than not see me grandson one more time. this is a part of my life now. It is a habit, one I want to continue. Yeah the road has been full of bumps but i've come far. I"m at a weight that really for oh so many years I only dreamed of reaching because I could never give up the junk, the couch, any of it. But I have and I am. I'm exercising every morning. Whether it is for 20 minutes or 60 each morning i'm moving. I walk each day at my lunch, I could of quit this about two years or more ago but I didn't. I eat for the most part healthy foods and the junk is only on occasion.

So what does this say about me? I've come to the conclusion that i'm on this journey for better and better. And right now I can live with me like I am. Yeah I have a few more pounds to go and it may take me a long time to reach it. That is because of myself, not the plan. So i'm thinking for now I will just relax, enjoy spark and the ride, and learn to love myself. Because if the truth be told that is what all this comes down to....loving who we are no matter the weight.


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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/25/2011 8:01AM

    Wonderful Blog!!! Good energy from this blog!!!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/25/2011 12:06AM

    This made me smile. To hear the pride in your hard work. to know you've made it so far and that you never want to go back, now that is an accomplisment to be proud of! You are amazing and such an inspiration. Thank you.

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KENDRACARROLL 7/24/2011 11:23AM

    I think we've learned many new habits during our journey so far. We eat better, we exercise, we constantly work to improve our bodies and our minds. This journey is ongoing. The number on the scale is only a small part of the big picture. Stay the course, you'll be glad you did!
Wishing you well, my friend.

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MELODYSUE 7/23/2011 10:50PM


I did quit for a while. I let life crisis, stress, and other people effect the way I looked at myself. I gave up on me and because I gave up on me I gained back almost 60 lbs of the weight I had worked so hard to lose. I am finally back on track and plan to stay there.

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IUHRYTR 7/23/2011 9:37PM

    In many aspects of life when we want to quit and don't is when we begin heading toward success. Hang in there. -- Lou

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 7/23/2011 5:43PM

    Michelle, you also knew we'd come looking for ya. emoticon I have been where you are so many times and just like you I wanted to say ''yes to the cake." But, you know I think when we keep continuing on this journey, it does finally click with us that ''yes, it is a lifestyle change."

You can't've not been voted off the island..... emoticon

Hugs you buddy,

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Just breath

Friday, July 22, 2011

The butterfly counts not months but moments,
and has time enough.
- Rabindranath Tagore

Sometimes we have to just breath. Relax let the day unfold. Our journeys are vast but if we slow down and enjoy the ride we will still arrive at our destination. Maybe not as fast as some but we will arrive just the same.


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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/25/2011 12:03AM

    I needed to hear that! thanks! LOVE the pic and quote.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/23/2011 8:53AM

    emoticon Well said!

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KENDRACARROLL 7/22/2011 11:15AM

    Well said. Slow and steady. Let's smell the flowers along the way.
Happy Friday to you.

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    Amen! There is nothing more that needs to be said, is there? emoticon

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JESSIELOVE78 7/22/2011 9:55AM

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