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A new dawning: mine

Saturday, July 23, 2011

emoticonThis morning as I was taking my dogs and me for a nice longggg walk I had my mind clear, the birds singing, the walk was just going along nicely. This is the time I think, plan, clear my mind and relax. Well this morning it dawned on me that I wasn't on this journey as a diet anylonger but it had become a lifestyle for me. I had a gain this week which yet again brought me up a pound. Now I must be honest here I did it all by the book this week. So I was a bit upset. Of course it is my PMS week and that usually means two pounds gain but heck one is ok, so anyhow, I was so upset over this yet again setback that I thought about just quitting. I mean giving up the teams, the leaderships, all of it. I mean this has been going on for a long time and to be honest i'm about sick of counting, watching, weighing, saying no when what I want to say is " yeah I would love to have that cake". Well what I did was none of those things. What I did was come in sit down put the numbers in spark, set a new goal, get my notebook ready for another day of inputting, and then I headed off for a hour walk with the guys. Do you know why I did this? Because I could no more quit then and give up than not see me grandson one more time. this is a part of my life now. It is a habit, one I want to continue. Yeah the road has been full of bumps but i've come far. I"m at a weight that really for oh so many years I only dreamed of reaching because I could never give up the junk, the couch, any of it. But I have and I am. I'm exercising every morning. Whether it is for 20 minutes or 60 each morning i'm moving. I walk each day at my lunch, I could of quit this about two years or more ago but I didn't. I eat for the most part healthy foods and the junk is only on occasion.

So what does this say about me? I've come to the conclusion that i'm on this journey for better and better. And right now I can live with me like I am. Yeah I have a few more pounds to go and it may take me a long time to reach it. That is because of myself, not the plan. So i'm thinking for now I will just relax, enjoy spark and the ride, and learn to love myself. Because if the truth be told that is what all this comes down to....loving who we are no matter the weight.

Michelle.

  
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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/25/2011 8:01AM

    Wonderful Blog!!! Good energy from this blog!!!

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/25/2011 12:06AM

    This made me smile. To hear the pride in your hard work. to know you've made it so far and that you never want to go back, now that is an accomplisment to be proud of! You are amazing and such an inspiration. Thank you.

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KENDRACARROLL 7/24/2011 11:23AM

    I think we've learned many new habits during our journey so far. We eat better, we exercise, we constantly work to improve our bodies and our minds. This journey is ongoing. The number on the scale is only a small part of the big picture. Stay the course, you'll be glad you did!
Wishing you well, my friend.

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MELODYSUE 7/23/2011 10:50PM

    Absolutely!!!

I did quit for a while. I let life crisis, stress, and other people effect the way I looked at myself. I gave up on me and because I gave up on me I gained back almost 60 lbs of the weight I had worked so hard to lose. I am finally back on track and plan to stay there.


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IUHRYTR 7/23/2011 9:37PM

    In many aspects of life when we want to quit and don't is when we begin heading toward success. Hang in there. -- Lou

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HUMMINGBIRDFLY 7/23/2011 7:47PM

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 7/23/2011 5:43PM

    Michelle, you also knew we'd come looking for ya. emoticon I have been where you are so many times and just like you I wanted to say ''yes to the cake." But, you know I think when we keep continuing on this journey, it does finally click with us that ''yes, it is a lifestyle change."

You can't leave....you've not been voted off the island..... emoticon

Hugs you buddy,
Joan

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Just breath

Friday, July 22, 2011

The butterfly counts not months but moments,
and has time enough.
- Rabindranath Tagore




Sometimes we have to just breath. Relax let the day unfold. Our journeys are vast but if we slow down and enjoy the ride we will still arrive at our destination. Maybe not as fast as some but we will arrive just the same.

Michelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/25/2011 12:03AM

    I needed to hear that! thanks! LOVE the pic and quote.

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/23/2011 8:53AM

    emoticon Well said!

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KENDRACARROLL 7/22/2011 11:15AM

    Well said. Slow and steady. Let's smell the flowers along the way.
Happy Friday to you.

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 7/22/2011 10:29AM

    Amen! There is nothing more that needs to be said, is there? emoticon

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JESSIELOVE78 7/22/2011 9:55AM

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Putting one foot in front of the other

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

You have to accept whatever comes
and the only important thing is that
you meet it with courage
and with the best that you have to give.
- Eleanor Roosevelt

Success seems to be connected with action.
Successful people keep moving.
They make mistakes, but they don't quit.
- Conrad Hilton

We keep moving forward, opening new doors,
and doing new things, because we're curious
and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.
- Walt Disney

You know it is funny who ever thought just trying to lose a few pounds would be so hard? I mean come on now this is simple right? I mean It came on so darn easy it seems but the taking off if really a mind thing. Mind over food. I mean that should be simple....you set your mind to it and the rest falls into place...right???? WRONG. The gaining was the easy part the losing seems to be the hardest job i've ever undertaken. But I have to be honest it is the most fullfilling experience next to child bearning. I mean really there is a science to how our bodies work. We are just learning about that day in and day out. We know what the books tell us to do, we know what we should eat, we know how much exercise we should be getting....but really the truth is our bodies are all so different.

I recently had a team mate reach her goal weight. Oh I was so happy for her but at the same time I was jealous. I mean here i'm struggling and for months it seems and she just cruised on in and swept past me and eased into the finish line. I"m still bringing up the rear. But in reality she had the same struggles I did. She just figured hers out a lot sooner than I did. We each will reach our goals. We just may take a bit longer than some and be quicker than others. So I'm taking my lead from a dear friend ( thanks lou) and i'm going to take this one day and one pound at a time. I mean really I can't go much faster than that in any case so why stress me out about it. One pound at a time will get me to my goal just like doing it in giant leaps and heck it may even stay off if I do it this way. So today is day three for me and sticking to my daily goals. So far I have had moments but i've talked myself out of them. I want this. I'm serious about wanting this or I sure would of given up a long time ago. I mean each day I pick myself up and dust myself off and start fresh. That says a lot about each of us here. We want this and we are going to get it......ONE POUND AT A TIME.

Michelle.

  
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IUHRYTR 7/20/2011 7:04PM

    Imagine baseball or football players who play in the sun and heat, cold and snow, often being beaten by large lopsided scores. It would be easy for them to give up but they still go out there every inning and every quarter and give it the best they have. Even though they may lose, they can hold their heads high with pride that they didn't quit, they didn't take the easy road and ease up the rest of the game.

It's the same with other aspects of life, including weight loss. We may feel overwhelmed and out of the game, but that is only true if we give up and cease trying. Hang in there. -- Lou

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MARITIMER3 7/20/2011 6:39PM

    If it was simple, we'd all be thin... we'd all lose weight the very first time we tried... we'd never "fall off the wagon" and we'd certainly NEVER eat unless we were hungry.

It takes time to break old habits and develop new ones. You're doing great; some people will lose more quickly, others more slowly. What's important is that you're trying, and you're setting a great example for your family and friends.

Gail emoticon

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MADAMES 7/20/2011 4:38PM

    Very good thoughts!

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 7/20/2011 8:46AM

    Excellent post Michelle. I remember feeling jealous as well when people seem to sail by me, but had no idea that when I met my goal there were people that felt the same way I had felt about the others.
One Day at a time.

Hugs,
Joan

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AZMOMXTWO 7/20/2011 7:52AM

  great way to look at it I will follow your lead here one day one pound at a time

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Catching up

Saturday, July 16, 2011

emoticonI haven't blogged in a bit as really not much is going on. Same ole stuff new day. I had a slight gain on the scales this week, but my exercise is up so i'm ok with that. I really didn't expect much as my mouth seem to have something in it most of the time and it wasn't just my tongue. Weather here is hot and more hot. I haven't been able to get my walks in at lunch but i'm trying to get my swims in in the evening. A bit wet here today and really all i want to do is nothing. I did manage to get up and get my exercise in but that is about it. I just got up from a nap and now i'm just sparking for a bit. Quite the lazy day if I do say so myself. I do find that I need those every now and again. Today just seems to be the day.

I'm taking a moment and resetting my spark streaks. I really want to see some. lets just say "staying in my nutrition range" was a whole whopping 68%. So a bit of work needed in that area. One of my new streaks is to see how many days I can go in that range. I mean really how hard can it be? Yeah right. I mean my goal is dangling like a carrot in front of my face and i've yet to reach it. I really thought this was going to be the YEAR but heck I can't seem to get out of the starting gate. I have found I still have issues I didn't know I had with food and I have days of overeating. Not a day but days. I wish I could be the kind that makes an error and says "oh no I overate this meal, I'll just get right back on track" oh not me...I just continue for the day. Heck I mean what is done is done right? Wrong.

I'm trying to learn I need to eat to live not live to eat. For me it is a fine line there. I can't just have a serving of some foods. Just knowing they are there is a mind field for me. I have to eat it. A serving? what is that. You mean people actually weigh and measure and count? Oh no. I brought snacks to work the other day, ones I needed to get out of my house. So what better place than work. OMG, they ate through that stuff like they had been starving. Is that what I was doing? I saw me in there. In the hands moving so fast and the pushing and shoving to get what was there. I saw me from the back and it wasn't pretty. It was a moment to wake up and step back and decide then and there what I really want from all this.

I tell ya...when I figure it all out my mind will be a better place. I say this because I have a battle going on right now with it. I say I want to reach goal but something is holding me back from it. I just can't say what that is right now. Do I feel I deserve this? You bet. But do I really feel that way? That is the question because if I did the same determination I had at the beginning would be here now.

MIchelle.

  
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/18/2011 8:27PM

    We are going to figure this out. I wish I had it figured out already, but nope..me either. So...we just keep on going, one foot in front of the other and we have to end up somewhere, right?!

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KENDRACARROLL 7/17/2011 1:08AM

    Oh, and once you figure it all out you'll let me know, okay?
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I reset some spark streaks today as well. Let's keep them going!


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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 7/17/2011 12:33AM

    So glad you are working to figure it out, Michelle. What a help this is going to be on your long-term journey. emoticon

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TSF1264 7/16/2011 5:43PM

    Michelle, I FEEL YOU! Portion control is MY biggest issue!!! One of the things I did was to take a GOOD HARD LOOK at the foods I am eating. My husband and I both cook healthy lean fresh ingredients all the time, so the problem isn't so much what we are eating but how much. What I did to alleviate our portion control issues is now, when I go to dish up dinner, I use ziploc containers. I measure out controlled portions of everything, first on our plates, the rest into equal containers. Then I label them and freeze them. Now my husband can travel to work, and his food is already portioned and ready to microwave and eat. (hes with the railroad so hes gone from home a lot more than hes actually home!) And on those days when I just don't feel like cooking? I have a preportioned meal ready to pop in the microwave myself!

Now the next trick? Since you know the battle at hand, plan for it! Seriously pull out a calendar and plan every single meal and snack every day for yourself! If you need to, do it daily, during that time when you'd normally be "hmmmm what can I snack on?"..... munch on a few celery sticks while you plan out your menu for the next day or week! ;) YOU CAN DO IT!! :) emoticon

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Saw this and thought of us

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Coming together is a beginning;
keeping together is progress;
working together is success.
- Anonymous


I saw this quote and it made me think of spark. Does this not say how spark is. How our friendships begin and continue and how we all work together for the common goal: HEALTH. I know for me spark has been the best thing to happen in my life in a very long time. Oh i've not reached my goal but as of yesterday i'm 6 little pounds away from it. Not ever have I gotten this close and kept going. In fact i've never gotten this close before.

So to my spark friends, teams, and buddies I have to give you a big emoticon Without you all I don't know if I truly would be at this place in my journey.

Have a blessed day all
Michelle.

  
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SLIMPAM23 7/12/2011 5:44PM

    Hey Michelle---
Yep that is a perfect quote for SP!! And I might steal it from you!! You are doing great - we had a little success this week - now lets not let it go to our heads. Stay in the game this week and keep your eye on the prize!!
Pam

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TERESA6262 7/11/2011 9:55PM

    You're just plain awesome, Michelle!

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IUHRYTR 7/11/2011 8:17PM

    We all need support and get as much from you as we give, maybe more. Stay the course, one pound at a time. -- Lou

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MADAMES 7/10/2011 10:33PM

    Thanks for sharing a quote which says it very well!!
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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 7/10/2011 6:15PM

    I agree whole heartedly with you!!!
You are so close! I can see you getting there, keep up the great work!
Kristi

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KENDRACARROLL 7/10/2011 1:21PM

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First thing I do every morning... (after I make myself a cup of coffee :))
Through good and bad, SparkFriends are there for you. It really is a great place to be.

Keep up the good work!!!!

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BUTTERFLYEMERGE 7/10/2011 12:38PM

    EXACTLY!!!! Thanks so much for posting that! emoticon

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MIDNIGHTWOLF87 7/10/2011 8:26AM

    I'm still really new to spark people and I find these sort of posts very encouraging. I really hope I can stick with it as well. So far I'm really enjoying my time on here :D

Great job on your progress!

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 7/10/2011 8:19AM

    OK imma bout to date myself but the first thing that popped into my mind was from a Dougie Fresh song where he says "6 minutes dougie fresh your on!

SO I say "6 pounds...to get to goal your ON!!!

You are right about spark people. I left for a minute but was drawn back. Now it is like a part of life! AND YOU are one of the shining stars that I have met along the way! xoxo

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SERENITY0808 7/10/2011 8:14AM

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I know exactly what you mean. My life is richer for the friends and family that I have gained from SparkPeople. And when you have friends and family in your corner ... everything is so much easier.
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