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Friday, August 29, 2014

So long as you have courage and a sense of humor,
it is never too late to start life afresh.
- Freeman Dyson

If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you.
You may have a fresh start any moment you choose,
for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down,
but the staying down.
- Mary Pickford

Well another month comes to an end. I end on a gain for the total month. Not much but enough where I almost want to throw in the towel. I'm exercising more and finally getting back to the YMCA and walking more. My eating according to my journal is spot on, but as I stepped up to those scales this morning just knowing I had a great week on them, they again failed me. So as I almost cried and I know I said "what, that can't be" I was so ready at that moment to literally throw those 129.00 aria scales out the window. But I took a deep breath, which is hard when you don't want to cry. And I began my list of what I did right this week and this month.

1. I'm moving so much more again
2. I'm getting my water in each and everyday.
3. I'm eating my freggies.
4. I'm shopping and eating so much better.
5. My pants are just a bit looser.

So maybe just because the scales say I'm up doesn't mean I'm up totally. Actually I ended the month just over where I began so I guess I got this maintenance down. Though I'm not even close to that.

I'm not giving up this easily. I'm in control of my future and it starts NOW.


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NELLJONES 8/29/2014 7:57AM

    I love the Mary Pickford quote.

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WITCHYONE333 8/29/2014 6:48AM

    Loved the blog! I too find it hard when my scale doesn't show my progress. It really is just one tool.
Enjoy your "Non-Scale-Victories". They really do MATTER. The scale will eventually follow but in the mean-time, bend over and appreciate the extra bit of give in your pants.

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Sunday, August 17, 2014

Remember losing the first few pounds deserves just as much applause as losing those last few!

Enjoy your Sunday and a new week.


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KENDRACARROLL 8/18/2014 1:59PM

    Happy Monday.
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Not giving up!!!!

Saturday, August 16, 2014

I ranted yesterday about the feelings I'm having about my weight issues or lack there of. But I'm not giving up on myself. I'm just in a slump right now, ok it has been going on for a while, but I'm good. I'm doing the right thing and yes it isn't showing like I would so love but I'm not quitting. One thing I'm not is a quitter. A whiner maybe, but during the rant I'm still pushing myself forward because in the back of my mind is the what if's ....what if I quit and gain even more, what if I never reach my goal, what if someone sees me and thinks dang she has gotten big. So many what if's.....

I'm so really trying to not let this happen.

Paper journal at the ready, app tuned in, and good healthy foods bought, I'm ready for another good week and who knows maybe this week will be different.

I want to say I miss the Spark journal they used to have. I journaled everything so often and now it is gone. So the only place I have to rant, or jump for my own joy is in a blog, Did Spark not realize somethings we have to work out on our own.

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HMBROWN1 8/16/2014 9:15AM

    Great advice NELLJONES! Best wishes to all!

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EVIE4NOW 8/16/2014 8:47AM

  The "what ifs" keeps me going... you CAN do it.

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NELLJONES 8/16/2014 8:16AM

    It takes at least as long to lose the weight as it took to gain it. Nobody tracks the upward movement in the scale, so you don't really feel how long it took. Even a watched pot boils eventually.

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Sometimes I just wanna......

Friday, August 15, 2014

Concentrate on building your inner strength. Your motivation is what keeps you going even when it's tough!

Sometimes I just wanna.....quit. I want to stop the madness, get off the merry go round and just be for a bit. Doesn't everyone? I mean don't you all feel like your trying and trying and the results just aren't happening? Well for me this has been an ongoing thing. I'm working harder than ever and still nothing, nadda, zip. No loss, sometimes a gain, and still not getting anywhere but more frustrated.

I've taken my goals in hand and my coworkers and I have decided to change a few things up. Well they see results, me? I see the same number over and over. Each week now for two weeks I've gotten on those scales just knowing I've done some good. But Alas like the week before I'm either up or the same. How can that be? I'm walking again, I'm eating under my calories daily, I'm choosing wiser, so what is up with that? I just don'[t know anymore what I'm doing. I want to just throw those scales in the trash, toss the healthy lifestyle out the window, I mean what good is it if I'm not seeing change?

It sucks each week to head to work to tell your loss or gain and always have a gain or no loss. I said before for two weeks we've been doing this as a group, I've been doing this for two years, alone, and still nothing. Now I will admit early on I was just going through the motions, but for a bit now I've been working on me, I've bought calorie counter books, new apps for my phone, new cups for my water, got out the scales, pack a bag to change after work so I can go to the YMCA or take a walk outside depending on the mood, I'm not binging at night, and I'm making better choices. So what the hell gives?

Menopause? yup I've got that, but dang I can't keep my sanity through all this with my weight, the stress of life, and just trying to get my emotions in check. Yup it isn't for sissies.

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NELLJONES 8/15/2014 8:09AM

    I found out that I can be perfectly within my plan, and in 15 minutes I can reverse the work of weeks. It doesn't seem fair, but there it is.

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A little motivation for soul:

Thursday, August 14, 2014

A world in upheaval is the breaking of the old sod -
the revealing of rich fresh soil ready for new planting.
Rejoice in the opportunity to sow a new crop.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

Unexpected events can set you back or set you up.
It's all a matter of - perspective.
- Mary Anne Radmacher

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