Friday, August 15, 2014
Concentrate on building your inner strength. Your motivation is what keeps you going even when it's tough!
Sometimes I just wanna.....quit. I want to stop the madness, get off the merry go round and just be for a bit. Doesn't everyone? I mean don't you all feel like your trying and trying and the results just aren't happening? Well for me this has been an ongoing thing. I'm working harder than ever and still nothing, nadda, zip. No loss, sometimes a gain, and still not getting anywhere but more frustrated.
I've taken my goals in hand and my coworkers and I have decided to change a few things up. Well they see results, me? I see the same number over and over. Each week now for two weeks I've gotten on those scales just knowing I've done some good. But Alas like the week before I'm either up or the same. How can that be? I'm walking again, I'm eating under my calories daily, I'm choosing wiser, so what is up with that? I just don'[t know anymore what I'm doing. I want to just throw those scales in the trash, toss the healthy lifestyle out the window, I mean what good is it if I'm not seeing change?
It sucks each week to head to work to tell your loss or gain and always have a gain or no loss. I said before for two weeks we've been doing this as a group, I've been doing this for two years, alone, and still nothing. Now I will admit early on I was just going through the motions, but for a bit now I've been working on me, I've bought calorie counter books, new apps for my phone, new cups for my water, got out the scales, pack a bag to change after work so I can go to the YMCA or take a walk outside depending on the mood, I'm not binging at night, and I'm making better choices. So what the hell gives?
Menopause? yup I've got that, but dang I can't keep my sanity through all this with my weight, the stress of life, and just trying to get my emotions in check. Yup it isn't for sissies.