Sunday, May 16, 2010
I don't have a lot to say today other than I'm sick of learning a loved one has this kind of cancer or that kind of cancer. Seriously, enough is enough. At this point, I think I have a better chance of counting those that haven't been touched by it than those that have -- or at least the list might be shorter.
Latest is the suspicion that my Father-in-law might have pancreatic cancer. At this point, no one has officially said it, but 2 of this other doctors have both said all indications point to it.
He had back surgery a little over a week ago. He had some complications and seemed to be doing fine when he went home Tues. He ended up in the ER today -- which originally all thoughts were on an abscess for his wound. They ended up doing a CAT scan, but turns out they got a larger picture area. Apparently he has a mass on his pancreas. At this point, all we know is it's solid and it's obstructing his breathing and causing some other issues. I'll spare the gory details.
Long story short, there's talk of possibly removing the mass in a day or two (depends on some other factors), but were also told that because of the location they may not be able to.
Hasn't been 2 years yet since we lost my Mother-in-law to Leukemia. She was diagnosed and gone in less than 6 wks. Because of his age, there's already been some expressions of concern by the various doctors. It's hard on my hubby.
Anyway, it's nerve wracking. I'll own up to emotional eating today -- more like emotional grazing. For what it's worth, I did choose to throw out the brownies I made today -- kids each had one, but I preferred the remnants of the batter in the bowl, decided to remove the temptation just to be safe. I definitely need to make sure I stay connected with the whole community aspect for support -- in more than one area.
Appreciate any thoughts and prayers...thanks for letting me semi vent
Monday, May 03, 2010
I'm still balancing out the new routine, but I'm getting there. I've been getting up at the crack of dawn and getting in some fitness. I've been packing my lunch, planning meals ahead, etc. I'm making some observations along the way. Let's call them areas for improvement:
Observation #1: it's a fine line between leaving super early, beating the traffic and exercising at the gym and getting up early, exercising in the burbs and then the miserable commute in. Weird thing is I actually feel like my workouts are shorter with the early morning drive then workout. I'm not liking this, and trying not to beat myself up over it -- at least I'm getting it in! I can't get up and out any earlier -- not sure that would be safe either. Tomorrow I'm going to work out at home and see how that goes. Sounds weird, but it's something to do with having to sit in the car for 40 min that keeps me exhausted.
Observation #2: I'm doing a way better job of planning my meals ahead for the week. I know the meals I'm making are all healthy and keep me within my range. However, I"m struggling more with actively entering my info into the food tracker -- i think mainly because I haven't entered every detail as a custom food. I should plan ahead for that too, but am just feeling like my weekend gets too compressed.
Observation #3: I need more water -- I think I'm drinking less than before.
Observation #4: need more sleep! (like I should be doing now!!!)
We'll see how I continue to progress. These are all things I want to keep watching to try to stay on track. I kinda feel like maybe going back to an earlier stag may help me, not sure.
Anyway...brain is not fully functioning and needs sleep, so I'll noodle on that more tomorrow.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
It's measurement time again...last measurements were 3/10. To be consistent, I'll show change from last month and change since beginning of the year (well 1/4, but close enough. With that...here we go (helps keep me accountable)
Waist: same as 3/10, down 1.5" since 1/4
Abdomen: down .25" since 3/10, down 1.5" since 1/4
Hips: down .75" since 3/10, down 2.75" since 1/4 (woohoo! go me! I measured this 3 times -- even at different points today to be sure)
Upper Arm: no change since 3/10, no change since 1/4
Upper Thigh: this was up .25" since 3/10, down .5 inch total since 1/4 (must admit, that one surprised me. To be honest, I wonder if my measurement was correct last month. Oh well, just have to watch it to see.
Calf: no change since 3/10, down 1" since 1/4
Neck: no change since 3/10, down .5" since 1/24 (first time I measured)
Bust: no change since 3/10, down .5" since 1/4
My weight is up 1 lb since then, but still down 3 lbs since beginning of year. Weight wise, I've plateaued for a while, but have been tracking my other things. I've got to get my routine down with the new job too.
Wasn't sure initially how I'd feel about sharing my progress with people, but I feel somewhat safe because it's just showing my progress and not the actual number. I like the feeling of accountability of updating my progress chart and including info in my blog. Keeps me honest. :-)
Saturday, April 17, 2010
What a whirlwind week. I started my new job this week. I really like it so far. It looks like i'm going to be jumping right in. I'll have ownership, learn new things and things seem to move quickly. All just the way I like it.
The one thing I don't like is my commute. When it's good, it's about an hour. When it's bad, it's well over an hour and a half. Reality is I need to leave no later than 6:40am so I get there sometime between 7:30 and 8. I do that so I can leave by 5pm to get home by 6 so I can spend time with the kids. I'm not really complaining about the drive -- I'm using the time to listen to audiobooks and CNN Headline News, so it's good. i"m really still trying to figure out how to keep my balance. The times I'm using definitely are the best option because I leave while the kids are still asleep and am there for everything in the evening.
My 2 biggest challenges are my workout and my food. For my workout, I'm up by 5am so I can be done by 5:45 to make sure I leave on time. Biggest complaint there is I don't feel like I'm getting my full workout in. And to be honest, I'm not going to sacrifice the time with my kids in the evening to add more time there. I have done a couple of walks at lunch which are about a mile -- not super long, but beautiful weather and it makes me feel better. There's a gym just down the street from my office. I'm going to try getting up, making the commute (which should be even less time at that hour) then working out down there and getting ready there before I head to the office. Also, planning to add some after dinner walks in with the family so that will make it even better. We'll just have to see how that goes and do the best that I can with the time that I have.
This week was just rough with the my food. My biggest challenge there is that I'm grabbing my breakfast on my way out the door. Before I switched I was always very good with either my Kashi cereal or my eggs. I'll just have to keep working on that one. Also, this week, I had lunch out 3 times as a result of my being new. I made pretty good choices, but not quite the same as when I prepare my own food.
Speaking of food, one of the things that amazed me is how much junk I've seen my new coworkers eat. One of the girls I work with is super thin, but eats nothing but junk. I've seen ice cream, those massive Otis Spunkmeyer double chocolate muffins, candy bars, etc . Not judging her, but not fair. :-) At the same time, I was very pleased to say that I made sure I had healthy snacks. Got all my fruit/veggie servings in because I brought a cooler with those. Ha! Funny thing is I had one girl day me I was a good example with my carrots or grapes or apples that she'd seen me eat.
Anyway, getting acclimated and doing the best that I can to stay focused. All I can say is thank God for the SparkPeople iPhone app!
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