Monday, May 21, 2012
First things first: Got an elliptical, basic but amazing and working. I'm super excited about using it in less than 20 minutes. I'm hoping to go for 60 minutes. My hubby and I got it from his supervisor, for 100 bucks.
Next: Discouraged, I was hoping to try the It Works body wraps, informed that they help with those who are working out and dieting, almost like a jump start. I've read a few peoples posting and almost everyone believes wraps are money wasters. But I'me concerned because I would love something that even if it just tighten some areas would give me much more confidence, and encouragement for this journey. But if it doesn't work, wouldn't that just shoot me down more? I'm not sure and feel partially lost about the entire decision.
EDIT: Got on the scale, +7 lbs!!! I've reached 240! I'VE ALWAYS BEEN UNDER 240! UGH! I'm hoping it has to do with this weekend, and the random time of day I used the scale, but uggh. Where's a bridge to jump off of when you need one?! I want to complain, and I want to whine, but I was soooo irresponsible this weekend, thinking excercise could carry me through. I'm just kicking myself. And the elliptical I have creaks and is more then difficult to move on. Eating healthy will be super difficult since we're so tight on money right now. I'm so frustrated right now.
Biggest issue right now: Family vacation is almost literally a month away. I love my husband's family, but I'm terrified of their opinions. They're from an upstanding family, and being the only fat girl in the family photo is heartbreaking. Not only that, but being married to the first and favored grandson/nephew of the entire family I don't think I would've been in their top 50 choices of a wife for my husband. Either way I'm stressing. They're all wonderful people, and I love them and being around them, but I still think I was a bit of a suprise choice.
Last I've been debating this for a while, but doing a weight loss comic. I am an artist, and am currently working on a zombie graphic novel, but I would love to do a lighter comic about my journey so to speak. But I'm undecisive as I am about everything. We'll have to see what happeneds!!!!
Have a great day everyone!!