Thursday, March 07, 2013
5) What can you improve upon?
I could improve upon where and how I gather recipes.
I definitely don't use all the resources I could.
6) Do you need some motivation or advice? Ask for it!
Currently I'm still sick with a nasty cough, so I haven't been exercising actively. But I'm still losing weight regularly. I have been only eating food that I've been cooking. I'm concerned the weight dropping off is muscle weight. I'm just concerned that the sick weight I've been losing will come back, especially during this challenge.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
So, first off, I wanted to say I'm sorry for not updating you all after I posted my last blog which was rather whiney I'll admit.
SO what's going on: A few spark friends sent me links to awesome challenge groups, and I currently have joined the Winter to Spring 5% Challenge group and am on team FIRECRACKER! I'm excited because there's a very evident goal of being 5% lighter by April 20th (May be off on the date). I do well with goals in short view, considering my first successful weightloss of my entire lifetime was when I lost 20 lbs while my now-hubby was in boot camp. Which other than in the 6th grade was the skinniest I had ever been. So, hopefully when the challenge finally starts, I will find the stride I'd been looking for.
Also this week we find out why I had been having those pains down where my TMI FOR SOME (ovaries are))))))). I'm hoping it's nothing serious and that I won't need to switch birth control again. Frankly I can't do the shots because anymore weight gain would definitely crush my spirit. But I'm too ditzy doo to remember to take a pill everyday. And regardless of my everyday want and under feeling of crazy for babies, I refuse to break my promise and be careless enough to have children before reaching my healthy weight. Which I know probably sounds absolutely preposterous to those with children, or just understand that I'm trying to control something that can not always be controlled but.... I am... So... you can go ahead and say it, think it, and comment it. But this is the plan.
Other words, I'm still searching for a good minimalist running shoe, despite falling back on my running once more. I feel like if I could run more naturally the runner's knee and slight pain in my hip will be minimized. I feel this because of so many reviews of runners who switched to minimalist shoes and found they made worlds of difference and their aches and pains practically vanished. Although new aches came in with things such as, blisters and such, I'd rather have a blister for a couple of weeks than the horrible knee pain. So still looking. I love the look of the vibram toes shoes, but am nervous to throw down serious amounts of cash for shoes. For any shoes really. I saw some minimalist shoe's at T.J. Maxx that were by vibram according to their label but they were still $50 bucks. I figure if I'm spending 50 dollars on a pair of shoes, they should be nearly perfect for all my running needs. Speaking of which I bought Sketcher's GO WALK series yesterday (yes I'm a hypocrite, they were 50, but they were also 50% off and then military discount on TOP of that so, yay) and they are practically perfect. They flex so naturally to my foot, it's like a second skin. I was at shoe carnival to get some skeletoes, but the soles were so inflexible I decided against them. But I am glad I did since the GOWALK ones are easily the most comfortable shoe I've worn in years. Heck, I'm half tempted to go jog in them, but I'm concerned that I am messing with powers beyond my comprehension and will either ruin the shoes or jack up my feet. Either way, I'm still tempted.
The only other thing I have to say is have any of you guys heard of that 3-day breast cancer walk? It looks simply AMAZING. I have never seen anything that look so inspiring and wonderous before! And let me tell you I would do it in a heart beat.......If it didn't cost 2,300!!! I know I could make one of those donation pages, but frankly I was rather irked by the site claiming them asking 2,300 from each walker being "bold". I don't find that bold, I find it to be extortion! I understand it's going for a good cause, and good on anyone who can raise the money, but I think I would feel a bit guilty raising that much money just to walk for three days. If it was my money, sure. But I sure don't have 2,300 dollars to give, and I sure couldn't double it if my husband wanted to do it as well. So yea, there was an exciting thought, crushed by the reality that is money. Sometimes, it feels like my fitness and health always comes down to money. Can I afford two bags of vegetables? Well, this greek yogurt is 3.40, while this WHOLE box of go-gurt is 2.99?
Ah well, That's my update for now. Hope everyone is doing well. And that all of your many goals are coming into view.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
(whining) : Yesterday we did my husband's and my Valentines day since we'll both be working.
Today, I'm back up to 230. Ugghhhh! I know I shouldn't weigh in everyday, but fig newton guys! I thought I was being careful. So much for that. I always do this when I first start out, it's like I'm purposely sabotaging myself. Why?? Maybe I really don't want change. Maybe I want to be lazy forever.
Truth be told, I would love to go down 50 lbs. I would love to be 180 again. Why is it so hard for me? I've done it before. I guess what will always be a struggle for me is food. Which I know for most of you must be sad. Sometimes I will struggle getting up and actually doing something. But, for the most part I will always have that fear that carried over from my childhood. What if this is the last time I'm going to eat? What if I won't be able to eat the rest of the day? I can't share my food because I always see it from survival point of view. I might not have food later to eat, so I will eat all this food.
It is absolutely ridiculous the power food has had over me. I mean, I try to this of it as fuel. That's all it is suppose to be for. So all that should matter to me is how to fuel my body properly for the day. Not what's tasty. Not what sounds good. What does my body need to get through the day? Food is Fuel, not meant to be a luxury or a treat. I just need to truly learn this, and I think most of my gaining weight problems will dissolve. (end of whining).
For the most part I just needed to rant. And have someone to rant too. To be honest, I wish I could find a spark team I wanted to be more active with. With challenges.
I wish I had someone to talk to about this mostly. I would tell my friends and family but most are not that supportive. I will have to just keep looking trying to find a group that posts often and maybe I could find a virtual 5k... Anything really.
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