Tuesday, August 27, 2013
....are a lot of people in my same boat? Has enthusiasm/motivation waned?
Has the summer taken its toll?
I'm happy about the 15 pounds I lost since I joined SP on February 22, 2013, but most of my progress was between then and the end of May. After vacation at the end of May I managed to undo the vacation damage (about 2 lbs.) and held my ground... tracked (half-heartedly), exercised (inconsistently)...
no real backsliding, but no real progress either!
Well, I guess I should give myself credit for at least maintaining with SP. In the past, vacation would be my undoing... a slippery slope. Not so this time, so it seems I HAVE learned from SP and changed some bad habits.
But I want to see progress again! I'm NOT going back to where I was before SP. I'm ready to seriously resume my journey at a steady, consistent pace... striving for those days that are perfect for me (with complete & accurate tracking, consistent exercise, etc.). I want to see progress on the move again. I'm not in a hurry. I just want to keep moving in the right direction.
So, if you've been in this same boat with me, let's jump overboard... let's dive back into SP with both feet and a firm commitment to continue on the journey to better health.
Friday, July 26, 2013
Well, no... I can't really blame Gertrude Hawk (anyone else have a relationship with that awesome candy?)! No, there's no one to blame but ME for my choices to be careless. OK, so I enjoyed too much of that chocolate and overdid happy hours (just a bit) and the snacks that went with it (even if they were healthy snacks). But I'm done with all that now. I see how quickly one pound can come back after it took so long to lose. I'm willing to exchange "careless" for diligence in resuming progress!
Does that mean giving up treats? NO! Do I have to pass up Happy Hour? NO! But I DO have to refrain from being careless with such things. This is no new revelation... I've been with SparkPeople since February and lost 15 pounds without giving up anything except some poor dietary habits (like mindless night time eating). In the past five months, along with planning healthier meals, I've indulged occasionally in carefully selected treats (it must be worth the calories I have to track for it)... I've enjoyed cocktails on occasion... I've celebrated and attended parties... I've been on vacation... and still made progress...UNTIL recently when I became careless. I never stopped tracking, but tracking poor choices is not helpful. Well, maybe it actually IS helpful because seeing the charts resulting from honest tracking makes it quite obvious why progress seems to be stalled. Now it's time to shake that off and pay more attention to what I'm doing in the moment, proceeding with what I know makes me feel the best.
So here I go... ONWARD!!!
Saturday, April 20, 2013
When the scale seems to move at a snail's pace (or stalls!) it's easy to become frustrated. Worst of all is the temptation to give up! I've been there (more than once!) and I'm sure many can relate. In the past, with the thought that dieting efforts were not producing the desired weight loss, I can remember giving in to a binge, and very soon thereafter being flooded with guilt, and then the quandary: Am I meant to be a heavy person? Why should I stick with depriving myself? Eventually what followed was the realization that overeating was doing me no good, certainly NOT contributing to my good health or happiness. Thus, wavering between "I can never be thin" and "maybe I can"..... the off and on dieting cycle!
I changed my mind... and that changed my actions. Determined to be done with yo-yo dieting for good, I'm OK with maybe never being thin, but I am NOT OK with becoming unhealthy because of overeating. I'm counting calories, and making sure those calories count - choosing better nutrition, and avoiding those empty calories (of course I indulge occasionally so I don't feel deprived). And to my great satisfaction, focusing on better nutrition and changing eating habits for my good health and well-being is actually producing that desired weight loss (albeit slowly)!
So, the scale is moving slowly and I've had to adjust my goal to accommodate a more realistic weight loss... so what!!! All the while I was gaining weight, wasn't I watching the scale move ever so slowly UP?!!! ...and actually stall at a number I never thought I'd see (!!!) until moving upward again! ...all the while feeling heavier, less energetic, etc.
Now, even though the scale is moving slowly, I'm watching it move ever so slowly DOWN. And if it stalls, I can be patient until it begins to move again - DOWNWARD. What's the alternative? ...undo the progress I've made? Even if I stay where I am, I feel better than I did two months ago. And in the next two months I'll be healthier (and lighter) than I am now. And so on... and so on...
Sunday, April 14, 2013
I've been wanting to blog about this - probably my most unhealthy, excess weight producing behavior - and it's taken me a while to sort it out in my head so that it makes some sense.... enough maybe to encourage someone else who also wrestles (or wrestled) with this.
Over the years, during periods of time when I was not paying much attention to my eating habits, usually at the end of the day (but not always) when the house was quiet, maybe just before going to bed, I would hit the fridge (or the pantry). I could consume an enormous amount of calories in a very short time. What was I feeding? What was I feeling? Was I looking for comfort where it could never be found? This much I know....
* That habit (among other things) was causing weight gain.
* Acid reflux was disturbing my sleep.
* I felt guilty & disgusted with myself after such mindless overeating.
* I never felt comfort from a binge (if that's what I unconsciously sought).
* The more weight I gained, the less healthy/agile/energetic I felt.
* I've come to regard those binges as self-abuse.
I'm older now, and getting older by the day... and I don't want my later years to be marked by the health issues that excess weight can cause (I'm lucky so far). I think it is specifically this thinking that now finds me able to say that I have not indulged in that late night, mindless binge eating since joining SparkPeople in February of this year. I'm more concerned about preserving my good health with proper nutrition, than reaching a certain weight, and that makes me patient with the process. (Also, spending time on the SP site keeps me out of the kitchen!) Every night when I go to bed, I am thankful for the ways in which I treated myself well, and think about ways I might do better. And every day when I rise, grateful for another day, I promise myself to do the same.
I've done all kinds of diets before (more than once)... nothing stuck. With every diet attempt, even with a good determined start, eventually I felt restricted & deprived (Why can't I eat like everyone else??!!) And another diet would end in a mindless eating binge! So what's different this time?... those obesity-related health issues are possibly closer to my door? Or have I finally come to realize that for me to be healthy does not necessarily mean fitting into a size 10.
WELL, MAYBE AN OLD DOG CAN LEARN NEW TRICKS! I've been with SP for seven weeks without a late night binge episode. I've been counting calories, exercising more consistently, and enjoying the challenge of balancing the nutritional components of my daily food intake. I find those SP trackers and charts invaluable. I'm eating healthy, feeling stronger... and losing weight besides (can't deny the thrill of losing weight)! I've been away for a few days at a time, I've had birthday cake, I've eaten in restaurants. I enjoyed the traditional specialties of our Easter dinner. I don't feel deprived. I've enjoyed moderate (sometimes skimpy) portions of anything I really desired... and tracked it all at the end of the day. True, some days were not great, but I'm not trying to be perfect - I'm trying to be healthy.
OH, LORD, PLEASE DON'T LET THIS OLD DOG FALL OFF THE WAGON AND GO SLINKING OFF WITH ITS TAIL BETWEEN ITS LEGS!!!!!
Thanks to all Sparkers... I've found so much motivation, inspiration and encouragement here!
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