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Prayers Please

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Well Grumpy will b getting his amputation tomorrow evening. They will do an above the knee. He @ this point is not a candidate 4 an artificial leg ; so I was most def be getting the house wheelchair accessible & ready.

I will admit @ first I had some trouble dealing with it. But @ least my father will b alive & I can rearrange my schedule around him going 2 a day program a cpl days a wk.

I will spend tomorrow morning with him; then he will get surgery about 4 or 5 pm. I wont wait @ the hosp as my panic attacks will not allow me to do that. But they will call me as soon as he is out of surgery.

So please do keep him in ur prayers; thank you.

  
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WENWIN 3/12/2012 8:26AM

    That is a lot of burden. May God give you strength through this time of transition.
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MINDYJ1 3/12/2012 12:13AM

    Praying that your father's surgery goes well. Praying also that you will not have any panic attacks either. emoticon

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LITTLE_QUEEN 3/11/2012 11:18PM

    your in my prayers as is Grumpy

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HDHAWK 3/11/2012 10:45PM

    Sending prayers. Take care.

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 3/11/2012 10:35PM

    So sorry that they have to take the foot. Praying for all of you as you adjust to the changes. Also praying for his recovery. emoticon

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SANFORMRN 3/11/2012 10:11PM

  Good luck and keep your chin up

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Trying Not 2 Stress

Thursday, March 08, 2012

I'm trying not 2 let it get 2 me. But I m just such an empathetic person.
As many of u know my hubby & I r the full-time caregivers fro grumpy (my dad).
He has been going bac & forth from rehab & hosp since the end of Dec.

Last mth while doing physical therapy w grumpy my hubby felt that something was wrong with leg the 1 w amputated toes. They checked out the leg as my hubby snapped. the found that the foot was severely infected & had gotten worse. They did an mri & realized that they would need 2 remove the rest of the toes on the foot.
They did surgery & couldnt even close the wound as the infection was so bad. they informed us a 4 days later that there is no blood flow to the foot & if they cant get the infection under control that he may lose his foot. We been dealing with that possibility.
This morning I get a phone call they need to decide whether to amputate but not sure if it to be above or right below the knee. I've reached out 2 let the other siblings know .

Part of me feels guilty when grumpy first got really sick about 5 yrs ago this was after yrs of health issues; a part of me still has alot of anger over the things that I suffered as child so I kind of felt mayb he deserved 2 suffer. But noone deserves to suffer this much. I m really having trouble dealing with this.
I talking to baby sister on phone 4 a while 2day then w my brother s wife on the phone & then my sister on my mothers side 7 I im most of the day. I even called my pastor to talk 4 a while.

No I working on the nxt step getting the house saved & fully handicap accessible. Well sorry to unload but I needed 2 write 4 a while it helps me.

TY 4 taking the time 2 read this

  
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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 3/9/2012 8:56AM

    emoticon So sorry that you are facing all these challenges right now. Praying that God will hold you close and encourage you.

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BEEJAY49 3/9/2012 4:13AM

    I know first hand how hard it is to forgive a parent when you were treated badly as a child or saw that parent treat the other parent badly. It took me MANY years to get to the forgiveness point.
It's just as hard to let go of the guilt when you need to. What you think in your own mind about things, even left unsaid out loud can weigh on a person heavily. I want you to realize that since you are now "grumpy's" caregiver you are in fact making up for the guilt that you have been carrying. :) It's very hard doing that job, which I also know first hand. You vent as much as you want and we'll be here to listen! If you need private support feel free to Spark mail me, maybe we can share some idea. :) Love you! HUGS!

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CHICSHAN004 3/8/2012 10:35PM

    I'm sorry for all this you are going through. I can't imagine how hard this must be for you. Many hugs.....
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Valentine Day Potholders

Saturday, March 03, 2012

Here are 2 of the different pot holders that I did for Valentines Day
This pair went to a woman from my church sho has been my mentor for over 30 yrs

This pair went to my DIL
I still have some ppl who want some but I guess they will b waiting until nxt yr.
I am now working on St Pattys Day potholders along w prayer cloth to give to our churches mission partners.

  
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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 3/5/2012 8:10PM

    So cute...you do good work. emoticon

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SLIMINMIND 3/3/2012 12:53PM

    Love your background picture,heheheheh!
Just learned to crochet, when I am not on sparks, I am knitting or crocheting. Love the pix of the potholders!!
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MINDYJ1 3/3/2012 10:52AM

    Those are so cute! You will have to post pictures of your St. Pattys Day potholders too!

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February

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Well this was NOT a good month for me

I have been so far off track but March is around the corner & I will accomplish something

  
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CHICSHAN004 3/2/2012 12:28AM

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 2/26/2012 10:34PM

    Hang in there. You are right. Watch out March! emoticon

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SPEEDY143 2/26/2012 1:23PM

    Sounds like my month of February too... thank God its a short month!!!! emoticon

We will MARCH towards our goals at a much quicker pace as spring welcomes us with open arms emoticon

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MARISERV 2/26/2012 6:17AM

    I've missed you...looking forward to March. emoticon

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UNIQDRGNFLY 2/25/2012 9:37PM

    Don't be too hard on yourself, we all do it. Don't look back and just take it one day at a time!

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WELLLLL

Thursday, February 09, 2012

Well the good news is that I've been doing really well w walking up steps. My legs r really sore & I know that part of it is the steps & the other part is that I haven't taken my water pills for a cpl days (I try not 2 take them on the days that I volunteer)

I m so looking 4ward 2 next weekend; I m going on a Winter Youth Assembly high school retreat. It is @ Harvey Cedars, Long Beach Island. It will b the 1st time that I get to go, my son who is now 27 went when he was about 14 or so. I m trying to get my stamina up so that I wont exhaust myself.

My meds r helping me but I still have a long ways to go. I m using the nebulizer every other day now; so that's a real good thing.

My eating really sucks this wk but i just gave up on trying 2 eat right this wk. But I m not giving up on it totally just taking the wk off.; I'm super stressed this wk so I decided that not all battles r worth fighting @ 1 time. My exercise is almost non-existent but @ least I m getting my walking in every day (its around the house & not all @ 1 time but i do @ least 30 mins every day)

I keep planning 2 get going on my exercise but I just don't seem to have the push to do it. I really need to find someone to b my accountability buddy.
the Biggest Loser this season is NO EXCUSES & right now I feel that I m allll excuses. I just seem 2 keep giving up on myself. I hate being like this I just don't know how to change. Prayerfully I can get 2 the bottom of this & change it. Pray that the counseling helps.

  
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MARISERV 2/10/2012 5:25PM

    Ok, so you needed to take a week off. It's you're life and
*****YOU'RE THE BOSS OF YOU*****

A lifestyle change is not healthy if it is stressful.

I think you are doing great. You have to be patient with yourself.

Try chair sitting exercises or beginner's yoga. Yoga is such a great way of gentle exercise no matter what your physical problems may be.

I'll send you some links.



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MARTHAR3 2/10/2012 12:16PM

    Be sure it is steady and slow. Don't lay off those water pills to long. I dodge mine when I am going shopping.
But I had run out of them and just didn't go back to the dr. and that was part of the reason I ended up in the hospital in Decemeber.

Yes the exercise is a YOU HAVE TO DO IT I try to get it in first thing. I am still doing my PT to get my leg stronger. It has been to cold to go out here So I charted me a walking path in the house. One of my doctors told me to sit on the couch edge and do my legs up and down like I am walking to work in more steps.

NO EXCUSES -- if you don't do it, it won't get down. LOL That is what I tell myself. God gave me a second chance so I am working hard to use it rught..
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LIVINGFREE19 2/10/2012 12:07PM

    If you take things really slow that will help. A year later and I am still making changes, but also feeling better without having lost a lot of weight.
I am patient with it because it will all come in time.
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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 2/10/2012 10:04AM

    Walking is exercise. emoticon Praying that as you continue to feel better you'll be able to increase your activity to other things that you want to do. emoticon

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BEEJAY49 2/10/2012 3:55AM

    Walking is a good start and the steps, although they help make your legs sore is a good thing too! So your exercising even though you think it's non existent. One day at a time. You will be able to do this! Sometimes we do get held back by health problems. We can find other ways to exercise to get around that. :) If you have to make it one minute at a time that's the way to do. HUGS!

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BLESSEDTOBEME1 2/9/2012 10:47PM

    Start back with baby steps. Make one good choice at a time. I just started back to walking. I'm soooo scard that I have panic attacks. But I'm going to do it anyway. I just put on my shoes and step outside then pit one foot in front of the other. I'm not dragging my right leg anymore but i really can't lift it and it won't bend so I have to go really slow but I still go. It gets a little easier each day. When I stand up I move my arms up and down like I'm trying to fly . It's not much but its something. Just keep trying. U can do it.

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