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I REFUSE TO GIVE UP - I'm ready to fight 4 myself

Saturday, November 26, 2011

WOW has this been a year for me and my health. After i had a spinal fusion in May I really went thru some things. Mentally, physically, and emotionally its been really rough.

It's been really rough on me having to rely on my hubby to do things for me (getting in the tub; washing my hair; cooking; dishes just to mention a few). I really wasn't prepared not to be able to care for myself & I couldnt sleep for days.

Things got so rough for me mentally that I got to the point - I did try to kill myself. My daughter gave me some sleeping pills 150 mg I took a bunch of them & a handful of my sleeping pills. I just wanted to go to sleep & never wake up. Instead I was speeding for 3 days with no sleep & then 2 days that I have no recollection of.

I started to feel better mentally then I got a sysct on my hip, that healed then there was a bite on my back that turned into a severe infection that had to b lanced. Even though my blood came back clean the culture from the infection had mrsa in it.

I M DOING FINE NOW

I have recently started walking again & today i even rode my bike. I do still deal with my depression especially as my granddaughter La who I raised for the 1st 6 yrs of her life; my daughter & I had a falling out & she will not let me c La or La's sister.

Now my dads health is acting up again. last Thursday he went to the er on Fri they took another toe & Sat they sent him home.
Tuesday he was back in the er to get more antibiotics & pain pills. Then he was back in the hosp on Wed & is still there. We are not sure whats wrong with him now. He is a diabetic yet his sure has been dropping to the 30's & 40's; he is also slurring his words @ the time the incident started he was talking a bunch of crazy stuff. He now can have a conversation but still slurring. They are doing a bunch of test but say it wasn't a heart attack or stroke. They cant seem to pin point what is causing all of this.

Well this is some of whats been going on since of been pretty much mia but I plan on today being my restart cause when I was coming onto Sparkpeople regularly it helped me alot.

Thank you to all that read this I truly do appreciate my Spark friends

inpsite all that has happened & is going on I M REFUSING TO GIVE UP i will continue to get better in all ways possible.

  
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CJPJHM 12/1/2011 10:52AM

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DAISY443 11/27/2011 10:23AM

    You are a strong woman and handling adversity with braveness! I admire you! Hope your dad improves soon!

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AMITAI 11/27/2011 8:38AM

    Glad you are on the upbeat sis. Hang in there and lean on us, that is what we are here for. Not just to help you reach your dietary goals, but to help you mentally and that is a big part of reaching your dietary goals as well.
So sorry to hear about your dad, I will keep him in my prayers and you too sis.
(HUGS)
Katy

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SEAJESS 11/26/2011 10:48PM

    Hooray on your restart! I love that old saying about "fall down seven times, get up eight".

Keep on getting up and you will get to where you want to go.

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the ER

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Well I just spent 7 hrs in the er. After the blood work was done twice & the cat scan with the iodine, it is a bacterial infection - that caused an abscess

Good thing is no mersa but there is a possibility that I will have a few abscesses that will have to b lanced this coming week. I go back to the er on Monday for them to take the packing out of it.

It was an experience but hey I'm home now - I have to keep changing the dressing cause it is well lets leave it at its just messy.

They did the cat scan to make sure that it wasn't close enough to the fusion to cause any damage luckily it wasn't

The most frustrating part to me is that I cant care for it cause of where it is located

Prayerfully tonight I will finally get some sleep
Well i'm still feeling funny from the meds that they gave me so I m now heading to bed

  
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DONNA_VT 10/31/2011 12:42PM

    Marcia, I can't believe I missed this blog. I am sorry to hear that you are still having problems. Hope that you are feeling better soon.

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DAISY443 10/24/2011 4:00AM

    Take care of yourself and get better soon! Hugs!

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KMIRANDA2000 10/23/2011 8:35PM

    Feel better!

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W8WHITTILER 10/23/2011 5:16PM

    Marcia..I am sorry to hear about all the pain, I am glad to hear they found out what was causing it and are in the process of getting you back onto that road of a full recovery.
My prayers are with you honey!
Love ya,
Patty

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LILY8486 10/23/2011 9:08AM

    Maga, I am praying for you thanking Him for His faithfulness and continued help!!

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 10/23/2011 7:52AM

    I am praying for you Maga!

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REACHING4HOME 10/23/2011 3:15AM

    I hate the ER. It takes forever, you end up with a monstrous bill, and still have to see your own doctor later. But at least you got some relief. I have had those abscesses and yes, they are yucky and messy as well as painful. Feel better soon.
Erin

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MINDYJ1 10/23/2011 12:37AM

    Praying that you will be better soon! Hugs, Mindy

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 10/23/2011 12:31AM

    Thoughts & prayers are with you!

Hugs,
Nancy

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 10/23/2011 12:00AM

    Praying you heal quickly. emoticon

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KIMBERLYSWEET 10/22/2011 10:57PM

    Being Diabetic I've had them everywhere.I feel your pain.Remember to wear gloves when interacting with them. emoticon

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October Goals Update

Friday, October 14, 2011

My goals fro October are: emoticon
1. cardio @ least 3x a week
2. strength training @ least 3x a wk
3. eat fruits & veggies every day
4. come on sparkpeople everday
5. do a status update everyday


Week 1 goals 4 Oct emoticon
1. go to church
2. start packing up things in the house that we no longer use
3. get kitchen back in order

I didnt set any goals for the 2nd week of Oct but for next week, my new goals will be:
1. start paperwork for my dad to go to a day program
2. clean up & organize the pantry
3. walk a mile @ least 2x this wk

  
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W8WHITTILER 10/14/2011 4:25PM

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Keep up the great work on your goals!

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DONNA_VT 10/14/2011 2:03PM

    Just catching up with the Team Blogs so I thought I would say Hi!!! and wish you luck with your goals.

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SPEEDY143 10/14/2011 2:01PM

    emoticongoals emoticon emoticonLove those emoticonicons they look lovely on YOU emoticon

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October Goals

Monday, October 03, 2011

As I yet begin again. I figure that I need to have a few goals. I am going to have weekly goals & mthly goals.

My goals fro October are:
1. cardio @ least 3x a week
2. strength training @ least 3x a wk
3. eat fruits & veggies every day
4. come on sparkpeople everday
5. do a status update everyday


Week 1 goals 4 Oct
1. go to church
2. start packing up things in the house that we no longer use
3. get kitchen back in order

These are my goals to get me back onto the road of recovery. My reward if I do all these things - I will get a pedicure; I havent had one in about2 yrs & that was because I was in a wedding

  
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NANAOF3LUVSJC 10/14/2011 7:39AM

    Great job on the goal setting. emoticon

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DONNA_VT 10/3/2011 7:52PM

    I like your goals but I like the reward even better! I'll be watching to see how you are doing. Team Mahogany is missing having you with us . . . .hopefully you'll feel up to it for Winter.

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SPEEDY143 10/3/2011 1:07PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonGoooooooooooo Marcia emoticon

I'm going to watch for your status update emoticonOctober is going to be your month emoticonto kick start your recovery emoticon emoticon emoticon

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 10/3/2011 11:04AM

    emoticon You can do it, Marcia!

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 10/3/2011 11:04AM

    emoticon You can do it, Marcia!

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 10/3/2011 9:41AM

    Great goals. emoticon

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W8WHITTILER 10/3/2011 9:01AM

    Sounds like great goals Marcia!
And I know you can achieve each and every one of them.
I am here cheering you on.
Patty

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STILL LURKING

Monday, September 12, 2011

Well I m still lurking aroiund trying to find new ways of dealing with things.

I seem to only b able to function in the evening; so I'm gonna try to focus on using this info to move forward.

I have really cut myself off from everybody 0 whn my hubby isnt home i even take the battery our of the phone so it wont ring - I never answer the door - I havent even been on the comp as much as I used to

but I m gonna try yet again to fight my demon

  
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YIGOBUTTERFLY 9/23/2011 7:40AM

    I realized I had not heard from you for awhile and then saw this blog.

Do what you can. I care.

One day at a time.

Jane on Guam

(Love your fall picture!!!) emoticon

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CAROLEHZ 9/13/2011 4:29PM

    I can relate to the phone. I hate when it rings. If the people knocking on the door are selling something then ignore away. The rest of the Demons just need to be given a Big Karate Chop where the sun doesn't shine.. a kick in the shins... a punch in the nose... A right to the gut.. Your Spark Buddies are here for you!
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DAISY443 9/13/2011 8:25AM

    Hey, Maga, I know it must be difficult, but please don't shut yourself off from Spark friends. We need your support, too! Hugs!

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LITTLE_QUEEN 9/12/2011 11:33PM

    fight it Maga, cause we love ya and miss ya

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