Saturday, November 26, 2011
WOW has this been a year for me and my health. After i had a spinal fusion in May I really went thru some things. Mentally, physically, and emotionally its been really rough.
It's been really rough on me having to rely on my hubby to do things for me (getting in the tub; washing my hair; cooking; dishes just to mention a few). I really wasn't prepared not to be able to care for myself & I couldnt sleep for days.
Things got so rough for me mentally that I got to the point - I did try to kill myself. My daughter gave me some sleeping pills 150 mg I took a bunch of them & a handful of my sleeping pills. I just wanted to go to sleep & never wake up. Instead I was speeding for 3 days with no sleep & then 2 days that I have no recollection of.
I started to feel better mentally then I got a sysct on my hip, that healed then there was a bite on my back that turned into a severe infection that had to b lanced. Even though my blood came back clean the culture from the infection had mrsa in it.
I M DOING FINE NOW
I have recently started walking again & today i even rode my bike. I do still deal with my depression especially as my granddaughter La who I raised for the 1st 6 yrs of her life; my daughter & I had a falling out & she will not let me c La or La's sister.
Now my dads health is acting up again. last Thursday he went to the er on Fri they took another toe & Sat they sent him home.
Tuesday he was back in the er to get more antibiotics & pain pills. Then he was back in the hosp on Wed & is still there. We are not sure whats wrong with him now. He is a diabetic yet his sure has been dropping to the 30's & 40's; he is also slurring his words @ the time the incident started he was talking a bunch of crazy stuff. He now can have a conversation but still slurring. They are doing a bunch of test but say it wasn't a heart attack or stroke. They cant seem to pin point what is causing all of this.
Well this is some of whats been going on since of been pretty much mia but I plan on today being my restart cause when I was coming onto Sparkpeople regularly it helped me alot.
Thank you to all that read this I truly do appreciate my Spark friends
inpsite all that has happened & is going on I M REFUSING TO GIVE UP i will continue to get better in all ways possible.