Thursday, March 10, 2011
wednesday, I challenged myself to stop procrastinating. I plan to do this by every night making a list of 5 things that I need to accomplish the next day.
For each wk that I complete these task I get a reward w the final reward being a cpl days vacation. I also have a way that I can get the final prize even if i dont get each weekly prize. Except for the 1st wk there are a total of 35 task a wk to be completed. So If I mess up n dont finsih the task 1 day - Idont get the reward 4 that wk - but I can add the missing task to another day and then I can still recieve my final prize.
So I sat down and made a list of rewards which are changeable. Its just 4 me things in writing help me out alot. Besides these I do have my March Goals and the I will have my April goals during this process. I find as I'm no longer in denial about my bipolarness I m finding ways to embrace it. Which is a little tricky after 22 yrs of denial. Well here is my reward list; I do want to change a few things its just best for me to have something in writing.
Week 1 – Spa night
Week 2 – do a layaway
Week 3 – nails
Week 4 – New Outfit
Week 5 - lunch out
Week 6 – get layaway out
Week 7 - Nails
All 40 Days – trip 2 AC
My back is still very sore at the injection site, I've realize y I cant lean on my back, its like with any type of needle I get; the area always swells and is sore for many days. What made me remember this was I hit my had where they had the IV in n it felt the same as my back when I lean on it. DUH
Then I called a friend of mine yesterday who works in the medical field due to me being in so much pain and she had to remind me that I've had back problems for over 15 yrs. I can't expect it to be all better over night. Tomorrow I will find out when my next steroid epidural will be of if they want to go onto the next treatment.
I'm trying very hard not to fall to far back into my depression but its hard. Today I had to find out that I've gained 5 lbs. I realize why I've not been able to exercise as much the last cpl of wks yet I never changed my eating habits. That all changed today. So prayerfully this time next wk I will b reporting a weight loss.