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Not Given Up

Saturday, January 10, 2009

I'm not given up & sometimes I believe ppl think that cause of my depression that I am.

If you truly suffer from true depression n cant afford your meds you go through some changes. You can't control how you feel. Yes at times I can control what I do after the attack subsides. YES they are attacks just like panic attacks n they usually are linked.

I've learned to deal with the aftermath n to get back on track usually quick, not this time though. But today is a good day n I can make sense of most of my thoughts.

So I'm not given up I'm just dealing with things in away that works for me. That's why I like to write to get out n since blogging is something for me to do on sparks, y not just put them together n I can deal with 2 things @ 1 time.

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LITTLE_QUEEN 1/14/2009 12:41AM

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MIDNITE_LADY 1/11/2009 9:20AM

    Hi Maga ,Funny Maga is what my grandchildren have named me I have had it for 22 years smiles I am here if you need a friend I know exactly where you are coming from. I know how hard depression is it took me years but now I am finally ok of meds which I never thought I would see the day. Just remember there are all good people here in Spark and all willing to help You are in my pryers Hon.Hugs Bobie emoticon emoticon

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SPARKPIXIE 1/11/2009 7:27AM

    Maga, I know you will never give up. You are a strong person with strong faith. Remember that I am praying for you.

Greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world. 1 John 4:4

Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise Him again - my Saviour and my God! Psalm 42:11 (NLT)

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Friday, January 09, 2009

1/3/09 - 5,562
1/4/ 09 - 5,789
1/5/09 - 12,632
1/6/09 - 12,087
1/7/09 - 3,963
1/8/09 - 7,593
1/9/09 - 13,176

Well a week a go I bought a pedometer n I've been trying to remember to put it on as soon as I get up in the morning. Its a slow process but I'm getting there. I can tell what day I had trouble functioning. LMAO
P.S. thank you for your prayers they postponed the surgery due to another emergency. We'll c what happens

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TAMMIEMALAWI 1/10/2009 2:57AM

    Keep on walking Maga! We can do this!

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Prayers Please

Thursday, January 08, 2009

The rehab center sent my dad back to the hospital n tomorrow he will have to have surgery. It been so rough he had the vascular bypass on the Dec 19 then on CHRISTmas Eve they amputated his toe. I knew that the hospital sent him to the rehab to soon well unfortunately I was right. The vascular bypass is infected ( same thing happened in 07 thats y I moved in to take care of him). You would think they would actually be more cautious when there have been previous complications. Well in the morning they are putting a wound vac on, they are not easy to take care of. So if you pray please prayer for Walter's recovery & that I can find the inner peace to continue on this journey. I never question God yet I continue to question how long I can continue to do this. Every thing goes crazy at one time.

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TAMMIEMALAWI 1/10/2009 2:56AM

    Hi sorry to hear about your father. I'll be praying for him, you and your family. Blessings.

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SPARKPIXIE 1/9/2009 9:12AM

    Maga, I have been in continual prayer for your father, your family and YOU ever since I got to know you here on SparkPeople. That will never change. Please let me know how you're holding up.
God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
Psalm 11:8

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SASKWALKER54 1/8/2009 11:23PM

    That is really tough to keep on your healthy lifestyle when you have the stress of an ailing parent. We are with you and I know you can do it!! I will pray for you tonight for peace and for your father, Walter. God Bless you today and this week. emoticon emoticon

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another day

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Another day comes to an end. Everyday is a chance to start over n succeed or another chance to screw up. It's up to us to make the right choices. I dont know why I make the decisions I do. I jsut know that tomorrow is another day & prayerfully it will be the day that I get back on track.

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    As human beings it is our nature to act not in accordance with the truth, but with how we perceive it to be.
So if you have doubts that you deserve to be fit, trim, and happy...if you subconsciously believe that the gratification from the chocolate cake is of more value than that of the broccoli, than that is how you will act.
Its a matter of redefining your priorities and RE-WRITING THEM INTO YOUR BELIEF SYSTEM . Take responsibility and stop looking for where to put the blame. Sorry that came out a bit too harsh, I'm only trying to help. Its taken me three years, so far. Dean Anderson had to spell it out for me, so Im paying it forward.

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LOSE2WIN10 1/7/2009 10:52PM

    Yes we all make choices and it would be nice to know why sometimes we fail to make the "right" ones. emoticon I wish you the best of success on the upcoming week!

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Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Changes, its what its all about.

Whether eating betteror exercise, its about making changes. Change habits - change surroundings- change whats in the cabinets n fridge. Today was another bad day, yes I ate bad again today 3 days now BUT I went out for and walked and walked, I also did bootcamo n the challenge of new year new you.

So I m making changes not complete yet, but that the hope for me. Be realistic the reaon why I m not going to fail at my weight loss is because I may screw up my eatting but I still get in th exercise, so I have changed.

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    Your attitude and focus is GREAT, thats the real battle front, Good Job!

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    Thats 100% right. Celebrate the success and over write the bad with the good. It took you how long to develope the patterns that slowly got you into putting the extra weight on...? dont be so impatient expecting perfection, or even obvious improvement right away. The more gradual - the longer lasting so if you think of yourself as doing good or better, you will be more apt to act accourdingly. Dont discount success or over write it with the mistakes. I think for me at least that the real trick is finding better methods to self sooth to substitute in the place of comfort eating...or to replace comfort foods with healthier more filling choices.

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