Tuesday, December 28, 2010
I say once again when there is bad news 2 tell a person with sever depression that u should tell them they need some1 w them @ the appt.
Well I went to the orthopedic today. Got lost going there - panic sets in. I finally find it. The dr tells me the same thing that I've heard b4 that basically I will have pain in my bac 4 the rest of my life due to arthritis here is the difference he feels that I need to get Spinal Fusion, but he no longer does back surgery. i now have an appt on Jan 6(I will not b going alone) to c if another dr will do it.
I will know tomorrow when my appts r 4 the emg; cat scan; physical therapy & the surgeon 4 my hand.
The worst part 4 me is my hubby not being here while I'm going thru this prayerfully he will b out of his program in March. Due 2 all of these appt I'm going 2 have 2 give up some of my volunteer work.
My daughter has decided 2 keep La 4 the wk which gives me more time 2 focus on the physical & spiritual cleaning of the house.
I joined a chair exercise team so I'm hoping 2 find new ways 2 exercise. Right now I'm focusing on chair marching - the goal is 10,000 a day - I m trying 2 reach that by Friday.
When I got the news 2day I realized just how much I've shut myself off from ppl. There was no1 that I had 2 call 2 help me thru my anxiety's. It's amazing I used 2 b such a social person - now I can go days w/o contact w ppl except taking La 2 school.