Saturday, January 03, 2009
I've suffered from depression all my life although as a child they use to just say that I was moody. It sometimes comes on with no warning & at other times it is caused by an event or something.
Recently I've had to really look at myself, n it wasn't a pretty picture. I've lost sight of all the things that use to keep me so focused. I do alot but I feel that I'm just going through the motions. I volunteer teach out a start-up Christian High School, I teach peace skills & faith development. I volunteer 2 days a week with a jr high after school program & I work @ an elementary school after school reading program 2 days a wk. At my church I do a jr high youth group 2x a mth, help out with sunday school, serve as a deacon, I'm church council secretary & I occasionally preach. These things use to be what got me through the hard parts of life like taking care of my father full time.
Lately I just feel that I'm just doing these things n I'm not sure why, I need to find my focus again. I need to snap out of these depressions n focus on life n living it. I need to always remember the good things n stop making a bee line straight to all that is wrong with me n my life.
I do having a loving n caring hubby who is also my best friend, I'm blessed & that is what I need to always remember & focus on.