Thursday, August 26, 2010
Yesterday was going sooooo great.
I did 10 mins on the stationary bike (double from the day b4).
I walked 1.94 miles in 35.35 mins ( I turn of& in it didnt last but I tracked.
Then I go on facebook to catch up with some friends, & the thats when I found out the my sons grandmother had passed on. The thing is my son is a product of rape BUT I dealt w/ that a long time ago & his father did help support him & we are somewhat friends now, by the Grace of God. I only tell u this for the twist My sons grandmother is my sisters aunt. So as I have more contact w/ the family then they do I got to b the 1 to call & tell them both about the family lost. My sisters other aunt lives 2 houses up from me & I do refer to most of the family as family. So after they got back from the hosp I went to visit my aunt & got to spend some time w/ grandmom ( who has cancer & is now burying her 2nd child, 3 grandchildren & there was a great grandson last yr).
This is an little rough on me not only do I miss my step pops even more now, but my mom will b gone 5 yrs on Sept 15.
Really weird part is that I've felt my steppops around me all wk now I know y, he was waiting 4 his sister.
Why is it every time that I start to climb out of this black-hole something pushes me back in.
I will find strength thru Christ & continue to fight this demon called depression.