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late but DAY 3

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Yesterday was going sooooo great.
I did 10 mins on the stationary bike (double from the day b4).
I walked 1.94 miles in 35.35 mins ( I turn of& in it didnt last but I tracked.

Then I go on facebook to catch up with some friends, & the thats when I found out the my sons grandmother had passed on. The thing is my son is a product of rape BUT I dealt w/ that a long time ago & his father did help support him & we are somewhat friends now, by the Grace of God. I only tell u this for the twist My sons grandmother is my sisters aunt. So as I have more contact w/ the family then they do I got to b the 1 to call & tell them both about the family lost. My sisters other aunt lives 2 houses up from me & I do refer to most of the family as family. So after they got back from the hosp I went to visit my aunt & got to spend some time w/ grandmom ( who has cancer & is now burying her 2nd child, 3 grandchildren & there was a great grandson last yr).
This is an little rough on me not only do I miss my step pops even more now, but my mom will b gone 5 yrs on Sept 15.
Really weird part is that I've felt my steppops around me all wk now I know y, he was waiting 4 his sister.

Why is it every time that I start to climb out of this black-hole something pushes me back in.

I will find strength thru Christ & continue to fight this demon called depression.

  
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WORKINGITIN 8/26/2010 10:35PM

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Maga, Please accept my sympathy during this difficult time for you and your family. Losing a grandparent figure is so difficult in every family. I will keep you in my prayers tonight and will check in on you tomorrow.
Terry

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AUNTJENNY7 8/26/2010 8:42PM

    So sorry for your loss.
Team Mahogany can be your step stool to aid you in getting back out of that hole. Have faith, there is light at the end of the tunnel.
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BARBARAROSE54 8/26/2010 2:13PM

    emoticon for your loss.

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TONYA_JO 8/26/2010 1:52PM

    emoticon So sorry for your loss.

Just keep taking things 1 day a time. You will get through this.

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DAY 2

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Well today is day 2 of my new goals. I'm getting ready to go do the wii but I did track my food today.
I tried to do the edge (stationary bike) & could only handle 5 mins not good.
But its getting to chilly to use the pool so I have to go back to regular exercising.
My plan is to go walking tomorrow, lets c how far I can get.

I m working on making a few different homemade soups & then freezing some. So far I've made cream of broccoli/potato soup; next is bean soup.

Z - my kitchen looks like a kitchen again
E - still working on
N - welllll @ least I tracked it

  
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TRACYZABELLE 8/26/2010 5:33AM

    I love bean soup I get the 15 bean mix and use ham as flavoring instead of that packet od seasoning which is mostly salt.. I add lots of veggies to it as well!

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CAROLEHZ 8/25/2010 8:30AM

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We're here cheering you on. Start back gradually and you'll be back in the swing of it in no time. It's hard for me to imagine too cold for the pool (it's still too hot in North Carolina). I love home made soup...pea, lentil, 15 bean soup..we had meatball soup the other night that was really good (it also has Spinach and Cannellini beans).

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WORKINGITIN 8/25/2010 12:02AM

    5 minutes today means you started the journey. Gradual is better way to go.

Remember that KC & Sunshine song, "keep it coming it now..." emoticon

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BARBARAROSE54 8/24/2010 8:54PM

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TONYA_JO 8/24/2010 7:34PM

    Baby steps. You did 5min on the bike today, try for 6 tomorrow. If you walk a block tomorrow, try for a block and a half the next day. Just add on to one day day a little bit more than you did the day before emoticon

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DO I REALLY WANT TO TRY THIS AGAIN

Monday, August 23, 2010

Well my weight has started creeping up again MY FAULT. So I decided to start over on stage 1. I'm not sure I'm really cut out for this with all my mental issues BUT @ LEAST I'M TRYING which the Dr thinks is a good sign.
I haven't tracked food in so long that its scary had bad I've been eating, it was just easier to just eat what ever they were giving me.
But I m back to being focused, even got the wii going again.

My goal for this week is to track food everyday (even when bad) & to blog every day this week that the laptop is working emoticon

Z - gave out food today thru the church food pantry
E - 60 mins
N - well @ least I'm tracking again

God willing till tomorrow my friends

  
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TRACYZABELLE 8/26/2010 5:31AM

    You have been going through a rough time so stop beating yourself up girl!

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CAROLEHZ 8/25/2010 8:33AM

    Yes, you do want to try this again. Don't think of it as difficult...think of it as just the way you do things...you are a person who eats well and exercises...it's a great gift that you give yourself called being healthy.
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MERESGED 8/25/2010 5:48AM

    You can do this! Just stick with it! Small steps and adjustments will build up to the best thing you can do for your life :)

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TONYA_JO 8/24/2010 9:40AM

    emoticon You are worth the effort! I started tracking food again last week after it being months of not writing on paper, and even longer of not inputting it in the tracker. Yikes! Baby steps, one day a time. We Will Do This!!!!

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KMIRANDA2000 8/24/2010 9:08AM

    Just like anything else...one thing at a time. Be good to yourself.

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ME - - - SURVEY

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

I copied this from CAROLEHZ's who said she got it from Funfrog79 who said she got it from Yoovie

A - married for 11 years

B - Book? read as much as I can

C - Cake or Pie? pie.

D - Drink of Choice? Water, Coffee, green tea

E - Essential Item? computer

F - Favorite Color? black; dark red

G - Game to play or watch? football

H - Hometown? Cramer Hill, Camden, NJ

I - Indulgence? choco & peanut butter

J - Job? No

K - Kids? 3

L - Life is incomplete without? God & family

M - Music group or singer? country

N - Number of siblings? 1 brother; 3 half sister; 1 half brother; 1 step brother; 1 step sister & 1 sista (ALTHOUGH I CONSIDER THEM ALL TO B JUST BORTHERS & SISTERS)

O - Oranges or apples? both


P - Phobias/Fears? too many these days

Q - Favorite Quote? wateva

R - Reason to Smile?my grands

S - Season(s)? Fall & Spring ( cool but not too cold..warm but not too hot)

T - Tattoos? 3 w/ a few more planned

U - Unknown fact about me?I like to dance around the house when no1 home

V - Vegetables you love? peppers; onions; broccoli

W - Worst habit? b a door mat 4 ppl

X - X-Rays you've had? back; ankle; arm; knee

Y - Your favorite food? shrimp

Z - Zodiac? Picses ( I can't remember how to spell it)

  
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DAWNWATERWOMAN 8/18/2010 8:35PM

    Love it... look for my answers on TRACYZABELLE's blog comments! Love ya, Dawn

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TRACYZABELLE 8/18/2010 1:25AM

    awesome~

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SPARKPIXIE 8/17/2010 2:12PM

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LITTLE_QUEEN 8/17/2010 1:47PM

    emoticon Now I am going to copy it from you, Hee Hee!

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QUICK UPDATE

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

I'm doing VBS @ my church last week & this week.

I'm doing better still going thru ups & downs but not as severe.

My cousin n her wife joined Sparks along w/their 17 yr old son.

My daughter n her 2 kids r moving bac in; @ that time my daughter will b joining Sparks. So my La-La will b back in my home full time instead of just part time.

Hubby & I r working on things.

I was down to 235 last wk but I m back up to 240 no excuses I've just been eating. I m slowly but surely getting back on track

  
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DAWNWATERWOMAN 8/11/2010 8:38PM

    You're just really busy and stress can have a lot to do with weight gain. Just take time to take care of you and let go of some of the stress. You'll be back on target in no time. Love ya, Dawn

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W8FALNOFF 8/11/2010 1:48PM

    WooHoo..
Oh Happy Day..LaLa is coming back!
I know that is so exciting, and you can't wait for her to get there!
I am so happy for you..and I know that this will help achieve all those goals you have planned..I can't wait to follow on your trail as you make things happen.
Hugs and Love
Patty

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KELLYERIN 8/11/2010 12:56PM

    So glad to hear that LaLa will be back with you! I know how much you miss her! Congrats to the family for joining spark! emoticon

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NEED2LOSEN2010 8/11/2010 11:26AM

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CDAWN26 8/11/2010 10:52AM

    I have all the faith in you to move in the right direction. Hang in there! We're here for you. emoticon emoticon

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TONYA_JO 8/11/2010 10:28AM

    So happy to read this blog! One day at a time. emoticon

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CAROLEHZ 8/11/2010 8:14AM

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It sounds like you are doing lots of positive things...I like that you sound happy
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TRACYZABELLE 8/11/2010 3:18AM

    I am so happy you and hubby are trying to work things out.. Best of luck to you.

WTG on spreeading the spark and getting people to join!

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