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Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Today was not a good day so I spent most of it in bed. My legs are bothering me so much that I can't even walk up the ladder to get into the pool. Prayerfully tomorrow is a better day cause I know that my hip always feels better after spending time in the pool. I wasn't able 2 do much as exercise went today but I did a little so @ least I havent quit yet.
My eating habits have somewat improved wit the exception of my chocolate craving. Next wk should b the x-ray on my neck. They are also scheduling more blood work.

Good news is that I m wearing a pair of capri type shorts that I wore when I was 220 & right now I'm between 245 & 249. So @ least my waist shrunk some.

Tomorrow is La's graduatiuon from preschool (headstart). I will of course b taking pics then if everything is ok inot the pool

Well I'm heading back to bed.

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BARBARAROSE54 6/23/2010 11:11AM


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KMIRANDA2000 6/23/2010 8:30AM

    Poor thing...take care of yourself.

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Monday, June 21, 2010

This to shall pass; I tell this to everyone who is going thru something. Problem is that I really dont believe it anymore.

Another lousy night of sleep; but I was out of bed @ 7 calling my daughter to make sure she was up to take La to school. As much as I wanted to go back to bed I couldnt. Friday was suppose to b out USDA food giveaway (I oversee it); since they were having problems with deliveries that day I of course agreed to reschedule till Monday. At 9 I still hadn't heard from the food bank so I call them they inform me that the truck will b @ the church between 10 & 12 ironic we give out from 12:30 till 2 or food is gone. Well the food showed up @ 1 pm. I still not going to let it get to me. People can b really ignorant even when they getting something 4 nothing & I have them sit in the air conditioned church instead of standing in line outside. By 2 we were out of food.

I then go to the dentist they did fix my crown but informed me if it breaks again I lose what little is left of my tooth. The permanent crown will b inserted on the 29th. My insurance still hasnt approved my extractions so I will b calling them n complaining cause they hurt & pieces keep breaking off.

I still cant get in to c a therapist b4 August.

People r irritating me more n more lately I know its the depression & the episodes. I'm going to a very bad place & the worse part is to see it coming n not b able to stop it.

My hubby gave my chihuahua to my bil I'm a little upset cause she was my baby but hubby & her just couldnt seem 2 get along. So now I'm down to 1 dog my boston/jack russell terrier; the kitten; 2 turtles & a fish tank full of fancy tail guppies.

Well I guess that's all for now. Today I will b reading & reflecting on Psalm 64

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LITTLE_QUEEN 6/21/2010 9:46PM

    Oh Maga, You are going through alot, and I am so sorry about your precious chihuahua, be strong

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Sunday, June 20, 2010

Well last night when I layed down I decided that today was going to b a good day. Well it didnt work out that way. I tossed n turned all night. So I didnt go 2 church today I could barely stand let alone walk. I really over did the last cpl of days moving around furniture while hubby was helping his brother move.

So I spent the day in bed only got up to go eat & use potty. Yet somehow my temporary crown fell cracked; the new 1 isnt to b put until the 29th.

Tomorrow I will b @ my church supervising our monthly food giveaway.

I have to call the therapist tomorrow to c if there r any openings yet to move up my appt. I have to get the referral to get x-rays of my neck for the neurologist.

I dont want to feel sorry for myself but it just seems that the more I try to move forward the more that I go backwards, I m trying to fight this depression but it is winning. I m so close to just giving up on everything. Hubby is trying 2 b understanding but he just seems to make more angry. I really need to find some1 that I can talk 2 & get all of this out. These blogs help alot; so I hope that I dont annoy y'all with them

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LITTLE_QUEEN 6/21/2010 11:21AM

    Oh Maga! We are all here for each other to support each other, hug each other, love each other, You do not annoy us with your blogs, and after all these are your blogs, you write what you want, I hope things get better for you and will keep you in my prayers.

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CSNODGRASS 6/21/2010 11:16AM

    I love reading your blogs! This too shall pass...I know it!!

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BARBARAROSE54 6/21/2010 3:46AM

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JAMER123 6/20/2010 11:28PM

    Thank you for sharing. We listen and try to help when possible. Sounds like you did the best you could. I have a tendency to overdo also and then need a couple days to recoup. I have this wonderful recliner I get into and I can rest there when I can't stay in bed. Hoping you are going to have a better day tomorrow.

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Saturday, June 19, 2010

I haven't blogged this wk due to being totally lost. I m trying 2 trust in God to see us all through this. I have gained more weight due to stress eating.

A very dear friend of mine is accuse of touching my 17 yr old cousins privates. This friend is even 1 of my granddaughters God fathers. I m totally confused by all this, if it wasnt 4 the fact that it is my cousins son I wouldnt b able to even come close to believing it. Since the 2 families met @ the church & its been in the paper & on TV. Our church is very split.

I m trying so hard to stay neutral but its hard.

I have started to workout again full force & to eat better. I m bac on my nebulizer but I know this to shall pass.

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CSNODGRASS 6/20/2010 3:19PM

    I'll pray about this.

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Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Tomorrow is another dentist appt; my permanent crown came in. I m still waiting 4 my insurance to approve the extractions & the crowns for my root canal.

The 1st Communion went well, except for me I kept having to tell ppl - DON'T TOUCH ME.
The bbq was awesome; I had a few drinks & it made it easier to deal w/ being around ppl. I still haven't downloaded the pic maybe I will get to that tomorrow, after my appt. Still haven't been able to get in to c a therapist so I guess it will b an August appt 4 me.

My hubby is planning to try to go back to school so prayerfully things go well w/ his appt tomorrow he wants to b either an electrician or a welder. He was approved for extended unemployment & is trying to use 1 of their programs.

I have decided to start working on weekly plans instead of mthly w/ my present mental state it may make it easier to focus. I m making up charts to hang in my exercise room w/ way I'm to do each day. List always seem to help me. Like a TO DO LIST. I m also doing 1 for my hubby, hoping that it will help us motivate each other.

Z - I m refocused
E - only 30 mins
N - went over

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    You continue to be in my prayers dear friend. I hope that the lists & organizing will help you. Good luck with the dental work and dealing with the insurance. Love, Dawn

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KELLYERIN 6/10/2010 10:18PM

    I am glad you are refocusing!! MEEE TOO!

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CSNODGRASS 6/10/2010 6:56PM

    Hope your appt went well today. At least the worst part is over! I've been going over a lot lately; gotta figure out what I'm doing.

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LOZUKE 6/10/2010 5:13AM

    Hi Lists are great. That is what I need . You sound like you got it together. You are thinking things through. I hate to go to the dentist. I have to go when I get back from Spain on the 22 nd. I will call to make the appointment. Guess What My crown has to come off to get to a little decay and then a new crown to be put on! YUCK!
I wish you always the best with everything. Just remember little steps at a time are better. We all love you here and keep us posted when you can. I understand.
Hugs, DebbieXOXO

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YIGOBUTTERFLY 6/10/2010 4:01AM

    Some days we have to take it by the hour. Sounds like you are making progress. Weekly plans sound good. If you have to do daily then that is OK. I see where there is improvement.

God be with you.

Jane on Guam

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