Monday, May 10, 2010
I want to thank everyone who has offered me encouragement n kind words while I'm dealing with my panic attacks. Yesterday I left the house to go pick up hubby for his day home (he b home on May 19th for good), Well I probably shouldn't have went yesterday was the worse day for me. Even though I had such a great time w/ hubby home their was just too many panic attacks for me to deal with.
I have an amazing wonderful hubby I m truly blessed to have him in my life. He told me not to worry about anything if I want to just lay in bed then I could & when he comes home he will take care of me. It really does make me believe that everything will b ok.
I go to the drs on Wednesday morning & prayerfully I will b feeling better by then cause I couldn't bring myself to go today. I hate feeling this way n I wish that I could just force it all to go away but it doesn't work that way. The last time that I felt this way was after my ex-husband had held me & my children hostage.
I will continue to pray for guidance. I don't understand why I'm still having such a reaction like this. In my head I know that I was always safe & that the man didn't want to hurt anyone not me or himself. But everytime I go to leave this house I just panic, I can't breathe, my chest feels like its going to explode and my head hurts so bad. Anyone who has ever suffered from this knows that there is no rhyme or reason.