Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Well, today was a day for me. It started out wonderfully I rode my bike 5 miles round trip to go pay my electric bill. Then with my daughter n 2 grands, we went shopping @ the thrift store. It was such a lovely day my daughter ask me to do her a favor n ride my bike to go get her a May bus pass so that she doesn't have to waste the money to go down town to get it. Now I know that Camden was recently listed as the most dangerous city to live in in the U S & for yrs we were the 2nd poorest city but alot of good does happen here & I've been blessed since I've been back here & usually feel totally safeOkay no problem. I go get the buss pass, feeling great.
Then as I m riding my bike back to her apt it stated to ride funny so I coasted to a shady place to TRY n fix it. I was working on the bike then there was this man, he was talking all crazy n delusional. Then he pulls out a knife I m against the guard rail bike on 1 side column on the other he is in front of me.
Then he talks about killing himself setting on fire didn't work (whole top of body is burnt) the pills didn't work other stuff didn't work either. Don't ask me why but I asked 4 the knife n he gave it 2 me for a whole 2 secs then came towards me cause he wanted it back. I cant go no place n I can barely walk due to a swollen foot. He takes the knife n starts pushing it into his throat below the adams apple, I scream 4 some reason this somewhat normally busy street has no cars.
I beg him not to he ask y. I told him I would feel guilty if he did it.
Somehow I convinced him to go to the hosp he said they wont help him I offered to walk there with him & I did. We talked the whole walk n when we got 2 the hosp I gave the security guard the knife n prayed with the man b4 I left.
I sat outside of the hosp n just cried for about 15 mins, then I get on my bike to head back to my daughters I had 2 ride pass the place this all happened n went into a severe panic attack. My cousins had 2 come get me between the crying n the shaking I couldn't ride my bike no further.
Every time I close my eyes I see that knife my hubby is gonna have such a fit when I tell him about this on Sunday, The weird thing is alot of the things that happened to this man happened to me sexual abuse by a family member, then leaning about God but still came the suicide attempts. He kept saying that there was nada special about him y do ppl say there is; I've been asking myself that ever since I got my award.
Z - I may have saved a life (mayb even my own)
E - 170 minutes
N - within my calories