Was snowed in today but I had a blast. The only really bad part of today was that I didnt go to spa night & I didnt get to go visit my hubby this morning. I m truly blessed. A friend of mine rode his quad over to shovel my deck & a path to the street. The front of my house is a snow drift; so there is over 4 ft & then spots with nada.
Then my niece & her girlfriend came over them my daughter & La all played with the wii. Had a cpl drinks. I also fried chicken BUT I didnt go over my calories
As for my goals this wk I didnt reach my calories burned of 5000 I only did 4725 but I got 711 fitness minutes & that goal was 180. Overall I feel that I did pretty good this week. So 1 week down & 3 more to go. My disappointment somehow I've gained 4 lbs. I really have to watch my fat cause I always seem to go over on that.
I've also decided that I m go to get this watchy thing that I seen @ walmart that tells how many calories you burn, it's about $40 but I think I will get it for myself fro my b-day.
Met my goals for the day. my cardio though was just walking cause in to much pain to go to the gym or do the bowflex.
Waiting for the guy to call me back so I can find out if I can afford to replace the harddrive in my laptop; but @ least for now the e-machine is working I just can't do much else other then interent BUT @ least I haveSparkpeople.
My daughter finds out on Tuesday when she will b able to move YEAH ME.
The snow storm has just started but if we get whats predicted I will b snowed in 4 the weekend.
I realized today just how bad my depression had gotten when I was walking to the bus stop & notice that yesterday they tore down an old family home ( they finished it up today). It was my gandma (that wat I called her) house; it has been empty for yrs & last yr had a bad fire. Yet I cryed all the way to the bus stop. It's gone the place where I spent most of my child hood & the place where my marriage started. I felt like I lost both my ganny & my mom all over again.
my cravings - now seafood. Someone is pregnant. I dont know who but I realized now that this has happened b4. Anytime someone I know gets pregnant I know someone is b4 the person who is knows that they r. It's a curse that my grandmom left to me.
I'm still depressed but getting a grip on things Sparkpeople & the Bible is getting thru it.
Both of my computers crashed today I was able to temporarily restore the e-machine to factory settings but my laptop needs a new hard drive something about sector 4. I even tried the recovery disk no luck.
We r expecting a severe snow storm so everyone is in panic mode. I'M GONNA LAUGH IF IT MISSES US & cry if it hits.
It has now been over a wk since I've had more then 4 hrs of sleep. Last night another pain added to the list muscle spasms in my thighs that were so bad that when I stood I felt like I was being stabbed. As soon as my insurance cards get here I will b getting alot of test done; for now I m back on all the meds that I was on b4 I lost the insurance.
Well enough whining I'm gonna go back 2 my room & try to get some rest.
Well it's day 3 of my challenging myself. Not sure y but I'm craving sweets (too soon 2 b PMS). All I want to do is EAT everything & anything. But I will b within my calories, I met my fitness goal & I even ate more then 5 servings of fruit/veggies.
I'm gonna have to remind myself wat I always tell others TRUST IN GOD.
He gets me through everything & he will c me through this also.
Suffering from depression makes even normal days a struggle so the downs r really downs. Now that my insurance is fixed I m just waiting 4 the insurance cards (they say 10 days); prayerfully when I start seeing the dr again we can work on getting me back on track w/ my meds & deal w/this foot.
Well I'm gonna relax with a drink n then maybe I can get @ least 4 hrs of sleep b4 the pain starts.
I did really great with my goals for the day until about 11:30 pm then it happened. Not even sure y - maybe it was just too much thinking about things. Regardless as to y I ate cinnamon popcorn; godiva chocolate; & sour cream & onion potatoe chips.
I guess the reality of the next 6 mths I will most likely b on my own w/o my hubby just got to me.
Prayerfully my daughter will find this week if she's gonna b able to move out of here. La is just off the hook lately I honestly that part of the problem is that her mother is her.
I'm not gonna stress too much about the over eatting instead I'm just gonna move forward & get right back on track