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day 4

Thursday, February 04, 2010

my cravings - now seafood. Someone is pregnant. I dont know who but I realized now that this has happened b4. Anytime someone I know gets pregnant I know someone is b4 the person who is knows that they r. It's a curse that my grandmom left to me.

I'm still depressed but getting a grip on things Sparkpeople & the Bible is getting thru it.

Both of my computers crashed today I was able to temporarily restore the e-machine to factory settings but my laptop needs a new hard drive something about sector 4. I even tried the recovery disk no luck.

We r expecting a severe snow storm so everyone is in panic mode. I'M GONNA LAUGH IF IT MISSES US & cry if it hits.

It has now been over a wk since I've had more then 4 hrs of sleep. Last night another pain added to the list muscle spasms in my thighs that were so bad that when I stood I felt like I was being stabbed. As soon as my insurance cards get here I will b getting alot of test done; for now I m back on all the meds that I was on b4 I lost the insurance.

Well enough whining I'm gonna go back 2 my room & try to get some rest.

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CSNODGRASS 2/5/2010 4:15PM

    And forgot to mention, I'm so glad that you turn to the hubby and I are on our second way through it, cover to cover. We're now at 2 Kings Chapter 19.

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CSNODGRASS 2/5/2010 4:14PM

    That is too funny...please, God, let it not be me! I'm not ready!
I hope you will get a respite from all this pain, and GET SOME SLEEP!

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Day 3

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

Well it's day 3 of my challenging myself. Not sure y but I'm craving sweets (too soon 2 b PMS). All I want to do is EAT everything & anything. But I will b within my calories, I met my fitness goal & I even ate more then 5 servings of fruit/veggies.

I'm gonna have to remind myself wat I always tell others TRUST IN GOD.
He gets me through everything & he will c me through this also.

Suffering from depression makes even normal days a struggle so the downs r really downs. Now that my insurance is fixed I m just waiting 4 the insurance cards (they say 10 days); prayerfully when I start seeing the dr again we can work on getting me back on track w/ my meds & deal w/this foot.

Well I'm gonna relax with a drink n then maybe I can get @ least 4 hrs of sleep b4 the pain starts.

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CSNODGRASS 2/4/2010 1:12PM

    Congrats on a successful day!! I hope your pain is minimal and that you had a great night's sleep!

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NROL6455 2/3/2010 11:49PM

    This is my day 3 for starting over... again.. I just got out of a long bout of depression myself. It's so hard to do anything when you're depressed. But hey, you're staying connected.. at least with spark people.. Reconnecting with people has helped me get out of my depression and helped me get back in the right direction.
That's awesome that you met your fitness goals. emoticon
And yes.. God will get you through.

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DOHAGAN23 2/3/2010 10:57PM

  I have depression, too. Sometimes I forget to take my meds. because I am rushing around in the morning and don't get up early, because it is hard to get out of bed. I crave sweets. I bought dark chocolate M&Ms for a treat so I don't feel deprived. Good for you on the fruits and veggies...that can be a hard one. I hope you sleep well and feel better.

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Feb 2

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

I did really great with my goals for the day until about 11:30 pm then it happened. Not even sure y - maybe it was just too much thinking about things. Regardless as to y I ate cinnamon popcorn; godiva chocolate; & sour cream & onion potatoe chips.
I guess the reality of the next 6 mths I will most likely b on my own w/o my hubby just got to me.
Prayerfully my daughter will find this week if she's gonna b able to move out of here. La is just off the hook lately I honestly that part of the problem is that her mother is her.

I'm not gonna stress too much about the over eatting instead I'm just gonna move forward & get right back on track

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CSNODGRASS 2/3/2010 7:56PM

    Thanks for being so honest! When you can be honest about it, that's half the battle. All of us sometimes have to get off track; we'll go crazy if we don't. Just pick right back up where you left off. I like the saying that you can start the day all over again at any moment. So just start the day over! You can do it!!

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Tuesday, February 02, 2010

I challenge myself to do 90 mins of cardio 6 days a wk.

I challenge myself to eat within my calorie intake every day. NO EXCEPTIONS.

I challenge myself to blog or journal everyday.


I over did it when I painted on Sat so I'm still alittle sore. WHEN WILL I LEARN

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BICHONMOMMY 2/3/2010 11:41AM

    You have some very challenging challenges, but I know you can do them.

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CSNODGRASS 2/3/2010 11:29AM

    Go here:
You can calculate how many calories you burned while painting! I applaud you for challenging yourself to do 90 minutes of cardio six days a week! I don't think I could do that, even when I can get back in my pool! That's a lotta cardio!!!

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Friday, January 29, 2010

Well today is National Puzzle Day (I have an Oriental Trading Calendar & it has all this neat national days).
It's ironic that in national puzzle day I figure out that my life is a puzzle. It is up 2 me to fit it all together & properly. I have to put the puzzle known as Maga together noone else is gonna notice when the edges don't fit right but I do. It is up 2 me to figure out how to make time for everything I do & want to do.
I don't do what alot of ppl consider 'work', but my job doesn't end @ a certain time I don't get a day off. If I get a break from one part of my life there is always something else I need to b dealing with.
My dad has 2 b given his medicine & reminded to eat each of his meals not to mention he can't prepare or heat up his own food.
La has to b taken 2 school, church, dr's & counseling not 2 mention scheduling play dates & visitation with her parents.
I m a site supervisor @ an after-school reading program @ a local elementary school 2 days a wk & I volunteer @ my church's high school 1x a wk 2 teach Violence Prevention. I Deacon & teach sunday school & there is the Friday night 4 Everyone which included youth group (I focus on jr high). During the summer I coordinate the VBS
Family call me whenever they r planning parties 2 come up wit ideas. I m also an ear to many of them.
There is the house which do to the years of neglect b4 we took over there is always something needing to b fixed. The animals taken care of cause they r important 2 keep around 4 dad.
I have a marriage & 3 grown children who seem to forget that they on there own. I'm NaNa to 5 precious granddaughters & I spend as much time with my God-children & nieces & nephews. Family especially this past yr has become very important 2 me.
As all of those puzzle pieces have always seemed to fit so well together I've come 2 realize that there were alot of jagged edges on my puzzle I FINALLY FIGURED OUT Y THE PUZZLE DIDN'T FIT QUITE RIGHT. There was No ME TIME, there was no time scheduled for Maga 4 exercising for chatting with friends online. No time 4 healhty food & 2 figure out wat that even meant. 4 me. No time even 2 read a book.

It has changed especially over the past 6 mths; the puzzle is finally together no jagged edges; no pieces forced to fit where they don't belong; there may still b a few missing pieces BUT by the Grace of God - I do now c what the puzzle is really suppose to look like.

One of my favorite parts of the puzzle as I look @ it is the corner marked Sparkpeople. It is 1 of the corner stones right along w/ my Lord & Savior. It's amazing cause next 2 my hubby (who is my best friend, confidant, & cheo); everyday that I wake is so much easier to deal with because I have God & then my wonderful Spark-friends to get me thru anything that life throws @ me.


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DOHAGAN23 1/31/2010 1:49AM

  Wow, that was really inspiring. I am glad we can be here to support you, as you give so much to others. donna

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KELLYERIN 1/30/2010 11:25PM

    Thanks for being such a big part of our Sparking for Zen in 2010 team! We are here for you!!

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CSNODGRASS 1/30/2010 12:18PM

    I LOVE this blog!!! So glad you're a fellow Zenner!!!

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ZELDAPLIFF 1/29/2010 4:03PM

    Well said, well-compared. Zen in 2010 is what I belive I am heading towards as well.

I am a puzzle fiend, and never thought to look at it this way... thanks for that. Explains a lot!

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