Saturday, August 22, 2009
This has been a rough summer for me. My back has been acting up all summer, I've been sic for about a 2 mths & then there was my cousins civil union ( I was the matron of honor & hubby was the best man), my grand came back to live with us(she went to go live wit her mom la\st Nov)
Exercise was non existent and eating rite not high on my priority list; BUT hey I didn't gain no weight so that a good thing.
So all hubby & I have done all summer is argue; with a few good days here and there. I realize that I'm over stressed and need a break. Unfortunately I can't afford to go anywhere right now so I 'm basically just home and not dealing with the outside world.
So as to hubby 2 yrs ago he had a mishap with a prejudice cop in Pennsauken according to him MY HUBBY WAS A SPIC THAT DIDN'T BELONG THERE It got physical and 6 cops put my husband in trauma (if I would have thought to video it we b paid rite now) and our La La witnesses it all @ 2yrs old she was petrified of anyone in a uniform for almost a yr.
Well to make a long story short went to court and my hubby is a true ass @ times and the judge was the judge who he dealt with 20 yrs ago when he was young and dumb and did some time. Didn't matter that his life was totally different and that he had a good job because of his past he got sentence 3 yrs for simple assault on an officer (even though it was self defense) instead of doing time he did this thing called ISP. It is a program that is all up in your business for a yr and a half to 2 yrs. He's done a yr so far and since I wanted a separation he asked them to place him in a program for anger management and drinking. So for the next mth we will only have contact through letters.
God willing during this mth I can get myself together and figure out y I m always so edgy and angry. Everything has been just getting to me for mths and I don't know y. We didn't even tell anyone this was gonna happen when we started making the arrangements 2 wks ago.
So I m dealing with this new change & praying for some insight.