Monday, August 17, 2009
Well it's been over 2 weeks that I've had a fever, off and on. The only time it ain't bothering me is when I sit in the pool, even the ac doesn't cool me down. The couldn't find anything wrong with me I was even tested for swine flu - neg. All I do is eat, sleep, n sit in the pool. I haven't even cleaned the house in forever. I just feel so blah all the time.
I don't really want to have any contact with the rw. I just want to hibernate until it is cool again. I just want to disappear for a very long time. I don't like being around ppl especially those who act like they know me I guess the problem is that I ain't about myself i always put myself last and do everything I can to help ppl. And I will talk to ppl about things they do that bug me maybe not always in the nicest way but at least I do it face to face not behind their backs.
My healthier lifestyle went on vacation June 29, 2009 when I started my summer employment n I haven't been able to get back on track n just don't know what to do. I f the heat ever leaves I have a fellow sparker that will walk with me but I can't do it as long as this heat is like this
I need to jump start my self new lifestyle new friends new agenda new everything especiqlly a new outlook
I m better @ helping others then helping myself; why cant I just help myself
well enough of my pity party