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Thursday, July 23, 2009

I ate 6 cupcakes with buttercream frosting . MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM Deliciouso!
Do I feel guilty? NO
Am I depressed about it? NO
I'm just sharing that today I ate 6 vanilla cupcakes with buttercream frosting n jimmies.
I really enjoyed it. Then even though I was wayyy over calories I ordered out n had dominoes. It feels great I ate without guilt. You probably think that I've lost my mind, but I haven't. I found sanity. I will eat what I want when I want & then I will just deal with it n if necessary exercise a little extra n always make sure I drink my water.
Food will no longer control my mood or my destiny

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CRAZY_CAROLLYNN 7/24/2009 1:56PM

    Guilt is toxic and bad for us.
Taking responsibility and being honest have NOTHING to do with guilt. It is not a question in morality of good and bad, but simply of investing in self as in nutritional value or as in gratification value. They are both VALID investments each with their own pros & cons, leaving long and short term effects. It is about facing up to that fact and bit of reality, and taking responsibility for our choices, free from blame, escape, or displacing emotions... being HONEST about it. Human beings tend not to get hung up and dwell in self pity when they realize they are not the victim, that they have free will, and the power of choice. Nothing wrong with additional exercise to burn off additional calories... as long as you remain HONEST about it. If you choose not to do the calorie burn exercise, then the responsible choice is not to eat the calories in.

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S_BOETTCHER90 7/24/2009 10:12AM

    That is the state of mind that you need to have when you are diet and exercising. I used to be a huge eater and at the time I felt bad about it. Now I think of food as fuel. The more fuel I eat, the more to expect when it comes to exercising.

Never hold yourself back to "comfort foods". That was the biggest mistake I made when I first started. Keep up the great work!

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DIANEDOESIT 7/24/2009 9:15AM

    Never, NEVER feel guilty about food!!! This is something that you will have to do for the rest of your life, and we ALL have those 6 cupcake days!! As long as it isn't followed by a 7 butter tart's all good.

I've gone over on my calories 3 outta 4 days this week. Do I feel guilty?? NO. But, I will feel disappointed when I get on the scale and it hasn't moved. It's a nice reality check that throws me back on course pretty quick. But guily....nah...not anymore. This is MY lifestyle change, and I CAN have a 6 cupcake day occasionally without guilt because I'm NOT on a diet!!!! 36 pounds later though...this has been more successful than any diet I've ever tried.

Hang in there're doing fine!! emoticon

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Road to Recovery

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Praise God - I m well on my road to recovery.

I may not b going to the gym yet or walking the mile w/o a break but I m doing my cardio minutes.
I do summer programming at my church & between 8 am 1 pm I do minimum of 10,000 steps, SO even though I don't do it all at one time I do walk over a mile a day. I been using the pool to exercise so that has helped alot.
I plan to go back to the curves starting this Friday & I plan to start walking my mile again with a new spark buddy, real soon.

I will survive this latest setback & I will move forward even stronger.

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W8WHITTILER 7/22/2009 3:46PM

    Marcia, you amaze me..and what an inspiration you are to me!
You have no idea!
I can be having the hardest day I think is possible, and yet I can come back to see how you are doing and how you are pushing forward each day and even after your back are back at it and doing great..
You fill me with motivation and with your attitude I can always find an encouraging message in all your Blogs!
Thank you, you are the best!

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HICALGAL 7/22/2009 7:48AM

    i believe you will. your determination and a plan will suit you well. keep up the good work!



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ILEANA77 7/22/2009 3:39AM

    Water exercise is a good low impact exercise and Fun! I am happy because you will start walking again.

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LITTLE_QUEEN 7/21/2009 10:30PM

    yes you will and that is so nice you are walking with a Spark Buddy

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CRAZY_CAROLLYNN 7/21/2009 10:20PM

    Thats the way to hang in there and stay positive.

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hurt my back

Friday, July 17, 2009

Lesson learned.
Well I havent been exercising porperly for the last three weeks. Now I m paying for it, I went to move a box of milk from the counter to the fridge ( I was covering for one of my summer program workers). Then I had to sweep n mop the social hall usaully all I do is supervise n tutor as needed.
After work I was in alot of pain but I went home n cleaned n made my back even worst. That was Monday today is Friday n I m walking with a cane.
Well the lesson that I learned is that no matter what I have to find time to exercise cause when I dont my health can go backwards real quick.
Keep me in yours prays that this will b a speedy recovery

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GETUPANDDOIT 7/21/2009 11:07AM

    Hang in there. Take care of yourself.
Prayers and hugs to you!

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CRAZY_CAROLLYNN 7/19/2009 2:43PM

    I will pray for you and wish you a speedy recovery.

So have you recovered yet? :-) How are you today?

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OAKTREE10 7/19/2009 10:01AM

    my thoughts and prayers are with you!

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MISSCAROL 7/18/2009 9:51PM

    I wish you a speedy recovery and you are definitely in my prayers.

Together we can all get back on track. emoticon

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HICALGAL 7/18/2009 4:29AM

    hugs and prayers for a speedy recovery and take care of yourself.



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YES I'm afraid

Friday, July 03, 2009

Are you afraid about gaining back the weight that you've lost? How do you plan to prevent that from happening?

YES I am very afraid of the weight returning, especially as my weight has been up n down for the last 2 mths.

I've come to realize that I am going to need some type of support on going - so @ this point I feel that I will b on sparks for a very long time.
It is too easy to fall into old habits n that's not what I want to do. So I most continue to strive to move forward n keep trying to live a healthy life style.

At this point I'm also afraid that I might not reach my goal weight

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W8WHITTILER 7/5/2009 7:14PM

    Marsha, you always have me to lean matter how tough it can vent to me.
This is a tough journey, I have been struggling for over 2 years now, and that is just with Spark People, we are not counting the years before..but with friends like you, the weight I have lost, does not creep back up onto me so keep me motivated and encouraged..

You know what...we need to think up another challenge to do together..I really liked climbing the Sears Tower..
We will have to think of another one..
Email me and let me know where you live..maybe we can walk to each others house..that is always a good challenge!
Just keep your chin up, you mind focused and you will reach every goal you set for yourself!
Believe because I do!

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LITTLE_QUEEN 7/3/2009 11:48PM

    I am struggling to NOT gain back weight, I have been gaining and losing the same 5 pounds since September 2008, I may not be losing really, but I feel that Spark has helped somewhat as I have not gained back much of what I lost!

It can be a struggle sometimes, But we can do this!

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say good-bye AGAIN

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Yesterday really made me take a look @ my past. Some a@@wipes set 4 houses on fire around the corner from me, 2 were empty, 2 had ppl living in them.
The Edwards house I use to hang out in when I was a preteen; the mom & brother still lived there now is a pile of rubble along with Ms. Helen's house. Although Ms. helen passed away many year ago & the house has been boarded up her daughter in law lives across the street from me & 1 of her granddaughters lives 2 houses up from me.
Then there is the Roman's house I still remember the day WOW about 20 yrs ago when they moved into the house, which is now boarded up so that they can c if they can save any of the belongings or if at all possible to save the house & they were attached to my grandma's house which has been boarded up for about 10 yrs & is now basically a shell.
My hubby as much as I live him can b really insensitive @ times to my feelings. He just doesn't understand how I can b emotional about a house especially as its been boarded up for yrs. But hey I grew up in that house All of my kids lived there & hey we even started our life together there. I still feel that its my grandma's house. I feel like I'm loosing my grandparents all over again. Maybe I m just too emotional lately. But now all I can do is think about all the times that I spent in those houses & soon they will b all gone & eventually they will build these new houses that are popping up all over around here But don't even look like they belong

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CRAZY_CAROLLYNN 6/28/2009 2:21PM

    Oh I'm sorry my friend. You are feeling a lot of loss lately. I understand and have been there too. Its NORMAL, you're OK, and this too shall pass.
The way your husband deals with it is also NORMAL and OK, and although he doesn't share your perspectives, or understand them, Im sure he accepts that at times you both will differ, and loves you just the same.
The past is gone, as long as you remember the good times and the things your memories have taught you, you wont have lost a thing.

Personally speaking, I've wasted too much time living in the past, sitting on a pity pot, and displacing my energies away from my future towards the things I cannot change. Now I keep my past in heart for the good that it gave, but I actively choose to focus on today and tomorrow.

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