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Time To Get Serious

Friday, November 21, 2008

I've been charting everything . I exercise regularly, especially the walking. Even take the stairs when I'm out. But I'm still not eating right, although I try to stay within my caloric intake. So I sit here and imagine what if I actually do it all. Stop with the excuses is what I need to really work on. What if I use a diet plan n eat the way they suggest? What if I exercise, more then just walking? What if? What if? What if? So I guess it really is time to get serious. I want to change my life & get 'healthier'. I need to push through this and conquer. Yes I know that there will be weeks that I don't lose and hey maybe even a week that I gain. But I need not get discouraged - I need to continue to push thru. Wow do I owe alot to spark teams and all the people here. If it wasn't for the support and advice that I get here, I wouldn't have lost 9.8 lbs. So it's Time To Get Serious. When I renew my wedding vows next October I WILL be thinner then I was when we said our original vows. Cause in 2009 I will be fine.
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lost but disappointed

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Well I lost some weight, I've lost 7.6 lbs. I just feel like I should have lost so much more. Especially considering that I started walking n changing my eating habits a month before I joined the site. I don't know what I was expecting but my hubby helped me to realize how much I had accomplished. I watch everything I eat, yes I still screw up. I walk regularly & exercise. I've come along way yet I'm still expecting myself to have so much more done. I read what other people are doing and I feel so bad cause why ain't I exercising that much. Why I ain't I doing more. So I try then I wind up not being able to do much of anything the next day. Why, why , why. I guess in a way I thought that once I started doing stuff right that magically everything would fall into place. Well it doesn't happen that way. so I guess I need to face reality. I may be disappointed but hey I really did it I LOST WEIGHT, I actually did it.
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BABIE_JANE 11/19/2008 11:07PM

    7.6 pounds is great! Good for you! I wouldn't be so concerned about not being able to workout the way you read others are. My suggestion would be to do what you can in the way of working out and don't push too hard, but concentrate more on what you are eating. Looking at your food tracker there seems to be a lot of McDonald's and such. Try cutting down on Mickey D's and have cereal, oatmeal or fruit for breakfast. You will work your way up on the workouts.

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HAD_IT 11/19/2008 8:46AM

    Hey Maga68

Don't get so down on yourself. You need to be happy with what you have lost. You have done a fabulous job. Remember what I said, you might have lost body fat and it might have changed even though the weight has not. Think of it this way. Compare a pound of marshmallows versus a pound of peanut butter. The peanut butter is a lot smaller and denser, where as the marshmallows are a lot bigger and softer. So you have been changing those marshmallows to peanut butter. That's a good thing. You are changing your body makeup.

Listen to your body. How is it feeling? How are your clothes fitting? How is your breathing? How is your endurance? Can you walk a block further then the first day you started? Have you noticed any other changes other then what the scale has said. And even at that I would be happy with 7 lbs. Be happy with it, relish it and take it for what it is, a start to a new you.

You go girl.

I am so proud of you.

Keep up the good work.


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When I exercise, I feel . . .

Sunday, November 16, 2008

When I exercise, I feel like I'm gonna die. Yea I gotta be honest half of the time while I am exercise I feel like I am going to die. I feel every muscle. My chest feels like it is going to cave in. I can't breathe. But after I exercise - then I feel so alive. I feel like I can accomplish anything. I feel like YES. It truly is amazing, I always felt this way after bike riding. Who would have thought that I could get so much pleasure from SWEATING. When I'm doing my walk, while I'm doing it, i feel like I cant do this, I'm not gonna make it. When I'm done- it's just WOW. I now actually do look forward to exericise - I m lookin forward being done exercising even more.
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BABIE_JANE 11/17/2008 12:28AM

    I have heard many times, you never regret having done a workout. It is so very true. Do you have music you can listen to while walking? That would take your mind off of thinking you can't do it. Music gets me going! Try it.

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HAD_IT 11/16/2008 2:34PM

    Isn't it amazing when you actually realize that you like the exercising. We don't necessarily like it when we are doing it, but we know we feel oh so much better after we are done. Just wait until for some reason that you can't workout. Any your legs are sore, and cramping up and you wonder why you feel like crap. It's because you aren't exercising. I know you feel like you are going to die. Just be careful. We don't want you to injure yourself. And as long as the doctor has told you that you are fit to exercise, do it within your range. Do what you can do and get it done. You are doing great. Keep up the good work.


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Thursday, November 13, 2008

I got up this morning & it was raining, usually I love the rain. But all I could think was 'damn it raining too hard to go to the track - what the hell am i gonna do now, maybe it will slow down'. I had to laugh at myself, I am usually full of excuses as to why NOT exercise, especially walking. Now I am looking forward to it. Did strengthening yesterday, it recommended not o do back to back. I checked out my new workout DVDs, I realized I'm not quite ready for them. So instead I decided to check out this stepper thing that I found in my dad's basement. It's called 'Body Sculpting Stepper' WOW was that a workout, just the 1st min I was having trouble breathing. I spent almost an hour of sweaty type housework & rearranging. As disappointed as I am about not going to the track, I realize I can find another way to burn those calories. My hubby is just so amazed, cause he knows I aint usually the one, I really hate to sweat. I have to go buy a scale tomorrow to do aweigh in (use to do it @ dr but no more insurance). I'm a little scared cause I know that the scale is NOT my friend, it doesn't always show the truth. So as I sit here listening to the news inform us of more rain, I tell myself YES I can find a way to burn the calories. Yes I can lose this weight. Yes I can be healthy again. YES I CAN, I CAN , I CAN.
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BABIE_JANE 11/14/2008 11:58PM

    emoticonin finding other ways to burn calories. Even if you think you aren't ready for the workout DVDs try putting one in and do just 10 minutes of it. Who knows you might get started and can't stop. Keep going with the positive attitude.

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HAD_IT 11/14/2008 8:26AM


I am so proud of you and your attitude. Personally although I might fight with the scale every now and then. I still find them helpful. Because unlike the mirror or anything else it is something tangible I can see moving or not moving. I try not to concentrate on the number. I concentrate on what I have lost. yes it went down a pound, two pounds. Look wht I have done. I started at 288 and I am now at 197. I did that. Without the scale I wouldn't know I did that. And unlike me looking in the mirror or listening to my family the scale will tell you the truth. It will not spare your feelings, it will be honest with you. That being said I also like having something that tells me my body fat. Because like right now what I am going through, my weight has not moved in two weeks, but my body fat has gone down. I lost 2 lbs of body fat in the last 2 weeks. That's body fat usually moves slower so I know I'm still doing something.

Anyways I am so proud of you. You keep at it. It's amazing how all of a sudden we want that exercise isnt' it. I find it's funny.

You have a good day.

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SNAILSPEED 11/13/2008 11:45PM

    YES U CAN :) Hi there keep up the good work, this is my first day so wish me luck...and if i were u i would leave the scale out of it for a while, just work on trying to feel better first that is my strategy for now anyway. YES WE CAN hehehe

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so so sad

Thursday, November 13, 2008

I feel so disappointed in myself. I keep going over my recommended calorie intake. But I've seriously cut down on what I was eatting. I drink water all day. I walk regardless of how sick I'm feelin or how much pain I'm on. But I just can't seem to stop eatting, I'm not even hungry-I just eat. When I have the money I try to make sure I buy healthy snacks & fruit. I've even cut down on my coffee & didn't even realize it at 1st. How do you change habits that you've had you're entire life. People don't seem to realize how hard this is. My son, I love BUT he sabotages me, maybe he does it without realizing. I didn't eat his ice cream cake, though. It's just so hard to stay motivated when noone seems to understand (although hubby does try). I love salads, fruits, veggies, so why can't I eat right. Why do I keep overeatting. The worst part it's not even depression type eatting any more. I just keep eatting without thinking. Someone offers me food, I take it and eat. I am so truly disgusted with myself.
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JIBBIE49 11/14/2008 9:31PM

    I sound like a broken record, but READ the book "SHRINK YOURSELF" by ROGER GOULD, M.D. as he explains WHY we do this. It is not a "diet" book.

He has interviews on YouTube, so look for him there.

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PEACHES804 11/13/2008 10:00PM

    You are not alone in this habit. That is what eating without a purpose is, a habit and like all habits, hard to break. Hard but not impossible. My daughter-in-law and 4 grandchildren moved in with me along with all there notoriously empty snacks.

I eat out of boredom and with cookies and chips being constantly available, that is what I found myself reaching for. To counter that habit, I find that if I pack my snacks in a bag and only eat what is in the bag, I don't reach for anything else. The bag is just a gift bag about the size of a brown paper lunch bag. If it ain't in the bag, it ain't going in my mouth.

Every night before I go to bed, I pack my bag with enough snacks for the day. I keep instant breakfast mix at work and I toast a mini bagel or a slice of wheat toast for breakfast and eat that and a piece of fruit that I get from . . .my bag. I put a frozen dinner in the bag or I eat at the cafeteria.

An example of some of the things in my bag are, 1 cup frosted mini wheat cereal, 1-2 pieces of fruit, breakfast cookie or nutri grain bar, 100 calorie something. Dinner is whatever my daughter-in-law cooks and then I try to stay with portion control which is not easy because the girl can cook.

You have to figure out what will work for you and stick with it. Also stop betting yourself up. You are human. We joined SP because we all have the same problem, we eat too much and we exercise too little\. Hang in there, you can do it.


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CRAZY4DMB 11/13/2008 9:53PM

    Maga - I know it's hard to focus on the positive changes you've made when you're disappointed in yourself. But look at the progress you've already made - you've cut down on what you're eating, you're drinking your water, you walk no matter how you're feeling.....that sounds like three really positive changes.

I read this quote yesterday - A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.

We've all got a lifelong journey ahead, so be really proud of yourself for the steps you've already taken to become a happier you. Just keep working at it - you can do it! We're all here to support each other. emoticon

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HAD_IT 11/13/2008 7:00AM

    Hey Maga

I know how hard it is. I live with a family, who is all over weight and every time they go to the store they come home with cookies, cakes, and everything under the sun that I, or them, should not be eating. You try to stay motivated but it's really hard with all these temptations around. My best advise is two fold. And even those can be difficult.

1 -- Find something to keep you busy. If you find you usually are sitting in from of the tv when you snack start knitting, doing a crossword, anything to keep your hands busy so you aren't likely to snack. I bought a laptop and I find since I've been sitting playing with it at night I am less likely to sit here thinking I'm hungry and want to shove something in my mouth. So what it comes down to is just keep busy. If you can when that urge strikes do some exercises, go for a walk., something.

2 -- find what motivates you. Why do you want to get fit and healthy? When someone offers you a piece of cake, or a chip, or whatever ask yourself will this get me healthy, will this make me the person I want to be, will this get me _______________? Sometimes this will be difficult because you will be like while one cookie won't hurt. It's no that big a deal. Just think for every 3 oreo cookies you eat, you need to do 50 more minutes of walking. this is on top of what you need to do daily anyways. Are those three cookies really worth all that extra time. And who really stops at 3 cookies.

I know this is tough, but you need to start thinking about you. It's difficult, it's hard, sometimes you just want to through up your hands and say forget it. But you need to remember you are worth it. You are worthy of this success. Just start moving and you will find it starts to get easier. Make sure you are writing a journal. It helps. It gives you something to look back at, to see where you u went wrong, and what good choices you made. Review it so you can tell your self and be prepared for problems. I'm going to Sues house, there is going to be cake and I need to be strong. You need to be strong. You need and want to be able to take care of your family and if you are healthy and strong you can do that a lot easier.

I've written a novel now -- sorry for that-- but I so know how you feel. I have been there and I still am a lot of days, but it's a daily battle, one I have decides to challenge and win. Please come with me, please be strong, and if you fall I'll be right there to help pick you up.

Take it a day at a time. So your mission today. No junk food. Not even a bit. I challenge you to no junk food. Can you do it? It's only 24 hours, and I think you can.


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