MAGA99   153,322
150,000-199,999 SparkPoints
MAGA99's Recent Blog Entries

99/365 My Salvation

Monday, September 23, 2013

I m so thankful for Sparkpeople. I m Blessed 2 have all of my spark friends in my life.

When I m feeling overwhelmed.
When I m feeling lost.
When I m feeling like things r hopeless.

I know that all I need to do is come to Spark & I m Blessed w more support then I can believe


  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

BEEJAY49 9/23/2013 6:05PM

    No, thank YOU! :) Thank you for NOT giving up, thank you for keeping in touch, thank you for trusting us with your feelings, thank you for being my Spark sister! :) Love you! HUGS!

Report Inappropriate Comment

98/365 I m Trying

Sunday, September 22, 2013

I m trying really hard not 2 fall in2 the dark hole of despair
health seems 2 b deteriating again
especially my mental health
then the physical health
followed my the emotional health
but hey @ least I havent totally given up yet

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

THRIVE2DAY 9/23/2013 7:08AM

    Don't give up at all. Don't let those thoughts win. You are a precious child of God and He loves you. He's with you always. Turn to Him in your hour of need. Seek and you will find. Knock and it shall be opened to you. Ask and you shall receive. God bless you my dear. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
BEEJAY49 9/23/2013 4:28AM

    Given up "yet"? Don't give up at ALL! We are here for you, all you need to do is mail us and let us know how we can help you. Even if it's only to vent. We're in your life for a reason, so use us for anything. I love you! HUGS!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONBEACHSIDE 9/22/2013 9:03PM

    You are doing well communicating. This is probably helping you not to fall completely into the hole. Please though, do not hesitate to go to the emergency room if both the pain and the mental state is getting out of hand. I may be wrong, but I am guessing it would be against your faith and a final deed is truly final. I wish you well in your healing ASAP. PM if you want to talk in private.


Report Inappropriate Comment

97/365 Insurance

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

It really sucks having to have medicaid. I know I m blessed to have medical coverage BUT it is really irritating that it takes 4ever 2 get referrals approved. I have been waiting 4 what seems like 4ever. I m still waiting 4 the approval 2 go c the neuro surgeon. This is the 2nd time that a referral has been put in 4 me. Its frustrating as I m in constant pain.

I m still working out w the trainer its alot of the stuff I would do in PT. I m gong 2 get thru this but 2 times it is just so hard

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SNOWYOGA 9/17/2013 9:29PM

    I'm sorry about all the trouble, but hope that it gets straightened out soon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TRYINGTOLOSE64 9/17/2013 7:33PM

    Be glad you have coverage. I can't get coverage.

Report Inappropriate Comment


Tuesday, September 17, 2013

I m bipolar manic depressive and suffer from PTSD

Presently I m going thru a rough patch right now w all 3 of them; I go from wanting 2 sleep all the time to not being able 2 sleep @ all; sometimes I aint sure if things really happened or if I dreamed about it; avoidance has become my way of dealing w things

It's been a little over 8 yrs since my mother passed on
It's been about 2 yrs since my last suicide attempt
It's been almost a yr since my denial 4 disability

I HATE THERAPY - I know it is helping but it rough dealing w my feeling n dealing w the past

emoticon emoticon emoticon

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

BEEJAY49 9/17/2013 5:44PM

    That is a lot of stuff to deal with. Keep with your therapy and take one day at a time. We all love you and you are in my prayers! HUGS!

Report Inappropriate Comment

95/365 WHEN

Wednesday, September 11, 2013


WHEN - will I not feel sick

WHEN - when will I not b in pain

WHEN - will eating right get easier

WHEN - will exercising b easier

WHEN - will the depression stay away

WHEN - will I finally b able 2 except my past 4 just that THE PAST

WHEN - will I stop feeling sorry 4 myself


  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SNOWYOGA 9/11/2013 6:36PM

    I understand, there with you emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment

First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 112 113 114 115 116 117 118 119 120 121 122 123 124 125 126 127 Last Page