31/365 UG

Friday, February 01, 2013

Been kind of a busy day. So just a quick blog before going to bed. I am REALLY tired so prayerfully that mean sleep n since I dont have to get up @ 6 am; even if I m up and down thru the night I can get an extra hr or 2 in the am.

Been doing pretty good with staying on target with my food and exercise. I just really need to focus on SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEP. If I dont get sleep tonight I am gonna have to give in and take a sleeping pill - i jsut hate the way they make me feel in the am.

Well later my friends.

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30/365 Sleep

Thursday, January 31, 2013

This it the hardest thing for me - SLEEP.

I wake up during the night to go to the bathroom - - - so I try not to drink too much after 7

I wake up in pain - - - so I been sleeping on the couch (it helps to elevate my legs & back)

I wake up w arm numb - - - I try to use the pillows to hold my neck right

Some nights like last night are really bad. I slept on the couch; on the floor; on the bed; on the love seat and then back onto the floor.

Prayerfully the paperwork is correct and my insurance is being process dont understand why 45 days but @ least the process is started. Then once its all started I can work on getting my follow up test done and see what can be done for the continual pain where I had the spinal fusion and for the nerve issues in my neck.

Well night all and may sleep and I get along tonight

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29/365 Food Labels

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Today was our mthy nutrition class as part of win some lose some competition. We discussed serving size which ironically is what I've been working on with my hubby.

Now I have to work on reading the first 3 ingredients; to start eating less of certain things or to completely eliminate them from my daily intake.

It is hard to believe that all my life I was over eating; even when I was skinny. I am learning to eat smaller portions and to have healthier foods in the house.

I think that if my family would have read more label when I was younger mayb me n them would all have been more healthier.

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28/365 Spark Motivator

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

As some of you know on Sunday I was informed that I m a spark motivator. Totally shocked me - I m truly humbled by this.
I just wonder how can I b a motivator to others when I cant even motivate myself half the time.

For those of you who voted for me thank you and God bless; apparently u c something I don't.

Still having sleeping issues; but I m trying to work on it. I found out today that I should have insurance by about March 13th.

I have decided that I really need to up my workout minutes; I've really easing up on it since I got sick. Other then having to rework out my neck n lower back - I have seem to have fully recovered from being sick. I just need to work back up to what I was doing.

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27/365 The Past & Future Me

Monday, January 28, 2013

If I could go back in time and give advice to myself I wouldn't,
As much as I've been thru the molestation as a child; being raped as a teen; having my children young; the domestic violence from my first marriage (including being held hostage n him trying to kill me) and then there is ALL of the health issues. No I wouldn't go back to give advice or to change anything. You may think I'm crazy (well I m a little bit but not cause of this) BUT seriously if anything changed even in the way I think - it would change who I am today.

I M A SURVIVOR - I M STRONG - I M ME

Now as to the future me (thanx to my friend Pixie) I periodically send my future self a letter; it helps to remind me how far I've come. www.futureme.org/

I have a long way go in my journey BUT I think I've already learned my most valuable lesson HONESTY. To move forward in life to really move forward in life I have to be honest. Honest about who I am & why I m the way I m & about who I want to be.

I aint no junk CAUSE GOD DONT MAKE NO JUNK

I needed to do a dream board; never been good @ these. As much as I love my crafts dream boards n motivational type boards are my downfall. Then I realized I was just thinking too much; my dream board is real easy - its just pictures. Pictures of my family blood as well as others. So hanging in my home there are 2 picture frame collages - pictures of happy times. My dream is for my love ones to be happy.

What will change when I reach my goals - NOTHING. Cause this journey will never end; this is my life. Well there will be one change I will be physically more healthy. I dont want to be skinny I just want to be healthy



1) Why - to get healthy n watch my grands grow up especially the one that I m raising
2) to be able to take care of myself w assistance ( dress myself )
3) I need to contiually push myslef to do things that are difficult; even if it means finding new or different ways
I schedule my gym time; so that it gets done
shop more often to have healhtier n fresher foods
I also pre cook most of my meals; a crock pot of soup evey weekend;
when I lose 20 lbs - lighten my hair
when I lose 50 lbs mani/pedi;
when I lose 75 lbs ? when I lose 100 lbs ?
4) action plan done

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