Wednesday, January 22, 2014
This was completely copied from my Sparkfriend, Amy. I figured, if she can put herself out there, so could I. I enjoyed learning more about her, so I'm hoping all y'all enjoy learning more about me. Before reading this, please note that I find sharing about myself to be incredibly difficult... That said:
A is for Age:
B is for Booze:
C is for Car:
Dodge Mini-van - out of necessity; sizewise the family just won't fit into a little sports number...
D is for Dad's name:
Kerry - lost to heart disease almost 19 years ago.
E is for Ego:
F is for Favorite song or music:
Almost anything but I'm a sucker for Neil Diamond
G is for Goof off thing to do:
Unfortunately, Candy Crush... need I say more??
H is for Hometown:
Born and remain in Mt. Pleasant Pennsylvania
I is for IQ:
rather not say... to many critics and judges out there ;)
J is for Jam or Jelly you like:
Homemade mixed berry freezer jam - not too sweet, just right
K is for Kids:
5 boys - 13, 12, 10, 10, and 3 (the 2nd and 3rd in the line-up were adopted)
L is for Living arrangement:
Small farmhouse on some acrage
M is for Mom's name:
N is for Name of best friend:
O is for Observations:
Life is too short to get upset over the little things. Too much drama. Not enough compromise.
P is for Phobias:
stepping out of my own bubble - I'd prefer to be a fly on the wall watching but not being noticed.
Q is for Quote you like:
"Lighten up" - my dad. He meant don't sweat the small stuff but it seems to apply to so much in my life.
R is for Relationship:
Started dating in 1991 (high school sweetheart) and married 14 years
S is for Siblings:
younger brother and younger sister
T is for Talent:
besides eating?? knitting, crafts, cooking, baking (not sure I'm talented in these areas but I enjoy doing them, lol)
U is for Unique trait:
freckles in the summer
V is for vegetable you love:
W is for Worst traits:
X- is for X-rays you've had:
Lots of chest x-rays over the years... spine, foot, wrist
Y is for Yummy food you make:
Z is for Zodiac sign:
So now its YOUR turn! Post this! I want to read more and know more about you!
Monday, October 07, 2013
I was asked to share the blog that inspired me to think about food addiction. Brad's blog was posted shortly after I began dealing with a close family member and substance abuse issues. The timing of it all just got my brain thinking...
Here's the link (if I did this correctly!!)...
If it didn't work, let me apologize in advance... I've never done this before, lol!!
Monday, October 07, 2013
First, a HUGE thank you to all of you who continue to support me, despite MY lack of effort. Without it, I think I'd be throwing in the towel, as I have every other time... But I am accountable to the my Spark Friends, even if I struggle to hold myself accountable... As a result - week 4 blog... another mismatched conglomeration of babbling that hopefully makes sense to others and doesn't confuse anyone to terribly.
I'm almost too embarrassed to write today. Last week was the worst week I've had in ages. Not just because of the situations that pop up or the typical daily chaos of raising 5 boys... No, this week's flop was all me. I chose every morsel that went into my mouth. I chose to forgo the exercise. In essence, I CHOSE for things to stay just the way they are... which today, I can only describe as sluggish and sloth-like. Oh and gluttonous... That's a good description, too. But, I cannot dwell... lest I continue to be sucked into the vat of negativity that I've lived in for so long.
So, last week I shared that we were dealing with some family problems. While the issue in question is not in my household and does not directly impact our home, it remains a concern and weighs heavily on my mind. I've been spending a lot of time thinking about substance abuse this week... I cannot imagine being addicted to a chemical substance to the point that it drives every choice in every moment of my day. I have an addiction to caffeine... trust me, you don't want to talk to me without my first morning cup. However, have I gone a day without? Certainly. And did it kill me? Certainly not (although I was a bit cranky...). Drug addiction (and yes, I realize caffeine is technically a drug but in the big picture of the world... ), however, drives a person mentally and physically crazy. Hmm... connection?
A friend's blog last week got me thinking... between our family's recent interfacing with the world of addiction and my friend's blog about food addiction, I've had a lot going on in my head. I've heard others talking about food addiction. For years. Friends. TV. Continuing education articles. Clients. Spark articles. How is it that I never contemplated this with regard to myself?? Like, am I dumb? Seriously!
So, how does one quit an addiction. Cold turkey, of course. "Simply" stop using the substance in question. So, you quit smoking. Great, TONS of healthy benefits and you CAN live without nicotine. Let's say it's alcohol. You withdrawal from it and there are tons of health benefits. And you CAN live without ever taking another sip of the stuff. Pain killers - same thing. Withdrawal and done (although it does create future issues with pain management abilities...) yet you CAN live without the stuff. But then there's food. A person addicted to eating cannot simply stop eating. Or they would die. So the food addict is forced to face temptation on a daily basis and not "just say no" but rather painstakingly choose which component of their "substance" to partake for the purposes of nutrition. Dare I compare the concept of chemical addiction with food addiction?
I cannot allow myself to feel sorry for myself. I chose my activities (or lack thereof) for every day last week. Today, I must try to make better decisions. My goals remain the same. Yet I must add an additional task... as I fell backwards in my dietary choices this week, too...
Week 4 Goal: Four twenty minute workout sessions of varying intensity and activity with appropriately balanced food intake (tracked).
It's a new week Sparkies! Let's make the most of it!!
Monday, September 30, 2013
This week's blog is a tough one to write. I really want this blog project to be positive. The big picture in this is for me to be in a more positive frame of mind. I'll try but please recognize that I've just come off of a really bad weekend due to a situation which is not yet over...
Last week started off pretty well. I was able to track and balance food proportions pretty well, until Thursday at which point I decided that food was just too tempting. The sad part of it was that I did think about it before I ate those late night goodies... choices made... I didn't get the workouts in either.
Thursday afternoon, I had a doctors appointment. I was somewhat excited about it because I hadn't been doing too badly and I anticipated a much more positive report from the doc. I was rather slammed when he said some of my numbers were significantly WORSE than before I even started dieting two years ago. Umm... what the heck????? He spent over an hour with me discussing changes to make. While I was pretty ticked off about the results, I feel that he helped me create a plan.
Family crisis interrupted the latter part of the week and weekend. Without going into specific details, my cousin who has been living with our grandmother had a relapse into substance abuse and has taken advantage of Grandma and other family members. The situation was so significant that I had to remove her from the home, essentially making her homeless, as well as turn things over to the authorities. It is a terrible situation that has been time intensive. I do think that the situation, while it continues to be concerning and some time will be required of me, will not be as time consuming during the next few weeks.
Previous thought process again would have been to verbally assault myself for my inability to make things happen. But that's not who I want to be anymore. Must take a different approach. So, new thought is that this gives me yet another chance to meet my short term goal of at least four 20 minute workouts during the week... Four workouts which must include varied activity, intensity, and calorie burn. I think I have it this time. After last week, this one has to be better! I have a plan. Not too tough, right?? Third time's a charm, lol!
Monday, September 23, 2013
I got such a positive response from last weeks blog that I was completely overwhelmed by it. It was amazing. And despite the lack of successes last week, I know that it is DEFINITELY helping me to see the big picture. So, I thank you all for the amazing outpouring of support.
I promised a weekly blog. And, with the overflow of responses feel like I need to produce an amazing piece of literary works... well my friends, I don't believe this will be it, lol. It will most likely end up a confusing, rambling mess, as I sit at my kitchen table trying to focus on twelve things at once (it's time for kids to get ready for school - aka circus chaos). As such, please don't make fun of incomplete thoughts or poor grammar (which could be a given at any moment of the day). But my thoughts are genuine.
I can't say it's been a great week. My goal was to get in four 20 minute workouts. I met my weekly goal by exactly 50%. Started out with a bang and then fizzled. Something else always took priority of my time.
So my normal way of thinking in that is that it is a total flop. 50% is complete failure. It is embarrassing.
The old way would be to simply not post this blog, fading away because who would notice that it isn't there... But despite the weekly goal failure, I am committed to the bigger picture. So, I now will admit to all that I didn't meet my goal (rather than saying, I am a failure for not managing time better) and will try again this week. I can say, "at least I did get two workouts in because one year ago, even that would not have happened." I could whine about the two disasterous restaurant meal choices I made this week but instead I'll focus on the remainder of the week being on target food-wise (including a birthday party...). Trying to reframe my line of thinking (when I'm talking about me) into a positive certainly isn't easy. But I am committed.
Week 2 Goal: Four 20 minute workouts at a minimum (repeated from last week).
Who's with me? Ready. Set. Go!
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